wow.
these 2 days were ups n downs!

hmm lets see,
fri was rather monotonous in e morn.
woke up late...
but den,
it didnt make a diff even if i was late for e tutorial!
coz e baka tutor forgot to come for it!!!!
den like we waited n waited n waited...
all e way til e last 30mins den some guy called her.
so in e end we'll hav a real fast-paced 2-in-1 tutorial nxt fri!
n like computer system lec was totally clueless!
something bout virtual memory.
couldnt catch anything.
gotta read up more more.

den aft tat went to library to mug out e lab for mon.
in e end i managed to complete only 1 program out of 5!
n like it took me ard 1hr + to finish it.
GAWRSH.
n like e actually lab is 2hrs long.
no time for it at all!
den aft tat i rushed down for DSA aft a dinner with my dance partner (KX).
den like we went to Nanyang House only to find e dance prac being shifted to some Hall 6 Function Hall!
(btw, e Nanyang House was totally shabby for some 'artsy' building, unlike Yong Siew Toh Conservatory of Music in NUS.. [SUPER GLAM DE!!!])
n like there wasnt much ppl at e revision last nite.
but still,
we had a heck of a time(of fun) trying to perfect our dance steps!
yep,
we really had fun while dancing!
n we were feeling very 'accomplished' having correctly executing e steps!
n guess wat!
we were 'chosen' and 'encouraged' to join e competition class!!!
how cool is tat!!!!
somehow e president set his eyes on us!
n he kept looking our way whenever we practised!
n he even increased e tempo of e music jus for us!
haha.
*thrilled*

so yeah,
we'll think about it in e meanwhile.
its still a 50/50 chance for both of us to enter in.
if kx joins, i'll join in too!
Sure to be fun!!!

yeah den aft tat went home to mug again.
this time, it took me 6 hrs frm 9pm to 3am to try to figure out e rest of e questions!
n like i was basically stuck at e 4th.
grrrrrr.
btw, my lab questions this coming mon(n every other mon) are not even covered in e lectures yet!
so gotta self study n DIY!
tats y im having a wee bit of difficulty in it.
so yeah, today im totally mentally exhausted!
im pretty amazed i passed my FTT this morn!
n like i had only 1 or 2 nights to study it!
Praise e Lord!
=]

den aft tat rush home to try thinking thru my lab ques but to no avail...
den rushed down to YPF today.
n tats where my bike got scratched by Bernice's car nudging it...
='(
but yeah, its jus a bike...
its inanimate!

den aft tat i rushed down to Kuan Wee's Bday party at CCK.
hahaa,
well, i basically din do much there except for finding out e trick to tat lab ques.
WHICH WAS FINALLY SOLVED!!!
thanks to tat programming pro lecture-mate of mine!
haha.
[yeah i noe im crazy, doing sch work at a party!]
den aft tat went to Shell to top up petrol with V-Power!
coz they had some special promo where V-Power is e same price as 98!
haha
btw, tml's last day from 7pm to 11pm only!
so grab it fast while stocks last!

oh n one more sad thing happened.
my bike fell over when i was like trying to pump air into e tyres!
my heart almost skipped a beat again.
n den,
e back tyre jus refused to be pumped!
somehow e air jus doesnt even get in.
n tat resulted me in a flat tyre.
so no choice,
tried it at another petrol kiosk ard my house n it finally worked!
(albeit it being rather 'mian qiang')


oh well.
now im home,
im gonna work out tat lab ques!!!!
ARGH!!!
tired.

WHEE!!!!

FINALLY!
my new laptop is here!
awww..
it sure does feel good!
hahahah
oh well,
this is my 1st post from my laptop!
happy happy.

anw,
yeah today was another long day!
aft lectures in e morn,
i did my tutorials e entire day!
well, kinda...
haha, but mostly were done in NUS!
yep,
crashed lectures again!
den i went to many places ard NUS!
places ive nvr been to b4.
north parts mainly.
well, it sure does get pretty quiet at nite over there.
yep,
i had practically e entire aftnoon to crash lectures.
im so crazy.
but yeah, once in a while is rather fun.

kinda like my laptop,
mayb coz its faster den my PC,
but my PC has surround sound!
hahah,
mayb i'll jus watch movies on my PC n work with my laptop.
lalalala~

tml's another long day,
followed by another 2 long weekends,
when will i ever get my naps?
oh well.
dancing tml again!
whee~

gambatte jon!
many more weeks to go!

i jus realized.
blogger.com seems to be at e top of my links bar.
hahaha
i muz b TAT cRazy ya?

woke up to dreams.
now i hope i wun hav tat many dreams later.
today was really fun!
esp at DSA

did Cha cha again!
basic cha cha steps,
New Yorker,
and we learnt a new move!
or 2.

but both involves e rolling of hips!
gawrsh its so hard!
mine is really very stiff.
well, e movement is there but den its not refined enough.
haha i wonder how it'll look like aft some training!
new move one:
move feet together, raise heel up,
raise other heel up,
raise other heel again,
step left/right.

new move 2:
girl does a Spot turn,
both facing front,
guy n girl does hip roll on spot with guy's hand on girls' shoulder/hip,
den girl steps out and turns again, facing e guy.

really hard to follow with e beat being super fast!
but it was fun!
haha
i cant wait for this fri for e revision n practice with my partner
we're both noobs but we had fun!
cant wait to learn rumba!!!
but yeah,
basics first!


nxt thing,
my laptop is still not here yet!!!!
ARRGH!!!
cant survive any longer!

n like e ppl who ordered it earlier, got theirs today!
ahhhhhhhhh!
although it doesnt look as visually appealing,
it looks rather geeky like me,
but it can rival any other laptop out there!
n mayb some computers too!
i think its even better den my touchscreen pc at home!

cant wait to get my hands on it.
but yeah,
like wat i always say.
"gd things muz wait!"

wow im like blogging every now and then.
hahaha.
oh well,
jus woke up after a myriad of dreams.
really dreamt alot today.
(and drooled too)
GAWRSH,
y am i even writing tat down.
haha
ok
i initially wanted to blog down wat i saw in my dreams
incase i'll forget them in future.
but i guess...
if those dreams are meant to stay,
it will.
n mayb 1 day,
i'll b reminded of it all again.
these dreams are all chained together.
including those tat i had ard a week back.
so i guess, with at least one dream still stuck in my head,
e rest would follow along.
is this wat they call e chain of memories?

i nvr knew i could dream so much though
i nvr did

SCOUTING

oh and wat reminded me from Sunday's msg.
always closely linked to wat I used to be.

Scout Motto is: BE PREPARED

Scout Promise:
On my Honour I promise that I will do my best-
To do my duty to God and the Republic of Singapore
To help other people and
To keep the Scout Law.

Scout Law:

1. A Scout is to be trusted
2. A Scout is loyal
3. A Scout makes friends, establishes and maintain harmonious relations
4. A Scout is disciplined and considerate
5. A Scout has courage in all difficulties.

most imptantly,
am i always prepared?
i guess not.

Bitter Virgin!

ARGH!!!!
SERIES ENDED!!!
sob sob.
wish there was more...
e last book would b e climax of the entire story...
but i wonder y it was ended this way...
wasnt supposed to end this way...
perhaps its jus seeming for such a 'bitter' book like this.
tat semi-happy ending...
lots of would-be-cliche moments that turn out diff with a twist.
but i agree, overall it was a gd series.

cant get enough of it...
cant get it out of my head...

semi long day again today.
ate my breakfast and lunch and dinner at 3.45pm.
enjoyed today's lessons too!
went for FCM...
A 60-verse Biblestudy...
really a mental challenge to think aft a long day.
n yeah,
praise God for the chairing,
hope it was pleasing in His sight.

tml's e 1st dance.
gan chiong gan chiong.
wonder wat I b doing tml.
I want Rumba!!!

n im surprised Rev Wee knows a thing or two.
he mentioned something like Bosanova.
no idea wat tat is too.

was planning to jog but am too tired n lazy too.

n today was phototaking aft FCM!
n i got 3 acnes!!!
AARGH!
haha
it all appeared on sunday aftnoon!
morning dun hav de!

n yeah,
more chapters of Bitter Virgin are out everyday!
it's e final book le.
am so eager to see how e story ends.
reading now!

Ahhhhhhh!
so muuch stuff to do,
so little time!
jus changed my FTT to this sat
instead of 16 Sep which i dun think can make it.
no time to study!
den den tml jus being informed last minute to chair at FCM.
n im chairing too for nxt Berean BS...
n oh, e timetable for the YPF Camp is not done up yet.
n gotta prepare exhortation for e nxt Camp comm briefing too
n mem verse this weekend i wanna make it special.
gawrsh
n i stilll havent deferred for both my ICTs this oct n nxt feb,
n my laptop is not even here!!!
arggh!

ok gtg read acts 7 - 60 verses- for tml.
so tired.
eh eh nxt thurs dun wan buffet eh!!!
my appetite grow smaller le eh!
n im getting fatter too!
im not a young kid anymore!
no more 5 packets of maggi mee like i used to!

oh oh, forgot to include one last thing!
tonight's NTU Symphonic Band Concert Aurorae was fantastic!
ok lah, i might b a noob, but at least i was partially 'trained' too k!
n yeah,
i admire and appreciate music.
n i would say,
it was gd.
i guess my fav piece was part of e 'Fifth Suite for Band (International Dances)':
the 4th piece named 'Hora' (Romanian / Israeli).
i would say it was one of e best performance tat night.
somehow it was diff from e other pieces.
i mean not generally, with all e diff tunes n all,
but jus tat, e performance was diff.
West winds (from Bukit Batok CC [not BBDC])played well in this piece.
mayb coz they had lotsa experience too.

okok gtg read le.
take care lots, all.

