jus talked to Roy over e phone. seems like he's doing fine in London.
bah, i miss those old times together.
u noe, sometimes our human mind jus cant help but keep thinking bout e past.
but its not unnecessarily a bad thing.
it shows us how far we've come.
n yeap, abit of reminiscing does one gd i believe.
i recently went thru my previous entires dated 4 yrs ago.
n i found many truths tat might hav forgotten now!
really thankful tat i've kept this blog for so long.
talk about long lost dreams and deja vus.
somehow, these entries helped me to relive my memories.
jus judging from my manner of speech yrs ago,
it feels all too certain tat ive changed much too.
(i think i used to sound like some ah seng too)
though i miss tat happy-go-lucky n carefree attitude i used to hav.
but den again, it doesnt mean its advantageous either.

anw, jus tot of a verse as i ready myself to embrace my place of solace.


1 Corinthians 10:23
"All things are lawful for me, but all things are not expedient: all things are lawful for me, but all things edify not."

we are allowed to do anything under e sun, no restrictions, jus tat we gotta take note whether each of our actions actually does benefit us or others. or whether it stumbles others.
n i guess this verse has kept me thinking for a while now...

gonna share some random pics in this post!


was at bugis area recently. look at how e buildings ard light up with all them bright lights!!!



Ice Milo with Vanilla icecream at some IMM hongkong cafe!
unique Milo taste though!
but fantastic nvrtheless!
wat can go wrong with Milo + icecream!




my supper 1 hr ago!
inspired by e hk thick toast i ate at bugis.
step 1: toast bread
step 2: apply lotsa KAYA!!!




Step 3: Pour a sumptuous amt of condensed milk!!!!
(^^,)





got no butter but kaya makes a nice substitute!!!!

i wonder wats supper for tml night!!!

2nd wind

am thankful tat me is able to offer my services to my Lord once again.
am now Log IC of Church Choir.
well, nth to boast off but lotsa work to do.
a new responsibility in my hands. pray tat i'll b able to meet up to His expectations ya?
i truly need my Divine magnifying glass now.
gotta focus my vision not in front of me, but up above me.
perhaps all these while, my range of vision has been fluctuating within 45 degrees from e horizon level.
guess it's time now for this puny little me to face the greater truth up there.
all i visualize right now is this bird's eye view from out there in e dark cold space, zooming in all e way billions of times jus in order to spot this 'me'.
now, think it from my POV.
from bottom up.

i can foresee such a huge barrier to overcome.
a long hurdle for me to jump over.
a huge effort to b invested.
the road will be long.
with all my packed bags of burden,
i trod this path, but not alone.
"For Thou art with me, thy rod and thy staff they comfort me"
at times though, i may have to hitch a ride on the Saviour Express when im beat and cast down.
I may need to take e wheel, to learn how to drive.
even aft i do, I know not which path im supposed to take.
I may turn left and right.
I may bump.
but i pray tat it's not going to put me down.
i hav to grow stronger,
to be the invisible wind tat blows e kite up high.
to bring it higher n higher, upwards towards the sunny skies.

i, have to bring forth, my second wind.

Wat time isit now?

Ecclesiastes 3:1-8

1To every thing there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven:

2A time to be born, and a time to die; a time to plant, and a time to pluck up that which is planted;

3A time to kill, and a time to heal; a time to break down, and a time to build up;

4A time to weep, and a time to laugh; a time to mourn, and a time to dance;

5A time to cast away stones, and a time to gather stones together; a time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing;

6A time to get, and a time to lose; a time to keep, and a time to cast away;

7A time to rend, and a time to sew; a time to keep silence, and a time to speak;

8A time to love, and a time to hate; a time of war, and a time of peace.

Vday report

Im jus wondering...
wats e reason for ppl to celeb vday?
i mean, when u can always show tat special care every other day.
y restrict it to this very day?

weirdness.

1 John 4:18
There is no fear in love; but perfect love casteth out fear: because fear hath torment. He that feareth is not made perfect in love.

jus kinda remembered this verse for today.
how often it is to hear stories all ard where ppl are afraid of this n that.
how isit possible to fully eradicate fear?
den so, we are all not perfect in love (even me),
but only thru the grace of God.

how difficult it is to truly love someone.

John 15:13
Greater love hath no man than this, that a man lay down his life for his friends.

not even talking about loved ones and family,
wat about friends who arent related by blood.
r we even willing to sacrifce our lives for them?
saying is one thing, doing is another.
when the time comes, we'll b 'spoilt-for-choice'
am i willing?
well, to me i kinda treat my life as a flimsy piece of paper.
i feel... dispensable.
(not e suicidal sense but rather, im more of the 'Others-person' den the 'self-person')
so i guess its kinda worth it to exchange this for another's life ya?
n besides, isnt heaven a much more place?
heh!

lol
anw,
my sis' reply on fb got me thinking again.

yep, im really waiting for e time to move outta e house.
n i guess my sis has been enduring since she was in sec sch.
tats like almost more den half of her life!
somehow, i feel tat me n my sis are the only sane ones in our family.
we feel... 'different'
n tats wat connects us both.
i cant really affirm / shout it out loud tat i love my family.
n i guess, because of this reason, i dun feel qualified to love another.
i mean, if u dun even love ur family, y makes u think u have e means to love a stranger?
n this stupid reason kinda crumbled my sis' 1st r/s while she was in sec sch.

