imagine this blog started frm a humble origin n snowballed into wat it is today.
when u think about how many posts ive written, i might wonder about whether i can recall those incidents tat ive blogged about...
oh well, perhaps e purpose of this blog is to help me remem them in case i contract amnesia [which may b anytime soon (mayb?)]
hmmm,
i think ive been going a lil crazy these few days.
watching 3 movies in a row.
2 repeated.
i noe Ratatouille was nice but i didnt think tat i wld watch it 2ice,
1 on thurs, 1 on fri.
n 5 hrs ago i was watching Rogue Assasin.
u noe e JET LI show?
dubbed e 'ultimate martial arts movie of e yr' or something...
well i guess if u wanna watch martial arts flicks,
u're better off with Flashpoint which was wayyyy better.
Rogue, to me, was jus a normal hollywood movie.
abit more on story plot n gals(Devon Aoki frm DOA) n stars(frm The Transporter, NFS: Tokyo Drift n many more)
felt like a mix n mash kinda movie.
however, e best part was e super big twist in story plot near e end.
which i'd say tat no one would ever imagine tat til they said so.
hmmm but i STILL dun understand e double crossing here n there n tipping off n watsoever.
but i DO like e sword fighting in this show *SPOILER ALERT*
oh wells... overall i'd give 3.5/5
try to give it a miss if u can.
Sunday, 9 September 2007
Monday, 3 September 2007
Monday, 27 August 2007
Army Half Marathon
oh my~
i completed my 21km competitve!
i cant believe it.
tot i'd jus fall down n die there.
haha
met weiliang there.
haha he chao keng only run 6km i think.
ah...
drank lotsa lotsa 100plus during n aft e run
fortunately din sweat much,
if not it'd take an entire bottle of 100plus to refill my body's water source.
yeah.
all tat i had left frm e run was a medal,
BK coupon!,
n many many aches on my lower body.
zzzz...
need carls JR...
i completed my 21km competitve!
i cant believe it.
tot i'd jus fall down n die there.
haha
met weiliang there.
haha he chao keng only run 6km i think.
ah...
drank lotsa lotsa 100plus during n aft e run
fortunately din sweat much,
if not it'd take an entire bottle of 100plus to refill my body's water source.
yeah.
all tat i had left frm e run was a medal,
BK coupon!,
n many many aches on my lower body.
zzzz...
need carls JR...
Sunday, 19 August 2007
today, a sunday where i went to church solo again.
had a great lunch at yoshinoya in taka.
den went on to buy presents for twins...
haha.
e prob with buying presents for twins is tat u hav to come up with something similar for them both(at least tats wat i think)
its quite fun though.
haha
yeah n i got myself a new pair of pants!
n it costs me 80bucks
haha so ex
but still, i havent really bought any new clothes for a loooooong loooong time.
n i really mean LONG time.
so now im back home, hopefully can try to finish up my 'testing' pic done on photoshop.
heres a preview:
yep its really tough to make it look nice.
coz there r still many flaws in it.
its jus e eye.
e lips r sooo much harder to paint!!!
e hair tooo!!
wah. tough tough.
gotta prac more
had a great lunch at yoshinoya in taka.
den went on to buy presents for twins...
haha.
e prob with buying presents for twins is tat u hav to come up with something similar for them both(at least tats wat i think)
its quite fun though.
haha
yeah n i got myself a new pair of pants!
n it costs me 80bucks
haha so ex
but still, i havent really bought any new clothes for a loooooong loooong time.
n i really mean LONG time.
so now im back home, hopefully can try to finish up my 'testing' pic done on photoshop.
heres a preview:
yep its really tough to make it look nice.
coz there r still many flaws in it.
its jus e eye.
e lips r sooo much harder to paint!!!
e hair tooo!!
wah. tough tough.
gotta prac more
Saturday, 11 August 2007
wow,
i finally had my 1st accident on my bike today...
my thoughts?
well, it was actually kinda fun.
though its abit painful,
coz there are more scratches on my bike n my helmet!
wah!!!
hahaha
my body only suffered a few scratches here n there.
but it aint as bad as i tot it wld b.
compared to my instructor course + 1 yr of shouting to recruits + demonstrations,
it didnt even come close!
sad...
now my bike signal lights went 'poof'
n my right foot brake is abit 'sang-eh'
haha,
n now my mirrors hav both cracked!
cool...
yeah, wat happened was actu me going to e bike shop in alexandra to renew my insurance n bike road tax.
so i forced my bro to go with me.
den like my bro is those type of hazardous road devil..
so on e way back he did e same thing.
chiongabit alot den slow dwn wait for me like wanna haolian like tat.
so we came to this cross junction when e light turned amber den like my bro was ahead of me so i chiong abit while he slowed down n jammed brake.
so end result = i almost hit him frm behind so i swerved right n mu signal lights(e far left of my bike) hit somepart of his bike den i fishtailed n skidded abit in e middle of e junction.
yeah.
but seriously,
e fall was kinda fun though.
reminded me of my close combat technique (side breakfall).
sad... my helmet scratched haha.
but imagine if i jammed brake, i wld hav hit my bro's bike n we both kana.
den i would have flyed like superman. lol
thank God i skidded instead n was wearing a full-face helmet.
ok time to go my fren's church le.
cya n take care.
oh ya,
bikes are dangerous.
heee.
i finally had my 1st accident on my bike today...
my thoughts?
well, it was actually kinda fun.
though its abit painful,
coz there are more scratches on my bike n my helmet!
wah!!!
hahaha
my body only suffered a few scratches here n there.
but it aint as bad as i tot it wld b.
compared to my instructor course + 1 yr of shouting to recruits + demonstrations,
it didnt even come close!
sad...
now my bike signal lights went 'poof'
n my right foot brake is abit 'sang-eh'
haha,
n now my mirrors hav both cracked!
cool...
yeah, wat happened was actu me going to e bike shop in alexandra to renew my insurance n bike road tax.
so i forced my bro to go with me.
den like my bro is those type of hazardous road devil..
so on e way back he did e same thing.
chiong
so we came to this cross junction when e light turned amber den like my bro was ahead of me so i chiong abit while he slowed down n jammed brake.
so end result = i almost hit him frm behind so i swerved right n mu signal lights(e far left of my bike) hit somepart of his bike den i fishtailed n skidded abit in e middle of e junction.
yeah.
but seriously,
e fall was kinda fun though.
reminded me of my close combat technique (side breakfall).
sad... my helmet scratched haha.
but imagine if i jammed brake, i wld hav hit my bro's bike n we both kana.
den i would have flyed like superman. lol
thank God i skidded instead n was wearing a full-face helmet.
ok time to go my fren's church le.
cya n take care.
oh ya,
bikes are dangerous.
heee.
Sunday, 5 August 2007
Utada Hikaru - Final Distance
jus come across e history of this song...
really sad.
" 'Distance' originally appeared in the Distance album, and was planned to be released as a single. However, Utada heard of a school stabbing rampage in which schoolgirl Reina Yamashita (山下玲奈) had died. Reina had previously won an essay competition; writing about how she wanted to become a singer just like Utada. Utada decided to change the song entirely, creating the song "FINAL DISTANCE". The Japanese Ministry of Education decided to incorporate Utada Hikaru's ballad "FINAL DISTANCE" in the high school music textbook starting spring semester 2001, which was announced on 8th of April. In order to pass the proposal, they needed 313 points. The proposal was passed with 319 points. They will be targeting high school students in their second year to test the new curriculum. According to the publisher of arts in education, the song was chosen because it is closely familiar with high school students. "
really sad.
" 'Distance' originally appeared in the Distance album, and was planned to be released as a single. However, Utada heard of a school stabbing rampage in which schoolgirl Reina Yamashita (山下玲奈) had died. Reina had previously won an essay competition; writing about how she wanted to become a singer just like Utada. Utada decided to change the song entirely, creating the song "FINAL DISTANCE". The Japanese Ministry of Education decided to incorporate Utada Hikaru's ballad "FINAL DISTANCE" in the high school music textbook starting spring semester 2001, which was announced on 8th of April. In order to pass the proposal, they needed 313 points. The proposal was passed with 319 points. They will be targeting high school students in their second year to test the new curriculum. According to the publisher of arts in education, the song was chosen because it is closely familiar with high school students. "
Saturday, 4 August 2007
another boring day where i shout at e top of my voice at all these ppl...
argh
n now im left with yet another voice-less day...
how fun
been leaving earlier these few days so its kinda like give n take.
oh well...
ive been staying home for like few weeks now.
havent been out with frens or wat for bout a mth le i guess.
wat to do...
im anti social.
haha jus kidding
yeah but staying at home allowed me to watch lotsa animes n mangas...
like 1 manga called "Lilim Kiss", where a dream devil survives by sucking energy frm guys thru kissing...
yeah n ive started to watch Hana Kimi (not e Ella version but e jap 1)
i feel tat its much nicer den e taiwanese version.
forgot wats it called..
well at least e main lead is much cuter den ella
haha
IM STUCK AT HOME!!!!
but i dun really care anw.
yeah im weird.
i guess i'll need a new stylus pen, a thinner 1 to start drawing...
very impt!
e default 1 im using is kinda thick.
suitable for navigation on my com but not drawing.
guess i'll come up with something soon coz i still owe sm a pic rite?
hopefully its an original piece by me which i seldom draw though (i cant draw well wat...)
got nth better to do;
i'll insert a song tat i feel is kinda soothing,
Hikari (instrumental) by Utada Hikaru
[its called 'Simple and Clean' in USA]
argh
n now im left with yet another voice-less day...
how fun
been leaving earlier these few days so its kinda like give n take.
oh well...
ive been staying home for like few weeks now.
havent been out with frens or wat for bout a mth le i guess.
wat to do...
im anti social.
haha jus kidding
yeah but staying at home allowed me to watch lotsa animes n mangas...
like 1 manga called "Lilim Kiss", where a dream devil survives by sucking energy frm guys thru kissing...
yeah n ive started to watch Hana Kimi (not e Ella version but e jap 1)
i feel tat its much nicer den e taiwanese version.
forgot wats it called..
well at least e main lead is much cuter den ella
haha
IM STUCK AT HOME!!!!
but i dun really care anw.
yeah im weird.
i guess i'll need a new stylus pen, a thinner 1 to start drawing...
very impt!
e default 1 im using is kinda thick.
suitable for navigation on my com but not drawing.
guess i'll come up with something soon coz i still owe sm a pic rite?
hopefully its an original piece by me which i seldom draw though (i cant draw well wat...)
got nth better to do;
i'll insert a song tat i feel is kinda soothing,
Hikari (instrumental) by Utada Hikaru
[its called 'Simple and Clean' in USA]
Saturday, 28 July 2007
Friday, 20 July 2007
yeah, it looks like SF was ok...
seems she had some emo disorder or something n cant help but pop 20 panadols.
thank God she jus had vomitting n stomach pains.
no real threat to her body.
yep.
phew
cant believe i somehow managed to see her earlier in e aftnoon instead of evening.
*details unable to be divulged*
yeah... den i saw her back home n went for a mini tea break.
chit chat a bit den went home le.
ytd took urgent leave in e aftnoon aft class to go my senior's house to play XBOX360!!!!
it was totally stunning!
coz like he bought a 'Guitar Heroes' guitar controller game plus 2 more games all at e same time!
tats like close to 300!
wow he sure is rich...
yep.
tat game is soooo fun coz u can play songs on e guitar to famous songs like 'sweet child of mine' n others tat ive nvr heard of.
its like those music games tat tests ur reaction n psycho-motor skills.
kinda like my style
haha.
well of coz,
nth beats a gd day rest aft uve psyched out ur mind n body over a gruesome 5 hour continuous strain.
but b4 tat, i had a fun time introducing my little game-addicted cousin to a new game tat partially warded him from e com.
its called F.irst E.ncounter A.ssault R.econ.
it is a regular first person shooter kinda game tat has a theme based on e sixth sense.
yeah...
it totally freaked my cousin out!
haha.
results were somewat successful.
he only played e parts where there were shooting involved,
not those where he had to navigate though dark dark corridors that looked like silent hill(before it was dusk)
conclusion: this game deters players, esp those of a weak heart, frm playing excessively when u limit him to playin only this game. ahahaha
yeah, today can stay whole day at home coz i took leave for e whole day for no reason.
haha.
AND, tml i gotta go run at ECP again!
NOOoooOOOOOooOOOO......
this time its 16km.
hope i wun jus fall flat aft i complete.
16km.
sounds pretty loong.
sigh
seems she had some emo disorder or something n cant help but pop 20 panadols.
thank God she jus had vomitting n stomach pains.
no real threat to her body.
yep.
phew
cant believe i somehow managed to see her earlier in e aftnoon instead of evening.
*details unable to be divulged*
yeah... den i saw her back home n went for a mini tea break.
chit chat a bit den went home le.
ytd took urgent leave in e aftnoon aft class to go my senior's house to play XBOX360!!!!
it was totally stunning!
coz like he bought a 'Guitar Heroes' guitar controller game plus 2 more games all at e same time!
tats like close to 300!
wow he sure is rich...
yep.
tat game is soooo fun coz u can play songs on e guitar to famous songs like 'sweet child of mine' n others tat ive nvr heard of.
its like those music games tat tests ur reaction n psycho-motor skills.
kinda like my style
haha.
well of coz,
nth beats a gd day rest aft uve psyched out ur mind n body over a gruesome 5 hour continuous strain.
but b4 tat, i had a fun time introducing my little game-addicted cousin to a new game tat partially warded him from e com.
its called F.irst E.ncounter A.ssault R.econ.
it is a regular first person shooter kinda game tat has a theme based on e sixth sense.
yeah...
it totally freaked my cousin out!
haha.
results were somewat successful.
he only played e parts where there were shooting involved,
not those where he had to navigate though dark dark corridors that looked like silent hill(before it was dusk)
conclusion: this game deters players, esp those of a weak heart, frm playing excessively when u limit him to playin only this game. ahahaha
yeah, today can stay whole day at home coz i took leave for e whole day for no reason.
haha.
AND, tml i gotta go run at ECP again!
NOOoooOOOOOooOOOO......
this time its 16km.
hope i wun jus fall flat aft i complete.
16km.
sounds pretty loong.
sigh
Tuesday, 17 July 2007
Sunday, 15 July 2007
'now now...
14km wasnt so bad was it?'
14km wasnt so bad was it?'
tat was wat i had tot til i actu ran it...
its even comical to even start with.
the rest of e group had a headstart of bout 2 mins plus!
how come?
well coz i had an unexpected bout with my nature call which i was beaten hands down.
no choice there.
yep we had to run from carpark B2 to F2 if u actu noe how far it is,
n aft tat do a u-turn n run back.
it was undoubtedly hard at first,
knowing tat u r being left behind, with no 1 to run with.
n if u look real far ahead,
u can see e slow runners jus barely at the horizon.
mentally challenging...
oh well no choice but to jus run n run.
tats all to it.
brainless running.
yupp n soon before i noe it,
aft 5 mins i had caught up with e last 2 runners.
my boss n terence.
my boss n terence.
hahaha
yup n soon soon, i had overtaken them
hahaha
so fun.
yeah i guess tats e thrill of a marathon ya?
yeah i guess tats e thrill of a marathon ya?
i met quite a lot of my OCS trainees there too!
i guess it was ard 2 companies if im not wrong.
more on tat later.
yeah.
getting to e turning point was easy.
but not the other way round.
in fact,
i believe the briefing announced tat there was some water point there too but apparently when i got there...
yeah, doesnt need any explanations,
obviously there wasnt any.
so i ended up not drinking at all for the entire 14km.
oh well wat the heck,
i dun even drink plain water anw...
yup.
i was planning to catch up to tat female exercise scientist(yeah they really exist) who joined us for e 14km run instead of e 16km which the entire 9th Division was running.
but yeah,
truth is,
she was sooooo far ahead,
i only saw her like 500m from e turning point in e other direction.
so MALU!
hahaa
nvm i got excuses(toilet break!!!)
*heee*
*heee*
yep as i said,
the return journey was much much worse.
wat u feel is not only e strain on ur feet bout oso in my mind!!!
its a psychological challenge from here on!
its hard to keep ur sanity in this condition.
u'll jus break down!
tats wat almost happened to me for every other run tats more den 10km.
"patience is a virtue, but im afraid i do not possess it"
u'll keep thinking of e end point,
how far it is,
how far u've ran,
how much longer it takes,
how u ended up in this miserable n pathetic state?
yeah,
fortunately i had my 200+ worth of songs in my hands.
naturally,
its e only way to kill tat boredom while u run.
n yeah
remem those ocs trainees i saw?
at first they were doing their warmup,
on e way back,
they were running towards me...
yeah so i had no choice but to face about more den 50+ of their faces...
n..
n..
their usual reactions of a close combat instructor:
1) 'FRONT BREAKFALL!!!'
2) 'GOOD DAY!!!'
3) 'HIIIAAAAH!'
wat to do...
aiyoz...
i didnt noe we were so etched in their minds like these...
oh wellz,
sooner den i expected(not really, i was very expectant of this)
i reached the finishing line with a timing of 1hr 12 mins 28 secs.
well i think tats quite gd enough,
thinking tat i was e 1st to reach back,
out of our 'outcasted' grp of 6 instructors in e midst of 30 PTIs.
well, y am i 1st?
e 3 very 'garang' ppl ran 16 km with e rest while e slower, more 'chao keng' ppl ran 14km(n tat includes me btw)which we were supposed to run.
SO tat makes me e 1st!
wheee!!!
well, 1:12hrs divided by 14km would mean ard 5mins per km...
n e passing time required for us wld b 6 mins per km...
hmm i think tats fast enough.
haha
phew...
well, imagine if u had to meet e deadline of 2hrs 45mins for e actual 21km...
i think i wld roughly finish by 2hrs 20 mins if u do e maths correctly.
well mayb im wrong coz i havent touched maths for a looooong time.
if u r so free,
do the maths for me n tell me if im rite k?
