Tips to mastering self-entertainment

1) Be curious about everything:
-Bite the plastic bag.
-Bite wires
-Bite strings
-Bite towels
-Bite ropes
-Bite soft toys
-Bite newspapers
-Bite human hands n feet
-Bite each moving object
-ahhhh, heck, jus bite everything u can sink ur teeth in.


2) Pester one's master slave:
-Wake him up at unearthly hrs in e night
-Whine nonstop about lack of food
-Dig sand everywhere
-Bite him ----> (point 1)
-Step over him when sleeping
-> Aim his face n throat
-Run up n down e living room n any empty space
-Climb to the highest restricted area you can find.
-> The more restricted, the better the result.
-Take his chair so that your slave does not have a place of rest
->Sleep on it if possible
-Hog his bag and bite it
-Claw your way up shorts to get to that juicy length of drawstring rope

3)Explore places you've never been before
-Behind the refridgerator
-Behind the washing machine n dryer
-Behind the TV
-Up on the dining table
-> Aim for e food if any
-Inside carton boxes
-Inside plastic bags
-Under the bed
-Behind the computer
-The world beyond 'The Door'

4) Chase your own tail

Today's Today

Checklist for 060809:
go to sch for lecture? Checked.
eat tat Chicken O'? Checked.
go gym? Checked.
eat roti john? Checked.
get swarmed over msn? Checked.
check mails? Checked.
head over to JB alone? Checked.
bought supper? Checked.
left key in bike while getting supper? Checked.
didnt realize it til i got back to bike? Checked.
bike stolen? Unchecked.
lost my way coz they cordoned off this stupid area under e highway? Checked.
went to a detour to n fro along e highway finding an exit to U-turn? Checked.
heck-cared bout e red lights? Checked.
did illegal turns here n there? Checked.
found new Shell tat requires u to pay b4 u top-up? Checked.
was wondering how much i'll noe to top-up? Checked.
found out tat 15RM didnt fill much? Checked.
scurried up n down along e highway again to find e usual exit? Checked.
made my way to e old Shell to top up 5RM more? Checked.
paid? Checked.
unexpectedly confirmed tat i had 1RM more? Checked.
realized there was enough space for ard 1RM more of petrol? Checked.
rode thru e race circuit-like bends n almost-U-turns over e causeway? Checked.
forgot to take off helmet at SG checkpt? Checked.
went into Goods Declaration Bay for cars? Checked.
detoured to e one for bikes? Checked.
finally made my way home? Checked.
type this disturbingly long post? Checked.
eat supper n bathe? Unchecked.

phew, wat an eventful day.

little changes in our game

wat a foggy day it is.
somehow it looks abit like genting to me.
anw, it's jus a few days left to enjoy e bliss of hols b4 all academic turmoil starts to tumble in n pervade our sentient minds.
but off to sch i go yet again.

I DUN CARE!
im sleeping with my wet hair no matter wat!

not a wink

n no, i didnt hav any sleep at all.
was something bothering me??
wat could b on my mind?
or was it coz of e late nights?
i jus hope it's e latter.

7

phew, long long long nights again.
like i said, i've been sleeping at 9am n 7am for e past 2 nights.
1 thing is tat i tried out Windows 7 Ultimate aft my bro bought it from JB.
nxt is tat i tried, for e umpteenth time to fix tat 'dead' tv tuner in my com.

oh well, i had e high hope of my touchscreen PC to function MUCH MUCH better with win 7 since it had better touch capabilities.
i was thinking of multi touch, like those on e iPhone/iTouch.
it was promisable!
it happened!

but not on my version of HP Touchsmart.
zzz.
only e newer versions get to enjoy such thrills.
stupid NextDriver, creating only drivers for mine which r incompatible with win 7.

anw, woke at ard 230pm on tues aft a loong gruelling "(dunno how many hrs) of waiting for 7 to install.
had to research e pros n cons of installing b4 actually getting down to it.
but aft 7 was done.
it looked marvellous!
remem Vista Ultimate allowed for Videos as desktop wallpapers?
this time 7 ultimate allows for a slideshow!
n has new operating sounds to boot!
chimes or funky tunes now available.

but i had to tweak n reinstall drivers etc.
esp tat audio splitter tat allowed for a 5.1 system. ^^

but all in all, i like this new OS.
faster den vista!
ok mayb jus a bit.
but well, arent things nice for a change?
only con is tat it hangs more often now.
seems like theres some discontinuity for my PC since certain inbuilt HP programs cant work with 7.
but well, things r getting better.

5.1 audio is jus so pleasant to e ears. =]


woke at 230pm with e thought of going swimming while e sun was hot.
(i havent done any swimming with e sun in e sky for mths!)
n gym too!
but aft delays from fried rice (YAAAARrrMM)
n petting kitty.
finally reach sch to return keys, draw keys, book rooms etc b4 heading to e overcrowded swimming pool where Student Union n Sports Club FOC were having their activities!
booked from 830 to 5pm!
zzzzzz
im NOT swimming in a pool tat has been overcrowded.
n i dun hav a hot bod like them, im shy! ><

so i headed for a gym from 4 toil 5 where i ran 2.4 on e treadmill at about 11mins i think.
a large amt of time was spent walking for warmup so i didnt noe how long i took oso.
did more stretching b4 its time to hit e metal!
n now my abdomen's so sour!
arms n legs too!
den i had this crazy idea aft gym.
i left my bags n bike back at e studio b4 walking to Macs at North Spine to buy dinner!
n it took me bout 45 mins to travel there, buy, and walk back.
now im appreciating my bike more!
yeah, so much time to spare, wat else to do.
so aft dinner i jus slept while waiting for ppl to come in.
n amazingly, long-time-no-seen ppl like Jeremy n Jane arrived!

n even Leyi, our long long ago senior.
haha.
ok lar, honestly even if no one arrived, i wouldnt sleep all e way.
i'll jus b bored tat there'll b no one else. tats all.
but yeap, i was struck in e back of my head when e msg tat my basics were deteriorating fell upon my ears.
i felt useless.
all those mths n i developed bad habits le.
for sure, irritation n frustration came fleeting by.
lost much confidence there too.
but yeah, most of e time, i feel REALLY stagnant.
or on a downhill.
i always come to think tat my partner is slowly becoming better n better but as for me, im not improving.
this gave me another strike on e back of my head.
i feel like a letdown.
i feel like im pulling her down when she could be much more den she could be.
discouragement persists...

but no, im gonna hav to prac harder, try harder n make sure i wun fall into e pits!
no matter how egoistic i may appear to be, i wanna b on par.
i dun wanna fall behind!
well, at least i dun wanna b a wet blanket.
but yeah, its jus so hard to overcome e physical barrier.
it takes lots n lots of drilling since i hav no talent in it.
(while for others, it seems all so natural for them. at times, im jealous.)
wat to do now when expectations r higher for us now tat we're at this junction n we cant meet up to them?
but perhaps have we been comparing with e wrong ppl?
nah i guess not.
since e ones we were comparing to were ourselves.
we still havent surpassed ourselves.


i wun deny it,
im weak.
im only a nobody who is dependable on my Lord to give me strength.
all blessings are from Him.
but sometimes i still cant shake off tat feeling tat my strength is not enough to overcome obtacles i face.
it feels, pitiful. (n definitely weak)
wat a clingy n bothering feel it is.

sometimes it's so disheartening to noe tat u've put in effort but e results dun show it.
im not usually a pessimist but sometimes my intuition tells me jus tat.
it shows me a downhill path frm henceforth.
more discouragement arises.


or perhaps im jus thinking too much now tat my brain is at rest from my studies.
yeah i think i am.
zzzzz.
it pays to be free sometimes.




anw, i had a great dinner aft Pop&Lock this aftnoon.
had to go down to Alexandra to collect my road tax n insurance from e bike shop there.
phew!
i made it in time!
it closed jus 25mins aft patronising them.
anw, met up with Wil, supposedly to go bike surveying, but since e shops closed, we still met up for dinner.
well, his supposed BS meeting was cancelled since everyone kinda disappeared n was uncontactable.
we ate Poached Salmon at Ikea!
it was fabulous!
totally loved e sauce topping tat enveloped e fish.
n wats more, free flow of drinks!
wheeee~!

yeah, aft tat i headed down to SnG at bugis aft stressing myself out on thinking of a way to reach there frm where i was.
yes, i forgot bout AYE(ECP).
i was sooooo worried tat i'll b late n reach aft e stipulated time of 9pm, but thank God tat e OIC, Freddy (we call him Uncle Freddy), was later den me!
*breathes*
had a long briefing (or rather, lots of sidetracking bout e purposes of doing wateva we're doing now. like "y do we study" etc. not forgetting e frequent flirting with e 3 young poly girls who equally taunted him [ok mayb only 1 of them did])
n we ended our talk at 1040pm.
hung ard abit more to check up on Mario and his sleekness
(yes serene, stop swooning over it, wipe ur drool)
b4 saying my goodbyes n making my way back home to prepare for tml's conference and IPPT.
n kitty has a new nick from my frens: FatalisCat
he scratches, he bites, he doesnt tailswipe but he's deadly. and FAST!

