missin' the simpler stuff of life

hmmm, guess i dunno wat to do rite now other den jus blogging..
somehow i feel kinda tired mentally...
proper use of term to describe this situation wld b called 'genki nai'(meaning "no energy" in jap)
yeah,
its times like these where u really feel like slacking n jus lying on e bed doing nth but stare...
den somehow u'll think about wat u shd b doing now.
wat i mean is not e workload tats waiting for u, or tat urgent deadline u hav to meet.
but rather, yeah, e simple simple stuff u used to do(or wish u would)
i dunno bout everyone else but right now i jus feel like laying down on a mat amidst a field of grass n jus staring into e sky/stars.
yep simple brained ppl r like tat.
perhaps we're jus easily contented with such stuff...
perhaps i dun really need tat expensive handphone, or tat laptop, or anything else tat wld b deemed luxurious to b satisfied.
in this super busy n rushing world, we all need some sort of escapism...
(haha yeah, im thinking of escaping frm reality again)
but yeah,
i guess reality really is cruel after all.
i miss the times of fun at e beach.
the times u cycle in e park with music in ur ears.
the times u feel e waves on ur feet.
the times u jus sit down at e edge of e shore n enjoy the ocean breeze brushing against ur cheek.
the times u play with candles during mid-autumn n end up burning ur lantern.
the times u try to cook for someone else.
the times u splashed water at each other.

guess its all a fantasy now...

argh im sooooo shagged!!!!

taught lesson again(even when im finishing my army term?) in e morn...
phew...
next, rushed off to maju camp at clementi for a 180men grading which ended at 630pm,
well after e usual end time of 530pm..

shouted many many times n got a very splitting headache which i dunno wat its due to.
woah, fortunately my fren taught me to press some acupuncture point near e thumb if not i guess i'll reach home with a cracked skull instead.
cant imagine myself ridng home with a headache.
scary...
worse still if i ride n faint on e way.
n when i wake up I'll see God!
wait, isnt tat supposed to be THE happy ending?


anw, ive been itching to get tat k850i for mths now, but like reading pros n cons bout it... i guess e cons do outweigh e pros.
yeah its a nice hp but i guess its still to early to get it. still having an unstable firmware. but its 5megapixels!
argh...
tat itchy feeling inside me...
mm-u-z-s-a-v-e-mm-o-n-e-y...

ahhh n i hav a deadline to meet!
gotta do some stuff for it asap!
need creativity n a boxless mind!

n oh... PATAPON is FUUUNN!!!

lots of stuff, no motivation...

yawns,
its my last time for duty this thurs.
gotta stay in camp all alone..
Awww~
but who cares...
i noe im supposed to do lotsa stuff but i jus cant find e willpower to do it...
card-making, washing tat cup on my table, perhaps even bathing?
oh nono, cant skip tat, can i?

i guess my army time is gonna b served finish...
wat am i gonna do?
really no idea there...
somehow after being tied down sooo much by e army,
i guess total freedom seems alien to me.
yeah its weird im saying this but i think im truly gonna miss my life here.
yeah it does sound weird indeed.
ok forget i said it.

hmmm i bought these pretty cool speakers lately n ive been blasting out music regularly, watching online movies n playing more games to fully utilise them.
n like im gonna spend abit more to buy those speaker holders/brackets which u put on e wall to hold ur speaker. den i can finally enjoy tat surround souund! cool eh?
yeah its 5 small speakers n 1 subwoofer(e big big box with bass!!)

hmmm, somehow i dun really look forward to any events this yr, like hols or anything.
mayb coz they dun seem to interest me anymore.

oh n i jus watched balls of fury(yeah, online)
n i jus realised tat Masa Oki, tat guy who acted in Heroes as Hiro Nakamura is in e movie itself!
was pretty shocked tat he did only less den 10 seconds of showtime n got kicked in e face...

oh i wanna watch A Walk To Remember, I Am Omega and A Cinderella Story there too.
guess i missed these movies e last time.
ah.. well gtg bathe now...

argh, finally back from YPF camp...
super tiring~
not coz theres lots of physical or wat but mainly coz i couldnt sleep well even with e fantastically soft pillows n comfy bed but rather e irritating snoring i get every night...
zzz...

