URGHHH...
how come i always feel SOOOO irritated with myself every tues n fri nites!
i jus cant do things well!
i fumble up like always!!!
i go blank.
i make mistakes.
n more mistakes.
old bad habits still not conquered.
n everything jus seems sooooo wrong.
urgh.
wat else am i missing.
wat else can i do to rectify these.
im so darn tired of it.
stupid old mistakes jus keep coming back.
even if i give my all, it's still not enough!
it feels so painful tat i feel like giving up.
im just not gd enough.

i muz admit, my expectations of myself are high.
i wanna see some change.
i dun wanna be stagnant.
i wanna grow too.
conquer myself n my weaknesses.
but it jus aint happening!

pissed. PISSED.


my smile jus turned upside down.


*edit*
i will.. I WILL CONQUER THIS PEAK! ROARS!!!!!