1 John 2: 9 - 11
9 He that saith he is in the light, and hateth his brother, is in darkness even until now.
10 He that loveth his brother abideth in the light, and there is none occasion of stumbling in him.
11 But he that hateth his brother is in darkness, and walketh in darkness, and knoweth not whither he goeth, because that darkness hath blinded his eyes.

perhaps i hav been n will b walking in more darkness.

sigh, i really wonder and marvel at how joyful a family gathering can be.
i've nvr been enthusiastic about family gatherings, and if poss, i would avoid them.
i hav no idea how ppl will look forward to them.
i've nvr experienced e joy.
TAT joy which i experienced while having a meal with other's families last yr.
its really tat something warm n fuzzy.
e true meaning of a home which i've nvr felt b4.
the conversations ard the dining table...
e laughter.
e smiles.
i dun hav any memory of it all.


okok,
all in all,
perhaps i dun love my family at all.
weird eh?

ok, wat a strange ending this post has.


anw to top it off,
i'll end it with a song (and a note)

since today is Vday,
Thanks to all who made my life special.
U noe who u are or wat u've done.
thanks so much!
ur love is appreciated! ^^





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Sweeter As the Years Go By

Of Jesus' love that sought me, when I was lost in sin;
Of wondrous grace that brought me back to His fold again;
Of heights and depths of mercy, far deeper than the sea,
And higher than the heavens, my theme shall ever be.

Chorus:
Sweeter as the years go by, sweeter as the years go by,
Richer, fuller, deeper, Jesus' love is sweeter,
Sweeter as the years go by.

He trod in old Judea life's pathway long ago;
The people thronged about Him, His saving grace to know;
He healed the broken hearted, and caused the blind to see;
And still His great heart yearneth in love for even me.



'Twas wondrous love which led Him for us to suffer loss,
To bear without a murmur the anguish of the cross;
With saints redeemed in glory, let us our voices raise,
Till Heav'n and earth re-echo with our Redeemer's praise.




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of everything out there,
Jesus' love is sweeter.
i hope i can experience it too. =X



and ya, sorry i cant fulfil tat promise with you...

breaking free

trying hard to break away from e routine of 4 to 7.
tried hard ytd nite but managed to slip abit of time inside.
well, 1 hour more is a BIG thing!
but still, i end up late almost everyday in this week.
yes, even now.
woke up late n decided to jus skip e 1st lect but i still gotta go for e one at 930!
4 dances coming up.
2 are somewhat done but the other 2 are still incomplete.
n like theres only 4 weeks more to go!
stressed stressed...

lotsa things to do... lotsa commitments.
more posts up n coming in e Christian sector waiting for me to undertake.
i guess not tat soon ya...

anw, im off to sch!
another long day for me again!
wahahaha.
need sleep in e reading room!

ard sg yet again

lets see, i went to e region near Tanah Merah MRT,
e outskirts of East Coast Park,
Tanah Merah Ferry Terminal,
Changi Beach Park,
NSRCC Safra Resort,
Jurong West
and finally back home.
thats like 60plus km. (or mayb 70)
lolz.
exit4b is where i wanna be.

havent been travelling ard for a long time.
feels gd to b on the road though.

the intense cool breeze that beats against ur body
really makes u wanna race thru it.

anw, glad to see many of my juniors this very night.
chatted lots on all e mishaps and misadventures of e new batches n wat happened when we left.
more quirky and 'niang' juniors.
less of them playing 'piank' (read: "punk")
but jus downright outrageous.
imagine one who excreted in his pants aft being shouted at.

reminded me lots of all e stunts we used to pull in e earlier days.
my classic example would be e sleep-under-computertable-in-office act.
n oso my 'long-hair' act too.
wat to do.. my hairs on e back of my neck jus grow faster den my moustache can ever get.

somehow, i kinda feel like having a shaved head once again.
jus a thought!

oh wells, my vocation is gonna be disbanded, outsourced from companies outside e army.
meaning, no more army NSFs for Physical Training Instructors and Close Combat Instructors.
mayb California fitness is gonna take over tat job.
but im glad to hav been part of that organisation,
for the memories it brings me,
n the bonds ive made.
no, not those bonds that my junior is trying to sell me now,
but rather, the connection of our hearts and minds brought together thru hardship and passion,
of fun times and times where we do saikang together.
'mingle' ard and 'play' with each other.
lolz, sounds wrong.
but yep, tats all e hidden stuff we do behind closed doors.
not e usual toughness we show during lessons though. HEH!

its been a yr now,
since i've wore green.
part of me wishes to go back to those carefree days.
(YES, army IS carefree for me)
the only times where 99% of e ppl ard are guys.
Think muscles, sweat and energy and gym. (nope not leotards)
the only times where girls didnt really matter.
(sounds more wayward now)

ANW, more tuts for me to complete!
am thinkin of how to modify the existin rumba routine too.
Comp in 5 weeks!
hope I'll b ready by den.
hmmmm, Grade D?
dun think im up THERE yet,
but arrgh,
jus go for it!