Good-bye Days...

argh!!!
today was another great day!!!

DAnzon workshop day 1!
its like this really cute yet rather 'sei' dance!
dancing to mexican wind instruments!
n its diff from other dances coz it has progression!
like lets say this entire routine is danced to a slow beat,
den e beat keeps on going faster n faster!
den like,

'WOOTZ!
OH YEAH!!! We're actually dancing!'-kind of mood

den like aft e dance went to ate at Cant 3 with tat not-tat-bad chicken rice!!!
den we had Daphnie n Page join us today!
n like Daphnie totally ruled e day with all e lame racist jokes!
n like, i cant believe tat no one believed tat i was a biker!!!
i mean like, not even with my half-mat face?!
n here comes e ultimate reply, "U have e non-biker-half-mat face!"

oh well,
den aft tat i burnt lotsa rubber n fuel to rush to ECP like from e other side of S'pore to meet Shirlyn!!!
squeezed thru e jam at 120km/h as always.
bo bian, im in a rush!!!

den we cycled n chat along e paths.
stopped at a corner of e park.
some really ulu corner on e way to changi beach park.
n we jus sat/squatted there n chit chatted.
listened to songs.
recalled e old old times!
n like we had this crazy idea to jus shout out to e horizon of that blue green sea!
jus wanna scream out!!!!
hahaha!
den we cycled to e other end of e park, chatting along e way as usual.
n yeah, time jus went on too fast.
soon it tured really dark.
but tat didnt stop us.
in fact,
it was a scenery i hadnt seen for a couple of months!

well, den Carl's jr awaited us for dinner!!!!
at 1st wanted to go changi airport to eat tat famous Ban Mian at T1.
but yeah, something new for her for a change.
shared a double western bacon cheeseburger!
oh n dun forget tat beef chilli cheese fries!
AWESOME!

den we went to e airport to send my cousin off.
oh wells,
he's jus going to australia for 3 weeks to meet up with his gf during his break.
n like there were complications jus 1 hr b4 he had to board e plane!
it was a totally panic situation!

he didnt noe he had to apply for visa!
n like e counter was closing in close to 10mins time!
so we had to rush to e nearest empty computer we could find at e cafe 2mins away!
den went online to apply n PHEW!
all was ok!

n next, aft he went thru tat departure gate,
we suddenly remembered whether he did apply for an exit permit online!!
*GASP*
another panic situation.
fortunately, we have Soon Hock e veteran!
haha,
he helped him to apply for it without Jer's presence!
thank God he was there!

n like when i was home,
i found many old pics in my long lost 2MP cam!(can u believe it? my hp is oso 2 MP!!!)
added them to facebook since adding it here was uber tedious.
shall post e links here!:


here's e pics for today!: http://www.new.facebook.com/album.php?aid=73661&l=061d5&id=502485900

n here's my really old army photos which im pretty sure no one will b interested in:
http://www.new.facebook.com/album.php?aid=73667&l=b3992&id=502485900
(n no Serene, this album doesnt include e pics i had with u during POP day!)
(btw, im really thankful to hav u come down during my most embarrasing army day! =] )

n yeah,
im missing my Baby now.
couldnt cradle her anymore...
cant caress her anymore...
oh wells, at least i still hav pics of her.
but it was so sad,
dying a slow n painful death with an ever-expanding liver tumour.

oh wells,
what's meant to be, will be.


anw, i jus gotten hold of YUI's 2nd latest album: I Loved Yesterday

n like aft watching thru e MTV of "Goodbye Days"
it totally makes me feel like watching Taiyou No Uta [A song to the Sun (literal translation)]/(Midnight Sun)
all over again.

its a really sad story bout this girl who cant come out of e dark n into e sun due to her perculiar degenerative disease tat will inflict her when in contact with e sunlight n its rays.
so all her life she has been sleeping in day time, waking up only at night when e world is asleep.
there, she pursues her passion for singing by performing on e streets at night with jus her guitar and her candle.

n jus b4 e dawn breaks,
she always peeks out her window to peep at tat guy she always sees from her window.
with tat ever irritating bus stop sign always blocking her view.

one fateful nite, out in the streets.
she confessed out of e blue by pouncing on him from behind n blurting out all her likes n dislikes even b4 he could get to say a word,
therefore naturally scaring away tat guy.

but den as time flew by,
she relied on her 'normal' younger sister who studies at e same sch to do 'research' on him.
to see how his life was like in e daytime.
n from there on,
they met each other again n e boy decides to bring her out to another town during midnight.
she saw e nightlife,
she saw the sights tat she could nvr see.
n thats where she realized tat life was much more den jus her window.

but den, as e hours passed,
it was daybreak in a few moment's time.
she had to rush home.
she couldnt b with tat guy anymore.
she needed e darkness.
the darkness, away from the sun.
running as hard as she could,
she barely made it thru to her house,
but unfortunately, was still exposed to e sun.

the degradation then accelerated.
she knew she couldnt hav a life with him.
she was dying, n fast.

frm there on, she chases the boy away, looking happy at e same time.
he walks away first with a smile,
den with tears in his eyes...



however, he made her dreams come true by hooking up with a music recording studio for her to record her song.
her life-song.

e 2nd last scene:
e entire family with him at e beach in day time.
with her in tat total-sunlight-blocking astronaut-looking suit.
(u wun need sunblock at all with this!)
him: having fun in e waters.
her: sitting on a wheelchair in a suit.
she stands up all wobbly,
n slowly takes steps towards him who stands in e waters.
n it slowly trancedes to e last scene

her funeral.

the radio plays her song,
it making to e 'no 1' in all Japan.
~music plays~
the family hears it in e home.
He hears it in his cd player...

