currently listening to_: North - I Won't Hold Back

dead dead tired
n giddy
n headache
and feel like fainting
n other other stuff...

deduction: i think i really havent used my blain for a long time.
resulting in a 'muscle ache' kinda syndrome.
went to e MINDS cafe today n played rather cool board games there.
find it worth e while.
besides,
e lasagne is pretty delicious too!

hmm,
if
my headache was due to tiredness...
den i guess,
by e next week i'll b like super zombified
imagine
sungei gedong
+
tkd back in hq
den aft tat
go to tengah for msg
n perhaps stay in
oh my
i'll jus lie flat n concuss straight away

phew,
almost kana-ed some stupid punishment ytd
jus imagine e punishment being to wear tat stupid U
while booking in n out of camps
ha
i really dun mind

ahhh
1 more week of gedong
can u take it?

yupz n i've failed yet again.
funny lane change prac
argh

kinda funny how i saw a drunk chi man in 40s trying to pick a fight with a tamil/bangla on e bus jus now.
ha
threatened here n there n finally got off e bus,
threw a few punches (which missed for e chi man)
den finally ended with e tamil man grabbin e chi man's collar n scolding him or something.
kinda comical to watch though
too bad they got off e bus too early for me to stop them n hopefully land a few punches
haha
no la
im not so bad
i dun even think i had e energy either.

oh well...
jus had a thought
thinking if i shd jus make this blog private
meaning tat no one
n i mean NO ONE can see it
hmmm
mayb i shd'

or mayb i shd jus close it down
den again
mayb not
i'll still need this to help me vent my anger when im angry
say things tat my tongue cant withhold
yea,
coz mayb i jus dun hav e urge to talk these days.
'keepin my mouth shut from e start'
somehow i jus cant get into e mood to talk.
or rather its hard ba.
people can talk bout everything under e sun
but perhaps for me, i'll jus b e 1 listening
tat silent assasin right beside u
or mayb
u've got e wrong topic to 'click' me with
pehaps its jus kinda hard for me to connect
esp with gals in e east
their feel is kinda different from those in e west
n no
i too cant talk to high class people
i cant even hold a continuous conversation with them.
i jus like to talk with my blog,
i guess its e only time i ever talk alot
dun u think so too?