'cause u had a bad day...

argh!
1st things 1st!
yep i failed my BTT.
funny huh?
aft 1 yr exp of riding still can fail.
so paiseh!
ahhh but oh well...
i din study...
i din pray abt it...
so there goes e consequences.

yeah, e fault goes 1 big round n back to me...


oh well, work today was hassle free.
really not as stressed as usual, mayb coz i only worked for e later half of e day?
yeah.
there comes e worst part ever.
wanting to find e route to lavender thru streetdirectory.com but WTH!,
it was being sued by LTA so its down?!
next came e least favourable option titled www.can.com.sg
which i dunno how to navigate thru at all!
in e end had to borrow e streetdirectory from my boss instead.
ok, all went well at this point of time.
printed out pages of e streetdirctoy...

ok now as we were setting off, i found no cashcard on me body!
argh!
couldnt borrow from Ric too coz he needed his!
so had to go to 7-11 to buy a new 1...

ok nxt was e stupid traffic at PIE near toapayoh!
it jus suddenly came to a halt!
ARGH!!!!
had problems to keep movin off n stopping n moving off n stopping every 5 secs!
tat was still ok...
e 2nd worst was tat i missedd e exit tat i noe how to go by!
like i was supposed to exit thru Exit 15,
but somehow, e no. jus skipped from 16A to 13!!!!
n there was no signboard telling me anything in between!
GOSH!

so yeah i exited thru kallang n made my way to e nearest petrol kiosk n asked ard.
first he told me backtrack n turn right at e 2nd junction.
tats still ok. coz i jus had to find my way to a u-turn where there wasnt any!
so i found a real big bend turning right! (lets name this Bend A)
n found myself going towards somewhere else den where i was supposed to back track!

den i had to u-turn yet again n go down to e big right bend (Bend A) n turn make a u-turn to e way im supposed to backtrack.

when reaching e 2nd junction, i was hesitant to turn right, which was like leading me to paya lebar already!
so i asked e taxi driver for directions at e junction.
den he told me to u-turn n go straight down e path i originally took n turn left at e end.

ok den i u-turned again, n went straight down...
before passing Bend A, there was a left turn leading to MacPherson road which Ansley told me tat it shd b e correct direction. disregarding e comments, i headed straight down to find myself at whampoa east aft skipping Bend A.
den like i was tthinking, where e heck is Whampoa?
sounds pretty north east to me!
so den i took another big right turn bend (Bend B)to make a u-turn n tried to make my way to tat McPherson road.
jus at e junction b4 turning in, i asked another biker there bout directions again.
guess wat he said... "u hav to go all e way straight down tat road(pointing to tat original road direction i was heading to from e start) n u'll reach lavender"

ZZZZZZZZZ

yes, another u-turn yet again...
this time e 4th time passing thru / by Bend A...

argh! i had been going ard in circles!!!
[btw, it was a massive jam thruout]

n thus reached lavender at 745 intead of 645 which i targeted...
n i made feng wait for an hour...
n i made Ansley to be late for her 7pm meeting at City Hall!!!

ARGH! Im feeling sooooo guilty!!


heres a visual description:

lalalala
long time since i've blogged again.
but oh well, since im kinda free rite now..
y not?

yeah,
i've been pretty much caught up with my own work
though at times i still do make blunders n mistakes...
zzzZZZz
haha
but im glad tat all is solved (i hope)
yeah, like losing a key, disturbing others, bla bla bla.
haha


how...
i see all my uni/sim frens...
they all seem so so so so stressed up til they fall sick.
u guys get well soon k?
i wonder if i will b like tat when i enter in future.
sob sob.
i cant handle stress.
yeah yeah i noe tat stress is gd.
coz it produces a certain amount of adrenaline bla bla bla.
but i already hav my own source of adrenaline! (other den those created frm stress)
will i even survive a sem in Uni?
or will i die there in e midst of all e knowledge pounded on me.
God forbid.