BRAder!!!
heard from feng tat there's a typhoon in hong kong now!!!
hope it doesnt spread to wherever u are in China now k!!!
n Shanghai shd b far away from hong kong rite rite???
dun get blown away eh!!!
there's so much more i wanna do!!!
(like irritate u.. ooops)
but yeah,
WE'LL (me n feng) b praying hard for ur safety n journey mercies back to Singapore!!!
SO COME BACK SAFELY!!!!

GEEEEEeeeeeeEEEEKK!!!

somehow tat rhymes with eeek!
hahaha
oh wells, i completed mon's lab session of 2 hrs!
so all i can do is err... write my attendance n leave!
hahahaa.
glad theres such thing called remote access!
haha


this is a screenshot of the linux im using.
yeah its captured from my com at home.
so basically, im using e NTU com frm home!
how cool is that!
hahaha.
yeah, n i completed e 3 programs i was supposed to write for mon.
really tough.
spent hours to think out all the algorithms and codes...
but it was really fun too!
hahaha.

ok now i really feel geek-ish!
i gotta wear those huge specs and wear my trousers high soon.
GEEK WORLD, HERE I COME!!!

oh n for those who prayed for my migraine,
thanks alot dudes(ses)!!!
n yeah,
Bitter Virgin is back out!
yeah yeah!
FINALLY!!

oh well, mayb im not gonna go JB now..
migraine too bad for me to handle.
and i feel like vomitting.
urgh,
wats gotten over me...

Long day again today.
n now im having a migraine.
urgh...
jus cant go off...

let's see...
aft my classes ended, i went to NUS for kendo.
but it started at 630 so i had nth to do since 5pm.
n baka SokFong asked me to crash her lecture,
den she herself din even come sch.
so yeah, since i had nth to do,
i crashed her lecture for her, help her take notes.
haha
weird.
den aft tat went for kendo's welcome session.
i actually wanted to join this cca.
but figured out tat mayb....
my knees cant take it anymore.
perhaps no more martial arts for me in future.
im not sure.
yeah,
sadly i cant join since im from ntu,
next is tat it feels too rigid.
not as exciting as i tot it would be.
so yeah
glad i joined latin dance for free too.

argh...
my mind is totally whacked out.
cant think straight.
n now i gtg JB with Fadly, my army boss.
going there with him for dinner and do some bike stuff.
hope i'll come back in 1 piece.
GAWRSH

Happy 22nd

She says, "I love your hair today."
He says, "I love you in french braids."

To Sam:
hey dude, my condolences to u...
but yeah, im sure u'll get over it, well perhaps much better den me though.
haha.
well, its hard when u've tasted heaven and fall down to hell aft it.
so i guess, mayb it was better for u this way.

Advice 1: Purpose
so one thing i've learnt from e others is tat, u hav to know wat ur purpose in the r/s is.
n frm my past experiences, i nvr really knew wat my purpose was when i wanted to enter one.
was it to feel 'whole' in e flesh?
so that u'll not b lonely?
tat could have been wat i was thinking, though those were long way back...

n yeah, when i found mine, my purpose, i muz say tat i somehow failed to do my part...
to secure her spiritual health...
tats one thing i regret.


Advice 2: Patience
"Nevertheless neither is the man without the woman, neither the woman without the man, in the Lord."
1 Cor 11:11
I'm sure someday He'll grant u ur better half.
so b patient and wait.
I've found mine without even looking for it.
He granted it to me when i was thinking, 'Im gonna kiss dating goodbye'.
its really hard to find someone who loves u jus as much as u love her too.
So jus wait for His time.
im waiting too...

Yep,
thats all e encouragement i can give...
e rest, u jus hav to find it out on ur own.


but i must say too,
nvr give up...
even if its hard...


well, for me, aft readin much of 1John today,
i felt really bad...
it speaks to both me n her...

"8Again, a new commandment I write unto you, which thing is true in him and in you: because the darkness is past, and the true light now shineth.
9He that saith he is in the light, and hateth his brother, is in darkness even until now."
1John 2: 8 - 9

"20If a man say, I love God, and hateth his brother, he is a liar: for he that loveth not his brother whom he hath seen, how can he love God whom he hath not seen?"
1John 4: 20

this... speaks to me, directly.
before i met her, i nvr really loved my family.
or even tried to.
although i knew about it, i nvr really worked for it.
until i saw how loving her family was.
tat really encouraged me alot.
and i muz say, i was very much successful with her encouragement.
but now that shes not here,
am i returning to my old ways?
even as im writing this,
im pretty sure i shouted at my parents jus now.
am i still hating some members of my family?
if so, im still in darkness...
im a liar too...
i love not God...
God forbid.

n it hurts to rebuke in love too...

I remembered 1 thing my Brader asked me...
"If u had a chance, would u rather have not loved, than to love?"
Immediately,
tears flowed down my face.
n nope Brader,
it wasnt a stupid question.
It's just tat i didnt noe how to answer u.
but now i noe how to.

n yeah, im still thankful for e encouragement i received that helped me even til this day.
i was really changed.
spiritual walk revived and strengthened.
i could not hav overcame it w/o her.
i wanted to become stronger to better take care of her.
but now, she says im too fervent for her.
was it all for naught?
i dun think so.
i gotta live out my promise, to be stronger.
n promises are not meant to b broken.

n yeah, i believe i could nvr find another as caring n thoughtful as her who was willing to sacrifice herself for my sake.
tats wat agape love is all about.


so Sam,
dun give up on love,
me neither.
wait for His time,
be patient,
and sort out all infirmities in e meanwhile.
nvr stop trusting in the changing power of the Lord.
May the Lord be with u n comfort u

Post 200: Basking in the warmth of the sun, reaching out for the moon that hangs low or chasing tat fleeting shooting star

YAY its post number 200! whee~
i cant believe i've blogged so much in e couple of years.
3 yrs plus to b exact (or not)

one thing tat kept me thinking when i was jogging was wat me n Sam agreed on.
this jog represents our lifelong struggle.
be it spiritual, or jus mental.
if we decide to walk halfway between the jog,
it would b futile...
it feels as if, we're giving up hope.
"I therefore so run, not as uncertainly; so fight I, not as one that beateth the air:"
1Cor9:26
so yeah, I run with hope n knowledge too!
n faith!

was thinking about much random stuff when I ran,
very quirky stuff like,
y do ppl say tat u can see the shape of a rabbit on the moon...
den like wat, when u point at e moon, u feel a prick at ur ear.
all e funny funny stuff.
guess im kinda gd at thinking random stuff too ya?
oh dun forget im e Prince of 'thinking-too-much'.
undisputed King goes to Yun Feng!

n talking about random stuff,
reminds me of random variables which in turn reminds me of
Binomial, Poisson and Negative Binomial,
which reminds me tat,
my C Maths n F Maths is with Ee Chuang!!!
gotta retrieve it back soon to revise!
n oso tat normal dist, t dist, chi-square dist, bla bla bla.
which in turn reminds me of 'tai chi'(passing e work ard) in army,
which in turn reminds me tat May Ann says i teach Tai Chi in army,
and also her saying wat, i took a TP test to become a Traffic Police...
*totally 'huh?' rite?*
GAWRSH,
this list can like expand forever...

im so full of crap,
yeah which reminds me of my cousin getting swollen lips aft eating crabs,
ARGH!!!
STOP IT JON LEE!
*hang myself*

yay, tml im supposed to hav 2 hrs of lectures from 930 to 1130am.
however, due to e union day or something like tat,
there r no lessons frm 1030am to 230pm!
so those who hav all their lessons in between need not come sch at all!
nvm, i only skipped 1 lecture, fortunately it isnt JAVA PO-GWAMMING,
if not im screwed.
tats like something not to be missed out on!

oh wells, its pretty late le.
gotta stop here since like i only had 4 hrs of sleep ytd.
yeah tried to sleep at 2, but i slept at ard 3.12am instead,
waking up at 7.15am,
and having my long day today from 830am to 630pm.
its not something worth trying or going thru.
cant believe i actually had enough energy to go thru e day n ponder over lectures n do tutorials and even go for a jog!
I MUST B CRAZY!

oh well,
nitez to all who read this soon,
morning to all who read this in e not-so-soon future,
and afternoon to all who read this in the not-tat-far future.
yeah, ok im spouting nonsense again.
cant believe i cant remem wat Gravitational constant is...
oh well, bye all!
happy 200th post anniversary.
ahaha,
i guess i dun hav much anniversaries to celeb now, do i?