"Goodbye...", tats e word tat comes to my mind.
*THE END*

sad sad story,
but my fav ever Jap movie.
its like,
totally diff from a normal movie,
somehow,
u can totally understand meanings from scenes with no words.
but only pictures of sceneries.
these scenes invoke countless feelings in ur head.
like wat they say, "A picture paints a thousand words."
which can also b heard by e song, "You say it best, when you say nothing at all."
magnificent piece of 'artwork', it truly is.

hope a provided a gd-enough summary of e movie from my memory.
do correct me if im wrong, Sam.
but yeah.

anw, here's e MTV for the song:

i wanna watch it again...

phew,
jus came back from a jog with feng.
muz apologize tat i kinda ran too fast jus now.
but still,
it was a great 50mins jog for a ~7km jog!!!
next time we run to rail mall k?
yeah n oso sry tat i was listening to music when i ran coz,
well,
i only listen to music when i run serious runs.
(when i run with females, i consider it a casual run)
keeps me going on n on!
so yeah,
mayb next time i shall ditch my hp at home.
dunno,
but mayb coz tats my usual ruote so im quite accustomed to it.
gomenasai!!!

but i feel i could go further...

but definitely not 21km or 42.195km.
my knees definitely cant take it at all.
it'll jus all crumble away n disintegrate!

my mind is blank aft e run.
shall go pig out now.
nitez all!!!

Whee~

Okie, here's e photos as promised!!!
We ate at Millenia Walk's Australian Outback!!


Here's my Outback Sirloin:


n here's the 'butter' and knife for the chocolate bread!



THE lamp chops:


GAWRSH!
I dun mind having 'SINS' like this!!!
(its an exquisite choc shop btw. really sinful!!!)


Ok, starting here are the Cars Galore.
First in e line-up is Skyline GT-R!


And a Maserati!!!!
(really expensive ride!)




Oh, dun forget the classic Ferrari with a '777' no. plate!
(musta cost like an atomic bomb!)



Dun forget the Audi R8!!!!
Wootz!
nice butt!!!



N here's e start of the Games Convention Asia (GCA),
WALL.E!!!!



Oh n here's the extremely realistic F1 simulator!!!
SOOO CooOOOooOoOOoooOOL !!!

it rolls and shakes as u turn!
u can even feel e vibrations as u go over those kerbs at e sides of e track!



Introducing,
Serene, the driver!
n really, u did great!!!



oh, n here's me on stage!!!
yeah, can u believe it?
me playing RockBand together with 3 other ppl i dunno.
haha
me with e bass guitar,
Jeremy 1 with e drums,
Jeremy 2 with e lead guitar,
and Kevin with e vocals!!!


yeah,
we failed a song...


my 'bar' is the one on e bottom right!



me having lotsa fun!
n hey!
we were the only 'band' who got to play more den 1 song upstage!
i guess the Emcee loved us ya?
heee.
i think we played like 3 to 5 songs?


Me and Ser n Wall.E and Eve!!!!
a really cute bench!!!



Yep, tats all e (nicer) photos for now.
need to get a better cam soon.
my red one broke down!
now i cant even retract back e lens!

hmmmm, mayb a DSLR wld b great!!!




sigh, really tired today,
danced from 7 to 10pm!!!
but den,
i muz say we improved quite abit since our first dance together.
still trying out e quick weight-changing procedure.
really tough to catch with such a fast-paced cha cha song.

hmmm,
i guess now would b e time to decide wat type of cha cha i wanna dance.
e energetic n expressive one?
or e neat and graceful one?
hmmm... gotta consult my partner...

'nyway,
we couldnt dance for long since my partner kinda developed a blister on e spot!
n hell no!
it's not coz of me k?!

i miss Jive...
A really cheerful dance, it is.
oh well, i managed to 'kope' a few songs here n there!
mainly e nicer Cha cha songs!
its nearly impossible to find e songs i wanted from all e 20 plus CDs.
most were labelled,
Latin Mix 2 or something like tat!
e rest were CD-Rs without markings!!!

oh well,
im still finding tat 'Alegria' song (FOUND) and e spanish 'Right Here Waiting'.
Mayb its with our dance instructor, Mario!

dun think i'll ever find it...
zzz.

anw, i wonder wats in store during e Danzon workshop!!!
Time to chiong all e projects n assignments!!!
Pulau Ubin, anyone???

ahhh, so tired.
but so fun.
ate nice food.
stomach happy,
mentally happy,
academically not happy since i hav a math quiz in like 12hrs time?
haha.
had lotsa fun today.
like REALLY lotsa fun!!!

thanks peeps, though i guess u both were kinda tired n moody as well.
but still, i did hav lotsa fun!
will post up e (nicer) pics by nxt post.
so tired.
wonder if i can even remem my dance steps tml.
gotta prac more since e comp is coming soon!
totally waiting for my very own choreographed dance!
[though i gotta spend more on e shoes n tight-fitting (gayish? oh well, im used to it) costume]
but den, i'll skip FCM combined meeting tml...
well...

sleep beckons!