better treasure my sleep while i can.
no more tweaking of windows 7 tonight!
might want to do a fresh install if possible
but tat might mean i'll hav to backup EVERYTHING!
now, where can i find space to do tat?
hmmmm.
oh well, ship reach bridge head, naturally straight.
shall let e things of the morrow worry for itself.
'Take therefore no thought for the morrow: for the morrow shall take thought for the things of itself. Sufficient unto the day is the evil thereof. -Matt 6:34'
(n yes! my torrent is picking up speed aft being stagnant at 0 - 0.2kb/s for weeks!)
hip hip hooray!
(hip's better this week too ^^)

it's been so long since i last ran in e drizzle.
e refreshing drops of rain quicken me to pick up my pace, yet urging me to stay in this race.
e park route ard zhenghua is finally open!
aft 2 mths of construction n rebuilding.
it's e usual place where i can get my imagination running wild.
shadows all ard me,
e faint glimmer of e lamp rays,
coupled with e fallen huge leaves on e pathway lead me to interpret those shapes on the floor.
could it be a rat? a kitten? junk? litter? or jus another fallen leaf?

all ard the estates n past e 7-11s and Macs which led me craving for savoury foodstuf.
as my legs kept moving, my stomach was craving.
MUSHROOM SWISS DOUBLE!
n later a 2nd crave:
CARL'S JR.!

if i had all e money in e world, i'd eat Carl's til i'd b sick of it!

had a Vitasoy aft my run. I finally carried some cash with me for runs!
only a dollar for a drink.
but i was greedy.
i wanted a tube of popsicle too!
but too bad Vitasoy was worth exactly a dollar.
zzz.

but i was nvr in time for e local neighbourhood mamashop to b open during my previous runs.
this time i started out earlier at ard 10+ n ended run at 12am.
phew phew.

n e loooong workouts tat came aft left me begging for more Vitasoy.
i scrimped each n every drop of juice in my mouth.
taking sips n not gulping it down.
n i realized tat as i did my situps or any other workout,
i'd b under this tree with a huge wide canopy tat extended to e far ends of e exercise corner.
remem e talks about trees and nitefall n 'dun look up'?
haha, i think i did 100 situps in total.
bleah.
ahhh well, i did most of my exercises facing e tree trunk.
BAH.

n now tat im home,
i'll have to plan out tml's activities.
wake up, hopefully get a Big Mac Meal in sch b4 collecting e keys to e dance studio while returning e seminar room 1 key and book more slots for friday practices.
(hmmmm, shdnt fridays be held at Hall 13 when sch starts instead?)
n book e studio/sem room specially for ex-pres CY on thurs night.

den go for a swim!
or gym 1st?
ok mayb gym 1st, den i relak in e pool while swimming n tanning. =]
all e way til dinnertime.
i bet im gonna eat alone this time.
everyone seems to be away again.
but oh wells, who cares?
i can eat at my own pace.
a VERY VERY slow pace.
hhahaa.

k, it's 310 now. i better b off to bed.
kitty's been transferred to sis room.
FINALLY.
gotta let her noe how hard it is to stay asleep in e mid of e night while he runs n jumps n whines with every big movement tat u make.
seems like she hasnt stepped out of her room since she stayed inside.
usually she would go to e loo every half to 1 hr.
but i guess not this nite!

n yes, i still crave mushroom swiss.
CHEEEEEEEEEEESSEEE...

3 more bloodied scratches since fri.
kitty has now learnt to climb up my hi-fi n onto e dining table.
dangerous dangerous!
tats where e iron is kept too!
i wonder how long more i can keep him from it.
necessary punishments hav alr been meted out.
n now he's afraid to enter e kitchen!
yayness.
nxt is my mom's room n den e dining table.
thank God i live on e 19th storey. *winks*


oh n on sat, me travelled to n fro.
from home, rode to haw par, parked there n met frens at suntec, den went back to haw par for Hello Kitty's 21st party.
had a wonderful time fulfiling camwhore needs of my fellow frens.
took like ard 216 pics in total...

n today im supposed to go sch to swim gym n n most imptly to return e Seminar room 1 key,
but e weather forbids me to.
IPPT's on thurs n i havent really trained for it.
can only bank on my jog tonight.
n gym tml.
oh wells, slack time for me now!
e slackier e better.
in time to come, i'll get so sick of being slack n hopefully chiong when nxt sem arrives.
but den, who would ever get sick of 'heaven' and wish for 'hell' instead?

feels so nice to feel pissed again

GREAT!
i spent another 500 for bike insurance and road tax.
oh well, wat to do.
it's this time of e yr again.
i believe i whined alot last yr too!
sry tie.

but oh wells,
it's worth saving up all those time lost thru travelling to n fro.

n yep, i managed to wakeup in time thanks to qy. =]
got my keys, booked rooms, n rushed down to bukit batok VICOM for a quick inspection.
im amazed i passed without 1st 'consulting' e bike shop jus opp to rectify any non-passable conditions, esp Carbon monoxide issues if any.
phew phew.
thank God i went to service my bike n mSia few nights ago!

biked down later to alexandra area to fork out tat $500 to e bike shop.
n back to sch for me.
all in time to open up at 630pm with nary a soul in sight.

stoned for ard half hour while listening to e charismatics nxt door n their speaking in tongues.
boring friday it is without everyone else.
could hav jus sat there all night long.
sitting around, all night long.

thankfully Mr Ivan popped by!
if not perhaps i'd jus have slept in e room.

n argh, im supposed to sleep like 3hrs ago!
wat am i doing online now?
gosh.

poor me, kitty pushed me away when i tried to kiss him. bleah.

gd morning world!
phew, i haven sleep a wink yet.
fingers havng slight burns from soldering plastic on my bike.
or rather, 'stitching' up my bike with a bottle of 100 plus.
am currently feeling very very very faint from inhaling all e toxic fumes 1 would get from burning plastic and lack of sleep at this hr. but still, a sense of achievement is achieved. although some stitches kinda cracked abit but overall it looks nicey!
time to find tat unique blue spray paint colour!
i doubt it can even b found since it's custom-made.
either way, im supposed to send it for inspection and to e bike shop a alexandra but i doubt i can even wakeup to get e key from e seminar room later in the aftnoon.
if anyone sees this plea for a wakeup call, pls make sure im up n vrooming by ard 3pm will ya?
if no one sees this den i guess i'll b uber late n e office will close.

bathe n sleep.
no wait,
bathe n coax kitty to sleep.
den i sleep.

@.@
(whirly-eyed; too much fumes)

urgh, im tired.
me jus came back from JB aft servicing my bike for lets say... 350RM?
Full service plus Decarbonising of pipe + new Sproket n Chain + new clutch cable + new battery + new gasket + new piston ring.
n not forgetting topping up of fuel of 13.5RM.
n oso tat Ramly Special Daging burger with cheese n milo for 5.5RM.

phew. im soooooo broke now.
gotta now find some talent tat i hav in order to busk in e streets.

had abit of heat overwhelming me at night but aft some panadol, im pretty much piped down.
thank God for no fever.
phew phew.
ok thursday is gonna b my sleep in day.
hopefully, since i woke up at ard this time 24hrs ago. n n sleeping at this time 24hrs ago.
stupid rain so no partial eclipse viewing at NUS.
gd night world.

Earth Trek

walk walk walk take picture!
hahaha
trekking today was great!
got to take lotsa pics n had lotsa new experiences.
talked to a fam of tourists from Australia too!
Tom n Taryan and their daughter Franchester (Frankie for short).

literally got in touch with Nature too!
n i was silently humming 'This is my Father's world' as i hiked up.
not as much mozzies as i expected,
but ALOT more squirrels!
i was at a point where there were ard 4 to 5 squirrels jus surrounding me!
i was sore afraid of being swarmed by them.
n when i finally reached e summit, e view wasnt as perfect as expected.
surrounded by trees all over.
zzz.
but it was there tat i met e frenly tourists n recommended places to travel to!

aft a long chat with them, we parted ways n i found my way towards e quarry.
for 1 thing,
it was ultra breezy on a sunny aftnoon!
hav a vid of how e trees rattled.
i was again afraid of bugs or ants falling towards my face.
but i enjoyed it for at least 5mins b4 e wind died down.

den i decided to venture thru e fauna green path which took me away from e main paths but into e jungle with yet more steep steps akin to those when i took e harsh yellow path.

for a lil moment i was pondering wat will happen if i allowed ShoeBox to roam free in there.
will he even survive?
will he turn vegetarian?

anw, i pressed on thru more dangerous looking steps n came to many quirly sights!
did i mention i stole a chateh looking seed from e reserve?
hahaha, it twirls in e air gracefully as it falls with a loud thud.
perhaps tats e inspiration from which chatehs came about.

aft snooping ard Bukit Timah Nature Reserve,
i headed to e adjacent park of Hindhede n towards e Singapore quarry.
e view was FASCINATING!!!!
lovely!
i was in awe,
speechless awe.
u shd see it 1st hand!

n there was this swirling pattern on e surface of e pond, littered by leaves n petals.
it looked as if e Milky Way had invaded it.
specks of green n yellow on 1 side of e lake only.
interesting.

n e playground there looks like one from a deserted town.
a town tat one one has visited for yrs.
no one to groom it or even sweep up dead leaves.
felt as if i was transported to another dimension suddenly.
think red skies and black clouds with ashes flying in e wind.
sounds so post-apocalyptic.
in fact, it seems so vivid tat i can visualize it in full HD.

ah well,
this is wat u get when u combine a bored to death indoor male seeking some form of outdoor thrill n excitement.
anw, it's off to bed for me,
gotta wakeup early to go partial solar eclipse viewing!
=]

pics coming up soon on FB!

