too fast too early

currently listening to_: Simple Plan - Welcome To My Life

phew... luckily its only 10km tat im gonna run this sun.
but e stupid prob is tat...
i hav to reach e stupid war memorial by 615AM!!!!!!!!!
tats totally crazy!
rite?
any1 who agrees with me pls breathe!

thanx 4 supporting me!
xie xie, xie xie!

anw,
ive decided
either i stay over at my frens house at toa payoh
or i stay over at somewhere near tat memorial (or at tat place itself)



yeah,
been posted to e west side sungei gedong camp
u noe tat ulu ulu 1 in sarimbun / lim chu kang area?
yup there...
haiz...
nvm la
jus accept my fate
haha

ytd jus d/lded a nice nice cute cute game called loco roco!
haha
addicted to e cuteness!

my posting!

currently listening to_: Stacie Orrico - More To Life

finally, get to reconfirm where i'll b going to teach.
yup its e west area...
n i'll b going frm camp to camp lots...
so i sorta jus decided.
i wanna learn how to ride a bike, n fast.
its more convenient i feel.

its no influence frm my bro.
besides, i feel tat i'll b a safe rider unlike him.
i'll jus stick to e 1st 2 lanes.

yup. i dunno if i can learn it fast n get a bike with my measly miserable pay...
yup.
i need a form of transport.
CONVENIENCE

traumatised

looks like i forgot to mention something...
i jus had my dinner!!!
yup, as in i JUS ate finish.
at 220am!!!
oh yeah!
myojo seafood bowl noodles with a rather half-cooked egg!
yummy

sleepy daze

currently listening to_: North - Better Off Without You

yeah
got injured AGAIN!!!
cant clench my fists properly...
cant chop thru tat stupid block of concrete with 1 hit today...
had to use 2...
n now my hand is breaking apart.

stupid camou...
now i look like im wearin mascara again...
havent looked like tat in 2 mths...
but it was kinda cool...
camou-ed face + camou-styled bandana + stupid army uni
looked like some JI militant.

yeah...
e final day im gonna eat at e yucky tasting cookhouse tat has much much pretty low standards for humans...
they r more like cheating SAF of their money n us of our food.
i'd rather eat at e more ex canteen...
but well, i've got no cash...

n ya... today went to PS to eat Manhatten Fish dunno wat restaurant for lunch with e other instructors aft our demo for e 9div parade this morn
was rather nice tasting n palatable.
den went to parklane, somewhere near selegie road to play LAN with frens...
no choice but to tag along with them.
den walked to far east to walk ard den went to meet up with roy to play LAN again...
n now im back home n i jus remembered to sms Tie n Ta on their 18th bday...
phew... although i was 15 mins late...

yeah n now im back here in my own room writing this stupid post which only serves as a diary to keep myself busy, n help me remem wat happened in my life, for e future...

currently listening to_: The Veronicas - Nobody Wins

Life is like a bus ride.
there r humps n bumps along e way...
u meet diff ppl in there too...
but sometimes u jus gotta get off n change buses to get to ur final destination
e ques is:
do u enjoy tat ride?
or isit jus another place for u to nap it thru...


i guess its time for me to alight...






if goodbye is wat u want, goodbye is wat u'll get

back to teaching vol. 2

currently listening to_: Mandy Moore - Cry

im tired...
no mood...

back to teaching vol.1

currently listening to_: The Veronicas - Heavily Broken

yeah!
i'll start teaching PTIs/FS from tml onwards...
wonder how im gonna do it...
gonna need lots of courage n confidence n lots lots of WISDOM!
hope tat i can get e singlet in time too...
dun wanna spend cash when u can use credits...
n its free credits given by e govt somemore...

end of pt!

currently listening to_: Bosson - One In A Million

jus 1 more bout of sparring n aikido lesson to end it all!!!
den got 1 day of admin stuff n 3 days BREAK!!!!


yep, now got backache...
cant really move with ease...
finger still cant clench...
n im getting my BLACK POLO TEE SOON!!!!
together with my beret!!!!

woohoo!

bought 2 pants n a belt today.
n went for a whole body massage too!
so SHIOK!!!

currently listening to_: Utada Hikaru - Wait And See

yay!!!
finished Advance le!!!
haha
now its Enhanced phase where they teach u more stuff out of syllabus
yeah n now i've new injuries(as always)
left index finger cant bend,
right palm got prob,
right elbow n left knee cracky...
n 1 BIG pimple still left on my face!!!