The moon hangs high. Bright and mighty it shall be.

i'm so bored today.
so i'm like uploading pics of e moon which i saw tonight.
really BWIG today!

although i've seen much bigger ones but well,
tonight is jus another night with it being big enough for me to notice.

i love to jus stare at e starry stary night.
if there ever is one here at my area.
its so vast n free...

hmm,
freedom...
reminds me.
i hav freedom because im a rebel.
but still, im bonded by sin.
how ironic.

im free to roam anywhere at night.
i free to stay up til e wee hours of e morning like 7am?
im free to leave my house as and when i want.
im free to go wherever i please with no one to stop me.
im free to not even come home for the night.

but den,
so wat if im free...
it doesnt mean a thing to me.
mayb im jus taking it for granted
since i do noe of ppl with curfews, have to report to parents etc.
but den, to seek freedom, isit a far better side to stand on?
freedom without self-control is deadly poison.

den again, without guidelines,
u wun noe wat it means to hav self-control.
u wun noe wat r e boundaries.

den again,
i dunno wat im rambling about.
could it be im sick of all these freedom?
or mayb i jus need an outlet of literary escapism.

if so, y arent i starting on my reflection paper instead?
im weird.
haha


looking forward to GD food tml!
i really wanna eat fries now though...

Farewell but not goodbye

another fren off this miserable state of Singapore.

am sooo gonna miss him.
(or mayb not... haha!)

oh well, glad to see him all leaving in joy,
from wat i heard, it seems he wasnt really prepared enough to leave
but to me, i believe he IS ready.
besides, i've known him to b rather determined n all.
n i believe he'll do his bestest to make his mark over there in London
n come back as some dignified lawyer.

digressing,
these few days r tough...
so much work to do, so little time.
but i finally finished my lab today!!!
whee~
cracked both me n my fren's brains over these few lab questions.
totally crazy stuff i hav here.
makes u 'higher' den ecstasy!!!

haha,
not only tat,

i've also been talking much to sf these few weeks.
she seems rather worn out already.
jus hope tat she'll pull through though...

yeah, been sleeping almost everynight at 2am on e average...
hav a Math quiz this fri,
Effective Comm Assignment 2 to pass up aft Recess week,
programming assignment 1 by 10oct...
programming lab book ard tat time as well...
n my JC F /C Math textbook is still with Ee Chuang!!!!
gotta get it back somehow!
lotsa valuable info in it!

shucks i do think im getting old.
have been having heart tightness abit more regularly recently.
even though ive been exercising n all...
but somehow it still pains...
tats really scary,
since i think i almost got a K.O from it during my last run.
n tightness during choir on sun.

oh well, if its meant to be, its meant to be.
no qualms bout it.

ANW,
moving on from e saddening n heavy atmosphere,

WHEN'S OUR CLASS OUTING!!!!!!

e simplest would just b a get-together meal during sch hours!
n it reminds me,
e small clique of us r all in NTU!!!
hahahahha!
tats so awesome!
met almost everyone except Fabu!
(n Zhi Jie everyday...)

recess week?
everyone game for it?
lets go Pulau Mati again!!!!

okie?




hmmm, i jus remembered
i jus got another new rumour recently.

wat now?
im 'with' sf???

Gawrsh...
previously theres ppl saying im with Serene,
den theres more ppl saying im with Charmian,
n now Sok Fong?

oh my...
i wonder when it'll stop...
jus coz i pillioned her all e way from Clementi to Changi n back doesnt mean anything!!!




"Just to be clay in the Potter's hands,
ready to do what His will commands..."

Am i doing His will?
or isit "MY will be done on earth as it is in heaven" again...


gotta read,
reflect,
reflect,
respond,
RESPOND!!!

get thee behind me, 'ojisan'!

Shut up n Jive, Jive, Jive...

learnt Jive today!!!
yay its like so cheery n fun!
but uber tiring tat i think it can b a separate workout on its own.
phew.
jumpity jumping dance!
learnt it informally thru e seniors n learnt fast by God's Grace!
haha i think i was e one who caught up fast to learn it.
oh well, but back to basics,
gotta learn to twist my hip more.
get more flow thruout my body.
oh n tat crispier-den-kfc-crispiness!

im still searching for tat spanish version of Right Here Waiting,
dunno wats it called but its Esperando Por Ti if translated directly.
been searching for it but to no avail.
n im still trying to find Ahora Y Siempre too!

nice Rumba songs!
haha.
talking bout songs, im currently 'addicted' to "8 Become 1"!
n yeah, i got e song just 1 min aft u went offline, BRAder!!!
Muahahahahaha!

