"Take care."

these 2 words hav an even greater meaning for me now.
yes i do noe tat biking IS dangerous,
but sometimes i take His grace for granted.
perhaps im riding too recklessly again.
many ppl i noe of hav met with accidents.
tat PTI during army, whose funeral i almost had to EmCee at.
my army junior who skidded in e middle of e night at 4am with no traffic ard n entered into a coma.
n now this.
2 Grade A dancers whom i admire got into a crash last tues. tat guy got into a coma and passed away on boxing day.
it's really quite sad to see how ppl's lives are jus taken away in an instant.

n now im contemplating to get a new bigger bike.
or perhaps i shd keep to my old 100km/h restriction.
gotta take note of my mentality n attitude when i ride.
n most imptantly, pray always b4 i ride.

so Sam, u sure u wanna take up riding lessons now???




2009 will b a yr for me to change many aspects in my life.
it'll b another yr of frequent trials n testings i hope. (coz it's frm there tat we all learn to grow stronger)
much more responsibilities.
much less time.

n i gotta discern both current and future decisions with all due wisdom, whether it counts as black or white.
i guess i may not join DSA's main comm aft all. (still unclear)

many more commitments in this coming yr.
having competition,
having club performance.
having fusion dance performance which i agreed to today.
might start chairing YPF, not only jus mem verse.
might possibly b in e YPF exco as well.
(jus hope im not the new coordinator of FCM too)

n studies, which is gonna get more demanding as e yrs pass.

this sem's results might jus b a one-off event.
it's not wat i'll always get throughout Uni.
i jus hope tat i'll not gloat, since it really wasnt by my merit but by His grace.
but shall continue to persevere on to strive towards perfection as i do my best for Him.

Study hard, play hard, pray hard!


im gonna need lots of encouragement and prayer.
n u noe wat to do, rite?
Thanks peeps!

Praise the Lord!!!
results werent TAT bad after all!!!
phewie!

hope my future exams will pull up my grades!
though it sounds pretty tough to.

anw, finally a not-so-busy week lies ahead of me.
hope i can really take this time to slack n rest more.

get in touch n commune more with someone i owe my whole entirety to.
coz without Him, I couldnt hav done anything at all.

so THANK YOU LORD!!!








and on a sidenote, personally i kinda hate 'trial and error' scenarios.

Christmas isnt Christmas...~

WHEE!!!
it's Christmas!
but it doesnt feel like Christmas at all!
cant feel the mood gushing out of me.
but it's really fun to go carolling!
singing and eating and singing and eating! (and abit of rumba as a sidetrack)
ive nvr really been to those choir kinda carolling before but i guess it would b kinda nicee to listen to since they're all from choir, rite???

n we've got new choreography from Shawn!
it's e 3rd one and i hope we're gonna stick to it.
instead of changing it like e previous 2.
hmmm, argentine tango... seems pretty unique to me!!!
fun to learn i guess.

today's Christmas service was fantastic.
i love the song we sang: The First Noel / Pachebel's Canon
and i love the korean worship service's item with flutes and trumpets and their hearts in the song.
almost moved me to tears.

den we went for an informal carolling session at michelle tee's house.
n more more carolling tml!
whee~

shall finish my report soon i hope.
n i really miss my cam!!!
its been away for close to 2 weeks!!!

anw,
BLESSED CHRISTMAS TO ALL!!!

i guess i still am.
suffering from a relapse, that is.
=X

im finally back home!!!
feels great to be back!
but on e otherhand, somehow i wish i was away...
wat a contradiction.

nah...
got lotsa stuff to do even during hols.
n i guess i cant keep doing wat ive been doing all these while.
jus had a mini wake-up call to reality aft im back.


i gotta sort them all out. defrag them to the finest details.
no more avoiding or musking it.
n i need lots of wisdom and strength for this heart-over-mind, mind-over-heart matter.
3 weeks left to take a break n ponder over it b4 my mind gets preoccupied with schwork again.
i know not wat step i shd take right now.
Guide my path, O Lord

Keep on dancing

[Gabriella]
Take my hand, take a breath
Pull me close and take one step
Keep your eyes locked on mine,
And let the music be your guide.