yumE (dream)

had a dream last night...
a weird dream where i saw hilary duff!!!
yep.
really WEIRD.
cant tell u most parts of e dream but it was a rather amicable 1.
somehow, i could feel and remember the feelings i had in e dream, even the feeling of touch i had.
it felt sooo real, yet u noe its all a dream, it's surreal...
n den again, wats a 'dream'
some figment of ur imagination when u r subconscious?
or isit something more den tat?
n y isit tat some nights, we dun dream.
ist coz there r no dreams for us tat night.
or isit tat we r too tired to dream.
or perhaps we cant remember wat we dreamt of?

den again,
it links to e question of deja vu.
for me, i guess i feel tat sometimes certain situations r soo familiar.
its like uve seen them b4, heard those words or even jus felt it as a repetition of ur live.
it feels as though uve seen them all thru tat eye(or rather, tat mind) of urs when we all dream.
once e deja vu is triggered, somehow u'll feel weird.
den u'll ponder about it.
and as u ponder, ur surroundings jus fit into wat u felt it was in e past.
n e words or scenes tat come aft jus seem as though u knew it all was abt to happen.
it was as if e future was being foretold in front of ur eyes...
n ur 5 (or 6) senses jus keep screaming tat its something u noe u experienced.
but u jus cant seem to comprehend wat its meaning is, or when u experienced it, or y its happening in front of u.
and den as u try to understand wats revolving ard u, soon tat feeling fades away n den u forget all about it.
all til it reappears again.
i call this e 'deja vu cycle'.

so den,
wats e link between them 2.
r 'deja vu's dreams tat u had in e past?
if so, den wouldnt some of ur dreams be prophecies of the future?
den if tats e way,
u mean its plausible to say tat 'DREAMS DO COME TRUE???'

Whee~

ORD LOH!!!

missin' the simpler stuff of life

hmmm, guess i dunno wat to do rite now other den jus blogging..
somehow i feel kinda tired mentally...
proper use of term to describe this situation wld b called 'genki nai'(meaning "no energy" in jap)
yeah,
its times like these where u really feel like slacking n jus lying on e bed doing nth but stare...
den somehow u'll think about wat u shd b doing now.
wat i mean is not e workload tats waiting for u, or tat urgent deadline u hav to meet.
but rather, yeah, e simple simple stuff u used to do(or wish u would)
i dunno bout everyone else but right now i jus feel like laying down on a mat amidst a field of grass n jus staring into e sky/stars.
yep simple brained ppl r like tat.
perhaps we're jus easily contented with such stuff...
perhaps i dun really need tat expensive handphone, or tat laptop, or anything else tat wld b deemed luxurious to b satisfied.
in this super busy n rushing world, we all need some sort of escapism...
(haha yeah, im thinking of escaping frm reality again)
but yeah,
i guess reality really is cruel after all.
i miss the times of fun at e beach.
the times u cycle in e park with music in ur ears.
the times u feel e waves on ur feet.
the times u jus sit down at e edge of e shore n enjoy the ocean breeze brushing against ur cheek.
the times u play with candles during mid-autumn n end up burning ur lantern.
the times u try to cook for someone else.
the times u splashed water at each other.

guess its all a fantasy now...

argh im sooooo shagged!!!!

taught lesson again(even when im finishing my army term?) in e morn...
phew...
next, rushed off to maju camp at clementi for a 180men grading which ended at 630pm,
well after e usual end time of 530pm..

shouted many many times n got a very splitting headache which i dunno wat its due to.
woah, fortunately my fren taught me to press some acupuncture point near e thumb if not i guess i'll reach home with a cracked skull instead.
cant imagine myself ridng home with a headache.
scary...
worse still if i ride n faint on e way.
n when i wake up I'll see God!
wait, isnt tat supposed to be THE happy ending?


anw, ive been itching to get tat k850i for mths now, but like reading pros n cons bout it... i guess e cons do outweigh e pros.
yeah its a nice hp but i guess its still to early to get it. still having an unstable firmware. but its 5megapixels!
argh...
tat itchy feeling inside me...
mm-u-z-s-a-v-e-mm-o-n-e-y...