Orh Luah Fun: No win no lose.


The 2 drunks who were in suspended animation for quite some time.

im more or less getting used to having no sleep at nights.
sometimes even concussing away as if ive been bludgeoned.
kitty's been giving everyone a hard time by biting everyone n oso helping me to keep my mum at bay. ^^

(anw blogger is abit wrecked out now so i cant post pics atm.)
time to buy a battery for my watch or get a new one!
anw, e feeling of the aftermath hasnt set in yet. so i guess im still doing fine if u're asking.

n i jus realized, kitty IS afraid of heights.
well, i nvr really knew til i dangled him out of my 19th storey window.
he gave me shrieks like those in e bathroom.

played with him with ice cubes n made his hair stand on end! haha, e natural way of spiking up without using wax or gel.
now he looks a lil like Sora in lion form.
i still love to molest his paws.
SO SOFT & SQUISHY!
<3

yep, now he's finally piped down n taking an evening nap aft being so hyper in e aftnoon. (or freaked out by me throwin him ard in e air n trying to make him yodel; which I did! YAY)

i crave Hotcakes + Sausage...
jus came back from jogging n kitty bit my toe aft i took out my socks. (err... such a unique delicacy it must hav been)
n he jus sniffed me all over jus b4 i got to e bathe.

countdown of 13hrs left.
hope it's e final one.
it's abit too draggy, both physically n mentally.

anw, im gonna treat myself to a hearty Ice milo float n maggi mee!
yum yum!

while i mix some songs n write short essay.
=]

lack of sleep, feeling lethargic, dementia, unable to think, psycho-motor inefficiency.
all typical signs of wat a typical parent would hav.

for once in my life, this would b e rare few chances where i would partake in a growing organism's nurture and psychological n emotional n physical growth.

all for tat fleeting moment of adoration that one might foster in its early yrs.
oh well, sacrifices r definitely inevitable. yeah, i ever did consider this when i picked him up.
optimism jus ruins everything u noe?
expecting every bad little thing to miraculously turn out well.
another dangerous thought to hav.

but den again, as i scratch its back, it gently purrs n rumbles as it licks my palm thinking its a nipple as it keeps his eyes closed.
it makes me feel so honoured to see him through this stage!
now i now how mothers feel when their babies enter weaning periods.
lovely.

ok, im gonna go give these twin big round eyes more tolerance n love.
time for sleep.

ive become a little daddy...

phew.
wat a heck of a day!
went Red Boxing, Ice Aging and Seafooding aft tat!
its been ages since i've touched crabbies!
sumptuous little dinner!

n yeah, i came home only to find my bed with prints of poop all over it.
wat a prank.
urgh, now to change my bedsheets...

it seems like everbody's getting e bluey saturdays...
wat a torture.

i dreamt i was sniping ppl off this morn.
nope i havent benn playing L4D fo a long time.
n oso ordering a plate Grilled Chicken + Finger Food at this fictitional cafe.
opting oso for fish burgers aft gobbling them down.

n when i woke up, i was welcomed to Sweet n Sour Pork and Choc Fondue...
all on this cooking programme on TV.
and an inviting U-mee on my dining table.
and a SWAT team show involving a team VS 1 single enemy sniper.
woah, tat sniper's GOOD!
...hmmm...

Ripples

im tired, vexed and waned.
i feel like many horses are pulling me apart slowly...
discouragement reigns within.
im jus disgusted at my inability at many things.
i jus cant get things right sometimes.
when things dun go according to my plan or expectations,
some queasy feeling erupts inside me.
irritating too.
irks me...
if only i had e ability to tear it away from me n rip it into pieces.
den again im unable to.
i irritate myself.
how ironic.
urgh

toenails hurt like hell.
hungry but no appetite.

deadlines yet again extended.
time to mark a new day on my calendar.
it's getting tiring and straining.
sigh...

well i guess this is gonna b my not-so-ideal timetable soon.
hopefully it's within my grasp.






its gonna b more hectic.
early morns, late nights,
labs and assignments.
im gonna need to squeeze out every ounce of time i hav.
not forgetting my other commitments.
im gonna need motivation n encouragement.
but 1st,
pls grant me my right to an asylum back at home.

-Father's Day, 21 June '09-
yeah, somehow it always falls on a Sunday.
how weird.
went for Sunset as usual b4 receiving a call frm sis in e midst of service.
wat could b so urgent tat warrants me 3 rejected calls?
lil did i noe tat it was Father's day.
aiya, its not like i oso celebrate it.
of coz i wouldnt even remem it.

we went to e usual yong choon eating house jus down upper bukit timah for dinner.
yeah, its e usual place where we celeb everything.
from bdays to fathers' day.

e unusual stuff tat happened tat night was a shocker!
our family's 1st prayer meeting together.
we all had to say encouraging words to our dad.
urgh...
n ive nvr even talked to my dad.
let alone say something nice.
tough job but still,
had to humble myself to e very core to give a mini speech in chi.
(ungh, my weakest subject somemore)
but im abit glad tat i managed to cross tat 1st hurdle.
felt very drastic in e process.

-Mon, 22 June '09-
went to e new Clementi building where they tore down Macs!
had a GREAT dinner consisting of 14 plates of 99c sushi n sashimi!
played photohunt aft tat.
n guess wat?
during our 1st continue credit, we actually used up all lifelines!!!
time extend, time extend, Clue#1, Clue#2.
n total we only had 4 correct thus far!

clock's ticking away.
"oh shit, oh shit!"
'GAMEOVER'.
zzzzzzzz

but we still had a great time though.
rite, yang?

-Tues, 23 June '09-
headed down to ECP for a photoshoot cycling trip!
e skies, e sand, e sea, e smiles.
many many many random shots of e pretty faces of Nature.
if only i can jus spend an entire morning there painting/drawing/stoning.
how tranquil it would hav been.

chaos

isit me?
or am i thinking too much again?
urgh.
rid me of those thoughts.

if only u knew...

First step, first dance, first heartbeat...Will you dance with me?

jus a quick recap b4 i head to bed.

i just got remotivated to climb up e grades today!
=]
well, at least a Grade C for now.
need a Jive routine!!!!

i've also been taught quite abit today:
-being grounded n all.

but im so light,
if i dun ground enough,
i'll b sent flying away when competitors whack me!
too bad they couldnt give pointers for my routines.
zzz

hopefully, we'll become like Karen n Rianto.
or at least tats wat i hope we can aspire to be!

had a great chat n supper today with karen, rianto, ethan and sukyee til 2am!!!
had been a long time since we ever had something like this.
im pretty surprised tat ethan n sukyee stayed til tat late too!
they normally go back at ard 1am aft hanging out.
n not forgetting tat we left alot earlier from e seminar room.
i think we could hav conversed til 3am if not for e 'summon'er who spoilt e night.
thank God tat e zhi char auntie came out to warn us bout them!
im not so sure if i've gotten a ticket digitally too but at least no physical ones!
phew phew.
hope i wun receive any letters asking me to pay $80 for it!

trying hard to d/l innocent steps now!
cant seem to find it anywhere...
*edit*
d/ling now!
hopefully it'll b done when i wake up tml(sat)!
OST sounds pretty nice though!
gd night world! =]

seems like i've been agitating/irritating/disappointing ppl recently.
gotta watch myself more closely.
zzt.
sry for e crankyness

Will they get there?

teaching ppl how to bike is such fun!
esp when u hav all sorts of parking attendents in all e carparks in e area such tat u'll hav to travel from carpark to carpark jus to evade their watch!
low speeds, slopes, balancing, etc.

but wat appalled me was this MLM seminar i went to coz my dear JJ TKD fren Azman was promoted to some Manager position n was giving a speech.
so i thought, "y not?"
n 1st thing was kids - yes, kids - came screaming e roof off like it was some party at Attica!
blasting out deafening screams of such amazing decibels,
i was wondering if i was even in e right place.
n guess wat,
their company theme song - yes, they hav a company theme song too. wth. - was some old national day song sung by stefanie sun. We Will Get There.
where u see all e top execs with their BMWs, pictures of 3 storey private housings, yachts.
all sung to e tune of a national song.
how haywire can it get?!