Woke up at 12 ultimately.
Had lotsa dreams these few days, n it kept making me wake up at odd times like 4+am, 6.32am, 8+am, etc...

Well, 2 nights ago too..
same thing happened.
wierd.
i nvr had such things happen to me b4.

oh, i was supposed to meet Kevin for lunch today but well, he asked me out at 1230, when my lessons were at 330, so i figured out tat i was rather lazy, and would rather spend my time at home doing QT n tutorials den meet him n wonder wat to do for e remaining 2 hrs since we could only meet for 1 hr.
n home feels much better den sch when everyone is out.
peace n quietness.

n like i had only 2 lectures today, aft which i ate some $2 murtabak whish is e same size as a regular prata(totally not worth it).
den i did abit of maths tutorial b4 heading for the welcome tea for e Visual Arts Society at 630.
met WeiLiang to go together but in e end we both had to leave at 7 cause he had a steamboat to go for, while me...
I went for e Dance Sport Academy Welcome Tea instead!
well it was much more fun den e VAS one as u dun hav to sit in a lecture hall to hear them talk about e club aft starting 15mins late.
yeah, we danced!!!
Cha cha cha and rumba!
one is e fast dance n e other is e slow one.
both were fun!!!
Den we watched e Team Singapore dancers perform.
totally WOW!
our jaws were all dropping.
cant believe they were our seniors!

they performed Samba [something like Salsa('hot' dance)]
den the Cha cha cha (more 'cheeky' dance as they said)
den nxt was Paso Doble (dunno wat it means)
den next was Rumba (the slow and passionate dance)
lastly was the Jive (something like American Swing, fun n energetic!)


Den aft tat, they asked for 5 to 7 couples up to e dance floor n e winner gets free membership worth $35!!!
n yeah i got it!!!
WHEE~
hahaha, together with my partner too!
cause we were actually hesitating to go up initially,
but yeah,
oh well, in e end we mustered enough courage to go.
n guess wat,
all e couples who went up all got it!
hahaha,
so this does not mean i dance well.

but yeah,
$35!
hahah
but it was really fun!
n yeah, now she's kinda my unofficial dance partner!
hope we can go far into e world of dancing!
seems real fun!

n yeah, it all ended at ard 915pm.
n now aft chionging my Econs tutorial,
its 2am!
argh, gotta go sleep.
tml got lectures starting 830am, ending 630pm...
zzz..
need sleep...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to CHRISTa and CHRISTie!!!
hope u like e truffles!


err abit lazy to blog now but yeah,
thanks also to Charmian for today.
had a fun time!
hahhahaa!
okie, got long list of ppl to pray for!
happie happie!
hahaha
take care lots everyone!

Full moon tonight!
n its like so round!
but den, its not as big n bright as tat time i saw...
but it was gd enough. =]
this kinda reminded me of tat niu lang n zhi nu story.
well, cant relate to tat anymore.

hmm, today's leaders' meeting was rather gd.
well, shared lots, heard lots, planned lots, prayed lots.
but yeah, i cant believe im gonna be 'there'.
as in, yeah,
cant believe im actually gonna take up this time to serve.
well, n its really thanks to someone close to me.
jus coz of e presence of tat person,
yep, jus e presence itself,
has really motivated me much.
if absence was ever to happen,
it'll become much harder for me, but im still gonna strive to work hard,
despite e presence or absence.
coz either way,
i still gotta grow stronger. rite?

yep, so i cant lose hope now, cant i?


n yeah, i cant believe i did an e-brake ytd nite while going vivo, really SCARY!
tats y, folks, bikes r SCARY!
dun ever try to take up bike lessons, esp u, SAM!

i knew e risk, yet i went for it.
coz i noe my consequences.

n this has really got me thinking,
if i ever was to go prematurely in an accident,
wat would happen at my funeral.
hahah
will there b ppl gloating, scolding, regretting, crying, smiling?
or will there even b ppl there at all.

oh well, lets jus hope i go silently.
=]
n i hope no one will noe.

but yeah, death is nth to me now.
coz i noe where im going,
it has lost its sting.

okok enough of death talk.
haha.
later ppl think i super emo n suicidal
sheeesh~


i kinda miss fishing now.
n no, i dun eat e fish tat i catch!
btw, YES, i DO eat seafood k!

jus lazy to eat it only.
so dun suan me with tat!

Medley of songs in my head~ WHEE

I was thinking of giving a quiz,
if anyone can guess this right:
I'll treat him/her something or give a present!

the question is...
*drumroll*
*scroll down to see*
Here's my medley of songs! Very confirmed that no one can figure out e song title n singer at 1st glance!
besides, e tune not tat nice de.
haha

It's hard to say goodbye
It hurts to be alone

And all that is left is a memory
To love and to keep as a part of me
It's you, no one else but you
Say what can I do
I miss you so

We will meet again
Far beyond the stormy weather
Far beyond the cloudy skies
We will meet again
When we do we will last forever
When we do we will stay together
You and me

We were meant to be
In perfect harmony
But every day that goes by is reminding me
There're so many things that you left with me
You see every little thing
Has it's own story

You gave me so much affection
I'm so lucky that once I got to know you
It was hard for me to say it
But I totally adored you
Is life fair
I'll never stop believing
Our time will come
Because there must be a meaning

I believe in love
I believe two hearts
Can learn to beat as one

And I believe
I believe that time
Can tie your soul to mine
I see the doubt there in your eyes
But I believe

I know you're scared
I understand
Please take my word
And take my hand


What is the title of the song tat i sang for my Talentime?

heee.
got prize de eh!!!
hurry hurry come guess!

Ahh, I feel very burdened to write something down.
Once again, im getting a myriad of feelings.
A huge mixture of them.
It’s really impossible to list them all down.
Its like there's sorrow with joy,
Hope with despair,
I cant even sieve out all my feelings.
But yeah, I did hav a lot of time time aft lectures.
In fact, im still in sch…

N it was really worth my time sitting down in e library, finishing those pesky tutorials,
N reading His Word.
N finishing tat Self Evaluation list for this sat’s Leaders’ meeting.
N im telling u tat its really not easy.
Perhaps today is e time of spiritual turmoil for me.

Hebrews 4:11-16
11Let us labour therefore to enter into that rest, lest any man fall after the same example of unbelief.
12For the word of God is quick, and powerful, and sharper than any twoedged sword, piercing even to the dividing asunder of soul and spirit, and of the joints and marrow, and is a discerner of the thoughts and intents of the heart.
13Neither is there any creature that is not manifest in his sight: but all things are naked and opened unto the eyes of him with whom we have to do.
14Seeing then that we have a great high priest, that is passed into the heavens, Jesus the Son of God, let us hold fast our profession.
15For we have not an high priest which cannot be touched with the feeling of our infirmities; but was in all points tempted like as we are, yet without sin.
16Let us therefore come boldly unto the throne of grace, that we may obtain mercy, and find grace to help in time of need.

i do need His grace everyday.
tough tough.
so pls, send me words of encouragement too.
i'll totally need it.

esp aft looking at the 'computer systems' tutorial n not really understanding it is a burden.
all e terms...
not forgetting java language.
urgh...

still waiting for my sis in sch...
if not i would b home at 12pm already...
zzz

BRAIN FREEZE!!!

slept at 2am even though i tried to sleep at 11pm
ARGH
woke up 10mins late
ARGH
could not comprehend Birthday Paradox at Maths Lecture
ARGH
cant even try to understand the explanations
ARGH
cant remem wat i did aft tat
ARGH
oh i went back home coz i left my HP at home
ARGH
came back n i had a maths tutorial
ARGH
it was boring
ARGH
went down for SCE day only to get a file, newater, apple(?), another planner, an XS t-shirt(only left XS or XXL)
ARGH
went to withdraw cash which took me like 15mins
ARGH
gave me 40 $50 bills which was too thick for my wallet
ARGH
ate quick lunch at e Quad, queue was long, no seats, lecture in 15mins
ARGH
chicken bento was huge! had to force it down, 10 mins left
ARGH
chiong to Effective Comm lecture
ARGH
couldnt really concentrate, mind kept sidetracking
ARGH
went to library to print notes, den went to IT fair to try to purchase laptop. tot e queue was long n i was left with 20mins
ARGH
chiong to econs tutorial, super far away.
ARGH
sat inside e aircon unfilled squeezy room with all guys but 1 indian female
ARGH
tutor - seems inexperienced, like some chinese from china undergrad
ARGH
went inside jus to hear n see e answers on e projector n tats all
ARGH
went back to IT fair n saw tat e queue for both toshiba n fujitsu was outrageously long n NEC was squashed in e center with no one at all.
ARGH
went to e laptop collection n purchase queue (wrong queue)
ARGH
went to e laptop order queue, no one at desk for NEC
ARGH
after ordering n paid 20 for admin fees, went back to laptop purchase queue n he told me since my laptop doesnt deliver til 26aug, i dun hav to pay yet. wasted my time 'queueing'.
ARGH
went to some bench to finally relax n do QT
YAY
den aft tat was 2hr long econs lecture for which e notes r not even out online yet. leaked only at 11pm.
ARGH
couldnt concentrate coz no notes to doodle on
ARGH
went to FCM for 1st time
YAY
ended at 930pm
ARGH
realized i was in sch for 13hrs since 830am to 930pm
ARGH
reached home at 10 n blogging n havent eaten dinner. only brunch.
ARGH
i kinda decided to join ballroom dancing(main) n visual arts(supp)
YAY
n yeah i met Christa today at sch 3 times! *amazed*
YAY
finding details for e Welcome Tea Sessions for both so can ask Yushi to join me too!
YAY
but i cant find it
ARGH
found it
YAY
going to makan dinner now
YAY
wanton mee plus fried carrot cake (Let it b white!)
YAY
bye all~
YAYY

decisions decisions decisions!