-next chapter-
-next chapter-
wow, i didnt expect to meet yushi during e 'outing'.
even less to see a short-haired yushi!
wow,
jus imagine her in tat outfit,
with a bigger bag,
n a sketchpad in hand.
she looks like some budding artist!
SO COOL!
yup n sry shimin,
i forgot tat we had to go vegetarian.
my apologies.
really sorry i forgot bout u. =P
yeah,
we had a greeat time at pastamania,
ok another apology:
sorry to yushi if u ever see this blog,
really sorry to take ur dish by mistake,
n even pouring lotsa cheese over it.
haha.
oops.
lets see if i remem:
i ate carbonara,
yushi ate creamy chicken,
shimin ate al funghi,
winnie ate chicken bolognese,
wei liang too,
n erm fabius...
hmm was it tat prawn n 'something' dish?
haha i forgot.
hey!
cheese n pasta really rocks!
n its cheese as in really a mountain of cheese,
not jus a speckle!
mayb u guys shd try adding tobasco too!
adds to e taste.
yum yum
n yeah dun complain bout me eating e real-slowest.
its e way to enjoy n savour ur food to e max k!
e spinning of e pasta too!
erm somehow it adds to e flavour (i think?)
haha
oh wellz...
n oh ,
3rd apology:
sorry winnie for deleting tat uber ugly pic of me which u claimed was e only photo taken at pastamania.
sorry winnie for deleting tat uber ugly pic of me which u claimed was e only photo taken at pastamania.
im really sorry.
it was really 'accidental'
REALLY!
*heeeee*
yup n aft our fantastic meal,
we went for muddy mud pie n 'teh ping' n 'kopi ping' and erm iced mocha vanilla n banana milkshake n a glass of 60cent iced water at tat 'coffee shop'
yep its e place where fabius whipped out his metrosexual jap magazine,
which didnt fail to impress us!
heres e pic!
heres e pic!
hahaha he's so engrossed in it.
oh yeah n here's the sneak pic i took of winnie
hehehe. i cant remem wat she was doing.
n here's e '2 dif worlds' pic by winnie.
haha
its kinda hard to comprehend the meaning though...
-next chapter-
yeah we went to JB aft tat!
did lotsa stuff on my bike...
replaced e spoilt bulbs,
tightened my chain,
n fixed my left footrest tat was kinda spoilt too due to e fall during tat saturday fellowship.
yep somehow, i made my bosses wait quite a long time due to e mechanics not being able to find e fault of my lights blinking at e wrong time.
yep, i went with my 2 bosses!
n here's a pic tat my direct boss told me to shoot of e other boss!
hahaha,
said i could blackmail an off day with tat!
heres it!
hopefully i can blackmail him b4 he executes his lightning fast kicks on me.
oops!
n tats how i left at 1045pm n reached home at 2am...
zzzz.
-bonus chapter-
oh i think i jus beat e red light today!
oh no!
Friday, 13 July 2007
Army half marathon training...
hmmm. lets see...
tml's schedule:
645am - run at east coast park for 14km.. (shag...)
9am - better be home by den coz my erp unit is spoilt and erp starts at 9
*sleep*
3pm - find a way ard orchard with erp gantrys if not hav to go repair shop
*repair*
6pm - hav dinner with 04s26 classmates! (jus a few though..)
9pm - go to jb to topup petrol and fix faults of bike?
12am - reach home
*sleep......zzzz*
yup basically tats it...
whee wat a fun day.
nitez
tml's schedule:
645am - run at east coast park for 14km.. (shag...)
9am - better be home by den coz my erp unit is spoilt and erp starts at 9
*sleep*
3pm - find a way ard orchard with erp gantrys if not hav to go repair shop
*repair*
6pm - hav dinner with 04s26 classmates! (jus a few though..)
9pm - go to jb to topup petrol and fix faults of bike?
12am - reach home
*sleep......zzzz*
yup basically tats it...
whee wat a fun day.
nitez
Tuesday, 10 July 2007
blog v5
wow i finally updated my blog skin
haha.
kinda happy.
wheee~
lol, ive got nth better to do i guess...
yup its fun to create it urself...
haha.
kinda happy.
wheee~
lol, ive got nth better to do i guess...
yup its fun to create it urself...
Thursday, 21 June 2007
oooh yeah.
yup, ive found out y it was being cut off.
apparently...
e phone line was being burnt by e iron tat was left beside it!
no wonder i could access e net but not e phone.
cool huh.
nvr knew such stuff like tat could happen.
well...
ive finally gotten my new com.
am using it at this instance.
n it costs 3.3k!
wow! now tats really expensive.
but its a good investment i hope
haha.
well wat i wanted to do with this com, u ask?
i jus hope tat i can use i to its fullest capabilities...
n tat it could guide me all e way thru my uni.
now wats left tat i need is an adobe-like software tat i can edit or create stuff with all my unused creative juices tat were left stagnant up there.
yup, im still finding 1 so tat i can change this weird backgrd of my blog...
haiz... my lollipop...
*sigh*
my dad ate it?
i really think its absurd.
i mean wat for?
to create more space in e fridge?
but it doesnt even take up as much space as a milk carton, does it?
i think he's crazy...
come on...
who else throws away ur dearly beloved pillow n bolster when u're away n make up excuses by saying, "oh its dirty. throw."
zzzz
so i shd reply by saying, " oh u r not giving me respect, i tthrow u?"
i cant rite?
of coz i cant.
im a good christian boy... (or am i?)
but seriously...
i've lost so many stuff dear to me since i was young.
lost them without any consciousness tat it was even missing...
back to e lollipop...
its well kinda precious to me coz...
it has a meaning behind it.
(yeah i guess im overly sentimental but tats not e point)
it was e only material item given to me with e hope tat it would cheer me up when was sad...
but many times i wanted to taste it, i jus cant bear to eat it...
haha
yeah im stupid.
now its gone, of coz i'll miss it...
luckily theres 1 thing left in e fridge tats still intact...
haha
my box of chocs i received during christmas last year.
hopefully he doesnt find it....
shhhh.
oh yeah.
guess wat?
Da BAT is in da house!
nono, not batman...
its a baby bat.
hee.
its really cute!
i found it in OCS in a drain being picked on by many red ants...
well, seeing it in such pain, i jus couldnt bear to leave it in e lurch.
it really wwas a hard time getting rid of them all...
they(red ants) were so persistent tat even aft we killed them, e head was still biting it!
how cruel...
aft a gruelling 15mins, all were exterminated by us!
HAH!
but now thres a new prob.
wheres e mother??
we cant find it anywhere near...
so aft a debate here n there we decide to bring it home to 'rear' it.
so yeah.
it sure does make alot of noise at nite...
fortunately theres something called a 'door'.
n my fren is supposed to collect it frm me today coz i cant poss keep it in my house.
my mom is alreeady making much more noise den e bat itself.
n i dun hav any apples for it to feed on!
(if it really eats apple n not blood though).
u noe... recently im like so being targeted...
big boss finds me sleeping in office twice this week.
hopefully there r no stunts up his sleeve.
n today, ive been arrowed to be a taebo(some kickboxing, muscle straining exercise) assistant.
fortunately e plan to get me on stage doing tat strenous workout was thwarted by e higher powers.
phew...
i dun need to go up stage tml morn!
wahaha!
yup, final thing.
yeah its always bout food aint it?
finally went to this botak jones as they call it.
wat it seems to me is much more like a cheapo but good tasting western food stall in a coffeeshop.
n e portions tat they give r soooo great, its hard to finish them all!
any, thaanksfor e treat ya SERENE?
=]
oh n i hope u enjoyed ur soggy cheese fries aft u got home. =X
n i really thank u for e initiative to clarify stuff with me...
appreciate it.
well i guess... really no more chance???
heeee, im jus kidding.
oh yeah ive finally completed e CHOBITS series.
tats really nice n heartwarming
haha
well, like any other show, it creates new sights n ideas tat will keep u questioning bout it..
like these kinda shows.
alrighty den, i'll end this post here.
hopefully my 120gb pocket media drive will b delivered soon.
its been 3 weeks!!!!
yup, ive found out y it was being cut off.
apparently...
e phone line was being burnt by e iron tat was left beside it!
no wonder i could access e net but not e phone.
cool huh.
nvr knew such stuff like tat could happen.
well...
ive finally gotten my new com.
am using it at this instance.
n it costs 3.3k!
wow! now tats really expensive.
but its a good investment i hope
haha.
well wat i wanted to do with this com, u ask?
i jus hope tat i can use i to its fullest capabilities...
n tat it could guide me all e way thru my uni.
now wats left tat i need is an adobe-like software tat i can edit or create stuff with all my unused creative juices tat were left stagnant up there.
yup, im still finding 1 so tat i can change this weird backgrd of my blog...
haiz... my lollipop...
*sigh*
my dad ate it?
i really think its absurd.
i mean wat for?
to create more space in e fridge?
but it doesnt even take up as much space as a milk carton, does it?
i think he's crazy...
come on...
who else throws away ur dearly beloved pillow n bolster when u're away n make up excuses by saying, "oh its dirty. throw."
zzzz
so i shd reply by saying, " oh u r not giving me respect, i tthrow u?"
i cant rite?
of coz i cant.
im a good christian boy... (or am i?)
but seriously...
i've lost so many stuff dear to me since i was young.
lost them without any consciousness tat it was even missing...
back to e lollipop...
its well kinda precious to me coz...
it has a meaning behind it.
(yeah i guess im overly sentimental but tats not e point)
it was e only material item given to me with e hope tat it would cheer me up when was sad...
but many times i wanted to taste it, i jus cant bear to eat it...
haha
yeah im stupid.
now its gone, of coz i'll miss it...
luckily theres 1 thing left in e fridge tats still intact...
haha
my box of chocs i received during christmas last year.
hopefully he doesnt find it....
shhhh.
oh yeah.
guess wat?
Da BAT is in da house!
nono, not batman...
its a baby bat.
hee.
its really cute!
i found it in OCS in a drain being picked on by many red ants...
well, seeing it in such pain, i jus couldnt bear to leave it in e lurch.
it really wwas a hard time getting rid of them all...
they(red ants) were so persistent tat even aft we killed them, e head was still biting it!
how cruel...
aft a gruelling 15mins, all were exterminated by us!
HAH!
but now thres a new prob.
wheres e mother??
we cant find it anywhere near...
so aft a debate here n there we decide to bring it home to 'rear' it.
so yeah.
it sure does make alot of noise at nite...
fortunately theres something called a 'door'.
n my fren is supposed to collect it frm me today coz i cant poss keep it in my house.
my mom is alreeady making much more noise den e bat itself.
n i dun hav any apples for it to feed on!
(if it really eats apple n not blood though).
u noe... recently im like so being targeted...
big boss finds me sleeping in office twice this week.
hopefully there r no stunts up his sleeve.
n today, ive been arrowed to be a taebo(some kickboxing, muscle straining exercise) assistant.
fortunately e plan to get me on stage doing tat strenous workout was thwarted by e higher powers.
phew...
i dun need to go up stage tml morn!
wahaha!
yup, final thing.
yeah its always bout food aint it?
finally went to this botak jones as they call it.
wat it seems to me is much more like a cheapo but good tasting western food stall in a coffeeshop.
n e portions tat they give r soooo great, its hard to finish them all!
any, thaanksfor e treat ya SERENE?
=]
oh n i hope u enjoyed ur soggy cheese fries aft u got home. =X
n i really thank u for e initiative to clarify stuff with me...
appreciate it.
well i guess... really no more chance???
heeee, im jus kidding.
oh yeah ive finally completed e CHOBITS series.
tats really nice n heartwarming
haha
well, like any other show, it creates new sights n ideas tat will keep u questioning bout it..
like these kinda shows.
alrighty den, i'll end this post here.
hopefully my 120gb pocket media drive will b delivered soon.
its been 3 weeks!!!!
Saturday, 9 June 2007
Thursday, 26 April 2007
Wednesday, 11 April 2007
this ain't a scene, its a TRAGEDY
i had e scariest nightmare every in my entire lifetime.
all summarised 2 nights ago.
n y e scariest?
coz i had bout 6 of e worst case scenarios happening to me all combined in e same dream.
1) bike stopped at traffc light. bro called for 'me' to hurry home. pedestrian went forth to "disturb" 'me' to get revenge.(?)
2)'me' got off bike. chased after pedestrian. ran many blocks. forgot bout bike. bike was clamped. went to see TP. had to wait til 1159 for them to process e papers.
took their time to decorate e paper. handed to 'me' a tad later.
3) reached home void deck. saw ypf members sitting in a circle eating packed lunch. ignored 'me' somehow.
4) some1's funeral. (my grandma's??? hope not)
5) saw her with another guy. 'nuff said.
6) handed 'me' back a pair of rings. i assume its 'our' "attachment rings"(or wateva u call them). took my right hand n placed 1 thru 'my' middle finger.(shdnt it b my left hand?)
it left me stunned after i awoke.
i was jus devoid of emotions, feelings, energy, yada yada.
somehow i wasnt really scared or wat.
jus sorta brain dead.
tats wierd.
ahh wateva.
its jus a dream...
or was it?
being called back to hq on mon to draw stuff.
y me?
i suck at drawing.
argh.
all summarised 2 nights ago.
n y e scariest?
coz i had bout 6 of e worst case scenarios happening to me all combined in e same dream.
1) bike stopped at traffc light. bro called for 'me' to hurry home. pedestrian went forth to "disturb" 'me' to get revenge.(?)
2)'me' got off bike. chased after pedestrian. ran many blocks. forgot bout bike. bike was clamped. went to see TP. had to wait til 1159 for them to process e papers.
took their time to decorate e paper. handed to 'me' a tad later.
3) reached home void deck. saw ypf members sitting in a circle eating packed lunch. ignored 'me' somehow.
4) some1's funeral. (my grandma's??? hope not)
5) saw her with another guy. 'nuff said.
6) handed 'me' back a pair of rings. i assume its 'our' "attachment rings"(or wateva u call them). took my right hand n placed 1 thru 'my' middle finger.(shdnt it b my left hand?)
it left me stunned after i awoke.
i was jus devoid of emotions, feelings, energy, yada yada.
somehow i wasnt really scared or wat.
jus sorta brain dead.
tats wierd.
ahh wateva.
its jus a dream...
or was it?
being called back to hq on mon to draw stuff.
y me?
i suck at drawing.
argh.
Sunday, 8 April 2007
i feel weird today...
totally off course.
n im not so sure y...
i feel lotsa diff emotions welling up inside of me...
im confused.
confused by myself.
i dunno wat i want.
i dunno wat im thinking.
i jus feel weird...
i think i really am going crazy...
well, iits a sooner or later matter by itself.
even if it doesnt come now,
itll creep in into my mind sometime.
in fact its already in my genes.
my family's mad.
not as in my immediate or wat but yeah,
they really are kinda crazy.
and its tat potent mixture of crazy type of crazy.
totally venomous.
am i like tat already?
hmm i wonder...
i guess i need to see a doc.
there's my brain, my heart n my body to b examined.
3 things.
seems a little troublesome dont u think?
y not jus let me absorb e blow of a full fledged accident to my head when i fly off my bike.
will tat solve everything?
i hope so...
im beginning to hate myself more n more.'
well, not only this guy.
but also almost every1 else.
yeah im crazy...
hate them for any reason.
hate them for no reason.
hate them for e wrong reason.
n i dunno y.
yeah, ive become a hater myself.
a threat to e world.
ppl shd jus annihilate me...
dear God,
where's my loud music n punching bag...?
totally off course.
n im not so sure y...
i feel lotsa diff emotions welling up inside of me...
im confused.
confused by myself.
i dunno wat i want.
i dunno wat im thinking.
i jus feel weird...
i think i really am going crazy...
well, iits a sooner or later matter by itself.
even if it doesnt come now,
itll creep in into my mind sometime.
in fact its already in my genes.
my family's mad.
not as in my immediate or wat but yeah,
they really are kinda crazy.
and its tat potent mixture of crazy type of crazy.
totally venomous.
am i like tat already?
hmm i wonder...
i guess i need to see a doc.
there's my brain, my heart n my body to b examined.
3 things.
seems a little troublesome dont u think?
y not jus let me absorb e blow of a full fledged accident to my head when i fly off my bike.
will tat solve everything?
i hope so...
im beginning to hate myself more n more.'
well, not only this guy.
but also almost every1 else.
yeah im crazy...
hate them for any reason.
hate them for no reason.
hate them for e wrong reason.
n i dunno y.
yeah, ive become a hater myself.
a threat to e world.
ppl shd jus annihilate me...
dear God,
where's my loud music n punching bag...?
Sunday, 25 March 2007
Sunday, 4 March 2007
its been a long time since ive blogged...
yeah.
oh ya,
ive finally gotten hold of my license!
so im sorta free free to go wherever i please!!!
heh heh!
hmm
wat has interested me these few days is a really nice show,
a jap drama called"nodame cantabile"
basically an orchestra drama bout ....
hmm y not u watch it for urself n tell me how it is?
i'll give it bout 9.5/10 !!!
0.5 less coz its only 11episodes long(or rather short)
yep.
kinda gotten hanged onto it
hehe
its super dramatic n so aesthetically inclined tat it made me feel like pickin up piano!
yep.
hav an off tml coz of e Army Career Exhibition on fri, sat n today.
but i din go today coz its a sun!
sun is Sabbath day!
yaaay!
haha
oh well, i hav to go back to my show watchin soon enough.
cya!!!
yeah.
oh ya,
ive finally gotten hold of my license!
so im sorta free free to go wherever i please!!!
heh heh!
hmm
wat has interested me these few days is a really nice show,
a jap drama called"nodame cantabile"
basically an orchestra drama bout ....
hmm y not u watch it for urself n tell me how it is?
i'll give it bout 9.5/10 !!!