[Troy, Gabriella]
Won't you promise me (now won't you promise me, that you'll never forget)
We'll keep dancing (to keep dancing) wherever we go next

(chorus)
It's like catching lightning the chances of finding someone like you
It's one in a million, the chances of feeling the way we do
And with every step together, we just keep on getting better
So can I have this dance (can I have this dance)
Can I have this dance

[Troy]
Take my hand, I'll take the lead
And every turn will be safe with me
Don't be afraid, afraid to fall
You know I'll catch you through it all

[Troy, Gabriella]
And you can't keep us apart (even a thousand miles, can't keep us apart)
'Cause my heart is (cause my heart is) wherever you are

(chorus)
It's like catching lightning the chances of finding someone like you
It's one in a million, the chances of feeling the way we do
And with every step together, we just keep on getting better
So can I have this dance (can I have this dance)
Can I have this dance

[Gabriella And Troy]
Oh no mountains too high enough, oceans too wide
'Cause together or not, our dance won't stop
Let it rain, let it pour
What we have is worth fighting for
You know I believe, that we were meant to be

(chorus)
It's like catching lightning the chances of finding someone like you (like you)
It's one in a million, the chances of feeling the way we do (way we do)
And with every step together, we just keep on getting better
So can I have this dance (can I have this dance)
Can I have this dance

Can I have this dance
Can I have this dance

ive jus been 'labelled' a shoplifter.
well, almost though.
met feng jus now to pass me a box of ferrero - which was supposed to be for me since oct but i accidentally left it under his care one sunday and kinda forgot to take it back frm him.
den from there we went to e Guardian pharmacy to buy some Opsite spray for his papercut.
den as we walked out e pharmacy, some staff was shouting at me frm behind.
den i suddenly realised i had a box of chocs with me in my hand.
n as i looked to e left, there was a stack of ferreros on display.

oh oh~
but fortunately, i asked them to check e security cams n oso told them tat e production dates were diff (coz mine was bought in oct. heh)
fortunately, e manager was kind enough to let me go without a hassle.

PHEW~

but weirdly i wasnt tat panicky or wat. oddly enough i was still chit chatting happily with feng!

oh well, anw, he's going for e Standard Chartered tml.
(as a masseuse, not a runner)
and i believe papercuts and massage oil on e patron's sweaty legs dun really mix rite?

hope he doesnt come back with an infected finger though. hee



funny how i've seen many snails these few days.
they seem to b everywhere!
baby snails, adult snails...
they seem to be mass producing to conquer e earth!
soon we'll hav slime everywhere!!!

n definitely a bigger supply of escargots!
WahaHaHaHAHA



yoshi, ikimashou!

btw, where did our DSA night cycling go to???

jus realized how many foodstalls hav quirky names these days

muhammad ali chicken rice - Thought he was a boxer??

Tekong hotplate - sounds like e green days when we did pushups on e burning quadrangle under scorching sun

Original Seafood soup - i wonder if there's proof or any patent of it being 'original'

Pine Tree Bay - i wonder wat they sell. r they online open for Christmas oso too?

Wat weird names to chance upon esp at Terminal 1 Staff Canteen.
went there on a sun aftnoon.

what a day!




oh wells,
stress is back and catching up.
gotta buck up!!!
grrrrrr

phew,
life has been so busy for me even during hols!
got lotsa stuff on my calender.
(pssst peeps, book me while u still can!)

packed packed packed schedules for almost everyday leaves me with naught a day of rest.
(mayb only sundays.)

gotta spend most of my time in sch again!
hahahah.
i think i can jus bunk into chek's room for Christmas week!
oh wells,
if only i could finish up my drawing which i dun hav much time for.
i think i dun even hav 1 day of my remaining hols to jus sit home n slack indefinitely.
lifes like tat though.
tiring but fun!

*wonders if i can truly get back into e studying mode aft this hols*

am bushed now,
hafta wake up early tml morn!!!
n off i go!

yay!
here i am, 2nd blog post from sch!
(1st was months ago during an Effective Comm lecture i believe)

whee~
im hungry,
and there's no breakfast today!
n everyone is asleep all ard me!
well, ok, only kai n chek.

weird, huh!
im like blogging while e rest of e room is in slumber.
heee.
took some unglam snapshots of them but will not post it.
(lest u'll nvr see e likes of me on this very earth ever again)
=X

yeap, jus pulled another all-nighter watching e
very bimbotic Bring It On,
Step Up 2,
and some scenes of Dirty Dancing and Hot Fuzz too!
(err, which only kai xuan was watching coz me n chek concussed)
u can hear her laughter even in lalaland!

i think e best thing was tat we actually joined up chek's and his roomie's bed together to form 1 king sized bed!
how cool is tat!!!
den imagine e bunch of us 6 (includin chinyaw, saffie n hanh) cramming together on 2 beds!
n den to our utter amazement,
we had a very hyper kai last night!
almost had my partner's head chopped off by e fan coz she was standin on e bed!
*recaps Sylar from Heroes*
n chek lee shows his true colours!!!
*lolz, a MAID*
super funny grp of ppl!