OH YEAH~!!!

thanks for e intro anw!

but den i think my fav song in tat mash-up is e one by "Atomic Kitten - It's Ok".
really nice song tat somehow stands out from e other songs.

oh and today's midterm quiz was rather easier den wat i had expected.
n besides,
i think its easy to score too.
thank God, coz i dun think i could hav done it all by myself.
n like, i only studied e night b4 for a few hours while struggling to stay awake while e feelings of nausea and lethargy hit me all ard.
so basically,
i din really study much.

ok im somewhat done with e camp booklet skeleton.
tidied up e poster e entire ytd...
wat else...

n my new modem is somewhat here.
YAYNESS!
better connectivity!
finally.
connection is always easily lost with this erm somewhat outdated modem.
hope e new works much better n works much further.
Laptop in toilet?
No probs!!!
hhahah.

busy busy weekend as usual.
another quiz coming up next fri
n i havent done my lab for mon
n yet i think my entire sat n sun is burned...
no time to study in advance.
sigh.

wanna learn more dances...
JIVE JIVE JIVE!!!

or mayb i shd go for tat Danzon special class during e Recess week.
its only $4 for those 2 days!
n its like instructors from Mexico!
Danzon = Cuban Rumba!
hope my dance partner can make it too...

oh n i finally received e membership 'card' plus vouchers for e dance shoes!
cant wait to try them on!
wonder how it'll feel like wearing those shoes...
hmmm.

mayb i shd try abit of tap dance too!
got e hang of it already.
haha.

anw, im jus reminded,
04s26!!!
we shd all get together on thurs for lunch!!!
yeah yeah!
errr quad / sakae anyone?
hahah but no Palette pls!!!

*gotta change my blogskin again.*
*later ppl complain*
*oh well, will do it when i hav time*
*its my past-time anw...*
*=]*

hmmm...
a particle accelerator eh?
cool!
one day e world will go BOOM!
hahaha.
which reminds me of an econs question today.
my fren's answer from e tutor is tat in e VERY long run e donut industry will close down when a health report is issued stating tat donuts increase heart failure.
but y close down?
coz in e VERY VERY VERY long run, e world will go BOOOM!
hahahaha.
den of coz no more donuts lor.

talking bout donuts and heart disease,
my heart hurted real bad jus now.
but only during my weekly jog.
tats soo strange.
nvr felt so constricted b4...
n jus when i was discussing bout medics n CPR this morn.
so weird.
haha

n my msn cant work, tats weird too.
hmmmm,
was unproductive today
wanted to do more tutorials but since feng came over to hav a chat n kope some games.
i kinda lost interest.
clarified and sorted out lotsa things.
n who says tat frens dun hav issues.
well, i think someone said i hav alot more arguments with someone else den tat somebody.
haha really?
wow i really do argue alot ya?
sry arr...

but hey,
arguments draw ppl closer.
perhaps tats y im close to that someone else.
coz i argue alot.
well...
since i argue tat much,
so much grieving n disappointment arises,
y am i not forsaken?
it was so easy to back den.
there were many reasons for us to go our separate ways.

perhaps...
perhaps,
we chose to believe in each other.
n without tat trust,
its hard to go forth without encouragement.
without ppl to share ur burdens and ur joy.
i thank e Lord,
for such blessings in my life.
thanks, somebody n tat somebody else.

Timing is e key!

GAWRSH
today's dance was uber tough, yet easy!
beginner's class we touched up on our rhythm.
our internal counting n stuff like tat.
tat was really easy.
oh n we learnt e 'closed hold' plus e turn-around!

hmm den in e competitor's class, it was totally crazy.
we learnt e hardest step in rumba, which is e Spiral!
had to twirl 360 degrees on 1 feet!
n like,
only e PROs could do it magnificently.
everyone else jus twirled n lose balance.
gotta work on tat.
n my spot turn!

oh, we also learnt e hand movements for e basic steps.
feels like some birds flapping their wings.
really graceful...

but hard to incorporate...

yeah den we had a mini MAF celeb aft tat!
but too bad Saffie (or Samantha Anne Francis) couldnt join in e mini fun coz she had to go back to e hall to paint banners.
oh well, but we had fun trying to light sparklers as we walked up e tall hill towards Nanyang House before our class started!

so in e end was left with me, Joseph n KaiXuan to enjoy our little coffee flavoured mooncake from Ipoh!
n yeah though i dun like coffee, but it was really uniquely flavoured!
n really nice too!
n I bought a BIG BIG bottle of green tea to compliment it too!
n we had a candlelight supper, literally.
played with more sparklers too!
n we were like supposed to carry our lanterns ard!
but i guess we had no time.
so in e end we were jus distributed our lanterns, together with tat bright orangey plastic stick!
i can still remem last time we use those wooden ones.
n it seems more 'high-tech'!
took some snapshots with my hp:



this would be e last stub of e candle.




tats my dance partner aft she tried to take a sneakshot of me n this was my revenge!





n tats another fren i met in DSA.
pro dancer who danced for his hall in his first yr.
yep he's a yr 2




ERRM... n this would be e Sunkist Serene Smile!!!
taken from last thurs when we ate at Ichiban!!!
n frankly, e ginger chicken was fantastic too k?
too bad SOMEONE doesnt like e taste of ginger.
or din even notice tat word when SOMEONE ordered it.
oh well, tats wat happens when hunger drives u to make decisions.
as long as its food, its edible...
rite?
haha


phew, ytd slept at 4am while doing my tuts for wed.
n configuring tat new phone.
really cool!
5MP!
den again,
its not mine.
hahaha.
slim, sleek and powerful!

n now i gtg prepare my tuts for fri!
so tat i'll be free to finish my other camp commitments n study for tat quiz on fri.
n not forgetting to prepare earlier for my lab nxt week.
so tat i can go in n sign attendance n print stuff n staple into my logbook n off i go!!!