0.5 less coz its only 11episodes long(or rather short)
yep.
kinda gotten hanged onto it
hehe
its super dramatic n so aesthetically inclined tat it made me feel like pickin up piano!
yep.
hav an off tml coz of e Army Career Exhibition on fri, sat n today.
but i din go today coz its a sun!
sun is Sabbath day!
yaaay!
haha
oh well, i hav to go back to my show watchin soon enough.
cya!!!
Thursday, 22 February 2007
chi new year...
another boring hols with nth much to do...
jus plainly slackin ard.
in fact,
ive only went to 4houses in total this yr.
how boring.
aneeways, yeah,
next TP test is on e 28th...
hope i wun fail again.
n spend another 100 bucks which really is suckin me of my money
yeah
went to NUH again on 21st jus ytd.
hmmm this time at least i didnt really waste my time.'
not like tat time go there jus for a blood test.
ytd i went for an xray
finally progress on my ailment.
oh ya,
not forgetting tat i had a fun time going to both ser n roy's houses ytd.
yeah
tooo bad i couldnt join tie for cycling at ecp.
k fast forward to today.
really terrible terrible terrible day.
Military Police came to my unit
caught me with a camera handphone.
n yeah
of coz its a terrible thing.
its a contraband item
n its banned!
argh,
if only i hadnt went back to my locker room n instead jus hideaway at e toilet.
i think i would escape this fate.
if only i hadnt put it into my bag this morningwhile rushin for work
argh...
i guess this is e worse ever scenario ive ever encountered in my life..
oh no...
wat am i gonna do...
jus hope no charges are pressed against me...
Lord save me!
another boring hols with nth much to do...
jus plainly slackin ard.
in fact,
ive only went to 4houses in total this yr.
how boring.
aneeways, yeah,
next TP test is on e 28th...
hope i wun fail again.
n spend another 100 bucks which really is suckin me of my money
yeah
went to NUH again on 21st jus ytd.
hmmm this time at least i didnt really waste my time.'
not like tat time go there jus for a blood test.
ytd i went for an xray
finally progress on my ailment.
oh ya,
not forgetting tat i had a fun time going to both ser n roy's houses ytd.
yeah
tooo bad i couldnt join tie for cycling at ecp.
k fast forward to today.
really terrible terrible terrible day.
Military Police came to my unit
caught me with a camera handphone.
n yeah
of coz its a terrible thing.
its a contraband item
n its banned!
argh,
if only i hadnt went back to my locker room n instead jus hideaway at e toilet.
i think i would escape this fate.
if only i hadnt put it into my bag this morningwhile rushin for work
argh...
i guess this is e worse ever scenario ive ever encountered in my life..
oh no...
wat am i gonna do...
jus hope no charges are pressed against me...
Lord save me!
Tuesday, 6 February 2007
TEA(RED)
lalalaalala...
my Traffic Police Riding Test is on 12 Feb.
yup jus a few more days!
sadly, i missed my practice lesson ytd!
all coz my gastric suddenly came to.
at first i tot it was jus air in my stomach, n aft a few visits to e toilet, it wld subside.
but it didnt.
in fact it got worse...
e pain became unbearable for me to even stand up straight.
i was in e toilet since like 730 til 815.
all e while jus squattin beside e toilet plate n endurin e pain.
somehow i felt like vomitin at e same time too.
but well i didnt, perhaps coz i din eat much for dinner.
so i asked my sis to accompany me to e doc n he prescribed me as havin food poisonin n even suspected appendicitis coz i oso had a pain on e bottom rite of my abdomen.
before tat he allowed me to borrow a bed to lie on.
fortunately, for without e bed, i would be jus sittin on e chair n clutchin my knees.
love e bed to bits.
could squirm in peace til i jus died there.
haha kiddin.
but it(the pain) was 1 of a kind.
it was severely acute. n e moment i shifted my body, e pain increased.
ya til i dunno when, i jus kinda fell asleep there.
when i woke up, everything was much better.
ya, n he told me to go for a follow up check-up this morning.
n ya, e pain was still there, e one on e bottom right.
n so he referred me to NUH A&E.
cool huh?
like how often do u go there.
blablabla(skippin all e paperwork n stuff)
e 1st doc jus took my blood for testin n found everythin to b normal.
so SHE told me to stay in a ward for more observation.
den e clerk said tat e ward would take bout 5 - 6 hours to b ready.
n like tat time was 5plus le.
so she advised me to go home pack my stuff to stay in.
so i went to my aunts house at Clementi to jus sit ard instead coz i already packed them.
den at 7 another doctor called me n kinda scolded me for wandering off without permission.
being wronged again, haha
yeah
so on e phone HE told me tat i didnt need to stay over(perhaps not enough beds?)
n asked me to go for another checkup on thur to make sure it was/wasnt appendicitis coz it could still be in its early stages, symptomless.
so ya,
here i am, back at home typing away aft not typing at this same page for like 3 plus weeks...
n i hav another ridin practice tml...
yeah.
MC til thurs!!!!
my Traffic Police Riding Test is on 12 Feb.
yup jus a few more days!
sadly, i missed my practice lesson ytd!
all coz my gastric suddenly came to.
at first i tot it was jus air in my stomach, n aft a few visits to e toilet, it wld subside.
but it didnt.
in fact it got worse...
e pain became unbearable for me to even stand up straight.
i was in e toilet since like 730 til 815.
all e while jus squattin beside e toilet plate n endurin e pain.
somehow i felt like vomitin at e same time too.
but well i didnt, perhaps coz i din eat much for dinner.
so i asked my sis to accompany me to e doc n he prescribed me as havin food poisonin n even suspected appendicitis coz i oso had a pain on e bottom rite of my abdomen.
before tat he allowed me to borrow a bed to lie on.
fortunately, for without e bed, i would be jus sittin on e chair n clutchin my knees.
love e bed to bits.
could squirm in peace til i jus died there.
haha kiddin.
but it(the pain) was 1 of a kind.
it was severely acute. n e moment i shifted my body, e pain increased.
ya til i dunno when, i jus kinda fell asleep there.
when i woke up, everything was much better.
ya, n he told me to go for a follow up check-up this morning.
n ya, e pain was still there, e one on e bottom right.
n so he referred me to NUH A&E.
cool huh?
like how often do u go there.
blablabla(skippin all e paperwork n stuff)
e 1st doc jus took my blood for testin n found everythin to b normal.
so SHE told me to stay in a ward for more observation.
den e clerk said tat e ward would take bout 5 - 6 hours to b ready.
n like tat time was 5plus le.
so she advised me to go home pack my stuff to stay in.
so i went to my aunts house at Clementi to jus sit ard instead coz i already packed them.
den at 7 another doctor called me n kinda scolded me for wandering off without permission.
being wronged again, haha
yeah
so on e phone HE told me tat i didnt need to stay over(perhaps not enough beds?)
n asked me to go for another checkup on thur to make sure it was/wasnt appendicitis coz it could still be in its early stages, symptomless.
so ya,
here i am, back at home typing away aft not typing at this same page for like 3 plus weeks...
n i hav another ridin practice tml...
yeah.
MC til thurs!!!!
Monday, 15 January 2007
hmm its been bout 2 weeks since i last blogged...
wat happened?
well, jus tat ive been super busy these days...
hav many units scheduled for lessons these few weeks.
in fact it nvr got finished somehow
when 1 was over, another 1 popped up.
yeah
no time to rest.
last fri evening i had to do my second guard duty.
all i did was stand at some spot for 2 hours 3 times
slept for like only 4 plus hours
den finished at 9am,
rushed to bbdc to get my provisional driving license,
den rushed back home to sleep
den woke up at 12 for a lesson at 130 at clementi camp on e same day.
yup super duper tiring...
n now i've got my hands busy again this week trying to teach lessons.
today my senior had a quarrel with some company today.
it was his 1st time teaching there n problems arose asap.
haha
well, mayb becoz he wasnt tat familiar with e scenarios ard here coz he came frm e offshore island pulau tekong.
yeah, e style of teachin is diff.
over there, u r king, wateva u ask them to do, they hav to follow.
over here at this forsaken camp of lim chu kang,
where e mono intakes of sch dropouts/bengs/ite bla bla blas all converge to form a unit.
well, he tried to discipline them by, well, e usual physical punishments.
n since they were already well-versed in all these exercises,
i roughly think they were havin fun being punished instead!
since my senior couldnt really control e class, he started hurling abuses here n there, trying to instill fear into them, but...
well it turned out otherwise.
tats where ME came into e picture...
well,
my senior n some soldier were already at loggerheads, with e aura of i-really-wanna-whack-u-into-bits surrounding them both...
yeah,
me n another officer literally tried to pull them apart but my senior jus shrugged me off...
somehow i sensed tat he knew wat he was doin n so i trusted him.
til finally i got a chance to say my piece.
PHEW!
yeah...
here comes e backgrd story:
i have been teaching them for e past 3 lessons,
n all this while i did not punish them even when they made much noise n i couldnt control them.
yeah
but coz of tat im happy tat at least i noe i had a connection with them.
aft i asked my senior to relax,
i began to talk to e men, my trainees.
guess wat they said,
"instructor, we see face one."
n
"we prefer you to teach us, instructor."
wah, i tell u,
e feeling is THERE man!
i was quite overwhelmed by wat they said...
haha
truthfully, i did...
so yeah, i came up with a cock n bull story to appease them of their sufferings and yeah, i hope they accepted it.
e best part comes here:
when i addresed them,
they replied with a super loudest ever "YES INSTRUCTOR!!!"
i den boosted their morale abit more before i handed e class back to my senior.
n,
when he addressed them, they replied with a much much softer shout!
woah,
den i tested them again,
n they shouted super loud again!
wah,
super biased man, i tell u.
but i really pity my senior.
guess i hav to teach them again tml ya?
even though i hav another lesson going on concurrently...
oh well, wat can i do,
they REALLY DO like me!
=]
oh yeah,
i jus got my PDL on sat,
so by tml onwards,
my riding lessons will b taken out to e public roads.
previously could only ride in e school premises...
oh well, i hope God will help me again!
very scared tat i'll screw up n spend lotsa time n money again!
haha
may e LORD help me!
wat happened?
well, jus tat ive been super busy these days...
hav many units scheduled for lessons these few weeks.
in fact it nvr got finished somehow
when 1 was over, another 1 popped up.
yeah
no time to rest.
last fri evening i had to do my second guard duty.
all i did was stand at some spot for 2 hours 3 times
slept for like only 4 plus hours
den finished at 9am,
rushed to bbdc to get my provisional driving license,
den rushed back home to sleep
den woke up at 12 for a lesson at 130 at clementi camp on e same day.
yup super duper tiring...
n now i've got my hands busy again this week trying to teach lessons.
today my senior had a quarrel with some company today.
it was his 1st time teaching there n problems arose asap.
haha
well, mayb becoz he wasnt tat familiar with e scenarios ard here coz he came frm e offshore island pulau tekong.
yeah, e style of teachin is diff.
over there, u r king, wateva u ask them to do, they hav to follow.
over here at this forsaken camp of lim chu kang,
where e mono intakes of sch dropouts/bengs/ite bla bla blas all converge to form a unit.
well, he tried to discipline them by, well, e usual physical punishments.
n since they were already well-versed in all these exercises,
i roughly think they were havin fun being punished instead!
since my senior couldnt really control e class, he started hurling abuses here n there, trying to instill fear into them, but...
well it turned out otherwise.
tats where ME came into e picture...
well,
my senior n some soldier were already at loggerheads, with e aura of i-really-wanna-whack-u-into-bits surrounding them both...
yeah,
me n another officer literally tried to pull them apart but my senior jus shrugged me off...
somehow i sensed tat he knew wat he was doin n so i trusted him.
til finally i got a chance to say my piece.
PHEW!
yeah...
here comes e backgrd story:
i have been teaching them for e past 3 lessons,
n all this while i did not punish them even when they made much noise n i couldnt control them.
yeah
but coz of tat im happy tat at least i noe i had a connection with them.
aft i asked my senior to relax,
i began to talk to e men, my trainees.
guess wat they said,
"instructor, we see face one."
n
"we prefer you to teach us, instructor."
wah, i tell u,
e feeling is THERE man!
i was quite overwhelmed by wat they said...
haha
truthfully, i did...
so yeah, i came up with a cock n bull story to appease them of their sufferings and yeah, i hope they accepted it.
e best part comes here:
when i addresed them,
they replied with a super loudest ever "YES INSTRUCTOR!!!"
i den boosted their morale abit more before i handed e class back to my senior.
n,
when he addressed them, they replied with a much much softer shout!
woah,
den i tested them again,
n they shouted super loud again!
wah,
super biased man, i tell u.
but i really pity my senior.
guess i hav to teach them again tml ya?
even though i hav another lesson going on concurrently...
oh well, wat can i do,
they REALLY DO like me!
=]
oh yeah,
i jus got my PDL on sat,
so by tml onwards,
my riding lessons will b taken out to e public roads.
previously could only ride in e school premises...
oh well, i hope God will help me again!
very scared tat i'll screw up n spend lotsa time n money again!
haha
may e LORD help me!
Tuesday, 2 January 2007
currently listening to_: The Veronicas - When It All Falls Apart
i not sure y im really feelin this way...
but i just feel
disposable.
feels like my presence is not needed
feels like im being taken for granted
feels like IM not really needed at all...
n even on e contrary,
im only needed
when ppl really need help when they hav no one else to turn to.
when they need someone to help them do their chores
when they want someone to do it so tat they can slack off
when they need ppl to fill e gaps
i guess...
i dun hav e heart anymore...
e heart to go out of my way for others.
to help n support others frm behind e scenes
to really give all tat i hav for them.
i cant continue any longer...
yeah
im too tired already.
i dun hav e strength to carry on.
i dun hav e strength to continue believing.
to continue believing in relationships
no strength to believe in my friends
no strength to believe in my family
no strength to believe in my colleagues
i feel weak.
e only thing sustaining me rite now is God.
n i dunno wat else to do.
wanna scream but my mouth is shut
but i just feel
disposable.
feels like my presence is not needed
feels like im being taken for granted
feels like IM not really needed at all...
n even on e contrary,
im only needed
when ppl really need help when they hav no one else to turn to.
when they need someone to help them do their chores
when they want someone to do it so tat they can slack off
when they need ppl to fill e gaps
i guess...
i dun hav e heart anymore...
e heart to go out of my way for others.
to help n support others frm behind e scenes
to really give all tat i hav for them.
i cant continue any longer...
yeah
im too tired already.
i dun hav e strength to carry on.
i dun hav e strength to continue believing.
to continue believing in relationships
no strength to believe in my friends
no strength to believe in my family
no strength to believe in my colleagues
i feel weak.
e only thing sustaining me rite now is God.
n i dunno wat else to do.
wanna scream but my mouth is shut
Saturday, 30 December 2006
currently listening to_: Ayaka - I Believe
wah...
i was pretty shocked today.
really very shocking.
1 wrong move n its a BYEBYE for me...
k wait b4 tat,
flashback to tues:
took my prac stage 3.02,
emergency braking.
first few times were like.
oh my
total disaster.
it was only til at e last 30 mins of e lesson,
tat things took a change
i finally grasped e correct technique.
b4 tat i was like fumbling n fumblin all over
n YEAH!!!
i passed it with 1 try!!!
n i tell u,
it was really unexpected!
i was actu thinkin tat i wld fail badly!
but e Lord gave me grace!
phew!!!
coz normally, they wld b askin for consistency.
n like i was only consistant for e last 30 mins!!!
out of 1hr 40mins!
so ya,
PRAISE e LORD!!!
ok next,
fast forward to thur at 8pm.
my riding theory test!!!
yup e actual 1,
not e trial or evaluation or wateva.
its e one n original Traffic Police theory test!
e rules were simple,
get at least 90% correct out of 50 ques.
N
not b late!
but oh well.
tat nite was total chaos for me!
waited at e bus stop at 730 since e journey took bout 10 mins to get there
i waited
n waited
n waited...
was super uneasy already
waited til 750 n finally e bus came!!!
BUT!!!
jus b4 i wanted to board e bus,
I DID NOT BRING MY EZLINK CARD!!!!
WAH!!!
NOT EVEN MY WALLET!!!
N I FELT LIKE DOING LOCI(pronounced as lou-sai)!!!
so i ran back all e way home!!!
grabbed my wallet n ezlink card
n rushed back to e bus stop.
n guess wat,
another bus came!!!
urgh.
fortunately i did not take tat bus,
i took a taxi instead.
BUT
i was LATE!!!
reached at 805!!!
i was super freaked out i tell u.
n there they said on e notice board:
latecomers will b barred frm takin e test!
n so with tat notion in mind,
i hurried to e classroom n PHEW!!!
tat guy let me in!!!
but now e prob is tat i had e urge to, u know, defecate.
but time was sparse,
thus i jus continued e test.
at e end of it,
i had a total of 6 ques which i didnt really noe whether my ans was right or wrong.
n like, i could only allow to fail 5!
yep,
but wat e heck,
i jus didnt really care n inputed my results!!!
IT WAS A .....
*drumroll*
PASS!!!!
woohoo!
i was super glad man!
but tat wasnt all,
aft e toilet business i went to take a bus.
n i only had like 37cents left in my card!
if i had taken e bus earlier,
i would hav enough cash to take e trip back!
n i really praise GOD for this messy n complex situation tat i had diff typing it all out like some drama.
hahaha!
helped me to trust HIM even more.
wait!
theres 1 more!!!
this morn.
prac 4.01.