Stefanie Sun - We Will Get There

Remember the days, we set out together with faith?
Remember the times, so fine, when we thought that
Nothing could stand in our way?

Then things weren't the same, the life that we knew had to change
We've struggled through, the darkest storms
We thought we couldn't tame

Together we've tried, as we stood side by side
I knew we'd build a new world
A world of hope for ever after

Chorus 1:
Deep in my heart I just know
Right from the start, we will grow
Look where we are, we've come so far
And there's still a long, long way to go

Chorus 2:
With all of my heart, I will care
I'll play my part, I will share
With family and friends, together we'll stand
And in the end, hand in hand
We will get there

So now we begin, working together to win
Believing in trust, it must
Be possible to overcome anything

There's so much to do, there's so much we can contribute
By sharing just a little love
We will start again anew

So why don't we try? If we stand side by side
I know we'll build a new world
A world of hope for ever after

Repeat Chorus 1&2 twice



it felt sooooo unprofessional!
yes, products may b gd,
but e style wasnt.
n i cant believe i sat there for 3 hrs...
with club music blasting thru e stereos with each top exec introduced.
tat was my only 'source' of comfort.
at least i noe im still in this crazy world.

ive oft times dreamt tat i hav my own house.
so tat i will not waddle past stacks of trash not belonging to me.
n be able to safely keep sweets n lollipops in my fridge without it disappearing without a trace tat even dogs cant pick up.
or tat i can safely put a receipt on my desk tat's worth $700 if i claim it, n it gets miraculously blown away with e wind into the bullseye of a trashbin. at least tats wat i hope.
or find tat bloody grasshopper with 2 wheels.
n no one touches my figurines n messes them up into a clump.
n tat i can redocorate my room safely n keep it tidy n devoid of clutter.
n sleep peacefully in e nite without 2 ppl playing maplestory 2 in e same room.
if only.

Be My Baby

Phew, im finally done with it.
it took me much patience to read thru such a thriller as this!
i jus couldnt help but want to get to e ending asap.
yep im impatient.
but Neil Humphreys makes me feel like im watching a 9mth actual documentary all squeezed into a few hours!
wherewith i would, if possible, skip all e other pages n turn to e last entry n jump into e scene painted for me.
but i reckon i would receive a smack on e head by a certain someone.
wat a wonderful creation, as i would describe it.
a total must-have for fathers-to-be and aspiring fathers.
makes me look forward to my own personal adventure yrs down e road!

going for 2nd round of bee hoon.
its been a while since mom cooked.
n get myself a cup of ice milo latte!

a one way ticket to the blues

YESH.
i am going to bed now. n really hope today's fainting spells disappear with it.
im like getting the best of both worlds here.
pretty ironic i noe, but i hav no other description other den 'both tired n sufficiently slept'.
hopefully this time my sleeping pangs wun appear.
n tat i'll hav a long undisturbed rest,
if only i had my own coffin six feet under.
(n a couple of earplugs n aircon)

n yes, if i had e means, i'd definitely get more shirts for sure.
n learn how to unbore ppl.
n probably get rid of e irritating pic on this page soon.
it urks me to see tat emo pic everytime.
need inspiration n time n nimble hands.
Black n white is there to stay.
but wats e new colour to make my day?

insomnimax

yep, the cheque's finally in!
$500.00!!
wooootz~
too bad it's not totally for me to bank it in.
but still, it shd keep me alive for a few more days!

sleep has been avoiding me recently.
somehow. jus somehow,
no matter how hard i try to sleep,
i always end up sleeping later n waking earlier den expected.
ahhh, e plights of a light-sleeper?
perhaps i'll b better off a watchdog. lol
i think i've effectively slept for approx 4 hrs these 2 days even though ive been in e sleeping posture for 9hrs.
n yeah, i jus woke up from a supposed sleep from 930pm to next morn.
turned out tat sleep evolved into naps instead.
zzz.

someone force alcohol down my throat or whack me with a metal bar pls.

woah, semi crazy day jus ended!
cabbed from city hall to Flyer jus to eat popeyes!
n did some scenery shots!
haha i love e samba songs in e toilet as i whiled my time away. hee
did some whisks in front of e mirror as well!
argh, i miss samba. wish someone would teach me more.
tats like my thorn in e flesh!
tats like e only dance i cant fully grasp.
n i feeel so jealous when i see others able to dance it so nicely
gotta prac more gotta prac more!
n YESH!
lockin's back in da season!
not forgetting e ScoobyDoo! wheeeee~

Fresno's are challenging.
been secretly practising on buses, MRTs n erm busstops. ooops =X

i simply love e cutting of topshop shirts!
if only theres enough funds to start a Jon makeover too!
i'd love to get those funky red shirts!
n e caps n hats too!
n i nvr knew Mango sold business suits!
how odd.

n i still cant believe we actually did TAT!
haha.
oh my oh my so crazy!

oh n dun forget,
Angels and Demons is jus fiction,
so pls do not believe e story at all!
its all made up.

ate at waraku aft tat.
n am super duper uber full!
felt as if my stomach was about to explode into a gazillion pieces!
sooo sooo sooo much seefood...
scary.

n everyone jus cant get enough of Loco Roco and Patapon!
wheee~
PSP FTW! =P

hols are for getting in touch with my right brain

music.
dance.
fine arts.
my aesthetics are being honed recently.
wat a big change from my usual curriculum.
wat a busy break this is.

down eventful memoribilia lane

call me crazy!
call me nuts!
but i jus did a whooping exactly 2hr jog!!!!
effectively, e dist i jogged could stretch from bukit panjang to clementi n back!
i muz hav been having a loose screw up there.

started at 1215am,
i ran thru my usual 'long' route,
running along e upper outskirts of bukit panjang, from senja link to zhenghua sec,
down e lrt tracks to segar.
passed by my sis' sch at Beacon Pri n headed down towards bangkit n petir.
and this time,
NO!

i skipped tat horrific park beside e expressway n instead followed e path down towards petir lrt.
at tat very cross junction,
i saw this yellow mini hunchback and a guy at e side of e road.
seems like he was wounded.
ok not 'seems', coz evidently theres a wound on e left side of his cheek- roughly 2 20cent coins put together side by side.
too lazy to stop n ask since e driver(P-plater) n his fren were already there tending to him.

so instead of jogging thru e park, i went ard it n along it.
YES, its still e scary foggy deserted path.
n the weird thing was,
i came across this handmade wooden signboard which stated:

WANTED
HARDCORE
Chestnut Ave L.P. 48

wonder wat tat meant.
as i peered into e Chestnut Ave from afar, all i could see was pitch black in e middle and no one in sight.
seems like one of those uninhabitated construction roads.

but oh wells, enough of that.
PIE was to my left, so i veered right towards Dairy Farm road.
scary scary path.
n there i found another signboard hammered into e grass.
n nope, didnt find any Old huts as stated by SPI down scary path covered by trees.

from there, i reached e main road n turned left towards Trinity Theological College n Salvation Army.
headed down further toward Rail Mall where i found nice supper hangouts!
n ohh, Coffeebean there is 24hrs. PROVEN.
Ran past the old bukit timah fire station and Bukit Batok Nature Park.
n i found a kiwi on e floor. lol

ran past bukit timah nature reserve.
and towards King Albert's park Mac.
tempting, but not yet.

crossed e junction towards beauty world plaza n jogged past Pei Hwa Pri n towards....
AL ALMEEN N AL AZHAR!!!
TEMPTING!!!!
den from there i zoomed past Courts and e 3 competitive Petrol Stations side by side.
n back to e foot of Bukit Batok Nature Park.
n here comes e even more scary part.
i noe my left eye has been twitching for an hr or so,
n my head is feeling light.
but somehow as i trod on e walkway,
with only glimpses of light peeking thru e trees,
my right hand suddenly gave an extreme twitch!
like it's some spasmic reaction tat resulted in my wrist turning outwards 45degrees!
disregarding tat incident, i ran back all e way to Rail Mall n past AES where a bunch of angmohs (i think) on the other side of the road were waving to me!
when i meant a bunch, i meant like at least 10 of them!
haha, so fun!
den as i passed by e shophouses after Shell,
i ran past this BJ Karaoke Lounge with 3 social escorts sitting ard a table nearby.
den a guy emerged from e shady bar n was immediately approached by one of them.
didnt bother to look further.

n alas,
home was in sight.
phew.
reached back at 2.15am.
undoubtedly e 2nd longest run in my entire life!
longest ever waS e 21km Army Half Marathon which took me 2hrs n ard 16mins.
so judging from my timing, i'd say i ran ard..
18 or 19km?
n tat'll b like runnin past Ngee Ann poly or SIM.
i think jus 15mins more n i'll reach NUS!
hahaha.

perhaps i jus wanted to prove to my own self tat i could endure.
n i did!
but den again,
wat's this compared to my own race.
my race of a lifetime?
wats this measly 2hr compared to tat?
can i even run it with patience?
God willing.

am recently reminded of aerobics.
somehow. dun ask me y.
n yep!
finally found tat challenging advanced taebo tat makes u realize tat u hav a butt!
am hungry...
n theres nth to eat!

baby u're my sugar rush~

urgh, craving hard for orh luah now!
n im filthy poor now.
am chasing after rainbows for tat pot of gold at it's foot.

had another weird dream/nightmare...
dreamt tat milipedes and insects of the like had flown in during the thunderstorm while i was sleeping.
(which is happening soon outside my window)
had a total frenzy of not stepping on them while spraying them with baygon.
chaos CHAOS!
it's like everywhere!
on beds, on floors and anywhere else u can imagine.

n thankfully i got awakened by my alarm.
urgh, i overslept again.
n now tat i wanna go, it seems like e weather is stopping me...
15 mins more to prepare...

can 2 different worlds come together n not collide?