wonder how long i'm gonna take to finish.
each lab costs me at least 4 to 6 hours!
when they give u only a 2hr time span..
zzz.
i still got some leftover sparklers.
anyone wanna play!?
^-^

another 2am post

yeah im always blogging ard this time.
tats so weird.
feels like a habit to me already.

really tired today tat i had to skip church in e evening.
but well,
i had a gd lunch at cafe cartel at IMM today.
learnt lotsa stuff from uncle roland, David's father.
well, he cooks.
or rather, he cooks FANTASTIC MEALS!
well, jus judging from e experience he portrayed,
n erm, e size of his children,
i can see tat ppl really love his cooking.
n like its so impresive how from jus one stare of e food,
he is able to reverse-engineer how e food was being cooked,
n can even suggest methods to improve / improvise!
totally amazed!
not only tat, he taught abit of fine dining etiquette to yujie today too!
yeah, n we actually had a de-boning session of pork ribs today!
haha.
simply lovely!
oh n like,
i like e bakerzin mini snowskin mooncakes!
not e alcoholic ones though.
it looks really nice n presentable!
havent really eaten a mooncake for a longtime.
i still remem last yr i was celebrating with roy at e erm, park near his house.
n like e yrs before tat when he was still living in bukit panjang.
we'd go to e park near our house, walk ard with those lanterns.
create a rocket of sparklers like we've been doing for yrs!
haha yeah n they really fly high like many storeys high!!!
with a trail of sparks at its tail.
den we'll play with sparklers.
throw them real far when its about to die out.
looks like a shooting star!
miss those times too.

ok back to where i was,
yeah, havent been eating mooncakes.
coz i used to believe tat they choke up my arteries!!!
n there u hav Clement saying tat we shd enjoy wat e Lord has provided for us.
yeah i can see tat he does enjoy,
his mini tummy is living proof of it.
n he doesnt even care much bout it!
amazed!
mayb i shd try tat western food at NIE n get a tummy too!
hhahaa.

yeah, this week's gonna b hellish for me.
2 quizes:
1 on mon, 1 on fri.
n my lab is still unfinished!
left tat last question which kept me sleepless for 4plus hours 2 nights ago.
n like, i gotta prepare exhortation, n e timetable, and e postcards, and e camp booklet all by this sat!
GAWRSH.
im soooo dead.
so much to do, so little time to spare.
cant really have time to enjoy n sleep these days.
eyebags becoming blacker.
since im poor, perhaps i gotta resort to cucumbers rather den expensive lotions
but den again,
i dun hav e time to even do tat!
haha.

oh well...
Jonathan...
one step at a time ok?
take things slowly but surely. (ok this phrase reminds me of 'Eyes on me')
but yeah,
im surviving each day by God's grace.
Higher ground, dear all!!!

BBQ~

yeah, i havent had a bbq for a long time.
really missed the hotdogs...but well
we ate more den jus normal hotdogs!
got cheese hotdogs, 'imitation' cheese hotdogs, chicken hotdogs!
hahah.
stingray!
crabmeat...
mushroom cheese!!!
chicken wings etc
mainly e usual stuff.
but i guess e best were e imitation cheese hotdogs!
which is like normal hotdogs with a slit den u add mozarella cheese in it!!!
i muz say its much better den e original!!!
hahaha.
love it lots.
oh n someone tried bbq those instant prata u buy from ntuc.
turned out disastrous!

n yeah,
im e fire 'reviver' again.
well, its my expertise anw.
haha, some trademark from my sec sch days.
yeah i DO love to play with fire.
im glad i havent burned down my house as of yet.
i can still remem me in p sch jus turning on e gas stove n lighting up a satay stick with it!
well, it jus amuses and amazes me with all e nitty gritty details of how it catches fire,
n jus burns with tat glow.
yeah, i love fire.
aha.
sounds weird.

anw,
i feel so retarded...
im like blogging while roy and yun feng are fast asleep.
well, wish we could get together n talk more...
i really wana chit chat with them but i guess we're all tired.
YES,
WE're all tired(including me).
i felt so crazy la
doing my lab til 6plus 7am in e morn...
but it was nice for a change.
i mean,
i havent really saw e sunrise for eons...
mayb coz i hav been waking up late every morn.
oh well, life starts e earliest at 830 for me.
so i can afford to leave home by 815.
so i wun get to see e sunrise at all...
even when i was working i guess.

however, i cant get to see a beautiful sunrise as i had hoped for.
oh well, mayb coz since i live in SENJA (translated 'sunset' in malay),
the sunsets here r prettier den e sunrise.
i jus love tat orangey hue tat bursts thru e windows ard 6plus pm...
but yeah, i wonder how e sunrise would look like in e east.
is it as spectacular?
i hope so...

yeah, n like WAll.E reminds me of something.
if we dun take time of our busy schedule n workload,
we will miss out on the finer details of life.
we wun even notice things tat r there for a long time.
but jus, dun even notice it at all...
n im glad tat somehow,
e Lord made me realise many things out in e world.
things i took for granted,
things tat were really a blessing to me.
all these amidst our busy busy lives,
travelling here and there...
working so hard.
wat's even e point of it all?
wats this flimsy paper called a degree even worth.
it'll jus turn into dust sooner or later.
but some things r there to stay.
things of this puny little world r temporal.
theres a bigger world out there.
where theres no room for regrets.
where things will stay forever.
will i be there?
im sure i will.
but will u?
i hope i'll see u all there.