S-course n crank course.
basically its to test u in ur turning skills at high speed at a narrow lane somemore!
at e start i was like riding super slowly n carefully.
but still, within only 30 mins of practisin,
i had fallen off e bike or went up e kerb for more den 5 times!!!
really a problematic situation!
n ya,
heres e shocking part.
e instructor took my bike n i pillioned him.
we went thru e S-course.
n like,
it was really really frightening!
he entered e bend at such a high speed tat i was really expecting an accident!
totally traumatic!
aft i got off e bike i was like in shock for a few seconds.
i didnt move at all.
but really,
aft tat demonstration,
i finally improved.
how?
by going much faster n banking more to e side!
its was e ultimate scare ride ive ever taken!
den once again,
i only improved durin e last 30 mins,
n PRAISE e LORD once again!
i did everything perfectly!
n i really mean all e small details!
n yeah,
ive passed it with 1 try again!!!
if u think it sounds easy,
it aint.
especially e higher u go,
e harder it is to pass!
n im really glad tat i didnt hav to waste money by failing!
each lesson is $20!!!
really very EX!!!
these were e most memorable events tat happened this week.
n ya,
each one confirmed had some divine intervention in it.
i could nvr pull such a stunt!
HOW MATCHLESS N BOUNDLESS IS E MERCY N GRACE OF E LORD!!!!!
=]
wah...
i was pretty shocked today.
really very shocking.
1 wrong move n its a BYEBYE for me...
k wait b4 tat,
flashback to tues:
took my prac stage 3.02,
emergency braking.
first few times were like.
oh my
total disaster.
it was only til at e last 30 mins of e lesson,
tat things took a change
i finally grasped e correct technique.
b4 tat i was like fumbling n fumblin all over
n YEAH!!!
i passed it with 1 try!!!
n i tell u,
it was really unexpected!
i was actu thinkin tat i wld fail badly!
but e Lord gave me grace!
phew!!!
coz normally, they wld b askin for consistency.
n like i was only consistant for e last 30 mins!!!
out of 1hr 40mins!
so ya,
PRAISE e LORD!!!
ok next,
fast forward to thur at 8pm.
my riding theory test!!!
yup e actual 1,
not e trial or evaluation or wateva.
its e one n original Traffic Police theory test!
e rules were simple,
get at least 90% correct out of 50 ques.
N
not b late!
but oh well.
tat nite was total chaos for me!
waited at e bus stop at 730 since e journey took bout 10 mins to get there
i waited
n waited
n waited...
was super uneasy already
waited til 750 n finally e bus came!!!
BUT!!!
jus b4 i wanted to board e bus,
I DID NOT BRING MY EZLINK CARD!!!!
WAH!!!
NOT EVEN MY WALLET!!!
N I FELT LIKE DOING LOCI(pronounced as lou-sai)!!!
so i ran back all e way home!!!
grabbed my wallet n ezlink card
n rushed back to e bus stop.
n guess wat,
another bus came!!!
urgh.
fortunately i did not take tat bus,
i took a taxi instead.
BUT
i was LATE!!!
reached at 805!!!
i was super freaked out i tell u.
n there they said on e notice board:
latecomers will b barred frm takin e test!
n so with tat notion in mind,
i hurried to e classroom n PHEW!!!
tat guy let me in!!!
but now e prob is tat i had e urge to, u know, defecate.
but time was sparse,
thus i jus continued e test.
at e end of it,
i had a total of 6 ques which i didnt really noe whether my ans was right or wrong.
n like, i could only allow to fail 5!
yep,
but wat e heck,
i jus didnt really care n inputed my results!!!
IT WAS A .....
*drumroll*
PASS!!!!
woohoo!
i was super glad man!
but tat wasnt all,
aft e toilet business i went to take a bus.
n i only had like 37cents left in my card!
if i had taken e bus earlier,
i would hav enough cash to take e trip back!
n i really praise GOD for this messy n complex situation tat i had diff typing it all out like some drama.
hahaha!
helped me to trust HIM even more.
wait!
theres 1 more!!!
this morn.
prac 4.01.
S-course n crank course.
basically its to test u in ur turning skills at high speed at a narrow lane somemore!
at e start i was like riding super slowly n carefully.
but still, within only 30 mins of practisin,
i had fallen off e bike or went up e kerb for more den 5 times!!!
really a problematic situation!
n ya,
heres e shocking part.
e instructor took my bike n i pillioned him.
we went thru e S-course.
n like,
it was really really frightening!
he entered e bend at such a high speed tat i was really expecting an accident!
totally traumatic!
aft i got off e bike i was like in shock for a few seconds.
i didnt move at all.
but really,
aft tat demonstration,
i finally improved.
how?
by going much faster n banking more to e side!
its was e ultimate scare ride ive ever taken!
den once again,
i only improved durin e last 30 mins,
n PRAISE e LORD once again!
i did everything perfectly!
n i really mean all e small details!
n yeah,
ive passed it with 1 try again!!!
if u think it sounds easy,
it aint.
especially e higher u go,
e harder it is to pass!
n im really glad tat i didnt hav to waste money by failing!
each lesson is $20!!!
really very EX!!!
these were e most memorable events tat happened this week.
n ya,
each one confirmed had some divine intervention in it.
i could nvr pull such a stunt!
HOW MATCHLESS N BOUNDLESS IS E MERCY N GRACE OF E LORD!!!!!
=]
Tuesday, 26 December 2006
e time when it all started
currently listening to_: PANIC! At The Disco - I Write Sins Not Tragedies
yep
Christmas is finally over...
n i din get to enjoy it as much as poss...
all i did was jus to stay at home
n sleep
yeah
kinda borin i noe
but e only time i went out was to exchange presents or for my riding.
basically tats e only 2 times i went out these 2 days.
kinda sad huh.
but oh well...
at least i learnt a couple of things this Christmas n i thank God for it.
im feelin a little enlightened here n there but i doubt it'll last me for even a week.
im gonna need some constant reformation ya
n really lotsa encouragement.
am i really v immature???
hmmm...
yup,
wanna praise e Lord for really helpin me to pass my prac lessons 1 after another by His Grace n Mercy.
coz i noe tat i could nvr do it all by myself.
yep its true i dun hav confidence in myself.
but even if i did hav any,
it wouldnt help if God did not allow His Will to be enacted.
yep,
been there n tried it b4.
e moment u think tat u can do it by ur own strength,
even though u tot u could do it well,
n e future seems sure,
without His sovereign Will,
u can even fail miserably.
tats wat He has been tryin to teach me...
frm my lessons...
so wat i hav to do is jus to guai guai listen n follow with child-like faith
as small as a mustard seed.
May e Lord grant me tat...
anw,
i really really regretted 1 thing
tat is
tat i had to go to my aunt's house on Christmas eve nite
when there was a service going on in church
heard tat it was fantastic though
oh my...
n wat i did there couldnt compare...
i only ate dinner,
which wasnt tat marvellous,
n jus whilst my time away watchin The Host,
n parts of Saw n Saw II.
yeah,
oh btw,
Charmian,
if u're readin this,
BIG THANKS for ur chocs!!!
love it lots ya?
although its kinda precious for me to eat them.
haha
gotta admire them b4 i eat.
coz its australian imported!!!
=P
yup,
so wat i gotta do for e rest of e week is to buy more presents!
yea
belated ones...
coz i dun really hav much time to buy them...
n oso to pass my riding theory test this comin thur nite.
im kinda like halfway thru it all
so ya
hope i can faster get thru this.
to get a license to allow me to die faster.
kinda ironic huh?
oh well,
its time for this poor NSF (yup i really mean poor cash-wise)
to finally go back to work.
yep
hope tat i'll find something to do there...
other den more sai kang
haha.
gtg hav some beauty sleep b4 i get more pimples!!
nitez
yep
Christmas is finally over...
n i din get to enjoy it as much as poss...
all i did was jus to stay at home
n sleep
yeah
kinda borin i noe
but e only time i went out was to exchange presents or for my riding.
basically tats e only 2 times i went out these 2 days.
kinda sad huh.
but oh well...
at least i learnt a couple of things this Christmas n i thank God for it.
im feelin a little enlightened here n there but i doubt it'll last me for even a week.
im gonna need some constant reformation ya
n really lotsa encouragement.
am i really v immature???
hmmm...
yup,
wanna praise e Lord for really helpin me to pass my prac lessons 1 after another by His Grace n Mercy.
coz i noe tat i could nvr do it all by myself.
yep its true i dun hav confidence in myself.
but even if i did hav any,
it wouldnt help if God did not allow His Will to be enacted.
yep,
been there n tried it b4.
e moment u think tat u can do it by ur own strength,
even though u tot u could do it well,
n e future seems sure,
without His sovereign Will,
u can even fail miserably.
tats wat He has been tryin to teach me...
frm my lessons...
so wat i hav to do is jus to guai guai listen n follow with child-like faith
as small as a mustard seed.
May e Lord grant me tat...
anw,
i really really regretted 1 thing
tat is
tat i had to go to my aunt's house on Christmas eve nite
when there was a service going on in church
heard tat it was fantastic though
oh my...
n wat i did there couldnt compare...
i only ate dinner,
which wasnt tat marvellous,
n jus whilst my time away watchin The Host,
n parts of Saw n Saw II.
yeah,
oh btw,
Charmian,
if u're readin this,
BIG THANKS for ur chocs!!!
love it lots ya?
although its kinda precious for me to eat them.
haha
gotta admire them b4 i eat.
coz its australian imported!!!
=P
yup,
so wat i gotta do for e rest of e week is to buy more presents!
yea
belated ones...
coz i dun really hav much time to buy them...
n oso to pass my riding theory test this comin thur nite.
im kinda like halfway thru it all
so ya
hope i can faster get thru this.
to get a license to allow me to die faster.
kinda ironic huh?
oh well,
its time for this poor NSF (yup i really mean poor cash-wise)
to finally go back to work.
yep
hope tat i'll find something to do there...
other den more sai kang
haha.
gtg hav some beauty sleep b4 i get more pimples!!
nitez
Friday, 22 December 2006
currently listening to_: Saving Jane - Come Down To Me
"You are beautiful,
jus e way u are.
N i love it all, every line n every scar.
N i wish tat i could make u see,
this is where u ought to be..."
e chorus of this song...
well,
kinda reminded me of a person...
well actu, make it 2.
yup,
guess im glad tat they both get e msg,
though i dun really noe whether they'll really think tat way in their hearts...
a nice n emo song...
jus e way i like it
haha
've been blastin music in my ears for quite some time now...
i guess tml i'll jus go deaf...
miss this kinda feeling...
jus blastin all day long...
i guess its been only 3 to 4 hours only...
but it doesnt matter...
if only i could blast it this loud in e gym last nite while at e punching bag...
woah.
how nice tat'll b...
oh?
y im in e gym last nite?
simple.
coz i stayed over yet again
haha
think i really hav nth to do..
keep staying in...
oh well...
at least ive learnt something frm it...
lesson 1: aggression hurts.
lesson 2: silence is e best ans.
lesson 3: stayin in camp saves money n time spent travelling to n fro when u hav nth to do...
lesson 4: i really need to find time to buy prezzies!!!
lesson 5: when u're tired, u spout nonsense.
lesson 6: when u're sick, try to get an MC asap, b4 ur brain fails u n u become a living zombie
lesson 7: nvr try to outrun an officer, he'll stil catch up in e end.
guess i'll jus stop there...
cant think of anymore...
lalalala
hmmm,
mayb e reason y i love to blast music out loud is coz i can jus filter out other noises...
jus listen to pure music...
i love silence,
i really do.
but wat happens if u cant shut out e noise?
u BLAST!!!!
hahaha!
perhaps i need some 'me' time,
to think bout stuff.
bout my life.
to self reflect on it.
fortunately i took my 1 n only leave for this tues...
yeah!
long weekend!
ahhh...
but my whole fam shd b at home too...
oh well,
theres nth i can do...
oh shucks...
n now my music source jus died down...
no batt at all...
nvm...
shall cont writing this in silence(with some noise from e tv outside)
yep as i was sayin
my precious leave on tues...
hope tat i wun spend e day playin games or watever.
jus lie on e bed to think
n think
n think
n think til e world jus falls apart.
i mean til i hav to go to work again...
hols...
finally its bout time it came.
well u sch children r real fortunate.
at least u guys get sch hols or a week of hols inbetween semesters
really gotta treasure tat ya?
dun ever whilst ur time away like tat
make full use of it...
but for me?
i'll jus sleep e whole day thru
if God permits...
longest ever record of sleepin by me was 23hrs nonstop only...
hope i can break tat record some day...
hmm,
tml theres another prac lesson in e morn.
den aft tat i gotta help my fren to lacquer his bike.
den aft tat if got time go cut hair at woodlands.
den aft tat go for some meeting for some anniversary thingy.
den aft tat is ypf.
den aft tat if got time still, i'll try to find presents to buy for frens(but i doubt so)
den aft tat go sleep.
den next morn go church.
den aft tat i really dunno where to go.
den aft tat go to aunts house to celeb Christmas.
den aft tat i dunno wat i'll b doing again...
somehow,
n seriously,
to me,
it doesnt feel like Christmas anymore...
i dun get to feel tat atmosphere it once brought about.
let alone e New Year...
everyday feels either like a rest day or a working day to me.
i cant tell e diff anymore...
i dun even look forward to it...
i dun even noe wat im thinking.
i guess my brain shd really b scrapped soon,
jus like my bro's bike.
if only i could get a new 1.
jus forget it all n start anew.
to reexperience everything again.
gotta make sure tat this new brain is free from defects so it wouldnt lose any more memories...
N oso with a bigger memory space to store stuff.
my mind now is like a sponge.
not tat it retains well.
but rather, to absorb more water, u hav to squeeze out e water in e sponge to do so.
only den can new info be retained.
like e chi saying,
'jiu de bu qu, xing de bu lai'
describes me quite aptly now...
wanted to jus shout it(frustrations) all out.
but i guess,
u cant shout efficiently with a sore throat n flu n phlegm ya?
besides, ppl like me having a small build cant really get to shout loud...
so mayb i shdnt bother shoutin at all...
sandbag n loud music,
they make a great pair together,
dun u think so too?
"You are beautiful,
jus e way u are.
N i love it all, every line n every scar.
N i wish tat i could make u see,
this is where u ought to be..."
e chorus of this song...
well,
kinda reminded me of a person...
well actu, make it 2.
yup,
guess im glad tat they both get e msg,
though i dun really noe whether they'll really think tat way in their hearts...
a nice n emo song...
jus e way i like it
haha
've been blastin music in my ears for quite some time now...
i guess tml i'll jus go deaf...
miss this kinda feeling...
jus blastin all day long...
i guess its been only 3 to 4 hours only...
but it doesnt matter...
if only i could blast it this loud in e gym last nite while at e punching bag...
woah.
how nice tat'll b...
oh?
y im in e gym last nite?
simple.
coz i stayed over yet again
haha
think i really hav nth to do..
keep staying in...
oh well...
at least ive learnt something frm it...
lesson 1: aggression hurts.
lesson 2: silence is e best ans.
lesson 3: stayin in camp saves money n time spent travelling to n fro when u hav nth to do...
lesson 4: i really need to find time to buy prezzies!!!
lesson 5: when u're tired, u spout nonsense.
lesson 6: when u're sick, try to get an MC asap, b4 ur brain fails u n u become a living zombie
lesson 7: nvr try to outrun an officer, he'll stil catch up in e end.
guess i'll jus stop there...
cant think of anymore...
lalalala
hmmm,
mayb e reason y i love to blast music out loud is coz i can jus filter out other noises...
jus listen to pure music...
i love silence,
i really do.
but wat happens if u cant shut out e noise?
u BLAST!!!!
hahaha!
perhaps i need some 'me' time,
to think bout stuff.
bout my life.
to self reflect on it.
fortunately i took my 1 n only leave for this tues...
yeah!
long weekend!
ahhh...
but my whole fam shd b at home too...
oh well,
theres nth i can do...
oh shucks...
n now my music source jus died down...
no batt at all...
nvm...
shall cont writing this in silence(with some noise from e tv outside)
yep as i was sayin
my precious leave on tues...
hope tat i wun spend e day playin games or watever.
jus lie on e bed to think
n think
n think
n think til e world jus falls apart.
i mean til i hav to go to work again...
hols...
finally its bout time it came.
well u sch children r real fortunate.
at least u guys get sch hols or a week of hols inbetween semesters
really gotta treasure tat ya?
dun ever whilst ur time away like tat
make full use of it...
but for me?
i'll jus sleep e whole day thru
if God permits...
longest ever record of sleepin by me was 23hrs nonstop only...
hope i can break tat record some day...
hmm,
tml theres another prac lesson in e morn.
den aft tat i gotta help my fren to lacquer his bike.
den aft tat if got time go cut hair at woodlands.
den aft tat go for some meeting for some anniversary thingy.
den aft tat is ypf.
den aft tat if got time still, i'll try to find presents to buy for frens(but i doubt so)
den aft tat go sleep.
den next morn go church.
den aft tat i really dunno where to go.
den aft tat go to aunts house to celeb Christmas.
den aft tat i dunno wat i'll b doing again...
somehow,
n seriously,
to me,
it doesnt feel like Christmas anymore...
i dun get to feel tat atmosphere it once brought about.
let alone e New Year...
everyday feels either like a rest day or a working day to me.
i cant tell e diff anymore...
i dun even look forward to it...
i dun even noe wat im thinking.
i guess my brain shd really b scrapped soon,
jus like my bro's bike.
if only i could get a new 1.
jus forget it all n start anew.
to reexperience everything again.
gotta make sure tat this new brain is free from defects so it wouldnt lose any more memories...
N oso with a bigger memory space to store stuff.
my mind now is like a sponge.
not tat it retains well.
but rather, to absorb more water, u hav to squeeze out e water in e sponge to do so.
only den can new info be retained.
like e chi saying,
'jiu de bu qu, xing de bu lai'
describes me quite aptly now...
wanted to jus shout it(frustrations) all out.
but i guess,
u cant shout efficiently with a sore throat n flu n phlegm ya?
besides, ppl like me having a small build cant really get to shout loud...
so mayb i shdnt bother shoutin at all...
sandbag n loud music,
they make a great pair together,
dun u think so too?