lets see~
nth much noteworthy, jus tat i still remem after going to e beach,
i came back with a tiny hermit crab somewhere in my pants(or underwear) while bathing.
made new frens there, built relationships,
learnt more bout ppl,
trained tkd for this mon's grading
n most imptantly,
learn more bout Him n wat i believed in...

oh well its gonna b a busy Christmas with not much time to make/buy presents.
tml's gonna b church n clean e house day.
mon's grading n night service day.
tues gonna b carolling n family gathering day...
left only wed n thurs free...
zzz.

anw, gotta catch up on my sleep again.
gonna b going out with my frens later~

rrandomly

another normal friday where time passes by with no one at home.
but im glad...
PEACE....

oh i jus watched finished some anime called REC.
not bad even though its only 9.5 episodes long...

hmmm now when i wonder about it,
y do i like watchin animes so much???

isit coz i cant look at any other fantasy out of reality?
isit coz i long for such a fantasy?
isit coz they can do wat normal shows cant do?
isit coz they depict a different life frm wat we can achieve?
isit coz u can 'feel' more for the characters inside?
isit coz u can learn from the mistakes tat they do?
isit coz those mistakes cant be actually portrayed in our lives?
isit coz we will noe to do when scenarios like tat happen in real life?
or isit coz we really dont have anything else to do?

hmm i wonder y too...
im sure theres a happy ending out there to my life,
but will there b a happy ending to every topic of my life,
i dont think so...
reality is harsh...


whhich reminds me of a 'challenge' posted to me.
to cut down on e no. of 'worldly' (non-christian) songs i listen to...
will i be able to fully fulfil tat challenge?
i dun think so..

well, listening to songs hav always been part of my passion.
my def` of gd songs =

nice rhythm.
nice tune.
meaningful words.
lyrics tat portrays emotions.
beautiful n clear voice.
someone u can relate the song to.
n lastly e emotions evoked thru tat voice.

hmmm one thing bout me,
i somehow like sorrowful, sentimental songs...
y?
im not so sure myself but i guess reality is harsh too.
n u need something to describe wateva feeling tat we get at tat time.


yeah i like teary songs,
songs full of hope...

of coz, those who like songs, definitely like to sing too...
hmmm so tats how humans effectively communicate with others eh?


yeah so rite now my stomach is communicating to me too with a 'song'...
no one at home, no dinner for me.
cup noodles anyone???

Butt aches and a hella of green

It took too long,
It took too long,
It took too long for me to come back...

its been a whole week since ive last touched my internet...
coz,
NO ONE PAID THE STUPID INTERNET BILLS SINCE MAY!!!!
so no choice but to pay e entire $365.11 all by myself,
cutting my bank funds by half...

waited super long for it to reconnect again..
ZZZzzzZZz

n now im backk again!
to blog bout my frustrations(?)


ytd, hellish day.
morning woke up at 5 plus to attend some weird parade in camp early early in e morn...
next was a supposed 4km run which i ran only half of it since im a slacker anyway.
next was a training session where we did stretching(no splits thankfully), agility exercises, bridges and target practice...
was expecting contact sparring though.
havent punched n kicked anyone for too long.

yeah, tats when e mishap happened,
one guy tried too hard to execute a turning kick to e waist lvl fell down n injured his tailbone i.e. his pelvis.

he was den sent to hospital A&E n tat ended e training very abrubtly...
can say tat thanks to him, we wouldnt get much more aches on our calves, thighs, gluteus, quads, abs etc.

sad, an unfortunate incident before i went to amoy quee camp without my lunch since i had no time...
another bad news,
since e one injured was supposed to hav duty on tat night itself, i was being 'asked' to be his replacement...
super last minute.
den my boss was kind enough to fetch me home from tat god-forsaken amoy quee camp in yio chu kang, just to get my stuff for duty...

finishing at 8am, next was a lesson at Officer Cadet School (OCS) where i had to assist all e way til 10am before rushing home to meet feng who was leaving for india on monday. ate at pastamania at westmall...

travelled lastly to vivo to catch a movie with my cousin.
well, as expected by someone, most movies were either selling fast or were really late in the evening.
so 2 choices left.
BEE MOVIE? or ENCHANTED?
if u were me, wat wld u choose?

well, it doesnt matter,
i didnt regret my choice.
Utterly FANTASTIC!!!
i didnt noe it would b soooo philosophical...
i dun mind watching it again...
kinda humiliating to say this but i almost teared when i watched it.
oops...