right~
i stand corrected.
its not fried tofu with wasabi mayo sauce, but its aloe vera mayo sauce...

aiya, they both look green too mah,
'how was i to noe, u nvr told me~'


hmmm lotsa decisions in my mind now.
although most of them r solved le!
LAPTOP: i chose NEC e6510
well, it seemed e most top-end laptop there with e best processing n graphics power compared to e laptop of ppl whom i know.
n yeah, its cheaper den e rest too!
at e expense of its weight n batt life...
2.4kg n 3hrs..
oh well.
i do think i need it in future too.
graphics designing.
3d modeling
virtual reality
bla bla bla.

but yeah,
nxt wld b tat singtel 'talk n surf' plan.
rather gd for value.
considering my 1MBPS internet is only 45 a mth.
tat plan is combining a new student plan for phone plus 3MBPS internet plan for 43.44 a mth!
super cheap!
haha but e internet is under my name.
n my sis wants to change her hp.
wonder if tats possible though...

n next,
CCA: i've set my sights on Choir[cant sing], Visual Arts[seems fun], DanceSport Academy[fun too! but scared i'll look gay]
these r e primary few tat ive considered.

e secondary few are: ODAC, Wakeboarding[expensive!] and fencing[closest to kendo but ex too!]

ahhhhhh~

decisions decisions decisions!

btw, i jus compared the prices of ntu to nus computer deals n NTU wins!
well, ntu has more new models, some r cheaper too!
n there's Apple too! *stunned*

tml's gonna b my ultra long day.
gonna need lotsa energy.
lecture aft tut aft lecture aft tut.
n at e end comes FCM!
n its like 830am to 630pm for the lessons.
FCM is gonna be from 630pm onwards!
gawrsh~

i need energy!
n yeah,
hope i do even hav time tml in between lessons.
need to go for tat GEBEN SCE day thingy, lunch, read my book, purchase tat laptop, print notes, run ard...


ahhhh, this is e 1st wed!
theres like 14 more to come....
*faints*

these were taken on fri nite when i went to Boon Tong Kee at bukit timah rd with my mum n dad.
well, notice e unique pyramid shape of e chicken rice!
cool eh?
oh oh, i forgot to take pics of e fried tofu with wasabi mayo sauce.
simply fantastic!

oh hey BRAder, if u're seeing this,
i wanna tell u tat my way is gonna b harder den urs!
so yeah, at least u're better off with urs.
yup.
be glad, girl.

oh my,
i jus realized im like blogging every now n then.
see lah,
my blogging instincts revived too le!
but mayb its either cause i hav many words to say,
many thoughts swirling inside,
or jus too much time to spare.
n yeah, i really gotta occupy my free time with stuff to do.

everytime my mind is free, it wanders off again.
n its so hard catching it back.
haha
gotta fill it with His Word.
rite rite?

n yeah,
i completed my maths n econs tutorial le!
but den, i jus keep getting a hang of doing maths.
somehow.
haha.
weird huh?

n yeah, my graphic calc's batteries hav poofed!
need new batts!
which reminds me of tat time i did not bring a calc at all for my J2 Maths C prelims paper 2.
lolz!
had to guess all e angles like wat sin30= pi/2 or something like tat.
totally crazy.
but yeah, i did pass tat paper!
horrendously crazy.
muz b God's providence again.

n yeah, me always playing mario n shooting games on my graphic calc!
n creating all those funny images in pixels with tat drawing application.
too bad all those r all gone le.

n this reminds me next of my old phone in sec 1 n 2.
i think it was nokia 2100.

really loved it lots!
even though it was old n ugly but yeah,
e keypad LED was as bright as hell(or heaven)!
i nvr needed another torch light.
n yeah it also has this drawing application which i created numerous images on it.
creted many many, til my bro borrowed it to replace his nokia 7250 phone when he went for Bball, saying something like, "dun worry lah, ur phone so lousy, no one will want to steal de!"


BUT IT DID.
grrrr...




memories...
everywhere i go,
watever i do,
wateva i see,
all has memories of somebody.
i even hav songs tied up to e faces of e diff ppl i meet in my life.

i guess i did reveal these songs last time in e previous versions of my blog.
dunno if anyone here remembers.
haha.
well, its been a long long time,
i dun expect anyone to.

tml's CCA n IT fair.
hope i can find a fun CCA to join!
mayb wakeboarding?
mayb modern dance?
mayb choir? (but i totally cant sing!!!)
ahhh
ntu doesnt hav kendo...
zzzzz.

oh wells. nvm.
i'll find something somehow.
im so thirsty!
i wanna go drink tat cold choc chip frappuchino at starbucks!
haha, nvm, i'll go drink my iced chocolate drink later instead.
cya all soon guys!
n do remem me in ur prayer!!!

this song jus came to my mind:
"Roll back the curtains of memory now and then,
show me where You've brought me from,
and where i could have been.
Remember, i'm human,
n humans forget.
So remind me,
remind me, dear Lord"

bummer.day.

yep.
totally.
woke up at 12pm tooday!
wootz~
woke up to BJ Olympics again!
badminton today. yay!.
den had to massage n pat my sis' back like a drummer.
really fun but yet tiring at e same time!
den we went to greenridge to see some eu yan sang chi practitioner coz her entire body was aching,
den i had to sit-in to listen to them talk in a foreign tongue, one which i used to noe.
den they chatted bout yao ming n stuff like tat while e doc ws prescribing her medicine.
den i could see her like re-adjusting e compilation of ingredients for e med.
looks kinda cool.
mayb yinghui could b someone like tat in future!
den i can get free discounts too!!!!
n now im back home eating a zinger student meal(finally!) which i bought like hrs ago.
n watched starship troopers 3 too!
n i totally feel like a bummer.
wanted to go kendo at NUS but they kinda said tat i couldnt participate.
so wats e use of me going down to watch if i cant join!
grrrrr.
den theres no badminton at RP today too.
so no unique exercise for me other den a usual jog tonight ba.
n yeah,
a cold zinger meal for dinner which im having now totally reminds me of e meals geeks used to hav in e past.
although they had pizza n more cola as their brain food.
n when i mean geeks, i mean those successful geeks like bill gates and tim allen and steve (something) and the other steve (something).
the 1st 2 set up Microsoft.
e latter 2 set up Apple.
n they had a life of pizza n cola everyday while writing computer programs.
well, tat might jus jolly well b my future life ba.
n yeah, i wld not hav been a bummer today if i had agreed to watch Wall.E with Serene today.
but ya, Jurong point expensive eh!
go go cathay! 6 bucks! Im a student now!!!

oh well, gtg do my econs tutorial now.
although it's like giving me a huge turn-off.
sigh.
but zinger was gd.
yum!

oh yeah, i kinda forgot this last night.
finally i saw a really starry sky atop bukit panjang while i was walking home ytd nite.
could easily count about 20+ stars den.
totally reminded me about a 'scene' that i always wanted to hav.
which led to another 'scene' of a ballroom dance which i dreamt of last night.
oh well, hope i can live out my dreams...


but it's not e dream or scene tat matters.
it's tat something else.
it's u

Be still and know that I am God!

one more extra added post for u, BRAder!
(pls dun use the short form on me!)

These few verses have kept me thru, hope it speaks to u too!:
Romans 5:1 - 5
1 Therefore being justified by faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ:

2 By whom also we have access by faith into this grace wherein we stand, and rejoice in hope of the glory of God.

3 And not only so, but we glory in tribulations also: knowing that tribulation worketh patience;

4 And patience, experience; and experience, hope:

5 And hope maketh not ashamed; because the love of God is shed abroad in our hearts by the Holy Ghost which is given unto us.


i noe its hard for u, coz im going thru wat u're going thru.
but remem, there's 2 ways to going about it.
Remem tat email u sent?
yep.

i chose my side to go on, and i will give in my best, with extra strength from Fisherman's Friend ----> the one who teaches ppl how to b fishers of man.
n yep, persevere in prayer!
n yeah, im already forced to become ur prayer warrior,
n whether u realise it or not, someone is ALWAYS praying for you.
*sounds familiar?*

there's one thing i can only pray:
Thy Will be done!