AWESOME!!!!
Final Fantasy: Distant Worlds was a killer!

ALMOST GOT NOBUO UEMATSU'S AUTOGRAPH!
(ok not really but if they gave us 20more mins for autograph session, i might hav!)
can u believe it?
he went onstage to sing One Winged Angel for the 2nd encore, together with e Victoria Chorale and The Vocal Consort!
AMAZING!
hahaaha,
i jus love his headband!

couldnt get my hands on the Concert CD which was recorded at 24 bit, 88.2k by the Royal Stockholm Philharmonic Orchestra!
flawless perfect music with no hiccups nor glitches!
n it's at 40bucks!
i dun even hav e cash for it. ZZZZ.

den we went over to suntec to hav a peek at e License 2 Play where we spotted numerous Cosplayers but there was one who caught my eye!




TA-DAA!!!
i'd vote him as best cosplayer for e day!
phew, fun-filled day.
y do most gd things come to an end?

Mr Hikikomori back in action.

11 more hours!
^^

urgh, had an encounter with my craving 3nights ago!
well, not really e kind i want but similar!
it's called Ice Cream Goreng, but it's $7!
totally not worth it.
n for e record, i've nvr tried it(Fried Ice Cream) b4!

hmmm, wat about Baked Alaska...
*ponders*
*drools*

this entire day was crazily fun!
too much fun.
argh.
braindead+headache!
Guitar Hero World Tour!
nvr really tried e singing one b4.
but it's uniquely entertaining.
not ur usual kboxing!
(n glad we didnt go too!)

n aft tat was Halo-ing!
hahaha,
i pwned everyone else!!!
wooooo!
rockets flying everywhere!
ppl being split to smithereens by rockets!
haha a 3 way rocket-fight!
blasting, blasting n back-blasting!


n aft Halo-ing, it was Ice skating at Kallang!
argh, e last ever time i was on ice was in pri sch i believe.
took a long while to learn it!
i wonder how long those pros took!
n im actually pretty amazed at how those Disney on Ice ppl can actually twirl their way effortlessly ard the rink!
i really adored this little mei mei who was learning how to skate!
i think she's ard e age of 4 or 5 only!
UBER CUTE!
gave me tat blur look when i muttered my greetings.
heee.

KFC after tat!
can u believe it?
not enough chicken for a family feast!
ahh well, besides, i jus had no appetite.
somehow aft sitting on tat comfy stool.
all energy was splurged away.
including my appetite!
how odd.

but yep, had a mini not-so-surprised cake cutting for Mr Neo who jus turned 22 as of today!
hope u enjoyed every little bit of the happenings from morn til night!
lets go back there sometime too k?!
n not forget our own JB trip 2!
lazy wait for Yun Feng le lar
hahaha, by the time his hols finish,
it's sch time for us again!
always clashes!
zzz
=P

Happy Belated Bday QiYang!

somehow im craving for Fried Ice Cream now!!!
*drools*

The War of the Brains

The two brains not only see the world in vastly different ways but, in our current society, the left side just "doesn't get" what the right side is all about. It tends to dismiss anything significant coming into consciousness from its "flaky" cranial twin. Sometimes two sides can actually disagree, resulting in our perception of emotional turmoil from the expressive protests of right brain.

Our conscious mind can only focus on data from one brain at a time. We can switch from one side to the other very quickly (with our corpus collosum intact) but that's not always the most efficient way to act and eventually ultimate authority to enter consciousness is delegated to one brain or the other. In our modern world, this battle is almost always won by the left brain.

It appears that most people will never reach their maximum potential because of compromises that have been made between these two governing bodies. Sometimes skills which the right brain can perform better are routinely handled, with less skill, by the left brain. Ideally, both brains work together in people with optimum mental ability. This coordinating ability may be the key to superior intellectual abilities. In most people, however, the left brain takes control, choosing logic, reasoning and details over imagination, holistic thinking and artistic talent.

Methods have been devised to "shut off" the left brain, allowing the right side to have its say. Creative writing courses often use this method to combat "writer's block." The right brain is then able to "sneak" into our consciousness, filling our minds with emotional and visual vignettes and freely associated images. All too quickly, though, the left brain will assert itself and dispense with these irrational images, asserting its Spock-like logical dominance and the right brain will have to be content to find expression in dreams.

sometimes i jus wonder y i get so angry over my incapabilities...

Try this

when you're in facebook, click anywhere in the white space then hit the keys: up up down down left right left right B A enter, now scroll your mouse up and down or click anywhere...

Flow

One sms my dad received from an anonymous person:

"Don't get set into one form, adapt it and build your own,
and let it grow, be like water.
Empty your mind, be formless, shapeless — like water.
Now you put water in a cup, it becomes the cup;
You put water into a bottle it becomes the bottle;
You put it in a teapot it becomes the teapot.
Water can flow or it can crash.
Be water, my friend."

weird person this is.

illumination

hmmm, can anyone explain to me y e sky is so bright even at 4.44am within a HDB hub?
no, there's no big shopping centre in that direction
tat's e North.



and like e sky is dark dark darker on e other side!
here's e west!

runnin'

am i running towards or running away?
wats my race?
can i faithfully run it?
urgh i still remem last yr, this very notion kept me going on too.
to run this race with all due diligence and patience.
but look at me now,
wat am i doing?
where am i going?
which direction?
wat race am i running again.

urgh, to press on is truly difficult.

"Wherefore seeing we also are compassed about with so great a cloud of witnesses, let us lay aside every weight, and the sin which doth so easily beset us, and let us run with patience the race that is set before us,
Looking unto Jesus the author and finisher of our faith; who for the joy that was set before him
endured the cross, despising the shame, and is set down at the right hand of the throne of God."
Hebrews 12:1-2



psalms 143 eh?
yeah, sure i'll read it. =]

sweet-heart-breaker

it's getting better.
at least it's turning to coughable phlegm which can be evicted out.
had a coughing bout in e toilet which resulted in a 10 sec choke on my phlegm
while trying hard to breathe in air through tat blocked airway,
meanwhile tackling against e natural body reaction of muscle spasms.
such a terrible feeling!
coughed out blood immediately aft tat.
n no, im not gonna die of tubercolosis.
i think bike accidents give a higher frequency den tat.

urgh, so many ppls' bday ard e corner.
stress stress stressful on my pocket n mind!

gd morning world!
or would it be nicer if i said gd nite since im 5 mins off to bed soon.

ahh, jus went on another escapade.
this time to see parts of the sunrise in WCP.
great GREAT place to destress.
seeing e old boats, the greens, e tides n the orange hues jus brightened me up.
photos will b up on FB soon.
ahh so marvellous....

anw i havent been sleeping properly for days,
my bio clock is totally haywired!
the only proper sleep i had recently was from 10am to 1140am last morn on a cold hard floor.
frequent body rotations soon followed aft, with a lack of lalaland admission.
insomnia?

no idea.
mayb all i needed was a hug.
from my pillows or otherwise.

this is DA life!

sleeping at 3am, waking at 5pm.
14 hrs of rest!
now i feel like i can go run ard the world!
(but i jus gotta wait for tat slumber feeling to slip away 1st)

yup.
like wat sam said,
it's time to take a gd rest.
5 more weeks this time.
im jus counting down everyday by doing nth bout it.

n oh,
i jus woke up to dinner.
so off i go to fill my empty stomach.
rest well too y'all!

Ama-zuppai

sometimes i cant help but scare myself,
im jus another heartless freak...

feeling the wind of a soon-to-form thunderstorm in my face is priceless.
watching plastic bags flying ard,
trees being swayed shakened,
and e vending machine and cupboards at e mamashop downstairs being toppled over.

this is e very face of nature tat currently describes my being.

temperature's dropping to a 20 odd degrees now
as i continue to gaze upon all that is ard me.
tiny drops of water speckle my hand as i slowly extend it out of my window.
the 1st sign.
a sudden flash of light illuminating e night sky.
the 2nd sign.
the increase in decibels of the pitter-patter upon my window sill.
the 3rd.
a roar from the heavens.
4th.

dad says it wun rain tat heavily n for long,
but i reckon it might.

lets jus wait and see a lil longer.
lets see if his yrs of age-old experience or my yrs of riding experience will win this contest.

by now, those trees down there have been nicely massaged and watered,
the ground made moist.
n tat means no jogging for me later.

our attention now deviates from what's happening outside to the Planet Earth programme on ch8 as we marvel at the glowing worms tat spit out that insect-binding silk, deep deep down in e underground caves.

sigh, guess wat?
terrible winds hav blown away every evidence of rainclouds, leaving behind e sweet scent of the rain, and the coolness of it thereof.
yes, i lost.
but im not at all concerned.
what matters most is tat interaction we had.

one last glance out reveals e occasional dimming out of lights.
the town's sliding off to bed.
n so shall i.
gd nite Singapore.