rite now im so shagged out tat i can just fall asleep in front of my com but i hav to wait for my boss...
ahhh...
he wants to come to my house soon to upgrade his psp...
kinda regretted agreeing.
need sleep...
zzzzzzzzz

weekend craze

oh...
fri WAS bad...
went thru another day of hellish training of air-punching n kicking,
target practice of striking techniques(which i skipped half of it due to unforeseen reasons) and also a revision of some 'COntrol and Restraint'(C&R) technique which we held in e grassy, muddy n itchy field.
yep, definitely being forced to be taken down onto e field.
fortunately, i skipped tat too!!
y?
coz im a senior already!
hahaha, wateva comes to us, we 'taichi' it all away.

last but not least, e dreaded 2mins pugil stick sparring between instructors.
well at least i fared averagely okay.



next comes sat,
whole day taken up by YPF.
went there, listen to e 'Anger management' sermon,
which i dun think it really applies to me since i simply push anger away frm my face most of e time.
had dinner at adam road food centre n ate tons of stuff.
(well, not literally 'tons')
hmm, first was e famous Nasi Lemak from Adam road.
side dish was some malay styled Roti John with mutton.
yum.
coupled with a scoop or 2 of tao suan.

n aft tat, we headed straight to Island creamery again where most of us tried out e Reverso flavoured icecream.(Chocolate + Oreo)
simply sinful.
but it doesnt really matter to me since it wouldnt even add an inch to my waistline.
bwaHaahaahA~

had a wonderful time of fellowship too.



ahh, today, learnt some Canto song for carolling usage during Christmas, which was really tough to handle without any hanyu pinyin.
n besides, e hanyu pinyin is exclusive to ur own self so u cant really copy it frm others.
e first time u hear it, u'll b wondering bout all e 'ching ching chong choi loi lei' etc.
rather amusing language.
(yet im supposed to be a Canto myself)


there aft, we went to far east to makan hainanese chicken rice n ate waffles at Gelare.
waffles WERE GD!!!
had banana walnut ice cream waffle, topped with caramel
and another totally white choco chip ice cream waffle, topped with chocolate and cream!

AWESOME, i tell u!!!


and rite now im back home, worrying bout wat i hav to do tml.
since in e morning i hav to arrive at 715 to conduct a warmup for e entire camp..
n i hav to stay behind e gym desk as a 'receptionist' e entire day!
shucks i really need something to do...
lets see...
tml's newpaper.
a little bit of listening to CDs.
mayb i shd go down to e plaza to get tat comic aft this...
hmmm, still fantasizing about getting a black coloured sketchbook n a white pencil...
wat else...?

had a weird dream last nite...
something bout demons attacking e city in human guise.
n there was i struggling for my life when a 'soldier' entered my hiding place n played a little life n death game with me.
at e end, when there was no winner, he turned off e lights...

n snuck an attack on me!
which i den blocked n countered with a sharpened chopstick(?) n rammed in into e side of e neck.
its skin was strong but i used my entire strength to force its way in when it suddenly spoke to me, "Nice one, but not gd enough..."

n then *poof* it became coco crunch!!!

nah, dunno wat happened aft tat.
woke up already.
haha.
wat can i say
im a weird guy with weird dreams...~

ponder-rations

sad sad..
on sat i've been called by my boss to be on standby.
coz a fellow PTI whom has already ORDed n signed on had passed away tat morn.
frm wat i heard, he somehow drifted towards his fren's bike when they were riding side by side,
causing his fren on e left side to be thrown towards e bushes while he swerved to e right and was hit by an oncoming van.
think it was an immediate death on e spot.
yeah, tats y on sun i wore black with e intention to be called for activation anytime, even during church in e morn.
in e end i wasnt called(phew?)
but still i made my way down in e evening...
could only see his top half as e bottom was covered by a white cloth...
seemed a little pale there...

n as soon as i knew it, i was arrowed by e higer-ups to be e Emcee for the military funeral this coming wed.
fortunately according to some G1 directives, a Captain is supposed to be e 1 doing.
if me, a puny little CorPoraL were to read e script,
i guess i wld hav a nervous breakdown rite away...
nah, i just dun like to do all these saddening stuff...