(n somehow,
im being reminded when i was young,
i took pics at this artificial waterfall at Sentosa Shangri-la.
jus brings back lost memories...
i dun even noe how it resurfaced.
weird me)

anw,
im thankful for all e providence i received thus far.
blessings- both spiritual n physical- tat i was endowed with.
'i was naked, and ye clothed me. i was hungry, and ye fed me. I was tired, and ye took me in.'
I cant be more thankful den tat.
"Ebenezer..."

ARGH!!!

Im like sooo soooo tired!
tired n hungry...
its like 620am,
n i still cant find e logic behind another lab question...
but i need to sleep.
got long weekend ahead...
sigh.
oh, well,
today's dance was AWESOME!
hahaha.
music was nice too!
but since i was rather tired today,
i couldnt really concentrate on my dance.
but overall was gd i hope.
RUMBA is e bestest!!!
n like, im teaching my other frens how to dance rumba today...
zzz.
feels like an instructor all over again.
but den again,
im jus a noob,
n they r like ballet and hip hop dancers.
cant believe im teaching them.
weird.
but oh well, thank God at least i noe e steps.
jus gotta work more on my spot turn!!!
n my hand-gracefulness(if theres such a thing)

so tired...
oh wait!!!

JUS TO CLARIFY,
MY BLOGSKIN IS NOT EMO!
OR SATANIC!
OR TO SCOLD ANYONE!
coz its jus a tribute to this Character,
since theres like so little blogskins of him ard,
so y not create one?

btw, those quotes r said by 'him', not by me.
well, im jus quoting anw...
He's so called, a split personality in layman terms.
thus e word 'other', meaning its 'real' personality.
so this is just a story of him,
before he joins back to e 'original',
with his personality fading away, along with his memories.

wait, y am i even bothering to explain...
oh well.
"sleep beckons",
like wat KX said.
cant believe she still had e brain juice to do a sudoku jus now at 12am, aft sleeping at 530am last night.
*salute*
oh well, im hungry, tired and frustrated over my lab.
nitez world~

'Zonked'biefied

Phew finally another blogskin.
n finally means finally a Roxas skin.

anw, saving e details for later,
WALL.E was superb!
tats like e best movie in this present age tat uses nonverbal communication to convey messages and meaning.
glad i watched it.
its jus so amazing how tat 'magical touch' can bring one(or it) to go as far as to a whole new world, to endeavour all odds. even for such an AI like it.
reminds me of a line from a song,
"This innocence is brilliant, i hope that it will stay... (its so beautiful, it makes you wanna cry)"
For such a simple-minded being like Wall.E...
to appreciate everything he has even though he was alone on that world.
well not really alone, but rather with his pet Xiao Qiang which it squeeshed many times.
A definitely recommended watch.
feel like watching it again...

Departure

Jus came home from Roy's grandpa's funeral.
well at first i went with e tot of comforting him,
but den he was all smiles anw.
haha glad to see him.
had a great chat with him tonight.
yep.

well, it kinda reminded me of my ah gong as well...
really quite sad to see him leave.
but at least i noe he's with e Lord.
=]

Gawrsh..
i have been staying in sch til nightfall almost everyday!
n i cant imagine i stayed in sch for 12 hrs today.
n like i havent got enough sleep lately.
been dreaming again last night.
n like finaly slept at 3.55am n woke up at 6.57am.
oh well, been dreaming bout dancing!
weird huh?
but im pretty excited bout joining e competitor's class til i cant sleep!
hope i can today.
oh well, tml going to watch Wall.E.(finally!!!)

but its at 6pm... zzz.
kinda lazy to go but oh well...
n im gonna sleep with roy again this sat!
STAYOVER!!!
its gonna b one of our last sharing of e bed aka GAY together b4 he leaves for england.
im SOOOO gonna hug him on departure day!
ahhahaha.
wat to do...
11yrs frens r like tat.
=X
i miss talking cock with him.
(ok tat sounds downright GAY! mayb i shd [revert] back to it!)

phew another break again,
jus b4 my 2 hr econs sleeping lecture.
trying to upload my vid i took from e mini concert jus now.
hmm,

here's e sunset i saw from Nanyang House last fri
beautiful, but too bad my hp cant capture it.
tat orangey hue thru out e entire sky!
B-E-A-UTIFUL!
:

n here's the moon n 'sun' pic from
sun aftnoon.
haha BAAAAAKA serene flipped the chilli,
smudged her adidas watch with chilli,
and laughed like no one's business.
CRAZY GAL.
:


oh n here's the vid:


too bad my hp mem wasnt big enough,
had to delete songs to continue video-ing.
=(
well, i hav like 354 ( minus 1) songs in my hp anw,
gotta clear it soon,
if im free n hav nth to do.
haha!

sigh, today's my long day.
n im so psyched out by dance ytd nite,
imagine 3 hrs of continuous dance!
wootz~
fun but tiring.
not physically but mentally.
almost felt like fainting.
can't believe i got home safely.
phew.

oh well, back to Devil May Cry 4!!!