(p.s. thx Christie for giving me hope too! Cheerios Cheerios! =] =] )

"prodigies are the ones with clear goals ahead of them and they're passionate to work towards it little by little."

this was wat Sam messaged me on MSN.

but hmmm, no eh,
this is wat dictionary.com told me:
[this is e best looking choice out of 3]
'Anything so extraordinary as to excite wonder or astonishment; a marvel'

[n this wld b the worst case scenario]
'A production out of ordinary course of nature; an abnormal development; a monster. --B. Jonson.'

hopefully, i'll not become a prodigy,
all i jus want is to strive hard.
tats all. =]

hmmm, today struck my heart again.
insurance or assurance.
main thing i drew out from it,
is tat i jus gotta draw closer to Him.
coz its my reasonable service n sacrifice.
its part of my job.

well, i was saved to serve.

hmm, n the first 'wakeup call' i got today,
or rather, e 1st invitation to serve came today.
Herbie passed me the YPF Leaders' Retreat outline.
well, it makes me think, i've really nvr been TAT fervent at all.
honestly.
yrs ago,i wld use to think tat i wasnt ready, or perhaps,
i jus wanted to jus go church n tats all.
u noe, wat a basic slacker usually does.
but within the past 3 or 4 yrs,
i've done e YPF anni Video for 4 yrs,
be part of e camp comm for the 2nd time this yr,
1st time was 3 yrs ago i think, when i might still have been unwilling.
n coerced to become Memory Verse I/C too.
but now its YPF LEADERS!!!

but yeah, i guess,
this few months hav been my turning point in life.
n I wanna thank those who hav been especially encouraging to me.
Christie, Serene, Yun Feng, Charmian, Roy, Qi Yang and many others.
yep,
this is gonna b my 1st real step to serve Him.
n like i said, im not fervent too,
n im really scared.
im afraid.
but i noe somehow, He'll bring me thru.
*optimism revived*
*shoo shoo pessimism!*

haha.
yep, im really afraid.
but i guess i gotta do it.
so ya,
in order to endure in this quest to go stronger
im gonna need more encouragements k?


i noe its hard too,
but we gotta pull thru life's journey.
n i'll still be there,
so if u need a listening ear,
im jus a phone call away.
(but ya, yun feng, dun bug me with weird smses like, "Do I look like a smoker?")
take care peeps!
yay!
tml holiday!
mayb i go NUS see see kendo!




n now a chorus of a song to end this post.

"Oh, how praying rests the weary!
Prayer will change the night to day;
So when life seems dark and dreary,
Don’t forget to pray."

(1 memory i had of this was when Pastor Timothy Tow sang this last yr at one of his last messages at the pulpit,
with his weak n frail external shell of his at e age of 80+,
coughing while singing this with his hoarse voice.
but now, i may not hear him sing (or speak) again.
but i'll hear him sing in another tune, another song, someday.
and when tat day comes, we'll all sing to the same tune!)

Stand up for Singapore!

WheE~
Happy national day peeps!
btw, nice song on ur blog, Christie!
totally love it lots!
*sry for the randomity*

oh oh!
n i may b going partyworld now!
like right now at 840pm!
hahaha.

yeah forgot to add in,
i had a roughly great time this morn at botanical gardens with YPF.
waited for ppl for like 1 hr b4 starting e programmes proper.

learnt alot of stuff today.
lotsa reflections like examining our walk with God,
see if we are too caught up in the world, n if we are doing activities tat bless God.
n if we are:
1) can we truly ask God to bless our activities that we do?
2) are we tempted and 'addicted' to it? like without it, we cant 'survive'?
3) do we stumble our fellow brethen?

yup.
all these simple stuff that deserves our reflection.
not only for others, but for me too.
i gotta think bout my life, my goal, my purpose.
n ya, i gotta set it straight.
n definitely grow stronger for God.
im like learning stuff rite now in this weak state of mine.
PATIENCE.
coz im still waiting for the day u come back.
im not gonna let u go.
til den, i promise to b stronger too.
yep.
so, gambatte ya?
to e both of us.
=]

once again, happy national day peeps.
yup.
and a verse to end it:
"I press toward the mark for the prize of the high calling of God in Christ Jesus."
-Philippians 3:14

God bless to all who reads it.

Money not enough 2 - like me. i still feel poor!!

YAY!
today had only 2 hrs of sch!
same for tml!
whee~
hahaha
n its e 1st day i officially wear my jeans for e 1st time!
quite comfy.
not bad. =]

oh n aft tat, i went to meet Charmian at dhoby ghaut to catch e Money not enough with my new Matric Card! Whee~
6 bucks! hee.
yeah, n we find it rather captivating but it wasnt 'there' yet.
Not as captivating as other movies but yeah, it had e usual 'moral of the story ending'
liked some key elements of e movie like the stickers on e cigarette boxes, e ERP-everywhere idea and oso the hokkien songs.
Especially that Na Si Wo Wu Ji Pa Ban (If I Had 1 Million) Song!
hahah really reminds me of my army boss...
speaking of which, arent our batch supposed to go visit him like tml nite or sat nite?
*sms sms*
ok jus got my answer.
sometime this weekend.
yeah.

somehow, right now, it feels as if all colours are fading to black and white again.
well, somehow,
i jus feel bored. like, i cant get to enjoy watching animes n movies like last time,
even when im free n hav nth to do.
is this e life of a uni student?
hope not.
but yeah,
jus feel tat not many things i did in e past can satisfy the me rite now.
feels as if some part of my heart is ripped off n left behind.
during tat transition phase between my ORD til now.
my memories.
my happiness.
my sadness.
my hurt.
my memories.

i still remem a post i posted like in 2005.

memories are meant to fade so that we can move on.
den came the question,
what if it doesnt ever fade?

i do hope it doesnt.
im not gonna let them fade away,
but neither am i gonna cling on so tightly to it.
coz im gonna look forward to a new future,

when stories are re-written anew.
when hope does fulfil.
reflecting on the past,
and He's helping me hold on fast,
to press onward to build a better future.
where the feelings will finally be mutual.

oh oh, sorry for the digress.
hmmm, yep den aft e movie, we went walking from dhoby ghaut to heerens to cineleisure den to wisma in search of a wallet for her.
too bad we couldnt find any.

and oh!
we met a bunch of NUS peeps from EEE with Mervyn frm JJC TKD inside!
n like they asked us to help them complete some tasks like err,
cheering with them and singing a song for a lady from e public.
haha.
yeah, cheered with them and sang My Heart Will Go On to Charmian with them.
HAHA.
she must hav felt soooooo awkward!

yep den aft tat we went to toa payoh to hav dinner n where she had to go for tuition.
n ya, I WAS CAUGHT IN E RAIN WHILE RETURNING HOME!
n my new jeans was like partially wet!!!
ahhhhh!
hahaha.
oh wells, nth to do for now.
mayb i shall go read a book or something.
n yeaa, tml's lecture is from 230 to 430~
wootz, gonna collect my useless EZlink card tml too!

long long day with e bench and the wind and my book

lets see,
1st thing in e morn, I WOKE UP 30 MINS LATE!!!
ARGH!!!
*rush rush*
left house at 815, started on e road at 820!
n finally reached there at 830 on e dot!
PHEW!
but when i mean i reached, means i reached e place to park!
nxt worse thing,
I CANT REMEM HOW TO GET THERE TO MY LT2A!!!
in e end, walked 1 BIG BIG round to where i was supposed to go!
n yeah, reached lecture at 835am.
oh well, din miss much.

den aft tat, was 3 hrs break again b4 going for Effective Communication lecture,
and another 3 hrs aft tat til Econs lecture...
zzz...
ECONS...

i dropped it in JC n now its coming back to haunt me!!!
GOSH~

lotsa free time spent on walking ard, makaning, printing notes, wee bit of studying on variance n standard D, more walking, reading my book, listening to e wind, reminiscing, n more flashbacks.

kinda really weird, i mean the human mind, whenever e mind is unoccupied, it starts thinking bout lotsa other stuff. much much more stuff. ALOT ALOT OTHER STUFF.
n its hard not to remember.

yep, but while reading my book, i had a great time feeling the wind rub against my cheeks.
subconciously, i closed my eyes, trying to hear for waves but there was only the rustling of leaves but it was close enough.
[I cant swear] but along with tat wind, i did catch a whiff of sunblock from it.
dunno where it came from.
or prob its jus my head.

n yeah, learnt bout sunk cost today.
cost of something tat can nvr b replaced, or reversed.
something i nvr did learn or really think about in e econs back in JC
not til now
but i still dun quite get a thing about opportunity costs.

n yeah, finally a long day over. waiting for tml where i can go to sch for only 2 one-hour lectures!

mayb i might jus pop by to NUS kendo to take a look.
mayb.

oh oh, an after converting my old smses which i saved to my com eons ago,
i found this particular sms which really struck my heart at that time.