oh well, n now coz of him...
whenever i ride i think of him.
i imagine how he skidded n was hit.
i imagine i was e one.
n i cant get it out of my mind.
ever since e 1st skid i had e other day...

it has caused some phobia to thrive within me.
growing slowly n invading me...
i guess, very soon im gonna get e idea of being scared of bikes
how?!
wat can i do...

hmm, ytd met up jc frens at dhoby ghaut at 6 with e 1st intention to go MINDS cafe.
but aft seeing e turn-out, n e crowd there, we kinda headed towards another direction,
with e idea of going to esplanade without any valid reasons.
but by a sudden stroke of brain juice jolting leliang's mind,
we came to a kinda unique cafe.
really unique in s'pore but ive heard bout it many times in other countries.
here, e waitresses dress up as maids or don japanese kimonos(those modern trendy 1s) n serve customers.
Name of cafe: Cosáfe
too bad i cant post e pics here.
NC-16 sorry.
haha kidding.
its jus tat i cant b bothered to take their pics.

oh n e foodstuff there is very ex.
mayb coz its at CHIJMES(or was it CHIMJES)?

n e service is jus as per normal,
nth spectacular though.
n guess wat, we had to stuff ourselves with a quarter of a really big cake each.
roughly bout 10 inches in diameter.
besides, its really generous with its cream serving so it was rather challenging to finish it all without feeling queasy.

yep, n aft tat we went to Marina Square to have a tour or 2 ard before leaving for home.


n today met up with SF at IMM aft church n ate subway(yum!)
den aft went shopping ard.
yep, u heard me, shopping.
i din noe u could actu shop at IMM.
but well there was Espirit, Adidas, Baleno, Bossini, Converse, Fila, World Of Sports, G2000, Samuel n Kevin, IP Zone n much much more.
Surprised?
I was.

oh well, since these 2 dayss they were kinda having a crazy sale.
~50% sale!!!

so bobian,
i spent bout $213 today buying lotsa stuff.
dun look at me as if im rich,
its a rare occasion for me to even shop k?
even rarer den e sky falling down.

'Retail therapy', tats wat SF called it.
n it sure felt gd.
haha

btw, thx Char for e homemade card!
oh not forget e Zara shirt u bought for me, Ser.
its still yet to be worn...


Alright, im gonna finish up SM's present by tonight,
once n for all!!!

hey u noe,
i jus had this crazy idea.
wat if one day we were to go back to jc on a sch day,
wearing e sch uniform,
n crashing lectures!!!
wow it'd be soooo fun!
anyone game for it?

wow today was gd.
slept all e way til 3.48pm.
when i woke up,
i was like,
shucks i forgot to eat my breakfast and lunch.
ahh,
but i ate mui fan for dinner.

ytd was tiring...
came back n continued my project titled 'SM's birthday gift'.
yeah i noe its kinda belated but its a tough job.
real tough.
hopefully can complete it asap.

yeah n i chatted with my gedong camp 46 SAR trainee.
really crazy guy who is into photography n is wanting to buy a Canon 40D worth bout 1.7k plus other peripherals n lens total costing 3k plus.
rich kid.
haha


hmmm i hav about 5 more days to enjoy my weekend.
wat else shd i do in my free time??

wow, 10 days since i blogged.
all this while,
nth to do at all so i jus watched anime whole night long everyday after work...
hmmm, my bro seems to hav sold his bike off already.
wonder when it'll b my turn...

o well. doing duty this fri yet again.
haiz...
wat a bore...
n im hungry n tired again.
this kinda feeling sux u noe.
feels roughly like e end of e world

ARGH!
i need to escape frm e army!!!!
go AWOL like CPL Dave Teo!!!!

POST no.150

imagine this blog started frm a humble origin n snowballed into wat it is today.
when u think about how many posts ive written, i might wonder about whether i can recall those incidents tat ive blogged about...
oh well, perhaps e purpose of this blog is to help me remem them in case i contract amnesia [which may b anytime soon (mayb?)]

hmmm,
i think ive been going a lil crazy these few days.
watching 3 movies in a row.
2 repeated.
i noe Ratatouille was nice but i didnt think tat i wld watch it 2ice,
1 on thurs, 1 on fri.
n 5 hrs ago i was watching Rogue Assasin.
u noe e JET LI show?
dubbed e 'ultimate martial arts movie of e yr' or something...
well i guess if u wanna watch martial arts flicks,
u're better off with Flashpoint which was wayyyy better.
Rogue, to me, was jus a normal hollywood movie.
abit more on story plot n gals(Devon Aoki frm DOA) n stars(frm The Transporter, NFS: Tokyo Drift n many more)
felt like a mix n mash kinda movie.