(Digressing, my foot is numb! yeow!)


n oh!
i hav a musical to attend to later!
it's jus 3 hours away!
May e person performing on stage later do it all to e glory of God k!
(btw, u seem so cant-wait-to-see-us. chill, gal. chill!)

hmm, i've got nth much to do rite now.
had my fill of sleep already.
even though it's like 2 to 3 hours only but i feel VERY refreshed!
anw, something random happened jus a few secs ago.
kai jus woke up and asked me, "Enough sleep anot, you?"
den she went back to sleep again!
okok, i noe it's not funny but, yeah.
=]

(ok, now she wanted to say something but jus uttered some syllable while tossing ard n back to sleep again!)

oh wells, laze ard laze ard laze ard,
enjoy e aftnoon sights and sounds.

*am hungry. GROWL*

IM BACK!!!
oh yeah!
exams R over!!!!!
completed Red Alert3 already.
shall stick to Dramas and movies for e rest of e hols!!!
(still havent finished 1 litre of tears yet)

anw, had a long day ytd!


Heres e sunset from nanyang house.
look at all e different hues!!!
feels so surreal!


err, random shot of Sam's slippers.


Aft dance we all went for supper at ah Fang's
where we had a fantastic ice milo party!!!
talked bout exams - pot potty in e exam hall/adult diapers?!

aft all e sumptuous pratas,
me, Chek Lee and Kai Xuan went on for a movie marathon at Chek Lee's room!
played 'Spot e Diff' and 'Whack-a-mole' on Kai's iPod Touch.
SO FUN!!!
im so gonna play 'spot e diff' again nxt time!
den we watched Madagascar2 (MaAdafakap in Russian)
and all e Bring It On titles(except for e original one)
and oso watched Next (some clairvoyance action movie) and WALL.E!!!

all accompanied with Doritos and Ribena!
yum yum!

but i guess we were all zonked out during e 2nd half of Wall.E
Kai xuan was like 'oh man, i wanna watch it but my eyes kept closing'
but we 2 brave guys ventured forward, denying our sense of exhaustion and completed e entire movie while remaining our mental sanity.
wat a lovely movie!

oh oh, den we pretty much lay dead to e world as we waited for our Mega McGriddles to arrive!
it was like 9am when we filled our stomachs with food.
(well, me and Chek were still hungry aft taT)

while kai left for her room, chek installed RA3 and continued to explore its realms further while i concussed on his roomie's bed.
n before i knew it, it was 4pm!!! HAHA!
so i rushed back home and waited for dinner to celeb my mom's bday.
ate at some coffeeshop near Linear.
This is our spread:

Prawn-paste chicken



Cereal Prawns





Curry Fish head



& MORE Black pepper crabs!


and we ended our day by watching Wall.E with my mom and sis in my room again!!!
whee~

imagine cinematic-like environment.
pitch black, not-so-big 19inch screen,
not-so surround sound (coz e vid didnt hav e audio tracks for e back surround speakers)
but it was really thumping-loud anw.
heee.
oh, dun forget more Ruffles and Iced Peach Tea!!!
n im trying to d/l Heroes Season 3 now.
10 epi so far, gotten e 1st 3 already!

anw, so wat shall i get for LL's bday tml?!
someone tell me fast!
any ideas anyone?

p.s. enjoy ur mambo night, kai and sam!

cant believe i jus said, "Lord, take me" when i marvelled at how e trees were shaking furiously with e strong winds which rattled e windows and kept me amazed for 10mins.
*only happens during exam periods though*

someone lost a hp and recovered it.

tats gd to hear,
hmmm.... but mine...



no matter how flawed it is, im still loving it!
WOOTZ~

wat else can i do?
it's old, it's cranky
but it has sentimental value.
ive grown VERY comfortable to it.
n im not gonna chuck it aside jus because it's not behaving.
yes yes...
i noe tat if e 'old' isnt gone, e 'new' wun come.
but den, e 'new' may b unsuitable for me.
u'll nvr noe...

n while i still hav my chance,
im gonna treasure it til e moment it leaves my side.
all's not lost while it's still alive!
press on, my dear phone!
try ur bestest!!!