4th Oct 2005
Rainbows appear after mighty storms. When skies look their very worst.
Just when skies are their darkest grey. Look for the rainbow first.

The rainbow is a sign of God's promise. That he would take us through any troubles.
No matter what their form. When you feel battered by life's storms.
And are filled with doubt and dismay.
Just remember God's rainbow is coming. It's only a prayer away.

Bidding Success!

Yes! finally can bid this morn!
n yep, prayed about it n i got e timetable tat i wanted!
Whee~
although its really kinda packed on wed:
830am to 630pm
n aft tat still got FCM,
but yeah, i could hav shifted tat econs to mon but if i do tat, den there would b a 5hr break between FCM n my last lecture!
haha
so yeah, jus chiong ba.
really neeed strength to carry me thru.


oh n i wanted to take up 3 unrestricted elecs today!
but all of them got no slots! ahhhhhh!
lets see, theres,

-Jap language level 1
-Malay Language Level 1(yeah weird huh? me taking malay. but its to better communicate with my fellow brethen)
-DIGITAL PAINTING I
-AESTHETIC AND CREATIVE USE OF THE 2D MEDIA

yeah last 2 seems fun, but theres only 1 timeslot for each!!!
really limited spaces.
n yeah, y from comp sci jump to art, design n media de.
hahaha so weird since i cant draw well.
n oh! ytd aft when i was on e way to orchard by MRT,
i saw this guy drawing on his sketchbook with his blue pencil!
SO COOL n EXPERT-LIKE!
i mean the drawings he drew are like literally copy n paste out from an anime!
n yeah, i could nvr draw like tat.
NVR.
its all so distorted for me.
perhaps its jus not my cup of milo.

oh wells, at least my tues n thurs hav only 2 lectures for the entire day! n its back to back as well!
so like, mayb tats y im so free now!
haha but i still gotta do up tat YPF poster now tat my com is back in action.
n yeah, finally bought a nice jeans from espirit ytd,
THANKS BRADER FOR HELPING ME TO CHOOSE IT!
n yeah, send me tat GAY pic of me in tat tight pink polo n white skinny jeans k!
oh well gtg eat something le!
but i dun feel hungry, oh dear...
wats happening to me
haha.
nvm, later den i eat my brunch ba,
for now, theres still tat YPF poster tat i gotta get it done!

One winged angel

Its been a long long time since ive last blogged.
n guess wat, im back with more pics of free food~
yep i went for this HP Cocktail party today.
fun fun. (i guess)

ok its pic time~



















whee~
yep.
nice food n drinks. but tats all. other den tat, all i got for a door gift is jus a box of HP chocs...
zzz.
was expecting something more.
n yeah, e promos werent tat great though.
i think even e laptops at NUS IT fair were much much better.
oh wells...

i jus remebered my one of my old fav songs:

Plus One - Here In My Heart

Wherever you are tonight girl
I'll see you in my dreams
Wherever I go tomorrow
You'll be here next to me

And though we are a world apart
I know you'll never be that far

[ c h o r u s ]
'Cause here in my heart
There's a picture of us
Together forever
Unfaded and unbroken
Wherever you are
Your love covers me
Forever more you'll be
Here in my heart

Whenever I miss you so much
It's more than I can bear
I won't cry, I'll
just close my eyes
And know you'll be there

Your kiss and your touch
I'll never forget
'Cause you're as close
As my very next breath

[ c h o r u s ]

And though we are a world apart
I know you'll never be that far

[ c h o r u s ]

My heart


real old song.
but yeah its still under my favs...
but it jus aptly describes me rite now.

jus so appropriate for me.

its hard for me to bear it too. but den, some things just hav to be done.
i hav to persevere on, to noe tat, one day, i can see n feel it, the hope within my grasp. tat precious hope and the encouragement from Him that keeps me going on n on each day. to noe tat one day, "It is raised in glory".

until the day when i can truly be ur wings, i'll jus be a one winged angel...

Here's more free food i ate in RP last week!
FREE FOOD WAN SUI!!!

these r some of the great food(except the oysters) i had for e past few weeks!

jus posting this to share e joy!

WOW... So much fun today!
HAHA,
old temps came back,
present temps leaving.
So we tried to have breakfast together.
Oh n lunch too!

n like aft lunch we went to the Karaoke Room!
where we had abit of fun singing songs! (wat else can we do there)

hahaha! oh wells,
its running late,
time to end work n enjoy my fri by going to e 2nd nite of Youth Conference!
WHeee~

Change is a constant? u sure?

hmmm looking thru my previous posts esp the one i wrote on the 6th may,
I think Im gonna take back my words.

jus 1 line.
i feel very hopeless about this matter.

i havent changed much since sec sch.
n yeah.
TATS BAD!

i guess i really need a drill.
open 1 hole in my brain, stuff in all those thoughts, n use cement mixed with super glue to keep it stuck there...

*grind grind grind!*

hmm i think its a little too late but den,
Thanks to all guy n gals who went to Sentosa!
haha
wanted to write this many days ago but was lazy to.
so yeah.
Had a great time like sitting at the beach eating Long John's, with e sea breeze.
Playing with e frisbee n writing names on e sand.
Stepping on a starfish n splashing abit of water.
Hee.
great time of cycling n sitting tat Sentosa Express!
next time we go there to sit e tram k!
shall not paste any pics up coz i dun wanna vie with SM.
for reference jus see my facebook photos!

YAY weird dreams!!!

hmm 1st weird dream,

SAT nite dream 1: TYPICAL DRAMA STORY

dreamt tat someone was being caught in a cave-in/explosion/earthquake?.
lets name this person A.
well, main gist of it = A was missing from the collapse of the building.
(abducted? kidnapped? taken away by enemies? wait, ENEMIES?)
next, me journeyed far and wide in search of A.
many trials n obstacles.
spent many yrs.
(or seconds in realtime)
in the end, found A in somewhere bizarre and yet unexpected.
bla bla bla, hug and wept.(A didnt weep...)
end of story.

Sat nite dream 2: SHUTTER
hmmm, now im in some 'museum'.
with my trusty cam in my hands (ok its actually my sis' cam)
but hey!
this cam is weird!!!
one look through its display shows 'other' stuff!
aka silent hill style.
like u noe...
u see weird stuff...
like wat isnt supposed to be there is there.
like u see the past/ the other dimension of that place.
wat u see with the naked eye are clean walls, yet wat e cam shows u is dirty walls with some goo-ey thing on them. like veins.

theres more!!!
u see like bright red things on the display.
with ur naked eye, u see people.
hmmm, ppl marked with red on the cam...
who are they???
i peeped at them, n they sense that something is wrong.
they take caution, glancing at me as they passed...
they look at each other as though they are plotting something..

i sense danger! my instincts spark off, forcing me to walk away as fast as my feet could hold.
next scenario, on e top of a hill of a countryside.
alls well.
hmmm, spotted an rundown house/shack at the bottom of the hill...
thinks to myself,"doesnt look like there'll b anyone living there... oh well, lets take a snapshot!"
looks thru display of cam,
n one 1 red figure appears on it.
i tried to find with my own eyes for anyone down below which seemed 1km away!

all was still, other den the movement of something in the house.
i saw someone moving ard.
seemed as if it was wary of my presence.
it seemed to take on a defensive stance!
I had to retreat!!!
it started to run aft me!!!!

*to be continued*


mon nite dream: SUMMON-ED!!!!

a rather short dream,
went to a park, parked my bike at a parking lot, thinking i'll b there for awhile so i din put any coupons.
when i was back, there were many summons!!!!
ahhhhh!!!
like all over my bike!!!
i was going crazy!!!

next scenario:
park my bike at e side of e road for some road stalls.
when i went back,
bike was gonna be clamped!!! n towed!!!!
i pleaded with the clampers for 1 min n finally they agreed!!!
had to treat them drinks as a result!

n den it ended!

phew, good riddance to this nightmare!!!!

ahhhhhh!
dreams are so fun.
i dunno y some ppl dun like them! hahaa

Im soooo gonna NEED a beach to relax on.
(or jus send me a seashell to hear e [fake] sounds of e sea)

*rants*

Hymnal Humour

Hymnal Humour


The Dentist's Hymn........ ......................Crown Him with Many Crowns

The Weatherman's Hymn............................ There Shall Be Showers of Blessings

The Contractor's Hymn........... ................ The Church’s One Foundation

The Tailor's Hymn......... ......... ............ Holy, Holy, Holy

The Golfer's Hymn......... ...................... There is a Green Hill Far Away

The Politician's Hymn........ ......... ..........Standing on the Promises

The Optometrist' s Hymn........ ................. Open My Eyes That I Might See

The IRS Agent's Hymn............. ................ I Surrender All

The Gossip's Hymn.............. .................. Pass It On

The Electrician' s Hymn............ .............. Send The Light

The Shopper's Hymn........ .......... ......... .. Sweet Bye and Bye

The Realtor's Hymn..... .......................... I've Got a Mansion Just over the Hilltop

The Massage Therapists Hymn.... ................... He Touched Me

The Doctor's Hymn.......... ......... ...............The Great Physician



AND for those who speed on the highway - a few hymns just for you:

45mph....... .......... .....God Will Take Care of You

65mph....... ......... ..........Nearer My God To Thee

85mph....... ......... ....This World Is Not My Home

95mph....... ......... ........Lord, I'm Coming Home

100mph..... ............ .............Precious Memories

no. 170

hmmm,
1 big word i hav on my face today...
BIG BIG eyebags!!!!
WAHHHHHHH...
sob sob...
muz b coz of the OT til 10pm ytd nite...
sadz...
T_T

hmmm,
feeling very down these few days...
muz b coz all my frens r so busy, n i dun hav much time to interact with them...
so perhaps im feeling... ?lonely?
wait, ive always been a loner,
but y only these few days?
i hav no idea either.