however, e best part was e super big twist in story plot near e end.
which i'd say tat no one would ever imagine tat til they said so.
hmmm but i STILL dun understand e double crossing here n there n tipping off n watsoever.
but i DO like e sword fighting in this show *SPOILER ALERT*

oh wells... overall i'd give 3.5/5
try to give it a miss if u can.

wow, im having mayonnaise nugget rice for dinner!
it consists of rice, nuggets n erm mayonnaise.
oishii~



[ya rite...]

Army Half Marathon

oh my~
i completed my 21km competitve!
i cant believe it.
tot i'd jus fall down n die there.
haha
met weiliang there.
haha he chao keng only run 6km i think.
ah...
drank lotsa lotsa 100plus during n aft e run
fortunately din sweat much,
if not it'd take an entire bottle of 100plus to refill my body's water source.
yeah.
all tat i had left frm e run was a medal,
BK coupon!,
n many many aches on my lower body.
zzzz...

need carls JR...

today, a sunday where i went to church solo again.
had a great lunch at yoshinoya in taka.
den went on to buy presents for twins...
haha.
e prob with buying presents for twins is tat u hav to come up with something similar for them both(at least tats wat i think)
its quite fun though.
haha
yeah n i got myself a new pair of pants!
n it costs me 80bucks
haha so ex
but still, i havent really bought any new clothes for a loooooong loooong time.
n i really mean LONG time.
so now im back home, hopefully can try to finish up my 'testing' pic done on photoshop.




heres a preview:






yep its really tough to make it look nice.
coz there r still many flaws in it.
its jus e eye.
e lips r sooo much harder to paint!!!
e hair tooo!!
wah. tough tough.
gotta prac more

wow,
i finally had my 1st accident on my bike today...
my thoughts?
well, it was actually kinda fun.
though its abit painful,
coz there are more scratches on my bike n my helmet!
wah!!!
hahaha

my body only suffered a few scratches here n there.
but it aint as bad as i tot it wld b.
compared to my instructor course + 1 yr of shouting to recruits + demonstrations,
it didnt even come close!

sad...
now my bike signal lights went 'poof'
n my right foot brake is abit 'sang-eh'
haha,
n now my mirrors hav both cracked!
cool...


yeah, wat happened was actu me going to e bike shop in alexandra to renew my insurance n bike road tax.
so i forced my bro to go with me.
den like my bro is those type of hazardous road devil..
so on e way back he did e same thing.
chiong abit alot den slow dwn wait for me like wanna haolian like tat.
so we came to this cross junction when e light turned amber den like my bro was ahead of me so i chiong abit while he slowed down n jammed brake.
so end result = i almost hit him frm behind so i swerved right n mu signal lights(e far left of my bike) hit somepart of his bike den i fishtailed n skidded abit in e middle of e junction.
yeah.
but seriously,
e fall was kinda fun though.
reminded me of my close combat technique (side breakfall).
sad... my helmet scratched haha.
but imagine if i jammed brake, i wld hav hit my bro's bike n we both kana.
den i would have flyed like superman. lol
thank God i skidded instead n was wearing a full-face helmet.

ok time to go my fren's church le.
cya n take care.
oh ya,
bikes are dangerous.
heee.

Utada Hikaru - Final Distance

jus come across e history of this song...
really sad.

" 'Distance' originally appeared in the Distance album, and was planned to be released as a single. However, Utada heard of a school stabbing rampage in which schoolgirl Reina Yamashita (山下玲奈) had died. Reina had previously won an essay competition; writing about how she wanted to become a singer just like Utada. Utada decided to change the song entirely, creating the song "FINAL DISTANCE". The Japanese Ministry of Education decided to incorporate Utada Hikaru's ballad "FINAL DISTANCE" in the high school music textbook starting spring semester 2001, which was announced on 8th of April. In order to pass the proposal, they needed 313 points. The proposal was passed with 319 points. They will be targeting high school students in their second year to test the new curriculum. According to the publisher of arts in education, the song was chosen because it is closely familiar with high school students. "