ahhh n i hav a deadline to meet!
gotta do some stuff for it asap!
need creativity n a boxless mind!

n oh... PATAPON is FUUUNN!!!

lots of stuff, no motivation...

yawns,
its my last time for duty this thurs.
gotta stay in camp all alone..
Awww~
but who cares...
i noe im supposed to do lotsa stuff but i jus cant find e willpower to do it...
card-making, washing tat cup on my table, perhaps even bathing?
oh nono, cant skip tat, can i?

i guess my army time is gonna b served finish...
wat am i gonna do?
really no idea there...
somehow after being tied down sooo much by e army,
i guess total freedom seems alien to me.
yeah its weird im saying this but i think im truly gonna miss my life here.
yeah it does sound weird indeed.
ok forget i said it.

hmmm i bought these pretty cool speakers lately n ive been blasting out music regularly, watching online movies n playing more games to fully utilise them.
n like im gonna spend abit more to buy those speaker holders/brackets which u put on e wall to hold ur speaker. den i can finally enjoy tat surround souund! cool eh?
yeah its 5 small speakers n 1 subwoofer(e big big box with bass!!)

hmmm, somehow i dun really look forward to any events this yr, like hols or anything.
mayb coz they dun seem to interest me anymore.

oh n i jus watched balls of fury(yeah, online)
n i jus realised tat Masa Oki, tat guy who acted in Heroes as Hiro Nakamura is in e movie itself!
was pretty shocked tat he did only less den 10 seconds of showtime n got kicked in e face...

oh i wanna watch A Walk To Remember, I Am Omega and A Cinderella Story there too.
guess i missed these movies e last time.
ah.. well gtg bathe now...

argh, finally back from YPF camp...
super tiring~
not coz theres lots of physical or wat but mainly coz i couldnt sleep well even with e fantastically soft pillows n comfy bed but rather e irritating snoring i get every night...
zzz...

lets see~
nth much noteworthy, jus tat i still remem after going to e beach,
i came back with a tiny hermit crab somewhere in my pants(or underwear) while bathing.
made new frens there, built relationships,
learnt more bout ppl,
trained tkd for this mon's grading
n most imptantly,
learn more bout Him n wat i believed in...

oh well its gonna b a busy Christmas with not much time to make/buy presents.
tml's gonna b church n clean e house day.
mon's grading n night service day.
tues gonna b carolling n family gathering day...
left only wed n thurs free...
zzz.

anw, gotta catch up on my sleep again.
gonna b going out with my frens later~

rrandomly

another normal friday where time passes by with no one at home.
but im glad...
PEACE....

oh i jus watched finished some anime called REC.
not bad even though its only 9.5 episodes long...

hmmm now when i wonder about it,
y do i like watchin animes so much???

isit coz i cant look at any other fantasy out of reality?
isit coz i long for such a fantasy?
isit coz they can do wat normal shows cant do?
isit coz they depict a different life frm wat we can achieve?
isit coz u can 'feel' more for the characters inside?
isit coz u can learn from the mistakes tat they do?
isit coz those mistakes cant be actually portrayed in our lives?
isit coz we will noe to do when scenarios like tat happen in real life?
or isit coz we really dont have anything else to do?

hmm i wonder y too...
im sure theres a happy ending out there to my life,
but will there b a happy ending to every topic of my life,
i dont think so...
reality is harsh...


whhich reminds me of a 'challenge' posted to me.
to cut down on e no. of 'worldly' (non-christian) songs i listen to...
will i be able to fully fulfil tat challenge?
i dun think so..

well, listening to songs hav always been part of my passion.
my def` of gd songs =

nice rhythm.
nice tune.
meaningful words.
lyrics tat portrays emotions.
beautiful n clear voice.
someone u can relate the song to.
n lastly e emotions evoked thru tat voice.

hmmm one thing bout me,
i somehow like sorrowful, sentimental songs...
y?
im not so sure myself but i guess reality is harsh too.
n u need something to describe wateva feeling tat we get at tat time.


yeah i like teary songs,
songs full of hope...

of coz, those who like songs, definitely like to sing too...
hmmm so tats how humans effectively communicate with others eh?


yeah so rite now my stomach is communicating to me too with a 'song'...
no one at home, no dinner for me.
cup noodles anyone???