WEIRD

anw,
i think im pretty psyched out with my savings!
i feel soooo poor.
need to save up for alot of stuff now tat im older.
ARGH i hate growing up!
haha.

Yeah, I love the present immature me!(?)
haha


OH NO...
my 2A TP test is on next tues...
*gan jiong gan jiong*

yeah hope i pass.
i dunno if i really can.



yeah still feel sad tat all my close frens are so busy...
sobz...
nvm,
shall tahan for 3 weeks til june hols!
haha
wait,
den by tat time they will all b having hols while im still working!
so not fair!!!

'cause u had a bad day...

argh!
1st things 1st!
yep i failed my BTT.
funny huh?
aft 1 yr exp of riding still can fail.
so paiseh!
ahhh but oh well...
i din study...
i din pray abt it...
so there goes e consequences.

yeah, e fault goes 1 big round n back to me...


oh well, work today was hassle free.
really not as stressed as usual, mayb coz i only worked for e later half of e day?
yeah.
there comes e worst part ever.
wanting to find e route to lavender thru streetdirectory.com but WTH!,
it was being sued by LTA so its down?!
next came e least favourable option titled www.can.com.sg
which i dunno how to navigate thru at all!
in e end had to borrow e streetdirectory from my boss instead.
ok, all went well at this point of time.
printed out pages of e streetdirctoy...

ok now as we were setting off, i found no cashcard on me body!
argh!
couldnt borrow from Ric too coz he needed his!
so had to go to 7-11 to buy a new 1...

ok nxt was e stupid traffic at PIE near toapayoh!
it jus suddenly came to a halt!
ARGH!!!!
had problems to keep movin off n stopping n moving off n stopping every 5 secs!
tat was still ok...
e 2nd worst was tat i missedd e exit tat i noe how to go by!
like i was supposed to exit thru Exit 15,
but somehow, e no. jus skipped from 16A to 13!!!!
n there was no signboard telling me anything in between!
GOSH!

so yeah i exited thru kallang n made my way to e nearest petrol kiosk n asked ard.
first he told me backtrack n turn right at e 2nd junction.
tats still ok. coz i jus had to find my way to a u-turn where there wasnt any!
so i found a real big bend turning right! (lets name this Bend A)
n found myself going towards somewhere else den where i was supposed to back track!

den i had to u-turn yet again n go down to e big right bend (Bend A) n turn make a u-turn to e way im supposed to backtrack.

when reaching e 2nd junction, i was hesitant to turn right, which was like leading me to paya lebar already!
so i asked e taxi driver for directions at e junction.
den he told me to u-turn n go straight down e path i originally took n turn left at e end.

ok den i u-turned again, n went straight down...
before passing Bend A, there was a left turn leading to MacPherson road which Ansley told me tat it shd b e correct direction. disregarding e comments, i headed straight down to find myself at whampoa east aft skipping Bend A.
den like i was tthinking, where e heck is Whampoa?
sounds pretty north east to me!
so den i took another big right turn bend (Bend B)to make a u-turn n tried to make my way to tat McPherson road.
jus at e junction b4 turning in, i asked another biker there bout directions again.
guess wat he said... "u hav to go all e way straight down tat road(pointing to tat original road direction i was heading to from e start) n u'll reach lavender"

ZZZZZZZZZ

yes, another u-turn yet again...
this time e 4th time passing thru / by Bend A...

argh! i had been going ard in circles!!!
[btw, it was a massive jam thruout]

n thus reached lavender at 745 intead of 645 which i targeted...
n i made feng wait for an hour...
n i made Ansley to be late for her 7pm meeting at City Hall!!!

ARGH! Im feeling sooooo guilty!!


heres a visual description:

lalalala
long time since i've blogged again.
but oh well, since im kinda free rite now..
y not?

yeah,
i've been pretty much caught up with my own work
though at times i still do make blunders n mistakes...
zzzZZZz
haha
but im glad tat all is solved (i hope)
yeah, like losing a key, disturbing others, bla bla bla.
haha


how...
i see all my uni/sim frens...
they all seem so so so so stressed up til they fall sick.
u guys get well soon k?
i wonder if i will b like tat when i enter in future.
sob sob.
i cant handle stress.
yeah yeah i noe tat stress is gd.
coz it produces a certain amount of adrenaline bla bla bla.
but i already hav my own source of adrenaline! (other den those created frm stress)
will i even survive a sem in Uni?
or will i die there in e midst of all e knowledge pounded on me.
God forbid.

yumE (dream)

had a dream last night...
a weird dream where i saw hilary duff!!!
yep.
really WEIRD.
cant tell u most parts of e dream but it was a rather amicable 1.
somehow, i could feel and remember the feelings i had in e dream, even the feeling of touch i had.
it felt sooo real, yet u noe its all a dream, it's surreal...
n den again, wats a 'dream'
some figment of ur imagination when u r subconscious?
or isit something more den tat?
n y isit tat some nights, we dun dream.
ist coz there r no dreams for us tat night.
or isit tat we r too tired to dream.
or perhaps we cant remember wat we dreamt of?

den again,
it links to e question of deja vu.
for me, i guess i feel tat sometimes certain situations r soo familiar.
its like uve seen them b4, heard those words or even jus felt it as a repetition of ur live.
it feels as though uve seen them all thru tat eye(or rather, tat mind) of urs when we all dream.
once e deja vu is triggered, somehow u'll feel weird.
den u'll ponder about it.
and as u ponder, ur surroundings jus fit into wat u felt it was in e past.
n e words or scenes tat come aft jus seem as though u knew it all was abt to happen.
it was as if e future was being foretold in front of ur eyes...
n ur 5 (or 6) senses jus keep screaming tat its something u noe u experienced.
but u jus cant seem to comprehend wat its meaning is, or when u experienced it, or y its happening in front of u.
and den as u try to understand wats revolving ard u, soon tat feeling fades away n den u forget all about it.
all til it reappears again.
i call this e 'deja vu cycle'.

so den,
wats e link between them 2.
r 'deja vu's dreams tat u had in e past?
if so, den wouldnt some of ur dreams be prophecies of the future?
den if tats e way,
u mean its plausible to say tat 'DREAMS DO COME TRUE???'

Whee~

ORD LOH!!!

missin' the simpler stuff of life

hmmm, guess i dunno wat to do rite now other den jus blogging..
somehow i feel kinda tired mentally...
proper use of term to describe this situation wld b called 'genki nai'(meaning "no energy" in jap)
yeah,
its times like these where u really feel like slacking n jus lying on e bed doing nth but stare...
den somehow u'll think about wat u shd b doing now.
wat i mean is not e workload tats waiting for u, or tat urgent deadline u hav to meet.
but rather, yeah, e simple simple stuff u used to do(or wish u would)
i dunno bout everyone else but right now i jus feel like laying down on a mat amidst a field of grass n jus staring into e sky/stars.
yep simple brained ppl r like tat.
perhaps we're jus easily contented with such stuff...
perhaps i dun really need tat expensive handphone, or tat laptop, or anything else tat wld b deemed luxurious to b satisfied.
in this super busy n rushing world, we all need some sort of escapism...
(haha yeah, im thinking of escaping frm reality again)
but yeah,
i guess reality really is cruel after all.
i miss the times of fun at e beach.
the times u cycle in e park with music in ur ears.
the times u feel e waves on ur feet.
the times u jus sit down at e edge of e shore n enjoy the ocean breeze brushing against ur cheek.
the times u play with candles during mid-autumn n end up burning ur lantern.
the times u try to cook for someone else.
the times u splashed water at each other.

guess its all a fantasy now...

argh im sooooo shagged!!!!

taught lesson again(even when im finishing my army term?) in e morn...
phew...
next, rushed off to maju camp at clementi for a 180men grading which ended at 630pm,
well after e usual end time of 530pm..

shouted many many times n got a very splitting headache which i dunno wat its due to.
woah, fortunately my fren taught me to press some acupuncture point near e thumb if not i guess i'll reach home with a cracked skull instead.
cant imagine myself ridng home with a headache.
scary...
worse still if i ride n faint on e way.
n when i wake up I'll see God!
wait, isnt tat supposed to be THE happy ending?