-edit-
on a final note,
it's raining.
so i havent lost after all...
^^

sometimes i really wonder at all those times when i jus want to voice out but i cant.
all those secret little thoughts tat go wandering ard my head.
it's jus all e weird circumstances tat hold me back.
or isit just tat i dun want to be heard?

yes, i'll rather remain silent.
i cant help it but be inert.
to protect myself.
protect myself from all e harm i can receive.
from all e hurt tat i might inflict.
n all other chain reactions tat i might set off.
to keep me sane every single day.

n no.
no one else but me n my Lord shd know.
yep, im not telling. ^^

NO MORE!!!
IM FREE!!!!
YAYNESS!!!
TIME TO CELEB!!!!

but somehow i jus dun hav e mood too
many depressing events going on this week...
sigh sigh.

but now tat im having a long hols again,
theres many things i hav to do.
n yes i do hav a long list as well.
i jus wonder whether i hav e time to do all of them.


i wanna snuggle up in my blanket in e cold of the night.
im gonna find me a rainbow hanging up in the sky~

urgh... 3 down, 1 more to go!
jia you-a-jia you!!

n guess wat,
getting stopped by pulsating red n blue lights is actually kinda fun!
jus remind me to get to an NPC within 5 days ya?

wind in ur face,
cemeteries at e side,
stars in the night,
moon rising from the east.
how i wish i could jus stay there e entire night.
but jus to b there during exam period is crazy enough.

not dilapidated enough.
not enough voice.
but jus to break e silence was taboo enough too.
jus too bad i cant get to guess wat star constellation those patterns up there are!

n thanks for being dragged along to be fed to mozzies. =]


argh, jus woke up n now im gonna go ichiban for dinner!
n night safari later!!!
more camwhore opportunities.
^^


food...
(argh... n i havent studied for my 106 yet!!!!!!)

tails. u win

wat a pretty little gecko it was.
not til it jumped onto my hand n on e road where i bet it got squashed pretty badly.
yep, my bike's little pet gecko.
not forgetting tat 50cent big (neon) orange spider tat made my bike its home too.
ahh well, wats past is past.
n guess wat, i cant study now.
i just cant.

my oh my.

anw, would have loved to hear the rendition of Libertango from NTU CAC Symphonic Band this aftnoon.
too bad i was busy listening to another performance at somewhat e same time but diff location.
bobbing my head ard to e vocals in NIE.
n there i saw a tenor swaying to e music with his eyes closed as he emitted soulful soundwaves from his heart. (or his diaphragm to b exact)
havent really seen this particular image in my mind for eons.

n oh! i jus found out i hav no more lectures at all aft today!
n there i was still thinking tat there was still a 105 lecture tml evening.
ahh... i would hav blindly sat down in the LT if i wasnt pointed out by my fren.
hmmm, exams jus ard e corner.
it's time to pump up e groove!
but with wat?
wait, lemme try my Ice Milo!!!
ROAAARRS~*


*updates aft 5 hrs*
jus abit more til end of read thru!
n really, y are there so many different equipments to count.
urgh.
having a headache to jus know/recognise each one of them.
*yawns*
3 hrs of sleep b4 i see the sun again-
when e dark sky illuminates.

oh the bliss of having a day's break in the midst of exams.
jus bumming ard doing nth but surfing e web n stoning.
watched shutter last night with 4 others squeezing in on a bed, under e moonlit night.
n i woke up to finishing Maths Assignment 2 jus b4 my Math Quiz @ 1230.
exams in 2 weeks' time though.
cant afford to slacken off now.
but jus tat as usual, no motivation or energy to start revising.
so here i am, clearing up space on my lappie
by burning stuff onto DVDs.
cant sleep, but yet having tutorials in 4 hrs+.
sigh.

Feasting

oh my.
i jus had 2 great feasts in 3 days!
thank God for a mini jog in between them both.
n ohhh.
i still miss tat 'strawberry icecream with sprite' float at zhen fa.
not forgetting the bbq prawns!
not bad not bad.
heh!
n today me got GIANT beef hotdog set and Fish n Chips Set from Botak Jones.
YEP, 2 DISHES!!!
yum yum! (not yarm yarm)
n tat means more jogging n exercise for me!
somehow aft seeing my old pics, it seems tat i grew fatter!
although ppl in church keep insisting tat i got thinner. how weird.
oh wells, back to lab7 and another long night before studying astro.
who'd really noe tat there might really b diamonds in e sky?

if only stares could kill.

random spurts

2 full days of events back-to-back.
simply AWESOME!
what more can i say?
went out to e floor for our comp many many many uncountable times til we didnt noe wat event was next.
all we knew was, our number's in, we're NEXT!!!
oh e bliss of being in e finals,
someplace where 2 noobs have ventured far in.
no regrets for sure.

n yes, e stage, the crowd, the lights, the floor and the mood were in perfect blend.
though hearts were thumping,
but we enjoyed ourselves.
rite, kaii?
thanks partner for the wonderful performances!


thanks for those who supported too!
*anw, pay up pay up! im broke*

am tired, sick, and utterly contented.

night of scalds n burns and pint-sized blisters.
of utensil-less wanton mee n packed ice milo.
of black diamonds and rainbow-ed ones.
all i need now is a lightbulb above my head and some hibernation to get me thru.

anw, jus a random pic to post:



took it this morn at 7plus am while going back home from sch.
i muz hav been crazy.

ride out, spot scenery, awed while riding, stop at busstop, whip out cam, 'ka-chak'!, continue on homeward journey.
lolz

SLEEEEEEEEEEP...

oh wat a killer it was!
no, not david,
but rather tat lab tat made me dedicate more den 24hrs of staring n stoning in it!
finally some form of REST.
all too inevitable.
come on, rock my world more!!!
*random random*

jus talked to Roy over e phone. seems like he's doing fine in London.
bah, i miss those old times together.
u noe, sometimes our human mind jus cant help but keep thinking bout e past.
but its not unnecessarily a bad thing.
it shows us how far we've come.
n yeap, abit of reminiscing does one gd i believe.
i recently went thru my previous entires dated 4 yrs ago.
n i found many truths tat might hav forgotten now!
really thankful tat i've kept this blog for so long.
talk about long lost dreams and deja vus.
somehow, these entries helped me to relive my memories.
jus judging from my manner of speech yrs ago,
it feels all too certain tat ive changed much too.
(i think i used to sound like some ah seng too)
though i miss tat happy-go-lucky n carefree attitude i used to hav.
but den again, it doesnt mean its advantageous either.

anw, jus tot of a verse as i ready myself to embrace my place of solace.


1 Corinthians 10:23
"All things are lawful for me, but all things are not expedient: all things are lawful for me, but all things edify not."

we are allowed to do anything under e sun, no restrictions, jus tat we gotta take note whether each of our actions actually does benefit us or others. or whether it stumbles others.
n i guess this verse has kept me thinking for a while now...

gonna share some random pics in this post!


was at bugis area recently. look at how e buildings ard light up with all them bright lights!!!



Ice Milo with Vanilla icecream at some IMM hongkong cafe!
unique Milo taste though!
but fantastic nvrtheless!
wat can go wrong with Milo + icecream!




my supper 1 hr ago!
inspired by e hk thick toast i ate at bugis.
step 1: toast bread
step 2: apply lotsa KAYA!!!




Step 3: Pour a sumptuous amt of condensed milk!!!!
(^^,)





got no butter but kaya makes a nice substitute!!!!

i wonder wats supper for tml night!!!

2nd wind

am thankful tat me is able to offer my services to my Lord once again.
am now Log IC of Church Choir.
well, nth to boast off but lotsa work to do.
a new responsibility in my hands. pray tat i'll b able to meet up to His expectations ya?
i truly need my Divine magnifying glass now.
gotta focus my vision not in front of me, but up above me.
perhaps all these while, my range of vision has been fluctuating within 45 degrees from e horizon level.
guess it's time now for this puny little me to face the greater truth up there.
all i visualize right now is this bird's eye view from out there in e dark cold space, zooming in all e way billions of times jus in order to spot this 'me'.
now, think it from my POV.
from bottom up.

i can foresee such a huge barrier to overcome.
a long hurdle for me to jump over.
a huge effort to b invested.
the road will be long.
with all my packed bags of burden,
i trod this path, but not alone.
"For Thou art with me, thy rod and thy staff they comfort me"
at times though, i may have to hitch a ride on the Saviour Express when im beat and cast down.
I may need to take e wheel, to learn how to drive.
even aft i do, I know not which path im supposed to take.
I may turn left and right.
I may bump.
but i pray tat it's not going to put me down.
i hav to grow stronger,
to be the invisible wind tat blows e kite up high.
to bring it higher n higher, upwards towards the sunny skies.

i, have to bring forth, my second wind.

