lack of sleep, feeling lethargic, dementia, unable to think, psycho-motor inefficiency.
all typical signs of wat a typical parent would hav.

for once in my life, this would b e rare few chances where i would partake in a growing organism's nurture and psychological n emotional n physical growth.

all for tat fleeting moment of adoration that one might foster in its early yrs.
oh well, sacrifices r definitely inevitable. yeah, i ever did consider this when i picked him up.
optimism jus ruins everything u noe?
expecting every bad little thing to miraculously turn out well.
another dangerous thought to hav.

but den again, as i scratch its back, it gently purrs n rumbles as it licks my palm thinking its a nipple as it keeps his eyes closed.
it makes me feel so honoured to see him through this stage!
now i now how mothers feel when their babies enter weaning periods.
lovely.

ok, im gonna go give these twin big round eyes more tolerance n love.
time for sleep.