anw, ive been itching to get tat k850i for mths now, but like reading pros n cons bout it... i guess e cons do outweigh e pros.
yeah its a nice hp but i guess its still to early to get it. still having an unstable firmware. but its 5megapixels!
argh...
tat itchy feeling inside me...
mm-u-z-s-a-v-e-mm-o-n-e-y...

ahhh n i hav a deadline to meet!
gotta do some stuff for it asap!
need creativity n a boxless mind!

n oh... PATAPON is FUUUNN!!!

lots of stuff, no motivation...

yawns,
its my last time for duty this thurs.
gotta stay in camp all alone..
Awww~
but who cares...
i noe im supposed to do lotsa stuff but i jus cant find e willpower to do it...
card-making, washing tat cup on my table, perhaps even bathing?
oh nono, cant skip tat, can i?

i guess my army time is gonna b served finish...
wat am i gonna do?
really no idea there...
somehow after being tied down sooo much by e army,
i guess total freedom seems alien to me.
yeah its weird im saying this but i think im truly gonna miss my life here.
yeah it does sound weird indeed.
ok forget i said it.

hmmm i bought these pretty cool speakers lately n ive been blasting out music regularly, watching online movies n playing more games to fully utilise them.
n like im gonna spend abit more to buy those speaker holders/brackets which u put on e wall to hold ur speaker. den i can finally enjoy tat surround souund! cool eh?
yeah its 5 small speakers n 1 subwoofer(e big big box with bass!!)

hmmm, somehow i dun really look forward to any events this yr, like hols or anything.
mayb coz they dun seem to interest me anymore.

oh n i jus watched balls of fury(yeah, online)
n i jus realised tat Masa Oki, tat guy who acted in Heroes as Hiro Nakamura is in e movie itself!
was pretty shocked tat he did only less den 10 seconds of showtime n got kicked in e face...

oh i wanna watch A Walk To Remember, I Am Omega and A Cinderella Story there too.
guess i missed these movies e last time.
ah.. well gtg bathe now...

argh, finally back from YPF camp...
super tiring~
not coz theres lots of physical or wat but mainly coz i couldnt sleep well even with e fantastically soft pillows n comfy bed but rather e irritating snoring i get every night...
zzz...

lets see~
nth much noteworthy, jus tat i still remem after going to e beach,
i came back with a tiny hermit crab somewhere in my pants(or underwear) while bathing.
made new frens there, built relationships,
learnt more bout ppl,
trained tkd for this mon's grading
n most imptantly,
learn more bout Him n wat i believed in...

oh well its gonna b a busy Christmas with not much time to make/buy presents.
tml's gonna b church n clean e house day.
mon's grading n night service day.
tues gonna b carolling n family gathering day...
left only wed n thurs free...
zzz.

anw, gotta catch up on my sleep again.
gonna b going out with my frens later~

rrandomly

another normal friday where time passes by with no one at home.
but im glad...
PEACE....

oh i jus watched finished some anime called REC.
not bad even though its only 9.5 episodes long...

hmmm now when i wonder about it,
y do i like watchin animes so much???

isit coz i cant look at any other fantasy out of reality?
isit coz i long for such a fantasy?
isit coz they can do wat normal shows cant do?
isit coz they depict a different life frm wat we can achieve?
isit coz u can 'feel' more for the characters inside?
isit coz u can learn from the mistakes tat they do?
isit coz those mistakes cant be actually portrayed in our lives?
isit coz we will noe to do when scenarios like tat happen in real life?
or isit coz we really dont have anything else to do?

hmm i wonder y too...
im sure theres a happy ending out there to my life,
but will there b a happy ending to every topic of my life,
i dont think so...
reality is harsh...


whhich reminds me of a 'challenge' posted to me.
to cut down on e no. of 'worldly' (non-christian) songs i listen to...
will i be able to fully fulfil tat challenge?
i dun think so..

well, listening to songs hav always been part of my passion.
my def` of gd songs =

nice rhythm.
nice tune.
meaningful words.
lyrics tat portrays emotions.
beautiful n clear voice.
someone u can relate the song to.
n lastly e emotions evoked thru tat voice.

hmmm one thing bout me,
i somehow like sorrowful, sentimental songs...
y?
im not so sure myself but i guess reality is harsh too.
n u need something to describe wateva feeling tat we get at tat time.


yeah i like teary songs,
songs full of hope...

of coz, those who like songs, definitely like to sing too...
hmmm so tats how humans effectively communicate with others eh?


yeah so rite now my stomach is communicating to me too with a 'song'...
no one at home, no dinner for me.
cup noodles anyone???

Butt aches and a hella of green

It took too long,
It took too long,
It took too long for me to come back...

its been a whole week since ive last touched my internet...
coz,
NO ONE PAID THE STUPID INTERNET BILLS SINCE MAY!!!!
so no choice but to pay e entire $365.11 all by myself,
cutting my bank funds by half...

waited super long for it to reconnect again..
ZZZzzzZZz

n now im backk again!
to blog bout my frustrations(?)


ytd, hellish day.
morning woke up at 5 plus to attend some weird parade in camp early early in e morn...
next was a supposed 4km run which i ran only half of it since im a slacker anyway.
next was a training session where we did stretching(no splits thankfully), agility exercises, bridges and target practice...
was expecting contact sparring though.
havent punched n kicked anyone for too long.

yeah, tats when e mishap happened,
one guy tried too hard to execute a turning kick to e waist lvl fell down n injured his tailbone i.e. his pelvis.

he was den sent to hospital A&E n tat ended e training very abrubtly...
can say tat thanks to him, we wouldnt get much more aches on our calves, thighs, gluteus, quads, abs etc.

sad, an unfortunate incident before i went to amoy quee camp without my lunch since i had no time...
another bad news,
since e one injured was supposed to hav duty on tat night itself, i was being 'asked' to be his replacement...
super last minute.
den my boss was kind enough to fetch me home from tat god-forsaken amoy quee camp in yio chu kang, just to get my stuff for duty...

finishing at 8am, next was a lesson at Officer Cadet School (OCS) where i had to assist all e way til 10am before rushing home to meet feng who was leaving for india on monday. ate at pastamania at westmall...

travelled lastly to vivo to catch a movie with my cousin.
well, as expected by someone, most movies were either selling fast or were really late in the evening.
so 2 choices left.
BEE MOVIE? or ENCHANTED?
if u were me, wat wld u choose?

well, it doesnt matter,
i didnt regret my choice.
Utterly FANTASTIC!!!
i didnt noe it would b soooo philosophical...
i dun mind watching it again...
kinda humiliating to say this but i almost teared when i watched it.
oops...


rite now im so shagged out tat i can just fall asleep in front of my com but i hav to wait for my boss...
ahhh...
he wants to come to my house soon to upgrade his psp...
kinda regretted agreeing.
need sleep...
zzzzzzzzz

weekend craze

oh...
fri WAS bad...
went thru another day of hellish training of air-punching n kicking,
target practice of striking techniques(which i skipped half of it due to unforeseen reasons) and also a revision of some 'COntrol and Restraint'(C&R) technique which we held in e grassy, muddy n itchy field.
yep, definitely being forced to be taken down onto e field.
fortunately, i skipped tat too!!
y?
coz im a senior already!
hahaha, wateva comes to us, we 'taichi' it all away.

last but not least, e dreaded 2mins pugil stick sparring between instructors.
well at least i fared averagely okay.



next comes sat,
whole day taken up by YPF.
went there, listen to e 'Anger management' sermon,
which i dun think it really applies to me since i simply push anger away frm my face most of e time.
had dinner at adam road food centre n ate tons of stuff.
(well, not literally 'tons')
hmm, first was e famous Nasi Lemak from Adam road.
side dish was some malay styled Roti John with mutton.
yum.
coupled with a scoop or 2 of tao suan.

n aft tat, we headed straight to Island creamery again where most of us tried out e Reverso flavoured icecream.(Chocolate + Oreo)
simply sinful.
but it doesnt really matter to me since it wouldnt even add an inch to my waistline.
bwaHaahaahA~

had a wonderful time of fellowship too.



ahh, today, learnt some Canto song for carolling usage during Christmas, which was really tough to handle without any hanyu pinyin.
n besides, e hanyu pinyin is exclusive to ur own self so u cant really copy it frm others.
e first time u hear it, u'll b wondering bout all e 'ching ching chong choi loi lei' etc.
rather amusing language.
(yet im supposed to be a Canto myself)


there aft, we went to far east to makan hainanese chicken rice n ate waffles at Gelare.
waffles WERE GD!!!
had banana walnut ice cream waffle, topped with caramel
and another totally white choco chip ice cream waffle, topped with chocolate and cream!

AWESOME, i tell u!!!


and rite now im back home, worrying bout wat i hav to do tml.
since in e morning i hav to arrive at 715 to conduct a warmup for e entire camp..
n i hav to stay behind e gym desk as a 'receptionist' e entire day!
shucks i really need something to do...
lets see...
tml's newpaper.
a little bit of listening to CDs.
mayb i shd go down to e plaza to get tat comic aft this...
hmmm, still fantasizing about getting a black coloured sketchbook n a white pencil...
wat else...?