Monday, 18 December 2006
currently listening to_: Micheal Buble - Home
oh my.
its been a real long time since i've been back home.
seriously i somehow dun really feel e longing to b back home.
i wonder y...
anw,
last week has been really fruitful for me.
although i was really (x 13) tired,
somehow i found e strength to carry on n listen to e messages in e YPF Camp.
wasnt by my effort but rather by His Grace n Mercy.
can u imagine,
1 big bag to last u for 1 week,
where u tug it along from Mon in Gedong den aftnoon aft 5 go to tengah air base n stay over n e next morn go back to camp n this continues to n fro, to n fro...
i tell u, u'll practically breakdown on e spot.
besides, i had my tkd grading on fri too!
din really hav e time to prac for it.
much less e sleep.
not only tat,
i had my bike prac on sat,
n i failed it yet again!!!
total failed 5 times,
if each time is $23.10,
5 times = (u own self do e maths, i lazy do for u)
anw, think u roughly noe e idea behind it
but really thank God again tat i passed my riding theory evaluation with a whopping 98% pass!!!
(u hav to get min 90% out of 80ques, meaning 72/80)
yupz!
but too bad i wasnt there at home at bout 11.
hey i still cant imagine tat U(charmian) actu came to my house!!!
so paiseh!!!
my house was an entire mess!
seriously!
oh my,
fortunately u din come to my room.
PHEW!!!
wow i rcant imaine if i were at home n u guys came knockin at my door,
i guess i'll still b sleeping if i din go for my riding!
den i'll b wearing my home clothes n shrivelled hair n big eye bags jus saying 'huh?' when u guys come in.
k forget bout those.
lets move on to e next day,
SUNDAY.
o ya by rite i was supposed to meet SF n gang for lunch or somethin but something real bad cropped up.
guard duty was changed frm 29 dec to 17 dec!!!
on a sunday somemore!
means no lunch with them!!!
or even e C' twins n william!
so sad!!!
was a sudden change on thur tat left every1 stunned.
yep,
n e funny thing tat kept me thinking was tat Yumi joked she wanted to come to my camp gate to sing songs n hav a worship service!
haha
how totful of her!
oh well, she obviously didnt though...
yup got bitten by many many mozzies on sun
super duper itchy'
not only tat,
few ppl who were supposed to come tat day did not
n so coz of tat,
we all had to do extra duty to cover up for them!!!
so yup, obviously we din sleep much...
we're jus concussing every now n then.
haha,
i watched tom yum goong n scary movie 3 part 1 during my guard.
funny huh?
other ppl wld b sleeping their ass off(literally)
instead of this.
agree?
ya...
n this morn,
we're supposed to hav guard rest from 8 to 12.
meaning we sleep it thru all e way n no 1,
i mean, no 1 is supposed to touch us at all.
BUT
big boss still asked us to fall in n aft tat sit at e side of e field to support e others in a soccer match.
i mean like, it aint supposed to b this way!
besides, we were told to help out to do sai kang meaning e shifting of tables n chairs!
but obviously we ignored.
come on, we ARE tat tired!
we couldnt even get any uninterrupted rest!
ah well,
but really thank God i made it pass tat week(including today).
yupz,
ive finally finally finally passed my prac!
hahaha
now going on to e next stage,
emergency braking!
yupz
tml!!!
3.01 here i come!!!
no wait, b4 tat...
SLEEP!!!!!!
pure n precious
SLEEP!!!!!
oh my.
its been a real long time since i've been back home.
seriously i somehow dun really feel e longing to b back home.
i wonder y...
anw,
last week has been really fruitful for me.
although i was really (x 13) tired,
somehow i found e strength to carry on n listen to e messages in e YPF Camp.
wasnt by my effort but rather by His Grace n Mercy.
can u imagine,
1 big bag to last u for 1 week,
where u tug it along from Mon in Gedong den aftnoon aft 5 go to tengah air base n stay over n e next morn go back to camp n this continues to n fro, to n fro...
i tell u, u'll practically breakdown on e spot.
besides, i had my tkd grading on fri too!
din really hav e time to prac for it.
much less e sleep.
not only tat,
i had my bike prac on sat,
n i failed it yet again!!!
total failed 5 times,
if each time is $23.10,
5 times = (u own self do e maths, i lazy do for u)
anw, think u roughly noe e idea behind it
but really thank God again tat i passed my riding theory evaluation with a whopping 98% pass!!!
(u hav to get min 90% out of 80ques, meaning 72/80)
yupz!
but too bad i wasnt there at home at bout 11.
hey i still cant imagine tat U(charmian) actu came to my house!!!
so paiseh!!!
my house was an entire mess!
seriously!
oh my,
fortunately u din come to my room.
PHEW!!!
wow i rcant imaine if i were at home n u guys came knockin at my door,
i guess i'll still b sleeping if i din go for my riding!
den i'll b wearing my home clothes n shrivelled hair n big eye bags jus saying 'huh?' when u guys come in.
k forget bout those.
lets move on to e next day,
SUNDAY.
o ya by rite i was supposed to meet SF n gang for lunch or somethin but something real bad cropped up.
guard duty was changed frm 29 dec to 17 dec!!!
on a sunday somemore!
means no lunch with them!!!
or even e C' twins n william!
so sad!!!
was a sudden change on thur tat left every1 stunned.
yep,
n e funny thing tat kept me thinking was tat Yumi joked she wanted to come to my camp gate to sing songs n hav a worship service!
haha
how totful of her!
oh well, she obviously didnt though...
yup got bitten by many many mozzies on sun
super duper itchy'
not only tat,
few ppl who were supposed to come tat day did not
n so coz of tat,
we all had to do extra duty to cover up for them!!!
so yup, obviously we din sleep much...
we're jus concussing every now n then.
haha,
i watched tom yum goong n scary movie 3 part 1 during my guard.
funny huh?
other ppl wld b sleeping their ass off(literally)
instead of this.
agree?
ya...
n this morn,
we're supposed to hav guard rest from 8 to 12.
meaning we sleep it thru all e way n no 1,
i mean, no 1 is supposed to touch us at all.
BUT
big boss still asked us to fall in n aft tat sit at e side of e field to support e others in a soccer match.
i mean like, it aint supposed to b this way!
besides, we were told to help out to do sai kang meaning e shifting of tables n chairs!
but obviously we ignored.
come on, we ARE tat tired!
we couldnt even get any uninterrupted rest!
ah well,
but really thank God i made it pass tat week(including today).
yupz,
ive finally finally finally passed my prac!
hahaha
now going on to e next stage,
emergency braking!
yupz
tml!!!
3.01 here i come!!!
no wait, b4 tat...
SLEEP!!!!!!
pure n precious
SLEEP!!!!!
Saturday, 9 December 2006
currently listening to_: North - I Won't Hold Back
dead dead tired
n giddy
n headache
and feel like fainting
n other other stuff...
deduction: i think i really havent used my blain for a long time.
resulting in a 'muscle ache' kinda syndrome.
went to e MINDS cafe today n played rather cool board games there.
find it worth e while.
besides,
e lasagne is pretty delicious too!
hmm,
if
my headache was due to tiredness...
den i guess,
by e next week i'll b like super zombified
imagine
sungei gedong
+
tkd back in hq
den aft tat
go to tengah for msg
n perhaps stay in
oh my
i'll jus lie flat n concuss straight away
phew,
almost kana-ed some stupid punishment ytd
jus imagine e punishment being to wear tat stupid U
while booking in n out of camps
ha
i really dun mind
ahhh
1 more week of gedong
can u take it?
yupz n i've failed yet again.
funny lane change prac
argh
kinda funny how i saw a drunk chi man in 40s trying to pick a fight with a tamil/bangla on e bus jus now.
ha
threatened here n there n finally got off e bus,
threw a few punches (which missed for e chi man)
den finally ended with e tamil man grabbin e chi man's collar n scolding him or something.
kinda comical to watch though
too bad they got off e bus too early for me to stop them n hopefully land a few punches
haha
no la
im not so bad
i dun even think i had e energy either.
oh well...
jus had a thought
thinking if i shd jus make this blog private
meaning tat no one
n i mean NO ONE can see it
hmmm
mayb i shd'
or mayb i shd jus close it down
den again
mayb not
i'll still need this to help me vent my anger when im angry
say things tat my tongue cant withhold
yea,
coz mayb i jus dun hav e urge to talk these days.
'keepin my mouth shut from e start'
somehow i jus cant get into e mood to talk.
or rather its hard ba.
people can talk bout everything under e sun
but perhaps for me, i'll jus b e 1 listening
tat silent assasin right beside u
or mayb
u've got e wrong topic to 'click' me with
pehaps its jus kinda hard for me to connect
esp with gals in e east
their feel is kinda different from those in e west
n no
i too cant talk to high class people
i cant even hold a continuous conversation with them.
i jus like to talk with my blog,
i guess its e only time i ever talk alot
dun u think so too?
dead dead tired
n giddy
n headache
and feel like fainting
n other other stuff...
deduction: i think i really havent used my blain for a long time.
resulting in a 'muscle ache' kinda syndrome.
went to e MINDS cafe today n played rather cool board games there.
find it worth e while.
besides,
e lasagne is pretty delicious too!
hmm,
if
my headache was due to tiredness...
den i guess,
by e next week i'll b like super zombified
imagine
sungei gedong
+
tkd back in hq
den aft tat
go to tengah for msg
n perhaps stay in
oh my
i'll jus lie flat n concuss straight away
phew,
almost kana-ed some stupid punishment ytd
jus imagine e punishment being to wear tat stupid U
while booking in n out of camps
ha
i really dun mind
ahhh
1 more week of gedong
can u take it?
yupz n i've failed yet again.
funny lane change prac
argh
kinda funny how i saw a drunk chi man in 40s trying to pick a fight with a tamil/bangla on e bus jus now.
ha
threatened here n there n finally got off e bus,
threw a few punches (which missed for e chi man)
den finally ended with e tamil man grabbin e chi man's collar n scolding him or something.
kinda comical to watch though
too bad they got off e bus too early for me to stop them n hopefully land a few punches
haha
no la
im not so bad
i dun even think i had e energy either.
oh well...
jus had a thought
thinking if i shd jus make this blog private
meaning tat no one
n i mean NO ONE can see it
hmmm
mayb i shd'
or mayb i shd jus close it down
den again
mayb not
i'll still need this to help me vent my anger when im angry
say things tat my tongue cant withhold
yea,
coz mayb i jus dun hav e urge to talk these days.
'keepin my mouth shut from e start'
somehow i jus cant get into e mood to talk.
or rather its hard ba.
people can talk bout everything under e sun
but perhaps for me, i'll jus b e 1 listening
tat silent assasin right beside u
or mayb
u've got e wrong topic to 'click' me with
pehaps its jus kinda hard for me to connect
esp with gals in e east
their feel is kinda different from those in e west
n no
i too cant talk to high class people
i cant even hold a continuous conversation with them.
i jus like to talk with my blog,
i guess its e only time i ever talk alot
dun u think so too?
Tuesday, 5 December 2006
chances.
currently listening to_: Jesse McCartney - Just Go
ever wondered if u've ever saw a chance coming,
but instead of graspin it,
u had it slip pass ur bare eyes...
under ur very nose.
n u've nvr ever knew it had crossed.
n now it jus gives u a diff feeling when u actu came across it again.
diff from tat e 1st contact u had.
makes u ever wonder again whether u really wanna take up tat chance.
yeah i finally passed my prac lesson ytd!!!
stupid stage 2.01.
grrrr
yeah,
hope i can 1hit k.o. for my next prac tml...
had a somewat fun time ytd nite
aft i came home from my prac.
ate dinner
den later went out again!
haha
for a spin on my bike.
no la,
i cant ride yet,
i dun even hav a license!
jus being pillioned la.
went to some coffeeshop n sit down n got overcharged for iced milo at $1.30!!!
(its jus a normal coffeeshop)
uncle wanna cheat my money!!!
=P
den went back to prac abit on my bike
(this time its illegally)
jus abit of starting n stopping only mah..
perhaps still not used to it?
hee
yupz
supposed to hav another interrogation at SIB
for e 3RD TIME!!!
argh,
hate tat place.
treats u like some criminal.
breaks u down.
but they postponed tat appointment
i wonder y
i wonder y they even need to call me back.
ive already told them all tat i knew.
all e details
from e previous day
to wat i do e next day
everything
n now they jus wanna haunt me again!
grrrr
but coz of tat,
i had an unofficial half day off!
haha
was supposed to go at 1030am
but since they cancelled it,
i jus simply lazed ard at home b4 proceedin to gedong again
yeah
tat crash course.
n
i still dun hav time to prac my tkd pattern!!!
wah!
signing off...
ever wondered if u've ever saw a chance coming,
but instead of graspin it,
u had it slip pass ur bare eyes...
under ur very nose.
n u've nvr ever knew it had crossed.
n now it jus gives u a diff feeling when u actu came across it again.
diff from tat e 1st contact u had.
makes u ever wonder again whether u really wanna take up tat chance.
yeah i finally passed my prac lesson ytd!!!
stupid stage 2.01.
grrrr
yeah,
hope i can 1hit k.o. for my next prac tml...
had a somewat fun time ytd nite
aft i came home from my prac.
ate dinner
den later went out again!
haha
for a spin on my bike.
no la,
i cant ride yet,
i dun even hav a license!
jus being pillioned la.
went to some coffeeshop n sit down n got overcharged for iced milo at $1.30!!!
(its jus a normal coffeeshop)
uncle wanna cheat my money!!!
=P
den went back to prac abit on my bike
(this time its illegally)
jus abit of starting n stopping only mah..
perhaps still not used to it?
hee
yupz
supposed to hav another interrogation at SIB
for e 3RD TIME!!!
argh,
hate tat place.
treats u like some criminal.
breaks u down.
but they postponed tat appointment
i wonder y
i wonder y they even need to call me back.
ive already told them all tat i knew.
all e details
from e previous day
to wat i do e next day
everything
n now they jus wanna haunt me again!
grrrr
but coz of tat,
i had an unofficial half day off!
haha
was supposed to go at 1030am
but since they cancelled it,
i jus simply lazed ard at home b4 proceedin to gedong again
yeah
tat crash course.
n
i still dun hav time to prac my tkd pattern!!!
wah!
signing off...
Sunday, 3 December 2006
gedong bluez
currently listening to_: The Feeling - Never Be Lonely
hmm,
i failed yet again at my practical...
but somehow i jus dun feel as sad as e 1st time.
but y?
yeah jus sat on my bro's new bike ytd nite at 11+ to pasir panjang to eat prata.
reached home at 1245am this morn.
me?
i ate roti john + milo dino!
but it wasnt as fantastic as e roti john i ate at tekong,
yup, tat offshore island where it all starts...
by shaving ur head!!!
lalalala
kinda feeling bored rite now...
nth to do online
played abit too much FFXII ytd n e day b4.
shdnt play today.
so now i really hav nth to do except to write something in my blog and listen to e tv beside me...
oh ya,
e 2 week 1 day crash course at sungei gedong (lim chu kang area) has officially started on fri!
now im gonna b there sorta for 9/5 (not 24/7)
my oh my.
n i hav another prac tml at 6
jus hope tat i can finally PASS it
grrr.
wasting money already...
not forgetting another grading later in e week on fri mon!
argh, n i havent practised e pattern yet!!!
supposed to go back hq last fri n this tues to learn n prac but,
ahhhhh
hav to teach at gedong n STAY THERE!!!!
hope i still can adapt to e changes made for e basic commands n moves...
yeah,
jus hope tat i can get a black b4 i ORD.
but wats e purpose of a black belt?
i really dunno.
y get a black when a belt level doesnt really matter much?
i really really dunno.
yeah....
jus hope tat e terror 2 weeks will jus pass by fast fast...
im missin some1's smile already...
hmm,
i failed yet again at my practical...
but somehow i jus dun feel as sad as e 1st time.
but y?
yeah jus sat on my bro's new bike ytd nite at 11+ to pasir panjang to eat prata.
reached home at 1245am this morn.
me?
i ate roti john + milo dino!
but it wasnt as fantastic as e roti john i ate at tekong,
yup, tat offshore island where it all starts...
by shaving ur head!!!
lalalala
kinda feeling bored rite now...
nth to do online
played abit too much FFXII ytd n e day b4.
shdnt play today.
so now i really hav nth to do except to write something in my blog and listen to e tv beside me...
oh ya,
e 2 week 1 day crash course at sungei gedong (lim chu kang area) has officially started on fri!
now im gonna b there sorta for 9/5 (not 24/7)
my oh my.
n i hav another prac tml at 6
jus hope tat i can finally PASS it
grrr.
wasting money already...
not forgetting another grading later in e week on fri mon!
argh, n i havent practised e pattern yet!!!
supposed to go back hq last fri n this tues to learn n prac but,
ahhhhh
hav to teach at gedong n STAY THERE!!!!
hope i still can adapt to e changes made for e basic commands n moves...
yeah,
jus hope tat i can get a black b4 i ORD.
but wats e purpose of a black belt?
i really dunno.
y get a black when a belt level doesnt really matter much?
i really really dunno.
yeah....
jus hope tat e terror 2 weeks will jus pass by fast fast...
im missin some1's smile already...