Butt aches and a hella of green

It took too long,
It took too long,
It took too long for me to come back...

its been a whole week since ive last touched my internet...
coz,
NO ONE PAID THE STUPID INTERNET BILLS SINCE MAY!!!!
so no choice but to pay e entire $365.11 all by myself,
cutting my bank funds by half...

waited super long for it to reconnect again..
ZZZzzzZZz

n now im backk again!
to blog bout my frustrations(?)


ytd, hellish day.
morning woke up at 5 plus to attend some weird parade in camp early early in e morn...
next was a supposed 4km run which i ran only half of it since im a slacker anyway.
next was a training session where we did stretching(no splits thankfully), agility exercises, bridges and target practice...
was expecting contact sparring though.
havent punched n kicked anyone for too long.

yeah, tats when e mishap happened,
one guy tried too hard to execute a turning kick to e waist lvl fell down n injured his tailbone i.e. his pelvis.

he was den sent to hospital A&E n tat ended e training very abrubtly...
can say tat thanks to him, we wouldnt get much more aches on our calves, thighs, gluteus, quads, abs etc.

sad, an unfortunate incident before i went to amoy quee camp without my lunch since i had no time...
another bad news,
since e one injured was supposed to hav duty on tat night itself, i was being 'asked' to be his replacement...
super last minute.
den my boss was kind enough to fetch me home from tat god-forsaken amoy quee camp in yio chu kang, just to get my stuff for duty...

finishing at 8am, next was a lesson at Officer Cadet School (OCS) where i had to assist all e way til 10am before rushing home to meet feng who was leaving for india on monday. ate at pastamania at westmall...

travelled lastly to vivo to catch a movie with my cousin.
well, as expected by someone, most movies were either selling fast or were really late in the evening.
so 2 choices left.
BEE MOVIE? or ENCHANTED?
if u were me, wat wld u choose?

well, it doesnt matter,
i didnt regret my choice.
Utterly FANTASTIC!!!
i didnt noe it would b soooo philosophical...
i dun mind watching it again...
kinda humiliating to say this but i almost teared when i watched it.
oops...


rite now im so shagged out tat i can just fall asleep in front of my com but i hav to wait for my boss...
ahhh...
he wants to come to my house soon to upgrade his psp...
kinda regretted agreeing.
need sleep...
zzzzzzzzz

weekend craze

oh...
fri WAS bad...
went thru another day of hellish training of air-punching n kicking,
target practice of striking techniques(which i skipped half of it due to unforeseen reasons) and also a revision of some 'COntrol and Restraint'(C&R) technique which we held in e grassy, muddy n itchy field.
yep, definitely being forced to be taken down onto e field.
fortunately, i skipped tat too!!
y?
coz im a senior already!
hahaha, wateva comes to us, we 'taichi' it all away.

last but not least, e dreaded 2mins pugil stick sparring between instructors.
well at least i fared averagely okay.



next comes sat,
whole day taken up by YPF.
went there, listen to e 'Anger management' sermon,
which i dun think it really applies to me since i simply push anger away frm my face most of e time.
had dinner at adam road food centre n ate tons of stuff.
(well, not literally 'tons')
hmm, first was e famous Nasi Lemak from Adam road.
side dish was some malay styled Roti John with mutton.
yum.
coupled with a scoop or 2 of tao suan.

n aft tat, we headed straight to Island creamery again where most of us tried out e Reverso flavoured icecream.(Chocolate + Oreo)
simply sinful.
but it doesnt really matter to me since it wouldnt even add an inch to my waistline.
bwaHaahaahA~

had a wonderful time of fellowship too.



