the barrier

i guess theres no jogging tonight.
windy is gd, but not when coupled with rain.

most of the stuff more or less settled le.
unless they are procrastinated and left for another day.
ie, i havent touched my 'house' for a week already.
n now, new projects r coming in.
zzz.

feng came over today n thwarted all my plans.
Thanks arr, feng.
LOL.
yeah, but ok lah, i do need to relax once in a while.
killing multitudes of zombies kinda did e destressing trick .

yep somehow, i jus cant let my hair down everyday.
(not tat my hair is short -_-)
but jus tat, theres so many concerns n worries ard me.
i think im stiffening up.
my instincts tells me tat if left alone for mths,
i'll eventually live a reclusive life.
i'll definitely become hostile.
yeah, i think i jus outlived my happy-go-luckiness.
am trying hard to find it back

but my baggage weighs more than a ton.
my shield is up.
"En Garde" runs through my mind every once in a while.
it's heavy, but i cant put it down.
there's jus no time to rest.
gotta prod forward with each millisecond tat im entitled to.
i jus hope sometime soon a boulder will come crashing on me
(like how it jus squashed 2 of my AI teammates)
n THEN, perhaps i may reconsider taking a hiatus.