Tuesday, 28 November 2006
super tiredness!!!!
currently listening to_: The Veronicas - How Long
oh my...
im super tired today...
couldnt get anything into my head!!!!
ytd played badminton from 7 to 10,
talked to roy til 1215am.
slept,
wake up at 530am,
ran 4km at 730am,
played badminton for 30mins,
did saikang for 2 hours,
practice tkd pattern for 1 hour,
ate lunch for 15 mins,
rush back do more saikang,
slack here n there - go gym, skip ropes, read mags, surf net, walk ard, stone...
den go for prac lesson.
couldnt absorb wat e ins was teaching...
made a huge mess of everything!
couldnt concentrate,
fell off my bike,
stalled engine many times!
urgh.
results came
failed
had to retake...
so sad...
need some space....
to jus shout out super LOUD!!!!
oh my...
im super tired today...
couldnt get anything into my head!!!!
ytd played badminton from 7 to 10,
talked to roy til 1215am.
slept,
wake up at 530am,
ran 4km at 730am,
played badminton for 30mins,
did saikang for 2 hours,
practice tkd pattern for 1 hour,
ate lunch for 15 mins,
rush back do more saikang,
slack here n there - go gym, skip ropes, read mags, surf net, walk ard, stone...
den go for prac lesson.
couldnt absorb wat e ins was teaching...
made a huge mess of everything!
couldnt concentrate,
fell off my bike,
stalled engine many times!
urgh.
results came
failed
had to retake...
so sad...
need some space....
to jus shout out super LOUD!!!!
Friday, 24 November 2006
Monday, 20 November 2006
???
currently listening to_: Backstreet Boys - Over Her
woah, new record again...
ytd i rode at 150km/h!
went to e motoshow ytd too...
$10 was really worth it...
worth e gazing n drooling of all egals cars n bikes on display there!
too bad i forgot to charge my hp otherwise it wld b picture taking frenzy time!!!
awww...
if only there were more car models on display tat day + more freebies!
such a limited range aimed to sell cars instead of wow-ing e crowd!
n theres not even any mitsubishi cars there!
oh well, but wat amazed me was e isuzu section.
1 entire section of nobody entering tat area!
n y???
coz they r e only lorries on display!
wat e rene!
totally out of e world!!!
crappy ya.
n ya today had many lessons cancelled due to either e timetable cock-up or bad weather...
but today something struck me...
struck me hard,
struck me fast...
::
have i ever been toooo nice to others til others dun even recog my efforts?
nono,
in short,
am i over nice?
i dun hav e ans to tat too...
i really dunno...
anw, gtg for riding theory lessons now...
cya
woah, new record again...
ytd i rode at 150km/h!
went to e motoshow ytd too...
$10 was really worth it...
worth e gazing n drooling of all e
too bad i forgot to charge my hp otherwise it wld b picture taking frenzy time!!!
awww...
if only there were more car models on display tat day + more freebies!
such a limited range aimed to sell cars instead of wow-ing e crowd!
n theres not even any mitsubishi cars there!
oh well, but wat amazed me was e isuzu section.
1 entire section of nobody entering tat area!
n y???
coz they r e only lorries on display!
wat e rene!
totally out of e world!!!
crappy ya.
n ya today had many lessons cancelled due to either e timetable cock-up or bad weather...
but today something struck me...
struck me hard,
struck me fast...
::
have i ever been toooo nice to others til others dun even recog my efforts?
nono,
in short,
am i over nice?
i dun hav e ans to tat too...
i really dunno...
anw, gtg for riding theory lessons now...
cya
Tuesday, 14 November 2006
=]
currently listening to_: Zhang Hui Mei - Jie Tuo
yupx had a G R E A T day ytd.
thanks SER!!!
yupz lets see...
aft a hectic day of teaching at ocs n maju e entire day.
met ser at maju camp opp.
really sorry ya?
wasted much of ur time.
jus coz i din see tat sms,
n i went 1 big round...
anw, yeah, took 61 to vivo with e initial intention to watch step up but, ah well,
e next showtime was like 9+?
too bad...
or rather, i prefer not catchin e show!
y?
well coz of e following reasons:
1) kolo mee was nice!!!
2) kolo mee was quite nice!!!
3) e water chestnut drink tat came with it was not tat bad too
4) met roy there too! wat a coincidence!
5) went aboard e Douvos ship tolook admire e wide myriad of Chrisian titles
It was totally awe-inspiring!!!
yupz den aft tat we began e usual long long long but entertaining way home!
THANKS AGAIN SER!!!
anw yeah,
i finally took a big gigantic leap to break thru tat mental n physical barrier!
FINALLY!!!
jus went to enrol at BBDC for my riding lessons only la...
haha
might b a small thing to others but its a big deal for me!
cant imagine i hesitated for like 2 months +!!!
oh my rene!!!
yupx had a G R E A T day ytd.
thanks SER!!!
yupz lets see...
aft a hectic day of teaching at ocs n maju e entire day.
met ser at maju camp opp.
really sorry ya?
wasted much of ur time.
jus coz i din see tat sms,
n i went 1 big round...
anw, yeah, took 61 to vivo with e initial intention to watch step up but, ah well,
e next showtime was like 9+?
too bad...
or rather, i prefer not catchin e show!
y?
well coz of e following reasons:
1) kolo mee was nice!!!
2) kolo mee was quite nice!!!
3) e water chestnut drink tat came with it was not tat bad too
4) met roy there too! wat a coincidence!
5) went aboard e Douvos ship to
It was totally awe-inspiring!!!
yupz den aft tat we began e usual long long long but entertaining way home!
THANKS AGAIN SER!!!
anw yeah,
i finally took a big gigantic leap to break thru tat mental n physical barrier!
FINALLY!!!
jus went to enrol at BBDC for my riding lessons only la...
haha
might b a small thing to others but its a big deal for me!
cant imagine i hesitated for like 2 months +!!!
oh my rene!!!
Saturday, 4 November 2006
yeah!
currently listening to_: Final Fantasy X - Eternity
yeah today was pretty cool.
ytd worked til kinda late coz got some community service at some temple/ welfare service
they were having some 38th anni of e temple so we were made to help out as volunteers.
i dunno y but i was super hungry ytd
ya e whole day.
ate lunch,
still wanted to eat lunch again,
den went for canteen break with a bunch of biscuits in mouth,
went to spec mess see my fren eat fish n chips,
den went pantry to eat biscuits n milo for canteen break.
ate chicken rice for dinner at JP.
den went temple and ate vegetarian beehoon with nice vege curry for 2 servings.
den finally e actual dinner with a 7 course meal during e anni.
woah.
hope i dun get too fat!
yeah ytd was fun.
supposed to help out by shifting crates of oranges.
n go usher ppl to their seats.
which we all sorta did by jus standing or walking or chattin ard for 1hr+
ya den they invited us to eat together for e 7 course meal!
of coz halfway we left e table to help them distribute oranges n some 'lucky' rice to every1 of them old folks.
den return back for dinner!!!
haha.
den aft tat jus help them clear tables n sweep floors.
kinda gross though.
well we sorta walked away with e extra bottles of drinks namely 7up n miranda orange.
i grabbed 1 each!
hee.
ya n we all received a $10 red packet.
feel so bad.
gave us too much stuff for e effort tat we gave them.
yeah den reached home at bout 12.
den today,
went for seminar at Holiday Inn from 9 to 1130
something bout wat- the key to inviting success- the title.
kinda intellectually challenging if u dun really pay attention.
den u'll lose wat he's saying.
something bout wat : in / out of e box concept.
pretty cool i gotta say.
makes u think in a new light.
went there for free coz my unit needed some1 to replace a slot.
anw, got enlightened n oso a free book costing $42.
dun forget a FREE HALF DAY OFF!!!
gonna save it for Christmas.
yeah den aft tat saw a trainee at Cineleisure cross-junction.
first time outside where u get to hear some1 shouting "Instructor!" across e street!
haha
hope he remembers me not coz of all those tekaning but as someone who imparts knowledge.
den i went to FEBC at newton n sat there from 12 plus til 3.
sounds kinda crazy but at least i have some Weekend Today papers n my new Walkman to keep me company all e way under e hot sun at some bench while being stung by mosquitoes which i failed to kill...
grrr
yupz den went for YPF...
bla bla bla...
encourage one another...
n almost fell off my chair 3 times coz e backing jus gave way.
no choice but to sit up super duper straight for e 1st time in my life for dunno how many hrs.
food was nice.
charsiew bao
fried meat rolls or wateva u call tat
3 types of chips-ruffles,normal n nachos
crunchy juicy seedless grapes
n mangoes!
ya had a fun activity of writing 'encouragement cards' to each n every1 present.
had a great time
well ya sorta
coz there was a jam of e passing round of cards at my turn!
had to write super fast!
write so fast til i dunno wat im writing n i wrote wrongly.
hahaha
*minor details left out*
yup tat pretty much sums up my day...
neat huh?
hope i could have such a fun time again sometime soon
yeah today was pretty cool.
ytd worked til kinda late coz got some community service at some temple/ welfare service
they were having some 38th anni of e temple so we were made to help out as volunteers.
i dunno y but i was super hungry ytd
ya e whole day.
ate lunch,
still wanted to eat lunch again,
den went for canteen break with a bunch of biscuits in mouth,
went to spec mess see my fren eat fish n chips,
den went pantry to eat biscuits n milo for canteen break.
ate chicken rice for dinner at JP.
den went temple and ate vegetarian beehoon with nice vege curry for 2 servings.
den finally e actual dinner with a 7 course meal during e anni.
woah.
hope i dun get too fat!
yeah ytd was fun.
supposed to help out by shifting crates of oranges.
n go usher ppl to their seats.
which we all sorta did by jus standing or walking or chattin ard for 1hr+
ya den they invited us to eat together for e 7 course meal!
of coz halfway we left e table to help them distribute oranges n some 'lucky' rice to every1 of them old folks.
den return back for dinner!!!
haha.
den aft tat jus help them clear tables n sweep floors.
kinda gross though.
well we sorta walked away with e extra bottles of drinks namely 7up n miranda orange.
i grabbed 1 each!
hee.
ya n we all received a $10 red packet.
feel so bad.
gave us too much stuff for e effort tat we gave them.
yeah den reached home at bout 12.
den today,
went for seminar at Holiday Inn from 9 to 1130
something bout wat- the key to inviting success- the title.
kinda intellectually challenging if u dun really pay attention.
den u'll lose wat he's saying.
something bout wat : in / out of e box concept.
pretty cool i gotta say.
makes u think in a new light.
went there for free coz my unit needed some1 to replace a slot.
anw, got enlightened n oso a free book costing $42.
dun forget a FREE HALF DAY OFF!!!
gonna save it for Christmas.
yeah den aft tat saw a trainee at Cineleisure cross-junction.
first time outside where u get to hear some1 shouting "Instructor!" across e street!
haha
hope he remembers me not coz of all those tekaning but as someone who imparts knowledge.
den i went to FEBC at newton n sat there from 12 plus til 3.
sounds kinda crazy but at least i have some Weekend Today papers n my new Walkman to keep me company all e way under e hot sun at some bench while being stung by mosquitoes which i failed to kill...
grrr
yupz den went for YPF...
bla bla bla...
encourage one another...
n almost fell off my chair 3 times coz e backing jus gave way.
no choice but to sit up super duper straight for e 1st time in my life for dunno how many hrs.
food was nice.
charsiew bao
fried meat rolls or wateva u call tat
3 types of chips-ruffles,normal n nachos
crunchy juicy seedless grapes
n mangoes!
ya had a fun activity of writing 'encouragement cards' to each n every1 present.
had a great time
well ya sorta
coz there was a jam of e passing round of cards at my turn!
had to write super fast!
write so fast til i dunno wat im writing n i wrote wrongly.
hahaha
*minor details left out*
yup tat pretty much sums up my day...
neat huh?
hope i could have such a fun time again sometime soon
Monday, 30 October 2006
many stuff happened today...
haiz
taught at 5sir bukit panjang
was a disaster
i mean e men
they were e worst of e worst of e worst recruits ive ever seen!
even though i dun like to whack ppl but well
it jus irks me to see them so ill-disciplined
anw, ive been arrowed as some stupid emcee for some night outing 2007.
dunno wat saikang i hav to do this time
lets see tml.
hav been e new target of some senior recently
someone jus 1 batch above me
pickin on me
for every minor thing tat i do...
crappy
fortunately i hav e backing of another senior
someone above him.
ha
really very fortunate to God tat he's ard
cant imgine wat'll happen if he's gone in feb.
e stupid 63rd batch will jus climb ALL OVER our heads!
they're jus 1 batch tat we wanna kick out n FAST!
they're ruining our image n reputation.
CRAP!
haiz
taught at 5sir bukit panjang
was a disaster
i mean e men
they were e worst of e worst of e worst recruits ive ever seen!
even though i dun like to whack ppl but well
it jus irks me to see them so ill-disciplined
anw, ive been arrowed as some stupid emcee for some night outing 2007.
dunno wat saikang i hav to do this time
lets see tml.
hav been e new target of some senior recently
someone jus 1 batch above me
pickin on me
for every minor thing tat i do...
crappy
fortunately i hav e backing of another senior
someone above him.
ha
really very fortunate to God tat he's ard
cant imgine wat'll happen if he's gone in feb.
e stupid 63rd batch will jus climb ALL OVER our heads!
they're jus 1 batch tat we wanna kick out n FAST!
they're ruining our image n reputation.
CRAP!
Saturday, 28 October 2006
$$$ minded
currently listening to_: Lin Jun Jie - Zhi Dui Ni Shuo
made up my mind...
im gonna go out less for e next month
hmmm
wait
mayb i SHD go out more!
cant stay at home too long!!!
it'll corrode my mind!!!
hmmm
yupz
jus go out as much as poss BUT not spend tat much money...
is tat ok?
need cash...
$_$
gotta save
im hard up...
btw... my new tattoo!!!
lol!!!
made up my mind...
im gonna go out less for e next month
hmmm
wait
mayb i SHD go out more!
cant stay at home too long!!!
it'll corrode my mind!!!
hmmm
yupz
jus go out as much as poss BUT not spend tat much money...
is tat ok?
need cash...
$_$
gotta save
im hard up...
btw... my new tattoo!!!
lol!!!
Friday, 27 October 2006
Monday, 23 October 2006
silent roarz
currently listening to_: Lin Jun Jie - Ai Qing Yogurt
i guess i hav no choice but to suck thumb n jus endure thru another week?
haa
anw, ya today wasnt as bad as i tot.
aftnoon was fun
haha
went to klunch again!!!
at lot 1
n ate vietnamese fish set or something.
not tat shabby.
sang til no voice...
den aft tat got lesson!
haha
taught most of it again
n surprisingly enjoyed it
haha
ended early again!!!
hahaha
dunno but we jus aint scared...
once bitten, not tat shy?
haha how daring...
den aft tat went to meet feng, suru n ting
haha
ate at clementi momoko house
cheap n nice!!!
like it lots.
n now im back home slacking
haha
SLACK!!!!
i like...
i guess i hav no choice but to suck thumb n jus endure thru another week?
haa
anw, ya today wasnt as bad as i tot.
aftnoon was fun
haha
went to klunch again!!!
at lot 1
n ate vietnamese fish set or something.
not tat shabby.
sang til no voice...
den aft tat got lesson!
haha
taught most of it again
n surprisingly enjoyed it
haha
ended early again!!!
hahaha
dunno but we jus aint scared...
once bitten, not tat shy?
haha how daring...
den aft tat went to meet feng, suru n ting
haha
ate at clementi momoko house
cheap n nice!!!
like it lots.
n now im back home slacking
haha
SLACK!!!!
i like...
Sunday, 22 October 2006
crap.
currently listening to_: Evanescence - My Immortal
its really crap
my tml deepavali off has been cancelled
n postponed to fri
doesnt seem tat menacing
but e fact is
tml got 2 lessons
n as e only junior there, i will 'absorb' everything
n as for fri?
its a super slack day where u dun even do anything
n they're giving me an off for tat???
wat a joke
im already losing my voice.
n i expected to relax tml...
now all my plans hav changed.
URGH
i'd rather NOT take e off this way.
anw,
it aint true tat i dun wanna go for ypf camp
its tat i really cant lor
den clement still wanna say tat wat im soooo free but i dun wanna go...
it aint tat easy to b in my vocation...
wait til u try it out
new rules hav been implemented
seniors hav been stripped of their titles...
extras given for free
regulars backstabbing here n there
PTIs giving trouble for us...
URGH.
anw, sad tat i cant eat my mini cake today
ha
oh well...
anw, i experienced another deja vu-ed situation last night at cine
somehow jus seems so familiar
me teaching my bro's fren how to kick
ha
can still vaguely remem tat purplish hue of e pool room..
yeah
guess i forgot to blog down 1 thing
its e entry of a new family member!
well...
it came on my birthday!
so coincidental rite?
jus realized its called a lovebird
ha
n coz of tat well...
i named it 'Cupid!'
hee
almost kana-ed 7 extras in a row too...
all coz we left early for some tues lesson
e person who caught us was our OC
personally came down to check somemore
e person who recommended e extras was oso him
e person who acted as e good guy n let us start afresh was oso him
so wat e hell is his purpose?
crappy.
argh
jus hope tat i can claim my off on another day.
im going bonkers
its really crap
my tml deepavali off has been cancelled
n postponed to fri
doesnt seem tat menacing
but e fact is
tml got 2 lessons
n as e only junior there, i will 'absorb' everything
n as for fri?
its a super slack day where u dun even do anything
n they're giving me an off for tat???
wat a joke
im already losing my voice.
n i expected to relax tml...
now all my plans hav changed.
URGH
i'd rather NOT take e off this way.
anw,
it aint true tat i dun wanna go for ypf camp
its tat i really cant lor
den clement still wanna say tat wat im soooo free but i dun wanna go...
it aint tat easy to b in my vocation...
wait til u try it out
new rules hav been implemented
seniors hav been stripped of their titles...
extras given for free
regulars backstabbing here n there
PTIs giving trouble for us...