Hebrews 12:1
"Wherefore seeing we also are compassed about with so great a cloud of witnesses, let us lay aside every weight, and the sin which doth so easily beset us, and let us run with patience the race that is set before us"

achy hips and a whole new perspective.
WOW!

anw, thank God e exams were doable!
well, if it wasnt for Him,
i guess tat i couldnt even have broken e barriers of mind-blankness and refusal-to-think!

exams were average, well, on e average.
econs was kinda easier den e past yr papers,
java was well... brain squeezing,
and math. killer. period.

well, it's hard to say now but, e grades might pop up else something tat violates my expectation.
1 last battle to fight, but e war is not over yet.

TATAKAI!!!

though e road seems dark,
ominous fears surround,
brave thru it!
run tat race!
coz it will be worth it all!

gambatte to all having exams!!!

/*need a jonathan.flush() to remove all info from my buffered memory b4 any other IO can b commited.
doing up a v2 of a pic.
coming up with a new blogskin soon too! */

I am weak, but Thou art strong.
Grant me strength to carry on.

im bored.
im tired.
im hungry.
im giddy.
im going out of control...

oh wells...
jus when i decided to take a break.
i peeped out of my kitchen window,
guess wat i saw?
its e familiar greeting of the Orion's belt up there in e sky!
not only tat,
due to e heavy rain which cleared up all e clouds,
i could count like 33 other faint stars apart from e 7 from e Orion constellation,
oh n of course tat 1 huge satellite.

im so giddy rite now...
nth seems to really get in.
not even my ice milo could do e trick...
nvm...
i'll go try ice horlicks now

We plough the fields and scatter
The good seed on the land,
But it is fed and watered
By God's almighty hand:
He sends the snow in winter,
The warmth to swell the grain,
The breezes and the sunshine,
And soft, refreshing rain.

Refrain:
All good gifts around us
Are sent from heaven above;
Then thank the Lord,
O thank the Lord,
For all his love.

He only is the maker
Of all things near and far;
He paints the wayside flower,
He lights the evening star;
The winds and waves obey him,
By him the birds are fed;
Much more to us, his children,
He gives our daily bread.

Refrain

We thank thee then, O Father,
For all things bright and good,
The seed time and the harvest,
Our life, our health, our food.
No gifts have we to offer
For all thy love imparts,
But that which thou desirest
Our humble, thankful hearts.

Refrain

frustration crowds and clouds my mind...

whew~
tired weekends...

was busy making a fool of myself
+ scaring each other to bits with tales laced with horror and a little bit of quirkiness.
+ enjoying such a sumptuous and healthy steamboat at e 'ter kua' table (which i apparantly did not eat any! WAHAHHAA)

[ok, on a sidenote, how do u romanise that word!?

according to MrBrown, here are e nominees!

	Tur Kwa					1417
	Tur Gua					612
	Ter Kwa					1405
	Ter Gua					652
	total votes: 4086

with 'Tur Kwa' as e top emerging contestant!
'Ter Kwa follows closely behind by only 12 votes!!!!]

+ taking lots of snapshots of random stuff like creepy Hall attics
+ doing e limbo rock (both over and under)
+ playing cluedo & Daidee (which i only won twice...)
+ playing Hotel 626!!! (any freakier webbies??)
+ watching more vids
+ eating breakfast at 8am+
+ sleeping at 9am and waking at 230pm
+ watching Armaggedon in a 'shutting down' state
+ finally concussing at 1am...


anw,
am somewhat done with all other stuff.
No more assignments n speeches!
it's time to fully concentrate for my exams!!
ROARRR!!!!


oh oh,
my HP is spoilt too.
sometimes it'll give a blank white screen.
sometimes there are red marks everywhere.
sometimes e screen will split into 2 parts with e right half being black n white like those static u get on tv. the other half will b colourful like those neon lights but u totally cant see a thing.
time to change a new phone?
i hope not... i kinda like this phone since im pretty much used to it already.
new SE phones hav diff navigational systems which are, in summary, unnecessary.
yeah, although mine is fat but there's LOTS of saved smses inside tat i dun wanna delete.
hope mine is repairable though...

anw, Time to MUG for real!!!
all e best to those having O's now,
and also to those having exams in a few weeks time!
(GAWRSH, i gotta re-Grasp my english skills after all those Singlish-speaking in green. Yes, even in RP.)
~Mighty Mugging Power Rangers tune plays~

jus remembered to type this in...
as i was returning home from e coffeeshop,
i came across my Baby's grave.
havent visited her at all since the last time she was buried there.
well, at least it seems the sandy, once-barren soil has grown out lushes of green.

yeah, i noe life is full of them.
but still, i hate goodbyes...
pls... no more,
I've had enough.

so yeah,
here's a song...
Sleep well, my Baby.