wats e reason for ppl to celeb vday?
i mean, when u can always show tat special care every other day.
y restrict it to this very day?
weirdness.
1 John 4:18
There is no fear in love; but perfect love casteth out fear: because fear hath torment. He that feareth is not made perfect in love.
jus kinda remembered this verse for today.
how often it is to hear stories all ard where ppl are afraid of this n that.
how isit possible to fully eradicate fear?
den so, we are all not perfect in love (even me),
but only thru the grace of God.
how difficult it is to truly love someone.
John 15:13
Greater love hath no man than this, that a man lay down his life for his friends.
not even talking about loved ones and family,
wat about friends who arent related by blood.
r we even willing to sacrifce our lives for them?
saying is one thing, doing is another.
when the time comes, we'll b 'spoilt-for-choice'
am i willing?
well, to me i kinda treat my life as a flimsy piece of paper.
i feel... dispensable.
(not e suicidal sense but rather, im more of the 'Others-person' den the 'self-person')
so i guess its kinda worth it to exchange this for another's life ya?
n besides, isnt heaven a much more
heh!
lol
anw,
my sis' reply on fb got me thinking again.
yep, im really waiting for e time to move outta e house.
n i guess my sis has been enduring since she was in sec sch.
tats like almost more den half of her life!
somehow, i feel tat me n my sis are the only sane ones in our family.
we feel... 'different'
n tats wat connects us both.
i cant really affirm / shout it out loud tat i love my family.
n i guess, because of this reason, i dun feel qualified to love another.
i mean, if u dun even love ur family, y makes u think u have e means to love a stranger?
n this stupid reason kinda crumbled my sis' 1st r/s while she was in sec sch.
1 John 2: 9 - 11
9 He that saith he is in the light, and hateth his brother, is in darkness even until now.
10 He that loveth his brother abideth in the light, and there is none occasion of stumbling in him.
11 But he that hateth his brother is in darkness, and walketh in darkness, and knoweth not whither he goeth, because that darkness hath blinded his eyes.
perhaps i hav been n will b walking in more darkness.
sigh, i really wonder and marvel at how joyful a family gathering can be.
i've nvr been enthusiastic about family gatherings, and if poss, i would avoid them.
i hav no idea how ppl will look forward to them.
i've nvr experienced e joy.
TAT joy which i experienced while having a meal with other's families last yr.
its really tat something warm n fuzzy.
e true meaning of a home which i've nvr felt b4.
the conversations ard the dining table...
e laughter.
e smiles.
i dun hav any memory of it all.
okok,
all in all,
perhaps i dun love my family at all.
weird eh?
ok, wat a strange ending this post has.
anw to top it off,
i'll end it with a song (and a note)
since today is Vday,
Thanks to all who made my life special.
U noe who u are or wat u've done.
thanks so much!
ur love is appreciated! ^^
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Sweeter As the Years Go By
Of Jesus' love that sought me, when I was lost in sin;
Of wondrous grace that brought me back to His fold again;
Of heights and depths of mercy, far deeper than the sea,
And higher than the heavens, my theme shall ever be.
Chorus:
Sweeter as the years go by, sweeter as the years go by,
Richer, fuller, deeper, Jesus' love is sweeter,
Sweeter as the years go by.
He trod in old Judea life's pathway long ago;
The people thronged about Him, His saving grace to know;
He healed the broken hearted, and caused the blind to see;
And still His great heart yearneth in love for even me.
'Twas wondrous love which led Him for us to suffer loss,
To bear without a murmur the anguish of the cross;
With saints redeemed in glory, let us our voices raise,
Till Heav'n and earth re-echo with our Redeemer's praise.
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of everything out there,
Jesus' love is sweeter.
i hope i can experience it too. =X
and ya, sorry i cant fulfil tat promise with you...
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