URGH.
anw, sad tat i cant eat my mini cake today
ha
oh well...
anw, i experienced another deja vu-ed situation last night at cine
somehow jus seems so familiar
me teaching my bro's fren how to kick
ha
can still vaguely remem tat purplish hue of e pool room..
yeah
guess i forgot to blog down 1 thing
its e entry of a new family member!
well...
it came on my birthday!
so coincidental rite?
jus realized its called a lovebird
ha
n coz of tat well...
i named it 'Cupid!'
hee
almost kana-ed 7 extras in a row too...
all coz we left early for some tues lesson
e person who caught us was our OC
personally came down to check somemore
e person who recommended e extras was oso him
e person who acted as e good guy n let us start afresh was oso him
so wat e hell is his purpose?
crappy.
argh
jus hope tat i can claim my off on another day.
im going bonkers
speed.
currently listening to_: Christina Aguilera - Ain't No Other Man
yay!!!
tml we're going out for e first time in dunno how many months!
e 3 of us havent been together for a looooooonng time!
anw, i guess ive been making all e decisions so far...
all responsibility kana pushed to me de.
UNFAIR!!!!
grrRr
yup, oso looking forward to my mini cake tml!
hee =]
thanX (u noe who U r)!!!
argh cut my hair today...
tot it would b fine but i realized...
my fringe is super duper short!!!
esp in e center!!!
stupid auntie go cut off my stub of hair in e center!
now it looks so awkward...
super awkward.
can only style it 1 way.'
e stupid beckham fin...
eeeew
anw, yeah,
been pillioning my bro's bike e entire day!!!
woohoo so shiok
but too bad...
coz i was ard,
so he couldnt go tat fast.
only bout 130km/h...
but e acceleration was like woah!
only 1 word to describe it: fast!!!!!
oh shucks its like 1225am le...
gtg sleep early for church tml!
remind me to call feng to wake him up too!
yay!!!
tml we're going out for e first time in dunno how many months!
e 3 of us havent been together for a looooooonng time!
anw, i guess ive been making all e decisions so far...
all responsibility kana pushed to me de.
UNFAIR!!!!
grrRr
yup, oso looking forward to my mini cake tml!
hee =]
thanX (u noe who U r)!!!
argh cut my hair today...
tot it would b fine but i realized...
my fringe is super duper short!!!
esp in e center!!!
stupid auntie go cut off my stub of hair in e center!
now it looks so awkward...
super awkward.
can only style it 1 way.'
e stupid beckham fin...
eeeew
anw, yeah,
been pillioning my bro's bike e entire day!!!
woohoo so shiok
but too bad...
coz i was ard,
so he couldnt go tat fast.
only bout 130km/h...
but e acceleration was like woah!
only 1 word to describe it: fast!!!!!
oh shucks its like 1225am le...
gtg sleep early for church tml!
remind me to call feng to wake him up too!
Wednesday, 18 October 2006
randomized n shuffled all ard
Basically you put your Ipod/Itunes/Windows Media Player on shuffle mode and plug in the name of the songs which come up for each qs...
Q. How do you feel today?
A. Fall Out Boys - Dance Dance {Feel like dancin' !!! LOL}
Q. Whats your outlook on life?
A. Maroon 5 - She Will Be Loved {Ermz... mayb? shd b?}
Q. What does your family think of you?
A. The Veronicas - Revolution {VERY TRUE!!! WAHAHA. ~IM A REVOLUTION~}
Q. What do your friends think of you?
A. North - Better Off Without You {NOOOO!!! THEY HATE ME TAT BAD???}
Q. What do strangers think of you?
A. Utada Hikaru - Colours {Im colourful n bright, i presume?}
Q. What do your ex's think of you?
A. Saving Jane - Girl Next Door {Shd hav been boy next door ba...}
Q. How has your love life been so far?
A. Jay Chou - Jian Dan Ai {Hope it'll stay tat way too!!!}
Q. Will you get married?
A. Westlife - Why do I Love You {Doesn't sound like I will...}
Q. Will you have kids?
A. Wang Li Hom - Forever Love {Err dun really get this... Mayb no kids?}
Q. Are you in school?
A. Simple Plan - Welcome To My Life {ARGH!!! CANT SPEND MY ENTIRE LIFE IN SCH!!!!}
Q. Will you be successful in life?
A. Huang Yi Da - Na Nu Hai Dui Wo Shuo {O. K. . . }
Q. What song should they play on your birthday?
A. Final Fantasy IX - Battle {Fightin ain't allowed on my BDAE!!!}
Q. What song should they play at your funeral?
A. Fianl Fantasy IX - Melodies Of Life {Hmmm sounds appropriate enough! HA}
Q. Soundtrack of your life?
A. Utada Hikaru - Sakura Drops {Wow...}
Q. You and your best friend are...
A. Lin Jun Jie - Yi Qian Nian Yi Hou {1000 yrs later, we'll b together again? Dun wait too long ya?}
Q. Sad times...
A. Wang Li Hom - Ai Cuo {scary...}
Q. Everyday is...
A. SHE - Yuan Fang {Everyday is so far from me...}
Q. Tomorrow is...
A. Utada Hikaru - Hear Me Cry {Better prepare a packet of tissue in case}
-chosen out of 289 songs in e com
Q. How do you feel today?
A. Fall Out Boys - Dance Dance {Feel like dancin' !!! LOL}
Q. Whats your outlook on life?
A. Maroon 5 - She Will Be Loved {Ermz... mayb? shd b?}
Q. What does your family think of you?
A. The Veronicas - Revolution {VERY TRUE!!! WAHAHA. ~IM A REVOLUTION~}
Q. What do your friends think of you?
A. North - Better Off Without You {NOOOO!!! THEY HATE ME TAT BAD???}
Q. What do strangers think of you?
A. Utada Hikaru - Colours {Im colourful n bright, i presume?}
Q. What do your ex's think of you?
A. Saving Jane - Girl Next Door {Shd hav been boy next door ba...}
Q. How has your love life been so far?
A. Jay Chou - Jian Dan Ai {Hope it'll stay tat way too!!!}
Q. Will you get married?
A. Westlife - Why do I Love You {Doesn't sound like I will...}
Q. Will you have kids?
A. Wang Li Hom - Forever Love {Err dun really get this... Mayb no kids?}
Q. Are you in school?
A. Simple Plan - Welcome To My Life {ARGH!!! CANT SPEND MY ENTIRE LIFE IN SCH!!!!}
Q. Will you be successful in life?
A. Huang Yi Da - Na Nu Hai Dui Wo Shuo {O. K. . . }
Q. What song should they play on your birthday?
A. Final Fantasy IX - Battle {Fightin ain't allowed on my BDAE!!!}
Q. What song should they play at your funeral?
A. Fianl Fantasy IX - Melodies Of Life {Hmmm sounds appropriate enough! HA}
Q. Soundtrack of your life?
A. Utada Hikaru - Sakura Drops {Wow...}
Q. You and your best friend are...
A. Lin Jun Jie - Yi Qian Nian Yi Hou {1000 yrs later, we'll b together again? Dun wait too long ya?}
Q. Sad times...
A. Wang Li Hom - Ai Cuo {scary...}
Q. Everyday is...
A. SHE - Yuan Fang {Everyday is so far from me...}
Q. Tomorrow is...
A. Utada Hikaru - Hear Me Cry {Better prepare a packet of tissue in case}
-chosen out of 289 songs in e com
Friday, 13 October 2006
.roar.
currently listening to_: Cascada - Everytime We Touch
yeah jus blasting out music again...
too bad ytd din hav any fireworks...
haiz...
anw, im jus bursting out wateva i wanna say out now...
so i dunno wat will come next
anw, today tekaned those stupid recruits quite alot.
watched them squirm for help.
ha
well too bad, they deserve it.
n y?
coz its their first lesson,
n ya we're expected to KILL them!
well, think we were kinda too lenient today...
floor was kinda dry though.
= not enough sweat we making those recruits produce.
is tat our inefficacy or tat we've been too lenient?
i dunno too.
perhaps e best ever time to have fun
its like bcct all week round.
ha
1 week's worth of tekaning fun!!!
is tat wat we black shirts r paid to do?
sometimes i wonder wat r we supposed to do.
to impart?
to instruct?
to tekan?
or to do sai kang?
or to get blamed for everything?
or to rebel with every order tats given to us?
or to be jus another pawn under e direct noses of e incompetant PTIS who r e so called 'angels' while us, the 'devils'?
or r we supposedly going to b replaced by them?
im not sure too
u decide
although e 'all of e above' ans seems e most appropriate...
anw, when is e stupid Special Investigations Bureau gonna give me my punishment?
a charge?
many extras?
big fine?
hope they choose fast.
n not waste my time.
to think tat i went there for some stupid interrogation from 1130 to 130am
n theres still no news huh...
lousy fellows...
bla
stupid AFC
wat a waste of time to b e duty staff.
cant they jus get a permanent caretaker, some ah pek to man e stupid gym?
we r trained to kill
not to idle ard in front of some desk n wait for phone calls to do more sai kang like some shitfaced operator.
oh ya, WE ARE supposed to do shit work. tats wat our black shit is for,
it camouflages e shit so tat u can nvr see tat we've done it.
unlike those PTIs who wear white n remain spotless all coz they push all e shitwork to us.
yes all to us.
n stupid colin, who threw away my 3 dvds
jus coz of tat stupid check by SIB
n tats worth like 4.7GB x 3 of space.
crappy
yeah jus blasting out music again...
too bad ytd din hav any fireworks...
haiz...
anw, im jus bursting out wateva i wanna say out now...
so i dunno wat will come next
anw, today tekaned those stupid recruits quite alot.
watched them squirm for help.
ha
well too bad, they deserve it.
n y?
coz its their first lesson,
n ya we're expected to KILL them!
well, think we were kinda too lenient today...
floor was kinda dry though.
= not enough sweat we making those recruits produce.
is tat our inefficacy or tat we've been too lenient?
i dunno too.
perhaps e best ever time to have fun
its like bcct all week round.
ha
1 week's worth of tekaning fun!!!
is tat wat we black shirts r paid to do?
sometimes i wonder wat r we supposed to do.
to impart?
to instruct?
to tekan?
or to do sai kang?
or to get blamed for everything?
or to rebel with every order tats given to us?
or to be jus another pawn under e direct noses of e incompetant PTIS who r e so called 'angels' while us, the 'devils'?
or r we supposedly going to b replaced by them?
im not sure too
u decide
although e 'all of e above' ans seems e most appropriate...
anw, when is e stupid Special Investigations Bureau gonna give me my punishment?
a charge?
many extras?
big fine?
hope they choose fast.
n not waste my time.
to think tat i went there for some stupid interrogation from 1130 to 130am
n theres still no news huh...
lousy fellows...
bla
stupid AFC
wat a waste of time to b e duty staff.
cant they jus get a permanent caretaker, some ah pek to man e stupid gym?
we r trained to kill
not to idle ard in front of some desk n wait for phone calls to do more sai kang like some shitfaced operator.
oh ya, WE ARE supposed to do shit work. tats wat our black shit is for,
it camouflages e shit so tat u can nvr see tat we've done it.
unlike those PTIs who wear white n remain spotless all coz they push all e shitwork to us.
yes all to us.
n stupid colin, who threw away my 3 dvds
jus coz of tat stupid check by SIB
n tats worth like 4.7GB x 3 of space.
crappy
guess its back to techno huh jon?
back to e old ways...
-e 1st blog born out of frustration-
Friday, 6 October 2006
staying in(doors)
currently listening to_: Sheikh Haikel - Witulah
yup ytd i stayed back in camp again...
doing gym duty, taking care of e gym...
felt like time passed super fast.
perhaps coz e entire day was filled with many fun activities.
did my tranport claim ytd for e whole morn.
den went lunch at e nicer cookhouse.
den straight away went to climb some rocks!!!
woohoo!!!
it was superbly tiring but FUN!!!
did e medium n easy ones ytd.
den aft tat went back to gym counter n read SPIDERMAN!!!
hehe
den it was time for e mid autumn celebrations.
ate nasi lemak for dinner, coupled with green tea packets n chi tea
n of coz not forgetting MOOOOONcaKEs!!!
aiya, even though its 1000calories but i dun care.
haha
haze was pretty bad.
got minor throat irritations
den watched prison break n went to sleep...
today, did rock climbing again today!
did e super hard 1 n passed it!!!
yeah,
e only 1 frm my team to reach e top!
but my prize?
a dead bird at e top...
zZzz
yup n oso,
e s'pore sports sch came to attend a mini course on rock climbing conducted by my regulars.
n aft tat, i wanted to try somemore but well i gotta go Maju to teach later...
so now im at home,
waiting for e week to end!!!!!!!
(had a great day on tues{or isit mon?}, haha. a real enjoyment!! =P)
yup ytd i stayed back in camp again...
doing gym duty, taking care of e gym...
felt like time passed super fast.
perhaps coz e entire day was filled with many fun activities.
did my tranport claim ytd for e whole morn.
den went lunch at e nicer cookhouse.
den straight away went to climb some rocks!!!
woohoo!!!
it was superbly tiring but FUN!!!
did e medium n easy ones ytd.
den aft tat went back to gym counter n read SPIDERMAN!!!
hehe
den it was time for e mid autumn celebrations.
ate nasi lemak for dinner, coupled with green tea packets n chi tea
n of coz not forgetting MOOOOONcaKEs!!!
aiya, even though its 1000calories but i dun care.
haha
haze was pretty bad.
got minor throat irritations
den watched prison break n went to sleep...
today, did rock climbing again today!
did e super hard 1 n passed it!!!
yeah,
e only 1 frm my team to reach e top!
but my prize?
a dead bird at e top...
zZzz
yup n oso,
e s'pore sports sch came to attend a mini course on rock climbing conducted by my regulars.
n aft tat, i wanted to try somemore but well i gotta go Maju to teach later...
so now im at home,
waiting for e week to end!!!!!!!
(had a great day on tues{or isit mon?}, haha. a real enjoyment!! =P)
Saturday, 30 September 2006
title 101
currently listening to_: Snow Patrol - Chasing Cars
yep u guessed it.
its my no 101 post!
yay!
anyway,
went to changi chalets ytd
quite boring,
weird ORD function...
ran so much n super fast n got 7th in e end.
other ppl walked n came in much much later n scored higher points
urgh.
frustration
anw, im watching old school batman on central now.
super funny
got all those special effects like "pow","boom","bang", etc.
lol
took half day off today,
slept e entire aftnoon.
shiok
havent done tat in a long long long time.
n now, camps ard s'pore r stepping up security for camera hps
i guess...
i cant get my much awaited hp til 2008...
urgh x2
wat am i gonna do???
yep u guessed it.
its my no 101 post!
yay!
anyway,
went to changi chalets ytd
quite boring,
weird ORD function...
ran so much n super fast n got 7th in e end.
other ppl walked n came in much much later n scored higher points
urgh.
frustration
anw, im watching old school batman on central now.
super funny
got all those special effects like "pow","boom","bang", etc.
lol
took half day off today,
slept e entire aftnoon.
shiok
havent done tat in a long long long time.
n now, camps ard s'pore r stepping up security for camera hps
i guess...
i cant get my much awaited hp til 2008...
urgh x2
wat am i gonna do???
Sunday, 24 September 2006
new 9ame
currently listening to_: Linkin Park - Numb
today jus traded in my old game for a new one called DJ Max Portable.
feels like those type of dancing genre games like DDR, Para Para, BeatMania etc.
but its kinda nice to play.
seen e reviews, most of them r like 9/10.
played abit n its like kinda hard even though its only 4 buttons for e easy mode.
haha
guess tat im kinda noob at it ya?
tml n tues going maju again.
perhaps can go to e nearby SIM canteen to eat lunch again???
hehehe
today jus traded in my old game for a new one called DJ Max Portable.
feels like those type of dancing genre games like DDR, Para Para, BeatMania etc.
but its kinda nice to play.
seen e reviews, most of them r like 9/10.
played abit n its like kinda hard even though its only 4 buttons for e easy mode.
haha
guess tat im kinda noob at it ya?
tml n tues going maju again.
perhaps can go to e nearby SIM canteen to eat lunch again???
hehehe
Tuesday, 19 September 2006
roar
currently listening to_: High School Musical - Breaking Free
haiz..
perhaps i shouted much ytd...
all coz of tat stupid construction dozer jus behind e multipurpose hall...
it only went on when it was my turn to teach...
urgh...
senior shouted at me to shout louder coz those behind couldnt hear
shouted at e extreme top of my voice
n now...
i have like blood in my throat.
spat out some this morn
argh
doesnt feel pain but it feels kinda spoilt...
wth
haiz..
perhaps i shouted much ytd...
all coz of tat stupid construction dozer jus behind e multipurpose hall...
it only went on when it was my turn to teach...
urgh...
senior shouted at me to shout louder coz those behind couldnt hear
shouted at e extreme top of my voice
n now...
i have like blood in my throat.
spat out some this morn
argh
doesnt feel pain but it feels kinda spoilt...
wth
Thursday, 14 September 2006
changing lifestyles
currently listening to_: Shayne Ward - No Promises
yup, did lots of thinking this week...
cant really write down wat i tot coz well,
i think by e time i write this, i wld hav been forgeting everything tat i tot of...
well, at least i noe tat i hav made some progress if i blog this out...
i guess i need some kit kat; some time out to jus relax...
it indeed is very stressful n i dunno y...
thinkin wat it feels like to DRINK for leisure but not get drunk..
yep, tats wat ppl call escapism...
ah, wateva...
tryin hard to learn to b independent...
to get a life
instead on relying n depending on others
but im not a leech nor parasite...
jus tat perhaps ive been giving too much effort for others...
gotta learn how to please myself instead of others now...
how not to go out of my way for others...
how to give a heck to others...
yada yada...
yeah, findin somethin to perk me up...
nothing interests me anymore
yup, did lots of thinking this week...
cant really write down wat i tot coz well,
i think by e time i write this, i wld hav been forgeting everything tat i tot of...
well, at least i noe tat i hav made some progress if i blog this out...
i guess i need some kit kat; some time out to jus relax...
it indeed is very stressful n i dunno y...
thinkin wat it feels like to DRINK for leisure but not get drunk..
yep, tats wat ppl call escapism...
ah, wateva...
tryin hard to learn to b independent...
to get a life
instead on relying n depending on others
but im not a leech nor parasite...
jus tat perhaps ive been giving too much effort for others...
gotta learn how to please myself instead of others now...
how not to go out of my way for others...
how to give a heck to others...
yada yada...
yeah, findin somethin to perk me up...
nothing interests me anymore
Wednesday, 6 September 2006
what it shd have been
ahhh...
its not $200 tat i earned overnight.
it was only $100!!!