haiz gonna do advanced taebo tml...
seeing tat black man in a super tight leotard n asking us to kick here n there in double quick time while he keeps chao keng-ing by walking ard to his demonstrators n talking to them...

yeah n ytd nite being forced to drink Tiger beer. it jus tasted ugly.
n today i had a mini hangover n almost couldnt wake up...

jus 3 more days to end my physical phase n 1 more week to start my instructional phase...
n im super shagged out today...
cant think straight...
ending here.....

lesson plan

currently listening to_: The Veronicas - 4Ever

yeah, i finished intermediate training le...
tml gonna start on advanced focusing more on throws instead of locks n holds which i did for e past 2 weeks...
n this means much much more easier to get injuries..

argh...

more blood

currently listening to_: Lin Jun Jie - Now That She's Gone

yeah...
there's blood n pus again...

much much more....






yeah, forgot to add some stuff last sun.
lazy to post it out
...















yeah...
it looked like i was having menstruation sia...
theres blood after i shit'ted.
n its really alot
haiz
shd b too heaty or internal injuries...
so far theres no relapse of it this week

not tat PAIN

yup.
theres no more blood.




BUT WAIT!



theres more!


much much more PUS!!!!!!

yup!
which solidies quicly to form a barrier over e wound.
total vol of liquid: 1cm^3
colour: opaque yellowish white(liquid), translucent yellow(solid)
texture: super sticky (liquid), hard n fun-to-peel(solid)

PAIN

yeah. finally finished my 1st week of training.
few words to describe it.
tough tough n xiong.
well, e physical conditioning is crazy!
we keep doing breakfalls til my elbow is...
argh...
e skin has come off.
e wound is bout 2 by 2 cm on both elbows.
theres blood.
it's an abrasion over an abrasion.
on mon there will b more abrasions...

e worst ever thing is e rolling...
i almost vomited!
but all these breakfalls r gonna give me a blood clot in my brain sooner or later.
we're all having concussions already.

yeah, we done front, back, side, rolling, n next 1 will be flipping breakfalls le.
which is a rolling breakfall without using hands.





ya, other den breakfalls...
pushups n more pushups...

2nd day:60
3rd day:80
4th day:200
today:300

they will like purposely shag u out jus b4 e activity.
so tat we will (supposedly) be trained to b better den e ppl we teach.
COZ WE R INSTRUCTORS

ya.
e only thing tat seperates us n other vocations (including commandos)
is our knuckle pushups tat we (r supposed) to do.
jus compare e knuckle between us n a commando's.
ya.
knuckles combined with both normal n 'wide-arm' pushups...
wow
commandos have e clap thingy rite?
well,
we oso jump up but we dun clap, we land with our knuckles instead.


ya, wat we r learning r DEADLY ARTS!!!
ie, as compared to e usual tkd unarmed combat,
they take bout 15 - 20 mins to takedown a group of ppl.
but for us:
max 5secs.


we r taught where to hit to inflict e max damage to knockout ppl more effectively.
ie. e joints of e body, solar plexis, temple, chin, nose, groin etc.
we aim to kill...
or at least break a few bones here n there...

ya, this is jus a mini summary of my job scope...
theres more to come..

posting results

yeah man! i got e posting which i had been wanting to go to for weeks!
Praise e LORD!!!!














btw, my tagboard got some probs....

break...

exactly 1 week left to do wateva i want...
to take a break from e greenery ard me...
n to adapt to my environments n future career...



tired.

POP loh!!!

3 more days!!!
oh yeah!!!

haiz...

lets see...
i got 16km,
24km route marches...,
SOC,
GAC,
Games Day,
CO nite,
OC nite,
POP rehearsal,
den finally POP...

all cramped up in these final week...

crap...
cant wait to suicide halfway during my 24km route march carrying tat heavy shitload tat we're not even gonna use at all...

hmm, i think better not to...
coz i'll already b braindead by e time i reach e halfway point.
but euthanasia's not a bad idea too...
hmmm
shall consider more...

hmm

jus wondered something...
e title of this blog is chasing a dream..

wat den is my dream...
i really dunno
can some1 tell me?

i dunno wat im doing...
everything seems stupid to me...

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I feel much better...

Field Camp

argh, it was disashorrendous...