currently listening to_: Saving Jane - Come Down To Me

"You are beautiful,
jus e way u are.
N i love it all, every line n every scar.
N i wish tat i could make u see,
this is where u ought to be..."

e chorus of this song...
well,
kinda reminded me of a person...
well actu, make it 2.
yup,
guess im glad tat they both get e msg,
though i dun really noe whether they'll really think tat way in their hearts...


a nice n emo song...
jus e way i like it
haha
've been blastin music in my ears for quite some time now...
i guess tml i'll jus go deaf...
miss this kinda feeling...
jus blastin all day long...
i guess its been only 3 to 4 hours only...
but it doesnt matter...

if only i could blast it this loud in e gym last nite while at e punching bag...
woah.
how nice tat'll b...

oh?
y im in e gym last nite?
simple.
coz i stayed over yet again
haha
think i really hav nth to do..
keep staying in...

oh well...
at least ive learnt something frm it...

lesson 1: aggression hurts.

lesson 2: silence is e best ans.

lesson 3: stayin in camp saves money n time spent travelling to n fro when u hav nth to do...

lesson 4: i really need to find time to buy prezzies!!!

lesson 5: when u're tired, u spout nonsense.

lesson 6: when u're sick, try to get an MC asap, b4 ur brain fails u n u become a living zombie

lesson 7: nvr try to outrun an officer, he'll stil catch up in e end.

guess i'll jus stop there...
cant think of anymore...
lalalala


hmmm,
mayb e reason y i love to blast music out loud is coz i can jus filter out other noises...
jus listen to pure music...

i love silence,
i really do.
but wat happens if u cant shut out e noise?
u BLAST!!!!
hahaha!

perhaps i need some 'me' time,
to think bout stuff.
bout my life.
to self reflect on it.
fortunately i took my 1 n only leave for this tues...
yeah!
long weekend!
ahhh...
but my whole fam shd b at home too...
oh well,
theres nth i can do...

oh shucks...
n now my music source jus died down...
no batt at all...
nvm...
shall cont writing this in silence(with some noise from e tv outside)

yep as i was sayin
my precious leave on tues...
hope tat i wun spend e day playin games or watever.
jus lie on e bed to think
n think
n think
n think til e world jus falls apart.
i mean til i hav to go to work again...

hols...
finally its bout time it came.
well u sch children r real fortunate.
at least u guys get sch hols or a week of hols inbetween semesters
really gotta treasure tat ya?
dun ever whilst ur time away like tat
make full use of it...
but for me?
i'll jus sleep e whole day thru
if God permits...
longest ever record of sleepin by me was 23hrs nonstop only...
hope i can break tat record some day...

hmm,
tml theres another prac lesson in e morn.
den aft tat i gotta help my fren to lacquer his bike.
den aft tat if got time go cut hair at woodlands.
den aft tat go for some meeting for some anniversary thingy.
den aft tat is ypf.
den aft tat if got time still, i'll try to find presents to buy for frens(but i doubt so)
den aft tat go sleep.
den next morn go church.
den aft tat i really dunno where to go.
den aft tat go to aunts house to celeb Christmas.
den aft tat i dunno wat i'll b doing again...

somehow,
n seriously,
to me,
it doesnt feel like Christmas anymore...
i dun get to feel tat atmosphere it once brought about.
let alone e New Year...
everyday feels either like a rest day or a working day to me.
i cant tell e diff anymore...
i dun even look forward to it...
i dun even noe wat im thinking.
i guess my brain shd really b scrapped soon,
jus like my bro's bike.
if only i could get a new 1.
jus forget it all n start anew.
to reexperience everything again.
gotta make sure tat this new brain is free from defects so it wouldnt lose any more memories...
N oso with a bigger memory space to store stuff.

my mind now is like a sponge.
not tat it retains well.
but rather, to absorb more water, u hav to squeeze out e water in e sponge to do so.
only den can new info be retained.
like e chi saying,
'jiu de bu qu, xing de bu lai'
describes me quite aptly now...


wanted to jus shout it(frustrations) all out.
but i guess,
u cant shout efficiently with a sore throat n flu n phlegm ya?

besides, ppl like me having a small build cant really get to shout loud...
so mayb i shdnt bother shoutin at all...

sandbag n loud music,
they make a great pair together,
dun u think so too?