Wat time isit now?

Ecclesiastes 3:1-8

1To every thing there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven:

2A time to be born, and a time to die; a time to plant, and a time to pluck up that which is planted;

3A time to kill, and a time to heal; a time to break down, and a time to build up;

4A time to weep, and a time to laugh; a time to mourn, and a time to dance;

5A time to cast away stones, and a time to gather stones together; a time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing;

6A time to get, and a time to lose; a time to keep, and a time to cast away;

7A time to rend, and a time to sew; a time to keep silence, and a time to speak;

8A time to love, and a time to hate; a time of war, and a time of peace.

Vday report

Im jus wondering...
wats e reason for ppl to celeb vday?
i mean, when u can always show tat special care every other day.
y restrict it to this very day?

weirdness.

1 John 4:18
There is no fear in love; but perfect love casteth out fear: because fear hath torment. He that feareth is not made perfect in love.

jus kinda remembered this verse for today.
how often it is to hear stories all ard where ppl are afraid of this n that.
how isit possible to fully eradicate fear?
den so, we are all not perfect in love (even me),
but only thru the grace of God.

how difficult it is to truly love someone.

John 15:13
Greater love hath no man than this, that a man lay down his life for his friends.

not even talking about loved ones and family,
wat about friends who arent related by blood.
r we even willing to sacrifce our lives for them?
saying is one thing, doing is another.
when the time comes, we'll b 'spoilt-for-choice'
am i willing?
well, to me i kinda treat my life as a flimsy piece of paper.
i feel... dispensable.
(not e suicidal sense but rather, im more of the 'Others-person' den the 'self-person')
so i guess its kinda worth it to exchange this for another's life ya?
n besides, isnt heaven a much more place?
heh!

lol
anw,
my sis' reply on fb got me thinking again.

yep, im really waiting for e time to move outta e house.
n i guess my sis has been enduring since she was in sec sch.
tats like almost more den half of her life!
somehow, i feel tat me n my sis are the only sane ones in our family.
we feel... 'different'
n tats wat connects us both.
i cant really affirm / shout it out loud tat i love my family.
n i guess, because of this reason, i dun feel qualified to love another.
i mean, if u dun even love ur family, y makes u think u have e means to love a stranger?
n this stupid reason kinda crumbled my sis' 1st r/s while she was in sec sch.

1 John 2: 9 - 11
9 He that saith he is in the light, and hateth his brother, is in darkness even until now.
10 He that loveth his brother abideth in the light, and there is none occasion of stumbling in him.
11 But he that hateth his brother is in darkness, and walketh in darkness, and knoweth not whither he goeth, because that darkness hath blinded his eyes.

perhaps i hav been n will b walking in more darkness.

sigh, i really wonder and marvel at how joyful a family gathering can be.
i've nvr been enthusiastic about family gatherings, and if poss, i would avoid them.
i hav no idea how ppl will look forward to them.
i've nvr experienced e joy.
TAT joy which i experienced while having a meal with other's families last yr.
its really tat something warm n fuzzy.
e true meaning of a home which i've nvr felt b4.
the conversations ard the dining table...
e laughter.
e smiles.
i dun hav any memory of it all.


okok,
all in all,
perhaps i dun love my family at all.
weird eh?

ok, wat a strange ending this post has.


anw to top it off,
i'll end it with a song (and a note)

since today is Vday,
Thanks to all who made my life special.
U noe who u are or wat u've done.
thanks so much!
ur love is appreciated! ^^





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Sweeter As the Years Go By

Of Jesus' love that sought me, when I was lost in sin;
Of wondrous grace that brought me back to His fold again;
Of heights and depths of mercy, far deeper than the sea,
And higher than the heavens, my theme shall ever be.

Chorus:
Sweeter as the years go by, sweeter as the years go by,
Richer, fuller, deeper, Jesus' love is sweeter,
Sweeter as the years go by.

He trod in old Judea life's pathway long ago;
The people thronged about Him, His saving grace to know;
He healed the broken hearted, and caused the blind to see;
And still His great heart yearneth in love for even me.



'Twas wondrous love which led Him for us to suffer loss,
To bear without a murmur the anguish of the cross;
With saints redeemed in glory, let us our voices raise,
Till Heav'n and earth re-echo with our Redeemer's praise.




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of everything out there,
Jesus' love is sweeter.
i hope i can experience it too. =X



and ya, sorry i cant fulfil tat promise with you...

breaking free

trying hard to break away from e routine of 4 to 7.
tried hard ytd nite but managed to slip abit of time inside.
well, 1 hour more is a BIG thing!
but still, i end up late almost everyday in this week.
yes, even now.
woke up late n decided to jus skip e 1st lect but i still gotta go for e one at 930!
4 dances coming up.
2 are somewhat done but the other 2 are still incomplete.
n like theres only 4 weeks more to go!
stressed stressed...

lotsa things to do... lotsa commitments.
more posts up n coming in e Christian sector waiting for me to undertake.
i guess not tat soon ya...

anw, im off to sch!
another long day for me again!
wahahaha.
need sleep in e reading room!

ard sg yet again

lets see, i went to e region near Tanah Merah MRT,
e outskirts of East Coast Park,
Tanah Merah Ferry Terminal,
Changi Beach Park,
NSRCC Safra Resort,
Jurong West
and finally back home.
thats like 60plus km. (or mayb 70)
lolz.
exit4b is where i wanna be.

havent been travelling ard for a long time.
feels gd to b on the road though.

the intense cool breeze that beats against ur body
really makes u wanna race thru it.

anw, glad to see many of my juniors this very night.
chatted lots on all e mishaps and misadventures of e new batches n wat happened when we left.
more quirky and 'niang' juniors.
less of them playing 'piank' (read: "punk")
but jus downright outrageous.
imagine one who excreted in his pants aft being shouted at.

reminded me lots of all e stunts we used to pull in e earlier days.
my classic example would be e sleep-under-computertable-in-office act.
n oso my 'long-hair' act too.
wat to do.. my hairs on e back of my neck jus grow faster den my moustache can ever get.

somehow, i kinda feel like having a shaved head once again.
jus a thought!

oh wells, my vocation is gonna be disbanded, outsourced from companies outside e army.
meaning, no more army NSFs for Physical Training Instructors and Close Combat Instructors.
mayb California fitness is gonna take over tat job.
but im glad to hav been part of that organisation,
for the memories it brings me,
n the bonds ive made.
no, not those bonds that my junior is trying to sell me now,
but rather, the connection of our hearts and minds brought together thru hardship and passion,
of fun times and times where we do saikang together.
'mingle' ard and 'play' with each other.
lolz, sounds wrong.
but yep, tats all e hidden stuff we do behind closed doors.
not e usual toughness we show during lessons though. HEH!

its been a yr now,
since i've wore green.
part of me wishes to go back to those carefree days.
(YES, army IS carefree for me)
the only times where 99% of e ppl ard are guys.
Think muscles, sweat and energy and gym. (nope not leotards)
the only times where girls didnt really matter.
(sounds more wayward now)

ANW, more tuts for me to complete!
am thinkin of how to modify the existin rumba routine too.
Comp in 5 weeks!
hope I'll b ready by den.
hmmmm, Grade D?
dun think im up THERE yet,
but arrgh,
jus go for it!

Dancing King, young and suave, only 21~ (lolz)

no JB for me tonight!
boss Fadly aint free since tml's got L.I.F.E run.
cant go for servicing there.
kinda miss Aqua(Ah-Gua) Lane's Ice Milo and Ramli Burgers!!!
ahhhaa!
n e occasional trannies who pop by now and den.
anw, i havent rode thru e new JB checkpoint yet.
the other time i travelled with my bare legs, it took more den half an hour jus to get thru it!
super windy (read: whine-dee) routes and a whole waste of space. i prefer the rundowned version of it.
kinda suits it better, n more 'straight-to-the-point' then its current state.

anw,
i've been intro-ed this new song by Wilson.
my new earworm for e moment!



n thanks to it, im contemplating to learn Tango too!!
n presently i think e Argentine Tango i briefly learnt is kinda stylish and classy!
hope i hav e chance to further explore its world.

here's the official MV with lyrics:


earworm...earworm...


n oh hey! im gonna learn a lil of salsa tml too!!!
lets see wat ive learnt/am gonna learn so far:
Cha cha
Rumba
Jive
Samba
(teenie wee bit of Paso Doble)
Argentine Tango
Locking
Salsa (tml)
Waltz (mon)
Popping (nxt wed!)

n Tango might b e nxt best thing!
let's see, there's still Lindyhop, Tap Dancing tat i wanna learn too!

anw, i didnt watch my 2 hr Rumba vid ytd,
shall do so in a few mins!!!

whee~
im kinda back home from a locking lesson!
next week im gonna pop!
ahaha.

ok, my wed nites are gonna b busy too.
along with mon and tues and fri nites.
but hey! i still hav my thur nights to myself!
wahahaha.


u noe, some really old quote kinda popped up into my head 2 nights ago while bathing.
"Unless I grip the sword, I can not protect you. While gripping the sword I can not embrace you."
cant remem where i got it from though.

so i guess im kinda living it out ya...
with my tkd, i can protect.
with my dance, i embrace.