n btw,
GET WELL SOON CHARMIAN!!!
will b praying for u!
=]

lectures lectures lectures...
oh well..
been playing with my com all e way thruout e breaks
haha i feel so slack.
well, coz i finished this week's tutorials ytd!
but den i gotta prepare for next mon's lab again!
gawrsh,
previously i took like 6 hrs to complete it.
crazy me.
hmmm,
i missed roy's grandpa's wake ytd night due to me joining e 3 dance classes!!!
haha
class A, B and e competitors class!
n now my hips are abit achy
phew
but den, i think e instructor is pulling me in to e competitor's class!
he keeps selecting me n my 'ever-changing' partner coz KaiXuan was in Malaysia!!!
sob sob.
couldnt get to dance with her.
but its okay, i danced with 3 diff girls anw...
learnt more cha cha steps which was pretty cool!
twirl ard, triple cha cha.
n its like, i did tat for 2 hrs!
den for e competitor's class,
we did rumba! (finally!)
hahahah
yeah den i danced with this pro freshie who was taller den me(with her heels!)
totally scary and intimidating!
yeah it was agonizing n stressful!
esp when e instructor chose us to dance on e floor.
like for e 2nd time...
haha.
eeee, i dun wanna pair up with her...
oh well, im waiting for this fri for e revision den can dance with KX again!
hope she can b my dance partner in competitors class too!

okok back to concentrating on my lectures.
boring...
gonna play laptop again aft this!
hahaa.
nope nope, gonna go see e weekly musical performance.
this week's is some string trio.
previously was e piano and violin concerto by 2 jap females!
n i missed it...
grrrrr.

but dance is SOOOO FUN!
hahaha esp when u can dance without even looking down at ur feet, and jus glancing at ur partner's eyes all e way!
mesmerizing!

argh!
back to lectures! no distractions!!

Specimen Letter 1: 'A letter from bobo to bebe'

"Dear Bebe,

I still remember the time you said that it would lessen your guilt if i moved on right? I guess now would be the time (if the guilt was ever still there).
I must say, this letter has been rather late in arriving at your doorstep but nevertheless it was needful for this letter no matter what the consequences may befall or the future that beholds us and lies in wait for us.

Truth be told, I have decided to let go. It just ain't fair for the both of us. This creates lesser stress and tension betwixt us two. Holding on has no purpose for me when I can't even be encouraged by it even as I progress on life's journey. There is no hope in it too. In fact, it might even worsen the relationship that we have now. Besides that, I believe it would impact you in ways unmeasurable. Impacts that I might never know of, be it beneficial or detrimental.

It will definitely be difficult for me since it's hard to put down my love for someone who loved me just as much. But for our sakes, it just has to be done. It might take a long while before it might even be complete but that is the direction that God has shown me through the people around me and their testimonies. And yes, God's way is the best way for us right now. Initially I wanted to grow stronger for you. It was to better protect you, for you to better rely on me, for you to trust me more and share your cares and sorrows. Yes, it was all for your sake at that time. I wanted to grow stronger for you and to be more secure. That was why I began to assume more responsibilities, that I may learn from it and grow in the process. But I guess, that should not have been my main driving point. I can't place my hope on infallible Man, or even myself or even my love that I have for you. I have no choice but to place it in His hands, to wait for Him to guide me, to build me up, to strengthen me.

You were never not-good-enough-for-me in my eyes. You taught me many things, many important lessons of love and of life. I still believe that you were more than what I had wanted, no matter what you think. Please do not compare yourself to the others. No matter how good you think they were, I would still have chosen you and you would have already known why. And no, you were never self-centred. All these while I always know and have experienced that you care alot about me, more then yourself. I have never once thought of you as being selfish, but in fact, you gave me more then I could ask for. You will definitely say that I gave much more to this relationship but to me, it was all my reasonable service, it was never classified as 'Sacrifice'. It was my way of saying that I do love you too.

I must really thank you for all those sweet and precious memories of us, together. All those special moments that will never ever leave my sea of memory. All the silent encouragement I received from you all this while. And all those times when you stayed by my side, reassuring me that you were there with me. To know that you were happy with just me by your side. I'm thankful for the times you put me down when I feel egoistic, for the times we chatted 'til nightfall, for all the sorrows and tears that led us together, for the times where I could smell your garlic-breath, for the times you put the phone to Pinklet and expecting it to answer. (The list is inexhaustive and it'll go on forever.) Lastly, I want to thank you for loving me so so so much to sacrifice for me. But I'm glad to have had you. Even though its hard not to think back upon it, to want to go back to those times again, but I must say that I too do cherish them and will keep them close to my heart. It will be tough, it will hurt, alot, it may hurt like there's no tomorrow, to know that your hand is not in mine, that I can't give you that tightly-squeezing hug, and that I can't be by your side anymore, but I guess it's the only way out for us now.

I am pretty happy too that you have been enjoying these times with your family and your newly found friends. It just gives me more conviction and reason to let go since I can't do much more for you anymore. I'm glad to see you happier this way. But I just want to say, please do not forsake God for my sake if it were ever so. And I also do want to apologize for the many spams in your handphone inbox for the past few weeks. Please hate me if it makes you feel better too.
Though our paths may never cross again, I'm glad that we were once happy together. I am contented as well. The future looks bleak for us but I may be wrong. Only God knows what His plan is for us. But never one day, will you be kept from being in my prayers.