ahh, today, learnt some Canto song for carolling usage during Christmas, which was really tough to handle without any hanyu pinyin.
n besides, e hanyu pinyin is exclusive to ur own self so u cant really copy it frm others.
e first time u hear it, u'll b wondering bout all e 'ching ching chong choi loi lei' etc.
rather amusing language.
(yet im supposed to be a Canto myself)


there aft, we went to far east to makan hainanese chicken rice n ate waffles at Gelare.
waffles WERE GD!!!
had banana walnut ice cream waffle, topped with caramel
and another totally white choco chip ice cream waffle, topped with chocolate and cream!

AWESOME, i tell u!!!


and rite now im back home, worrying bout wat i hav to do tml.
since in e morning i hav to arrive at 715 to conduct a warmup for e entire camp..
n i hav to stay behind e gym desk as a 'receptionist' e entire day!
shucks i really need something to do...
lets see...
tml's newpaper.
a little bit of listening to CDs.
mayb i shd go down to e plaza to get tat comic aft this...
hmmm, still fantasizing about getting a black coloured sketchbook n a white pencil...
wat else...?

had a weird dream last nite...
something bout demons attacking e city in human guise.
n there was i struggling for my life when a 'soldier' entered my hiding place n played a little life n death game with me.
at e end, when there was no winner, he turned off e lights...

n snuck an attack on me!
which i den blocked n countered with a sharpened chopstick(?) n rammed in into e side of e neck.
its skin was strong but i used my entire strength to force its way in when it suddenly spoke to me, "Nice one, but not gd enough..."

n then *poof* it became coco crunch!!!

nah, dunno wat happened aft tat.
woke up already.
haha.
wat can i say
im a weird guy with weird dreams...~

ponder-rations

sad sad..
on sat i've been called by my boss to be on standby.
coz a fellow PTI whom has already ORDed n signed on had passed away tat morn.
frm wat i heard, he somehow drifted towards his fren's bike when they were riding side by side,
causing his fren on e left side to be thrown towards e bushes while he swerved to e right and was hit by an oncoming van.
think it was an immediate death on e spot.
yeah, tats y on sun i wore black with e intention to be called for activation anytime, even during church in e morn.
in e end i wasnt called(phew?)
but still i made my way down in e evening...
could only see his top half as e bottom was covered by a white cloth...
seemed a little pale there...

n as soon as i knew it, i was arrowed by e higer-ups to be e Emcee for the military funeral this coming wed.
fortunately according to some G1 directives, a Captain is supposed to be e 1 doing.
if me, a puny little CorPoraL were to read e script,
i guess i wld hav a nervous breakdown rite away...
nah, i just dun like to do all these saddening stuff...

oh well, n now coz of him...
whenever i ride i think of him.
i imagine how he skidded n was hit.
i imagine i was e one.
n i cant get it out of my mind.
ever since e 1st skid i had e other day...

it has caused some phobia to thrive within me.
growing slowly n invading me...
i guess, very soon im gonna get e idea of being scared of bikes
how?!
wat can i do...

hmm, ytd met up jc frens at dhoby ghaut at 6 with e 1st intention to go MINDS cafe.
but aft seeing e turn-out, n e crowd there, we kinda headed towards another direction,
with e idea of going to esplanade without any valid reasons.
but by a sudden stroke of brain juice jolting leliang's mind,
we came to a kinda unique cafe.
really unique in s'pore but ive heard bout it many times in other countries.
here, e waitresses dress up as maids or don japanese kimonos(those modern trendy 1s) n serve customers.
Name of cafe: Cosáfe
too bad i cant post e pics here.
NC-16 sorry.
haha kidding.
its jus tat i cant b bothered to take their pics.

oh n e foodstuff there is very ex.
mayb coz its at CHIJMES(or was it CHIMJES)?