...errrrrrrr...

yeah u get e idea.

now tat i think back upon it, it's a really weird outcome tat im in now.
im like touching on the Arts scene inch by inch.
1st was drawing n painting.
next is martial ARTS. (still considered an ART okay)
den comes physical artistic expressions.
wat's next?
musical/vocal instruments?

my miniscule dreams of violin/piano/guitar/bass arent diminished yet.
but i guess those dreams wun be fulfilled tat soon yet.
n tat means i still dun hav e means to serenade others.
hahaha




looking back further,
my life has been a life of reverse psychology.
esp to my parents.
im almost not whatever they want me to b.
n im totally different to their likes and attributes and char.
they love all sorts of seafood but not me.
dun forget abalone and other tonics too.
n basically almsot every kind of edible items tat can be popped into their mouth.
although i think i got many bad genes from them too.
haha.

rite, cant wait to pop nxt week too!
im off for more tuts and a 2hr vid watching!
signing off.

kurosaki

hmmm?
me getting stalked?
no probs!
jus call 1800-STALK -'EM-BACK,
tats, 1800-77255-136-2225!
(ok doesnt sound like a valid num anw)


n oh! i havent da sao chu yet!!!
sigh, my sat is gonna b spent at home clearing out old stuff n junk, which i dun think i'll hav much.

so, rumba or no rumba?
i'd say go for it!
e more e merrier!
wahahaha.
well, it's time to cut down on my other stuffs too.

like wat Christie said, better time management requires discipline n e heart to keep it.
n i admit this entire week has been rather poorly spent.
could hav made more out of it if i wanted to.
anw, im on bad terms with self-discipline, but i jus gotta get to noe him more, ya?
*nods head*

actually, im kinda pondering y i set my timetable this awfully.
830 lessons in e morn for 4 days?
thank God it's not all 5!
am feeling e bliss with a 1230 lesson today!
n on a side note, im craving for cup noodles now. HEH!

ok to prove tat im not the only illogical one, try this urself:

Convert the following to if-then statements (i.e., the conditional) form,
- Fix my aircon or I won’t pay the rent.

Wat's ur answer?















If you fix my aircon then I will pay the rent. ...?






If so, you are terribly wrong!
the answer is:

If I pay the rent then you will fix my aircon.


Surprised? don't be. tats jus a miniscule part of e course im taking now.
you understand it?
if u do, CONGRATS!!!
u ARE logical!

if not errr...

anw, sleep time! blessed CNY to all!



$-$ <--- money-faced! =X

err... huh...?

whee~ busy busy week all over again!

anw, some workshops n concerts n competition comin up.
lemme noe if u wanna go, esp for e workshop. limited spaces only!







sigh, competition will b on 14th March, and e nxt day is e JDC.
wat a busy weekend tat'll b!
zzz.
n i tot it'll b 1 week apart.

lots of labour-intensive lab sessions to complete this sem.
it feels like a total upgrade from last sem's!
last sem's was jus normal labs, creating programs n jus save it in e lab com.

this sem's feels like assignments from last sem, only every week.

crazy stuff this is.



ANW, i love the windy cool season tat encompassed SG!
jus tat i always wake up in shudders and more shivers!
alright, time for tuts and labs!
ooooh ooh, lemme noe when u guys wanna meet up too! will try to make some space on my busy busy busy schedule specially for u peeps!
wahahahaa!

shleepee

one word to describe me right now, "exhausted x3"
been in sch these 2 days for more den 12 hours each.
830am lessons just dun do any justice.

*RANT RANT RANT*

sigh, gotta go recap on wat i learnt last sem.
programming lab sessions are jus there for me to get used to e new editor im gonna use.
n it's such a HASSLE!
unlike e previous one where u jus open, create, save, compile, run.
this is SOOOSOOOSOOOOO confusing me!
all e subfolders of junk n all...

n tml's gonna b yet another long day again.
need a bike repair, need a haircut, need sleep.
havent really gotten a comfy aftnoon's nap for ages.
i feel so rushed!
argh.

update update,
had a really terrible pain in my stomach for e whole of sunday aftnoon.
i think it was from 1230pm til 10pm.
couldnt nap it away, as it bugged me as i twirled ard on bed.
i nvr knew wat it was.
Gastric? well, it happened jus aft my refreshments at 12, n besides, i could still eat 3 servings during Choir lunch gathering!
n it's like at e top part of my tummy. like jus centimetres below my solar plexus.
weirdo ache.

had a ultimately long day today.
had lessons from 830 til 1030am. n aft tat was jus 'camping' in the Interim Reading Room for ard 7 hrs b4 going for FCM.

n like im gonna hav my 1st lab of e yr at 830am later!
[YA! im having 830 lessons almost everyday except thurs!
n tat means im stuck in e morning rush, n i always hav to squeeze in thru e traffic which i hate!
my danger levels hav increased 4-fold!]

anw, i finally scanned wat i drew near e end of last yr



much more to work on but i guess this is a gd start ya?
anw, gotta catch some sleep to focus on my journey to sch later. zzz
need His providence!

sigh... a new lx3 official case costs at least US $100.
but its so PRETTY!



heres how it looks like when it's closed.



WOAH...



anw, my Starhub contract will end this mon. n i hav my sights on a Samsung G400!!!
n here's how my new phone will look like!!!



cant wait for e Starhub festive deals. hope they hav better promos den now!
my current Hp is giving me lots of probs.
some buttons dun work, n i cant use if i slide it down!
sigh.
oh wells, it has served me pretty well over the past 2 yrs!
its a pretty versatile HP!
fast, interactive, slide-o-matic, and i LURVE the LED torch light!
hope e Samsung has one too!

YAY, my bro's fren finally returned me my PS2 aft a few months of DDR-ing with it.
so here i am, back to e PS2 classics! gotta finish my FFXII and Tales of the Abyss.
WHEE~

9 hours of dancing + 10 hours of sleep = 1 helluva body-aching experience!

anw, to add to e list of DSA's got Talent,
we have:

1 who can get 3 or more drinks for e price of 1 from a vending machine,
2 portable, walking massagers,
3 aspiring photographers,
4 choir peeps,
and many spastic ppl.

and techno tango seems rather quirky to me too.

anw, 1st week of sch is really gd.
no labs, no tuts, n i somehow think dancing takes up more time den e time for me to be in lectures!
astronomy is VERY interesting too!
(other den e fact of them mentioning tat we're made from star stuff, from e big bang. n tats how e Earth formed. and tat life on earth came from somewhere else, hitching a ride on an asteroid and crashed into earth. n TA-DAAA!! you n me were born!)
so far it's jus nebulae and eclipses. i wonder wats in store for e nxt lect!

old life, new life

phew, i havent caught a movie for a LOOONG time. I think e last one was The Dark Knight.
N tats ages ago..
'Seven pounds', a truly inspirational movie.
Keeps me thinking n pondering bout it all e way home.
"wat i could do with my puny little life to influence others? Wat difference i could have made?"
n these few weeks hav been a recap-ing of 2008. Lots of thoughts and reflections swirling ard.
(Sorry for e long faces and quiet moments)
I was playing the 'What if' game.

What if my life could start over, wat were the many things tat i could change in my life.?
What if i could time travel, wat would e 'present me' tell the 'past me', or others ard me in order to change my future?
What if we could start over, what were the things tat we could have skipped or added?
What would be the 'ideal' future for me?
im not saying tat im sad with my present, nor happy with it.
but jus wondering how life could play out differently from wat it is now.

Imagine moments of sadness changed to joy.
Pain and anguish to happiness and smiles.

Have u ever thought bout tat?

someone ever asked me, if i would rather skip an entire chapter of pure bliss and sorrow, or would i have decided to go thru it instead.
I could not give an answer then...






i guess, i would not have learnt so much or appreciated so much if i didnt enter tat chapter of my life.

things are different now.
times changed.

n all i can do is walk forward bravely to my unknown future.
to live a life of no regrets.

n i guess aft talking so much,
i remem a quote, "instead of looking inward (or backward), we shd look upwards instead."
how very true it is.

i wonder how much more i can change in 2009.
more, more trials!
wrestle me too!


and i guess, e first step starts with a new phone.
all those 700+ SMSes...


oh well, sch reopens tml.
a new year, a new life.
how's it gonna turn out?
beats me. im curious too.