I am going to end here with one song to top it off. Its the way I look at you:

What makes you different

You don’t run with the crowd
You go your own way
You don’t play after dark
You light up my day

Got your own kind of style
That sets you apart
Baby that’s why you’ve captured my heart

I know sometimes you feel
Like you don’t fit in
And this world doesn’t know
What you have within

When I look at you
I see something rare
A rose that can grow anywhere
And there’s no one I know that can compare

Chorus:
What makes you different
Makes you beautiful
What’s there inside you
Shines through to me
In your eyes I see all the love I’ll ever need
What makes you different makes you beautiful to me

You’ve got something so real
You touched me so deep
The material things
Don’t matter to me
So come as you are
You’ve got nothing to prove
You won me with all that you do

And I wanna take this chance to say to you


You don’t know how you’ve touched my life
Oh there’s so many ways, I just can’t describe
You taught me what love is supposed to be
It’s all the little things that made you beautiful to me
----------------------------------------------------

Thank you Dearie for all that you've done.
^-^


Love,
Bobo "

oh wait, did i say i lost weight?
ahahaha!
5 kg lost!!!!!

wow.
these 2 days were ups n downs!

hmm lets see,
fri was rather monotonous in e morn.
woke up late...
but den,
it didnt make a diff even if i was late for e tutorial!
coz e baka tutor forgot to come for it!!!!
den like we waited n waited n waited...
all e way til e last 30mins den some guy called her.
so in e end we'll hav a real fast-paced 2-in-1 tutorial nxt fri!
n like computer system lec was totally clueless!
something bout virtual memory.
couldnt catch anything.
gotta read up more more.

den aft tat went to library to mug out e lab for mon.
in e end i managed to complete only 1 program out of 5!
n like it took me ard 1hr + to finish it.
GAWRSH.
n like e actually lab is 2hrs long.
no time for it at all!
den aft tat i rushed down for DSA aft a dinner with my dance partner (KX).
den like we went to Nanyang House only to find e dance prac being shifted to some Hall 6 Function Hall!
(btw, e Nanyang House was totally shabby for some 'artsy' building, unlike Yong Siew Toh Conservatory of Music in NUS.. [SUPER GLAM DE!!!])
n like there wasnt much ppl at e revision last nite.
but still,
we had a heck of a time(of fun) trying to perfect our dance steps!
yep,
we really had fun while dancing!
n we were feeling very 'accomplished' having correctly executing e steps!
n guess wat!
we were 'chosen' and 'encouraged' to join e competition class!!!
how cool is tat!!!!
somehow e president set his eyes on us!
n he kept looking our way whenever we practised!
n he even increased e tempo of e music jus for us!
haha.
*thrilled*

so yeah,
we'll think about it in e meanwhile.
its still a 50/50 chance for both of us to enter in.
if kx joins, i'll join in too!
Sure to be fun!!!

yeah den aft tat went home to mug again.
this time, it took me 6 hrs frm 9pm to 3am to try to figure out e rest of e questions!
n like i was basically stuck at e 4th.
grrrrrr.
btw, my lab questions this coming mon(n every other mon) are not even covered in e lectures yet!
so gotta self study n DIY!
tats y im having a wee bit of difficulty in it.
so yeah, today im totally mentally exhausted!
im pretty amazed i passed my FTT this morn!
n like i had only 1 or 2 nights to study it!
Praise e Lord!
=]

den aft tat rush home to try thinking thru my lab ques but to no avail...
den rushed down to YPF today.
n tats where my bike got scratched by Bernice's car nudging it...
='(
but yeah, its jus a bike...
its inanimate!

den aft tat i rushed down to Kuan Wee's Bday party at CCK.
hahaa,
well, i basically din do much there except for finding out e trick to tat lab ques.
WHICH WAS FINALLY SOLVED!!!
thanks to tat programming pro lecture-mate of mine!
haha.
[yeah i noe im crazy, doing sch work at a party!]
den aft tat went to Shell to top up petrol with V-Power!
coz they had some special promo where V-Power is e same price as 98!
haha
btw, tml's last day from 7pm to 11pm only!
so grab it fast while stocks last!

oh n one more sad thing happened.
my bike fell over when i was like trying to pump air into e tyres!
my heart almost skipped a beat again.
n den,
e back tyre jus refused to be pumped!
somehow e air jus doesnt even get in.
n tat resulted me in a flat tyre.
so no choice,
tried it at another petrol kiosk ard my house n it finally worked!
(albeit it being rather 'mian qiang')


oh well.
now im home,
im gonna work out tat lab ques!!!!
ARGH!!!
tired.

WHEE!!!!

FINALLY!
my new laptop is here!
awww..
it sure does feel good!
hahahah
oh well,
this is my 1st post from my laptop!
happy happy.

anw,
yeah today was another long day!
aft lectures in e morn,
i did my tutorials e entire day!
well, kinda...
haha, but mostly were done in NUS!
yep,
crashed lectures again!
den i went to many places ard NUS!
places ive nvr been to b4.
north parts mainly.
well, it sure does get pretty quiet at nite over there.
yep,
i had practically e entire aftnoon to crash lectures.
im so crazy.
but yeah, once in a while is rather fun.

kinda like my laptop,
mayb coz its faster den my PC,
but my PC has surround sound!
hahah,
mayb i'll jus watch movies on my PC n work with my laptop.
lalalala~

tml's another long day,
followed by another 2 long weekends,
when will i ever get my naps?
oh well.
dancing tml again!
whee~

gambatte jon!
many more weeks to go!