n e service is jus as per normal,
nth spectacular though.
n guess wat, we had to stuff ourselves with a quarter of a really big cake each.
roughly bout 10 inches in diameter.
besides, its really generous with its cream serving so it was rather challenging to finish it all without feeling queasy.

yep, n aft tat we went to Marina Square to have a tour or 2 ard before leaving for home.


n today met up with SF at IMM aft church n ate subway(yum!)
den aft went shopping ard.
yep, u heard me, shopping.
i din noe u could actu shop at IMM.
but well there was Espirit, Adidas, Baleno, Bossini, Converse, Fila, World Of Sports, G2000, Samuel n Kevin, IP Zone n much much more.
Surprised?
I was.

oh well, since these 2 dayss they were kinda having a crazy sale.
~50% sale!!!

so bobian,
i spent bout $213 today buying lotsa stuff.
dun look at me as if im rich,
its a rare occasion for me to even shop k?
even rarer den e sky falling down.

'Retail therapy', tats wat SF called it.
n it sure felt gd.
haha

btw, thx Char for e homemade card!
oh not forget e Zara shirt u bought for me, Ser.
its still yet to be worn...


Alright, im gonna finish up SM's present by tonight,
once n for all!!!

hey u noe,
i jus had this crazy idea.
wat if one day we were to go back to jc on a sch day,
wearing e sch uniform,
n crashing lectures!!!
wow it'd be soooo fun!
anyone game for it?

wow today was gd.
slept all e way til 3.48pm.
when i woke up,
i was like,
shucks i forgot to eat my breakfast and lunch.
ahh,
but i ate mui fan for dinner.

ytd was tiring...
came back n continued my project titled 'SM's birthday gift'.
yeah i noe its kinda belated but its a tough job.
real tough.
hopefully can complete it asap.

yeah n i chatted with my gedong camp 46 SAR trainee.
really crazy guy who is into photography n is wanting to buy a Canon 40D worth bout 1.7k plus other peripherals n lens total costing 3k plus.
rich kid.
haha


hmmm i hav about 5 more days to enjoy my weekend.
wat else shd i do in my free time??

wow, 10 days since i blogged.
all this while,
nth to do at all so i jus watched anime whole night long everyday after work...
hmmm, my bro seems to hav sold his bike off already.
wonder when it'll b my turn...

o well. doing duty this fri yet again.
haiz...
wat a bore...
n im hungry n tired again.
this kinda feeling sux u noe.
feels roughly like e end of e world

ARGH!
i need to escape frm e army!!!!
go AWOL like CPL Dave Teo!!!!

POST no.150

imagine this blog started frm a humble origin n snowballed into wat it is today.
when u think about how many posts ive written, i might wonder about whether i can recall those incidents tat ive blogged about...
oh well, perhaps e purpose of this blog is to help me remem them in case i contract amnesia [which may b anytime soon (mayb?)]

hmmm,
i think ive been going a lil crazy these few days.
watching 3 movies in a row.
2 repeated.
i noe Ratatouille was nice but i didnt think tat i wld watch it 2ice,
1 on thurs, 1 on fri.
n 5 hrs ago i was watching Rogue Assasin.
u noe e JET LI show?
dubbed e 'ultimate martial arts movie of e yr' or something...
well i guess if u wanna watch martial arts flicks,
u're better off with Flashpoint which was wayyyy better.
Rogue, to me, was jus a normal hollywood movie.
abit more on story plot n gals(Devon Aoki frm DOA) n stars(frm The Transporter, NFS: Tokyo Drift n many more)
felt like a mix n mash kinda movie.

however, e best part was e super big twist in story plot near e end.
which i'd say tat no one would ever imagine tat til they said so.
hmmm but i STILL dun understand e double crossing here n there n tipping off n watsoever.
but i DO like e sword fighting in this show *SPOILER ALERT*

oh wells... overall i'd give 3.5/5
try to give it a miss if u can.

wow, im having mayonnaise nugget rice for dinner!
it consists of rice, nuggets n erm mayonnaise.
oishii~



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