$200 is for reservists...
sobx
its not $200 tat i earned overnight.
it was only $100!!!
$200 is for reservists...
sobx
Tuesday, 5 September 2006
IPPT
currently listening to_: Craig David - Im Sorry
yay today jus earned myself another $200!!!
phew
i barely made it...
all becoz of 1 stitch
ouch
couldnt run
yeah
perhaps its tat chicken carbonara + 2 cups orange juice + 1 cake roll + 1 vege soup
haha
ate too much i guess...
finally got a record high of $2000 in my bank account!
haha
yeah im poor
=p
yay today jus earned myself another $200!!!
phew
i barely made it...
all becoz of 1 stitch
ouch
couldnt run
yeah
perhaps its tat chicken carbonara + 2 cups orange juice + 1 cake roll + 1 vege soup
haha
ate too much i guess...
finally got a record high of $2000 in my bank account!
haha
yeah im poor
=p
Friday, 25 August 2006
too fast too early
currently listening to_: Simple Plan - Welcome To My Life
phew... luckily its only 10km tat im gonna run this sun.
but e stupid prob is tat...
i hav to reach e stupid war memorial by 615AM!!!!!!!!!
tats totally crazy!
rite?
any1 who agrees with me pls breathe!
thanx 4 supporting me!
xie xie, xie xie!
anw,
ive decided
either i stay over at my frens house at toa payoh
or i stay over at somewhere near tat memorial (or at tat place itself)
yeah,
been posted to e west side sungei gedong camp
u noe tat ulu ulu 1 in sarimbun / lim chu kang area?
yup there...
haiz...
nvm la
jus accept my fate
haha
ytd jus d/lded a nice nice cute cute game called loco roco!
haha
addicted to e cuteness!
phew... luckily its only 10km tat im gonna run this sun.
but e stupid prob is tat...
i hav to reach e stupid war memorial by 615AM!!!!!!!!!
tats totally crazy!
rite?
any1 who agrees with me pls breathe!
thanx 4 supporting me!
xie xie, xie xie!
anw,
ive decided
either i stay over at my frens house at toa payoh
or i stay over at somewhere near tat memorial (or at tat place itself)
yeah,
been posted to e west side sungei gedong camp
u noe tat ulu ulu 1 in sarimbun / lim chu kang area?
yup there...
haiz...
nvm la
jus accept my fate
haha
ytd jus d/lded a nice nice cute cute game called loco roco!
haha
addicted to e cuteness!
Monday, 21 August 2006
my posting!
currently listening to_: Stacie Orrico - More To Life
finally, get to reconfirm where i'll b going to teach.
yup its e west area...
n i'll b going frm camp to camp lots...
so i sorta jus decided.
i wanna learn how to ride a bike, n fast.
its more convenient i feel.
its no influence frm my bro.
besides, i feel tat i'll b a safe rider unlike him.
i'll jus stick to e 1st 2 lanes.
yup. i dunno if i can learn it fast n get a bike with my measly miserable pay...
yup.
i need a form of transport.
CONVENIENCE
finally, get to reconfirm where i'll b going to teach.
yup its e west area...
n i'll b going frm camp to camp lots...
so i sorta jus decided.
i wanna learn how to ride a bike, n fast.
its more convenient i feel.
its no influence frm my bro.
besides, i feel tat i'll b a safe rider unlike him.
i'll jus stick to e 1st 2 lanes.
yup. i dunno if i can learn it fast n get a bike with my measly miserable pay...
yup.
i need a form of transport.
CONVENIENCE
Friday, 18 August 2006
traumatised
looks like i forgot to mention something...
i jus had my dinner!!!
yup, as in i JUS ate finish.
at 220am!!!
oh yeah!
myojo seafood bowl noodles with a rather half-cooked egg!
yummy
i jus had my dinner!!!
yup, as in i JUS ate finish.
at 220am!!!
oh yeah!
myojo seafood bowl noodles with a rather half-cooked egg!
yummy
sleepy daze
currently listening to_: North - Better Off Without You
yeah
got injured AGAIN!!!
cant clench my fists properly...
cant chop thru tat stupid block of concrete with 1 hit today...
had to use 2...
n now my hand is breaking apart.
stupid camou...
now i look like im wearin mascara again...
havent looked like tat in 2 mths...
but it was kinda cool...
camou-ed face + camou-styled bandana + stupid army uni
looked like some JI militant.
yeah...
e final day im gonna eat at e yucky tasting cookhouse tat has much much pretty low standards for humans...
they r more like cheating SAF of their money n us of our food.
i'd rather eat at e more ex canteen...
but well, i've got no cash...
n ya... today went to PS to eat Manhatten Fish dunno wat restaurant for lunch with e other instructors aft our demo for e 9div parade this morn
was rather nice tasting n palatable.
den went to parklane, somewhere near selegie road to play LAN with frens...
no choice but to tag along with them.
den walked to far east to walk ard den went to meet up with roy to play LAN again...
n now im back home n i jus remembered to sms Tie n Ta on their 18th bday...
phew... although i was 15 mins late...
yeah n now im back here in my own room writing this stupid post which only serves as a diary to keep myself busy, n help me remem wat happened in my life, for e future...
yeah
got injured AGAIN!!!
cant clench my fists properly...
cant chop thru tat stupid block of concrete with 1 hit today...
had to use 2...
n now my hand is breaking apart.
stupid camou...
now i look like im wearin mascara again...
havent looked like tat in 2 mths...
but it was kinda cool...
camou-ed face + camou-styled bandana + stupid army uni
looked like some JI militant.
yeah...
e final day im gonna eat at e yucky tasting cookhouse tat has much much pretty low standards for humans...
they r more like cheating SAF of their money n us of our food.
i'd rather eat at e more ex canteen...
but well, i've got no cash...
n ya... today went to PS to eat Manhatten Fish dunno wat restaurant for lunch with e other instructors aft our demo for e 9div parade this morn
was rather nice tasting n palatable.
den went to parklane, somewhere near selegie road to play LAN with frens...
no choice but to tag along with them.
den walked to far east to walk ard den went to meet up with roy to play LAN again...
n now im back home n i jus remembered to sms Tie n Ta on their 18th bday...
phew... although i was 15 mins late...
yeah n now im back here in my own room writing this stupid post which only serves as a diary to keep myself busy, n help me remem wat happened in my life, for e future...
Sunday, 6 August 2006
currently listening to_: The Veronicas - Nobody Wins
Life is like a bus ride.
there r humps n bumps along e way...
u meet diff ppl in there too...
but sometimes u jus gotta get off n change buses to get to ur final destination
e ques is:
do u enjoy tat ride?
or isit jus another place for u to nap it thru...
i guess its time for me to alight...
if goodbye is wat u want, goodbye is wat u'll get
Life is like a bus ride.
there r humps n bumps along e way...
u meet diff ppl in there too...
but sometimes u jus gotta get off n change buses to get to ur final destination
e ques is:
do u enjoy tat ride?
or isit jus another place for u to nap it thru...
i guess its time for me to alight...
if goodbye is wat u want, goodbye is wat u'll get
Wednesday, 2 August 2006
Sunday, 23 July 2006
back to teaching vol.1
currently listening to_: The Veronicas - Heavily Broken
yeah!
i'll start teaching PTIs/FS from tml onwards...
wonder how im gonna do it...
gonna need lots of courage n confidence n lots lots of WISDOM!
hope tat i can get e singlet in time too...
dun wanna spend cash when u can use credits...
n its free credits given by e govt somemore...
yeah!
i'll start teaching PTIs/FS from tml onwards...
wonder how im gonna do it...
gonna need lots of courage n confidence n lots lots of WISDOM!
hope tat i can get e singlet in time too...
dun wanna spend cash when u can use credits...
n its free credits given by e govt somemore...
Sunday, 16 July 2006
end of pt!
currently listening to_: Bosson - One In A Million
jus 1 more bout of sparring n aikido lesson to end it all!!!
den got 1 day of admin stuff n 3 days BREAK!!!!
yep, now got backache...
cant really move with ease...
finger still cant clench...
n im getting my BLACK POLO TEE SOON!!!!
together with my beret!!!!
woohoo!
bought 2 pants n a belt today.
n went for a whole body massage too!
so SHIOK!!!
jus 1 more bout of sparring n aikido lesson to end it all!!!
den got 1 day of admin stuff n 3 days BREAK!!!!
yep, now got backache...
cant really move with ease...
finger still cant clench...
n im getting my BLACK POLO TEE SOON!!!!
together with my beret!!!!
woohoo!
bought 2 pants n a belt today.
n went for a whole body massage too!
so SHIOK!!!
Tuesday, 11 July 2006
currently listening to_: Utada Hikaru - Wait And See
yay!!!
finished Advance le!!!
haha
now its Enhanced phase where they teach u more stuff out of syllabus
yeah n now i've new injuries(as always)
left index finger cant bend,
right palm got prob,
right elbow n left knee cracky...
n 1 BIG pimple still left on my face!!!
haiz gonna do advanced taebo tml...
seeing tat black man in a super tight leotard n asking us to kick here n there in double quick time while he keeps chao keng-ing by walking ard to his demonstrators n talking to them...
yeah n ytd nite being forced to drink Tiger beer. it jus tasted ugly.
n today i had a mini hangover n almost couldnt wake up...
jus 3 more days to end my physical phase n 1 more week to start my instructional phase...
n im super shagged out today...
cant think straight...
ending here.....
yay!!!
finished Advance le!!!
haha
now its Enhanced phase where they teach u more stuff out of syllabus
yeah n now i've new injuries(as always)
left index finger cant bend,
right palm got prob,
right elbow n left knee cracky...
n 1 BIG pimple still left on my face!!!
haiz gonna do advanced taebo tml...
seeing tat black man in a super tight leotard n asking us to kick here n there in double quick time while he keeps chao keng-ing by walking ard to his demonstrators n talking to them...
yeah n ytd nite being forced to drink Tiger beer. it jus tasted ugly.
n today i had a mini hangover n almost couldnt wake up...
jus 3 more days to end my physical phase n 1 more week to start my instructional phase...
n im super shagged out today...
cant think straight...
ending here.....
Sunday, 2 July 2006
lesson plan
currently listening to_: The Veronicas - 4Ever
yeah, i finished intermediate training le...
tml gonna start on advanced focusing more on throws instead of locks n holds which i did for e past 2 weeks...
n this means much much more easier to get injuries..
argh...
yeah, i finished intermediate training le...
tml gonna start on advanced focusing more on throws instead of locks n holds which i did for e past 2 weeks...
n this means much much more easier to get injuries..
argh...
Saturday, 1 July 2006
more blood
currently listening to_: Lin Jun Jie - Now That She's Gone
yeah...
there's blood n pus again...
much much more....
yeah, forgot to add some stuff last sun.
lazy to post it out
...
yeah...
it looked like i was having menstruation sia...
theres blood after i shit'ted.
n its really alot
haiz
shd b too heaty or internal injuries...
so far theres no relapse of it this week
yeah...
there's blood n pus again...
much much more....
yeah, forgot to add some stuff last sun.
lazy to post it out
...
yeah...
it looked like i was having menstruation sia...
theres blood after i shit'ted.
n its really alot
haiz
shd b too heaty or internal injuries...
so far theres no relapse of it this week
Saturday, 24 June 2006
not tat PAIN
yup.
theres no more blood.
BUT WAIT!
theres more!
much much more PUS!!!!!!
yup!
which solidies quicly to form a barrier over e wound.
total vol of liquid: 1cm^3
colour: opaque yellowish white(liquid), translucent yellow(solid)
texture: super sticky (liquid), hard n fun-to-peel(solid)
theres no more blood.
BUT WAIT!
theres more!
much much more PUS!!!!!!
yup!
which solidies quicly to form a barrier over e wound.
total vol of liquid: 1cm^3
colour: opaque yellowish white(liquid), translucent yellow(solid)
texture: super sticky (liquid), hard n fun-to-peel(solid)
Friday, 23 June 2006
PAIN
yeah. finally finished my 1st week of training.
few words to describe it.
tough tough n xiong.
well, e physical conditioning is crazy!
we keep doing breakfalls til my elbow is...
argh...
e skin has come off.
e wound is bout 2 by 2 cm on both elbows.
theres blood.
it's an abrasion over an abrasion.
on mon there will b more abrasions...
e worst ever thing is e rolling...
i almost vomited!
but all these breakfalls r gonna give me a blood clot in my brain sooner or later.
we're all having concussions already.
yeah, we done front, back, side, rolling, n next 1 will be flipping breakfalls le.
which is a rolling breakfall without using hands.
ya, other den breakfalls...
pushups n more pushups...
2nd day:60
3rd day:80
4th day:200
today:300
they will like purposely shag u out jus b4 e activity.
so tat we will (supposedly) be trained to b better den e ppl we teach.
COZ WE R INSTRUCTORS
ya.
e only thing tat seperates us n other vocations (including commandos)
is our knuckle pushups tat we (r supposed) to do.
jus compare e knuckle between us n a commando's.
ya.
knuckles combined with both normal n 'wide-arm' pushups...
wow
commandos have e clap thingy rite?
well,
we oso jump up but we dun clap, we land with our knuckles instead.
ya, wat we r learning r DEADLY ARTS!!!
ie, as compared to e usual tkd unarmed combat,
they take bout 15 - 20 mins to takedown a group of ppl.
but for us:
max 5secs.
we r taught where to hit to inflict e max damage to knockout ppl more effectively.
ie. e joints of e body, solar plexis, temple, chin, nose, groin etc.
we aim to kill...
or at least break a few bones here n there...
ya, this is jus a mini summary of my job scope...
theres more to come..
few words to describe it.
tough tough n xiong.
well, e physical conditioning is crazy!
we keep doing breakfalls til my elbow is...
argh...
e skin has come off.
e wound is bout 2 by 2 cm on both elbows.
theres blood.
it's an abrasion over an abrasion.
on mon there will b more abrasions...
e worst ever thing is e rolling...
i almost vomited!
but all these breakfalls r gonna give me a blood clot in my brain sooner or later.
we're all having concussions already.
yeah, we done front, back, side, rolling, n next 1 will be flipping breakfalls le.
which is a rolling breakfall without using hands.
ya, other den breakfalls...
pushups n more pushups...
2nd day:60
3rd day:80
4th day:200
today:300
they will like purposely shag u out jus b4 e activity.
so tat we will (supposedly) be trained to b better den e ppl we teach.
COZ WE R INSTRUCTORS
ya.
e only thing tat seperates us n other vocations (including commandos)
is our knuckle pushups tat we (r supposed) to do.
jus compare e knuckle between us n a commando's.
ya.
knuckles combined with both normal n 'wide-arm' pushups...
wow
commandos have e clap thingy rite?
well,
we oso jump up but we dun clap, we land with our knuckles instead.
ya, wat we r learning r DEADLY ARTS!!!
ie, as compared to e usual tkd unarmed combat,
they take bout 15 - 20 mins to takedown a group of ppl.
but for us:
max 5secs.
we r taught where to hit to inflict e max damage to knockout ppl more effectively.
ie. e joints of e body, solar plexis, temple, chin, nose, groin etc.
we aim to kill...
or at least break a few bones here n there...
ya, this is jus a mini summary of my job scope...
theres more to come..
Friday, 16 June 2006
posting results
yeah man! i got e posting which i had been wanting to go to for weeks!
Praise e LORD!!!!
btw, my tagboard got some probs....
Praise e LORD!!!!
btw, my tagboard got some probs....
Sunday, 11 June 2006
break...
exactly 1 week left to do wateva i want...
to take a break from e greenery ard me...
n to adapt to my environments n future career...
tired.
to take a break from e greenery ard me...
n to adapt to my environments n future career...
tired.
Sunday, 4 June 2006
Saturday, 27 May 2006
haiz...
lets see...
i got 16km,
24km route marches...,
SOC,
GAC,
Games Day,
CO nite,
OC nite,
POP rehearsal,
den finally POP...
all cramped up in these final week...
crap...
cant wait to suicide halfway during my 24km route march carrying tat heavy shitload tat we're not even gonna use at all...
hmm, i think better not to...
coz i'll already b braindead by e time i reach e halfway point.
but euthanasia's not a bad idea too...
hmmm
shall consider more...
i got 16km,
24km route marches...,
SOC,
GAC,
Games Day,
CO nite,
OC nite,
POP rehearsal,
den finally POP...
all cramped up in these final week...
crap...
cant wait to suicide halfway during my 24km route march carrying tat heavy shitload tat we're not even gonna use at all...
hmm, i think better not to...
coz i'll already b braindead by e time i reach e halfway point.
but euthanasia's not a bad idea too...
hmmm
shall consider more...
hmm
jus wondered something...
e title of this blog is chasing a dream..
wat den is my dream...
i really dunno
can some1 tell me?
i dunno wat im doing...
everything seems stupid to me...
e title of this blog is chasing a dream..
wat den is my dream...
i really dunno
can some1 tell me?
i dunno wat im doing...
everything seems stupid to me...
Saturday, 20 May 2006
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Saturday, 13 May 2006
Saturday, 29 April 2006
Thursday, 6 April 2006
HAHAHA
yeah tml's e BIG BIG DAY!!!!
im already trembling with fear when think bout tat...
yeah..
do pray for me lots!!!
THX!!!
im already trembling with fear when think bout tat...
yeah..
do pray for me lots!!!
THX!!!
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